Hello beautiful human soul.
How do you feel when they tell you you are whole?
Wholeness is what you are.
What do you feel when they tell you time will heal?
The wounds is not what you are.
Do you feel betrayed?
Do you feel whatever they talk about might not apply to you because you just never get to feel whole?
Is it hard for you to sign to their truth because your wound never seems to heal no matter how hard you try?
Beautiful human,
I feel you.
And before I ask you three questions to guide you on your very own path into healing,
I'd love to tell you this.
Thank you for feeling the pain.
Thank you for not avoiding the wound.
Feeling is what makes you human.
Feeling is what shows you you are going all in.
You don't bypass,
You don't follow toxic positivity that might seem shiny from the outside but hides brokenness within.
You dare to feel,
To feel it all.
This itself is a healing offer to humanity,
To the world.
You didn't come here for numbness and your feelings don't want to punish you.
They are not here to give you endless suffering.
The reason why you feel what you are feeling is because you can heal it.
You were entrusted with the capability to transform your pain into healing.
So why do you feel stuck then?
Why is healing not finding you?
I'd wish to ask you three questions.
Let them touch you,
Move you and bring to light some shadows you might not have dared to look at before.
Answering these questions need courage and so does full healing.
You got this.
And here's my first question for you.
Who have you secretly put in charge of your healing?
If you asked yourself who is the only person that could heal this wound,
That pain within,
Who's the first one coming to your mind?
If it's anyone other than you,
You won't find true healing.
If somewhere in your heart you are still holding on to the idea that you could heal if only the other person would do this or say that or see you more or love you more,
You won't heal.
You are not looking for healing that's on condition.
You don't truly want to make your wholeness dependent on the actions and choices of the other.
In order to truly and fully heal,
Make yourself the only responsible for your healing.
Forgive whom you need to forgive,
Release whom you need to release from that duty and own it all.
It takes courage but once chosen it brings the healing you've been longing for.
A healing coming with true freedom,
Not with new price tags.
Set them free to free yourself.
And here's my second question for you.
In which way do you still create safety by holding on to your wound?
In which way does your open wound still provide you with a sense of safety?
This might sound ironic but I really invite you to ask yourself that question.
The known comfortable always feels more safe than the unknown freedom that requires you to become a new version of yourself,
To embody healing and growth,
To take back the lead in your life even though you don't know where it might lead you into.
What is it you are still gaining from holding on to the self that's wounded,
That has become comfortable with being wounded?
What would you have to let go of if you chose to leave that ironic sense of comfort that definitely feels uncomfortable and chose to enter the new unknown?
Is it a self-image?
Is it a victimized version of yourself?
Is it an inner space of impossible and do this with all the mindfulness and compassion?
This is not about judging yourself.
Is it your mistrust into safety that's built on unconditional love towards yourself?
Take your time here.
Identify that aspect,
That image,
That energy,
That mistrust and when you are ready,
Exhale and let it go.
Beautiful.
And whenever you are ready,
Here's my last question for you today and if you've listened up to here,
Please appreciate yourself.
You're truly ready to heal.
You're ready to take the next step.
I do appreciate you.
May you take all the time you need.
And here's my third question for you.
Which belief do you need to let go of in order to have the inner capacity to truly believe that you can fully heal?
What do you need to let go of so that that new belief can reside and vibrate and grow within you so that it can become your truth in every cell of your being?
And just say to yourself,
I can fully heal.
I can fully heal.
And take note.
What voice is the first one creeping in?
Which but is trying to interrupt you?
Which doubt is becoming loud,
Ridiculing yourself?
What makes you not taking yourself serious?
What's making your body to mistrust the message?
Yeah,
It might be a physical reaction.
Take a moment to inquire and pin the energy down to one belief.
One belief that's sabotaging your ability to truly believe and your ability to heal.
I can fully heal.
What's that belief saying?
Pin it down as an image,
As a feeling,
As a place within your body.
And then exhale.
Let it go.
Give it into the fire.
Let it burn.
Let it transform.
Thank you,
Beautiful,
For daring to face your shadows,
Your inner patterns of avoidance and your inner sabotage.
Thank you so much for choosing healing.
You can fully heal because you've always been whole and you will always be.
Trust yourself.
You got this.
All my love to you,
Yana.
