A reading from Flashback Part 1,
Healing Journey of My Inner Child.
My name is Georgelina,
And on this journey of mine,
I have come to understand that in order to heal,
I need to make a space for the little child in me to come out and play and cry and laugh with God.
And so in these pages,
Don't be surprised,
My little girl inside will make her appearance.
The action takes place in Argentina,
The United States,
And eternity.
My therapist told me to talk to God,
And that's how it all began.
Eternity,
2006,
God,
Yes,
Are we writing a book?
We sure are,
Little one,
That's what I thought.
Another day in eternity,
God,
Yes,
Are you God?
Of course I'm God,
What a question to ask.
People say that you are not God,
Is that right?
They say I'm making you up.
Are you making me up?
Am I making you up?
Well,
Let's see,
Do you feel better when we talk?
Are you kidding me?
You are the best antidepressant I've ever met.
Any side effects?
Not really,
That's what I thought,
Says God.
So are you God?
Who cares?
I care.
I make you happy,
You make me happy.
Who cares what people may say,
Little one?
I make you happy,
God?
Of course you're silly.
How come?
Because you believe in me,
Because I exist for you.
You better exist for me.
All these people that don't see me,
Says God,
What about it?
Who act like I don't exist?
What about it?
You end up believing it.
Tell me about it.
You end up questioning your own existence.
Tell me about it.
And you feel so lonely,
Says God.
What are we gonna do,
Says Jerry?
We'll hold hands,
Little one,
And we'll feel all better.
And we'll have a cookie,
Says God.
I need both hands for my cookie.
What kind of cookie is that?
A real big one.
I want a real big one too,
Says God.
We'll hold hands later.
Okay,
Later.
God?
Yes,
You do exist.
So don't you go lonely on me,
Okay?
Okay.
In a prior conversation,
God and Jay had been talking about rats.
And she had made a drawing of one.
Jay?
Yes?
I changed my mind.
God,
You can't do that.
Why not?
Because that's my line,
That's why.
Your line,
My line,
Same thing.
I'm not going to argue with you,
Says Jay.
Well,
See?
That's a smart move right there,
Says God.
So you changed your mind,
Huh?
Yep.
Okay,
Let's hear it.
Do you know that rat?
What rat?
Your rat,
Little one.
I don't have a rat.
What are you talking about?
We all have a smelly rat,
Jay.
There's just no way around it.
Well,
My rat doesn't smell,
Okay?
That's the rat we are talking about.
The rat that doesn't smell.
Okay,
What about it?
That's some handsome rat,
I must say.
Gee,
God.
First you're allergic to rats,
Then you like the rat.
Who will ever understand you?
Nobody,
Really.
Well,
That's hopeful.
You don't need to understand me,
Jay.
I don't?
You only need to love me,
Little one.
Yeah,
Yeah,
Like that would solve all my problems.
Actually,
It would.
Actually,
I think you're right.
Well,
Of course I'm right.
I'm God.
I'm always right.
Let's not go there.
Okay.
Later.
God?
Yes?
You know something?
And what would that be,
Little one?
I change my mind all the time.
I know you do,
Jay.
But I never,
Ever,
Ever change my mind when it comes to rats.
Are you holding a grudge against the rat?
I guess I am,
Huh?
You're holding on tight to a smelly rat,
Jay.
I don't like the sound of that.
You need to let it go.
You want me to let go of a smelly rat?
That wouldn't be such a bad idea,
You know.
Oh,
Really?
And what do you think our readers would do if they got a mad,
Smelly rat running around?
They would scream?
I guess they would,
Huh?
I guess they would.
Later.
God?
Yes?
Who is your stinky rat?
You are.
I am a stinky rat?
Not you,
Silly.
You,
The human race.
We stink,
Don't we?
To be honest,
Yes,
You do.
But I love you anyway.
I am a stinky rat loved by God.
I feel so much better now.
Don't take it personally,
Little one.
First you tell me I'm a stinky rat.
Now you tell me not to take it personally.
Who will ever understand you?
Nobody,
Really.
Haven't we been here before?
It's Deja Vu,
Little one.
The Deja Vu of the Stinky Rat.
Good title for a book,
Jay.
Enlightenment of a Lost Soul or the Deja Vu of a Stinky Rat.
Hey,
God,
I'm starting to like this.
Liking yourself is the beginning,
Jay.
I am a stinky rat and I like myself.
There we go.
Hey,
God,
This is a new trend.
It sure is,
My little stinky rat.
It sure is.
Come to think of it,
I changed my mind.
You did?
I don't like being a stinky rat.
That's the beginning of transformation.
Right on the mark again,
Jay.
Hey,
I'm gaining points here.
You sure are,
Little one.
But I'm still a stinky rat,
Huh?
I'm afraid so,
Baby.
Nothing like the truth,
Huh?
The truth of our own stinkiness,
Says God.
Is that what you meant when you said,
Know thyself?
I had to be polite,
Says God.
Even to a stinky rat?
To all creatures,
Jay.
To all creatures.
How to be polite.
A manual for stinky rats.
A book for politicians,
Jay.
You're a genius.
I told you I'm a smart cookie.
You sure are,
Little one.
You sure are.
