God, the Angels, and Tony Robbins

In this Podcast, I'm going to veer off course a little bit, as I want to share my latest adventure with you, and share how the Angels show up everywhere. (Released August 19, 2017)

Transcript

Hi,

Friends.

Welcome back to the Heavenly Hogs podcast.

Today,

We're going to veer off course a little bit as I want to share my latest adventure with you in a podcast entitled God,

The Angels,

And Tony Robbins.

Tony Robbins has been one of my mentors for quite some time now,

At least going back until like 2012.

I think it was right before I attended his Unleash the Power Within event in 2013.

Prior to that,

I had heard about him,

But frankly,

The man scared me.

He's intense,

He's loud,

He swears a lot,

And I just did not know how to take that.

In 2013,

A friend of mine was organizing a trip for a group,

And another friend of mine said,

Hey,

We should go.

My first thought was having financial struggles at that time was like,

Yeah,

Sure,

If God makes it happen,

And I kind of just threw it out there in the huff.

Well,

As spirit would have it,

It all worked out for me to be there in November of 2013,

And it was truly life-changing.

Before I went,

I remember saying to somebody,

I feel like he's going to take my heart,

He's going to rip it out into little pieces,

And then he's going to put it back whole again.

Boy,

I'll tell you,

That's what happened.

I came back from that event just on top of the world.

It was or had to have been the most incredible time of my life.

There were water guns,

There were daily massages,

There were high fives,

There were hugs,

There were yelling and screaming and swearing and emotional release and fire walking.

I was just in sensory overload and loved every single minute of it.

When I got back,

I had made some incredible life changes that I attribute to finding my power at unleashing the power within.

Fast forward a few years,

I've always taken what I learned from there,

And the experience kind of dulls over time.

I came back listening to the empowering music,

And like I said,

Pushed over time,

Things kind of.

.

.

I want to say,

They never really went back to the way they were before,

But I did fall back into some old habits and some old patterns.

In early 2017,

I started to see the advertisements that he would be back in New Jersey once again.

I remember in 2013 that I had two friends that were on the crew team.

Tony Robbins has a volunteer crew team where as long as you've attended a UPW or unleashed the power within in the past,

You could crew any time going forward.

I just loved that they were part of the crew team.

The crew team while I was there helped me so much.

I had so many questions.

I didn't know where I needed to be,

All these things.

I just kind of admired them.

I said the next time he came back,

I wanted to be part of the crew team.

Fast forward 2017,

I really wanted the opportunity to give back.

The crew application didn't open up until May.

I think I found out about him coming in February or March.

I remember putting it in my phone.

They were beginning a part of the year so that I wouldn't forget to register to be a crew member.

As luck would have it,

May came around and I was on the computer already prepared.

830 on the dot,

It opened up.

I was on and submitting my application two minutes later.

I had already written out my essay that they kind of have you write in all that stuff.

I was super excited and it took me a couple days for them to approve me.

My intention going into it was that it was so life changing for me in 2013 and so incredibly healing that I wanted to be part of the team that supports people who are coming for some type of life change or coming for some type of release or people again like me at that time.

I had no idea why I was going.

I know now why.

God always puts me where I need to be.

I wanted to be part of that team that gave back.

It was such a heartfelt desire as a caregiver to be there to be in support.

I was just over the moon when I got accepted.

I had obviously not really paid too much attention to the details of the event.

I just knew I had to be there.

Probably a few weeks before I was going,

Maybe about a month before I was going to the event in July,

I realized that the event was no longer at the place where I had been in 2013.

In 2013,

It was at a convention center.

There were 5,

500 people there from 44 countries around the world.

I just laughed at that because 4's,

44,

444,

Are angel numbers and 5's are all about change.

Those are the numbers that he kept saying in 2013.

Well,

When I was on one of the conference calls,

Somebody had asked how many people that they were anticipating and somebody said about 13,

000,

Which blew my mind because I'm like,

There's no way they're going to fit 13,

000 people in that place.

That's when I realized this event was no longer at a convention center.

It was at an arena in Newark,

New Jersey.

For you hockey fans,

It was at the Prudential Center.

I kind of laughed.

I said,

Of course.

What they were saying on the phone that it was predicted to be the largest event in the history of Tony Robbins events.

I just laughed.

I'm like,

Of course God and the Angels would put me at the event that is the largest ever.

They were also anticipating about 500 to 600 crew members,

Which would have been the largest crew team that they ever had.

I just at that point started to ask God and the Angels for assistance.

May was kind of a rough month for me and June was a rough month for me of this year,

2017.

Emotionally and mentally,

Kind of at a crossroads with where I'm going with my spiritual practice,

My business,

What I want to do,

How I want to expand.

I was going within a lot.

I just asked God and the Angels to go ahead and to really set up an adventure for me in this 2017 UPW.

I knew I really needed something.

I needed to be part of that positive energy.

I needed to be part of a really great team.

I just need to be surrounded by like-minded people.

I was just feeling my soul was craving it and I could feel like something exciting happening,

But all around me was kind of like doom and gloom.

I just kind of left it up to God and the Angels.

My drive down there,

I was driving by myself and I got to about exit nine on the 95 in Rhode Island.

I remember thinking,

Angels,

I just need to know you're with me and you're traveling down to Newark,

New Jersey with me.

Funny thing is no sooner did I have that thought,

My eyes just naturally glanced over and there was a car in the left-hand lane up ahead a little bit and the license plate had the number 44 on it.

I forget what the letters were,

But it was dash 44.

As I just said,

The angels come in the sign of numbers representing the fours.

It was so instantaneous and I just laughed and I'm like,

Of course you guys,

You've already set this up for me.

Of course you'd be with me.

I drove down there with the intention of being open to whatever was going to happen.

Now,

I did set a couple intentions going down there.

One of the things that I wanted to practice was going with the flow.

I can tend to be a rigid person where I need to have things in control and order and I need certainty.

My life has just been full of uncertainty lately.

I went down there with embracing the idea of uncertainty,

But also inviting God and the angels in to really show me how much fun uncertainty can be.

I left it up to them.

So again,

My intention was to go with the flow and then also to practice extreme self-care.

Now what I heard about these events as a crew member is they're very long days.

You're up and through my experience now,

You're up at 5.

30 AM.

You're at the event at 6.

15,

6.

30 and you're working from the second you start.

Some of the days we didn't get out of that arena until 2 AM,

2.

30 AM just to be back the next morning at 6.

30.

Let me remind you,

We loved every second of it.

But they're incredibly long days and there's always something to do.

There's always a job to jump in on.

So you really have to be proactive for yourself and practice self-care because they'll remind you,

Make sure you're drinking your water,

Make sure you're eating,

But it's really up to you,

Which I loved because nobody there really showed up as a leader or a follower.

Nobody brought their baggage.

Nobody brought their belief systems.

Everybody showed up and just became what they needed to be.

If the group needed a leader,

There was somebody who stepped up.

If we needed to work together as a team and just follow along,

We did that.

It was so incredibly liberating being there in that environment.

I went down there with my protein shakes.

I went down there with my snacks,

My bananas.

Every night before I went to bed,

I packed my backpack with my water and my snacks and my shirts.

We were sweating.

We were freezing.

We were all over.

So I had everything that I needed for the day.

It was nice to only think about myself.

Being a business owner,

There's always other things to think about.

What people need,

What I have to do,

What experiences I need to have.

To go down there,

I had no attachments,

No ties,

No binds,

Nowhere to be other than present in the moment.

So we show up day one and one of the leaders of the crew team started to talk about how we really need to model the idea that flexibility is fun.

So he would pass out the schedule for the day and literally say,

This schedule is already fiction.

Things have already changed.

We're friends.

Flexibility is fun.

It was something that I just kept hearing all throughout the five days that I was there.

I kind of laughed because again,

My intention was to go with the flow.

Here I am learning this mantra that flexibility is fun,

Meaning stuff is going to happen and it's going to be out of your control.

Again,

It's an environment of positivity and a good affirmation to affirm is,

Okay,

This didn't go the way I thought,

But remember flexibility is fun.

I feel like even coming back,

I'm reminding myself of,

Hey,

Flexibility is fun.

When I finally got in settled into that space,

Things just started to happening naturally.

I just kind of got what I needed and I'm going to get more into that in a little bit.

I think it's funny that practicing self care,

What I would do is when I was tired,

I would find a corner in the back of the arena,

Plug in my phone,

Put my feet up on a chair and I would just kind of sit.

I'd eat my banana or my orange or my protein bar or whatever it is,

Peanut butter and jelly sandwich,

Whatever it is that I had and where I needed in that moment and I would just kind of think about the experience that I was having.

One of the things I was thinking about is that life is like school.

When you're a child,

You go to school and your teacher teaches you a lesson,

Whether it's math problems,

Whether it's science,

Whether it's English,

And then you take in that information and some things you're going to grasp and some things you're not.

Then what happens is after a chapter or something,

You get a little quiz.

Again,

You pass or fail it,

But you've had the opportunity to study and reinforce what you've learned.

Then over some time more,

After you've had a chunk of information,

You get an exam.

I felt like that was constantly happening at the Tony Robbins event to reinforce going with the flow.

I would have these experiences where they would tell you,

Okay,

If you're going to sign up for this,

Be here at this time or okay,

This is going to happen,

So be prepared.

Then what would happen is nobody,

For example,

Let's say the dance team that I wanted to try out for to be a dancer on the big stage,

They would put out there,

Okay,

We're going to have these meetings and we're going to have two this day.

Then what would happen is I wouldn't hear anything.

My first thought was like,

Okay,

Did I miss something?

I don't want to miss something.

When are we going to have these dance meetings?

Nobody seems to care.

Nobody's really thinking about it.

I don't really see what's going on.

I would think about these things and then I would stop and it would go on for a little while and then I would stop myself and remind myself,

Oh yeah,

Flexibility is fun.

I'll be exactly where I need to be when it's time.

Again,

Little things like this would come up.

There was another experience where we were having on the Saturday where we all had to be part of these groups and it was to be able to support a process that Tony was going to be doing that day.

I signed up,

I put my name on the list and they said,

We're going to send you a text message to let you know where we're going to meet so that we can train you and prepare you for this process.

I got nothing and the time was getting closer and Tony is now talking about this process out with the people in the arena and I'm getting anxious thinking I signed up for this thing.

Am I going to miss it?

What if I don't know what I'm doing?

Again,

I had to remind myself,

Flexibility is fun.

Go with the flow.

I felt like these were all little pop quizzes that I was getting and it was how I was going into my space to manage those experiences.

Interestingly enough,

When it was time,

They called us over and they said,

Okay,

If you're on this team or they called your name and said,

Okay,

You're going to meet here,

You're going to meet there and I kind of laughed.

I'm like,

You know,

All that stress and worry and I was exactly where I needed to be at exactly the right time and I have all the information I need and it's perfect.

These were the little challenges that I struggled with throughout the event,

The five days that I was there.

But what I realized was over time,

I became more mindful of the experience because I could feel it in my body.

I could feel the anxiousness coming up.

I could shoot and I'm like,

Oh yeah,

That's right.

This is my need for certainty,

But I can find balance with that and uncertainty is okay too and flexibility is fun.

What it did was I could literally feel that energy just kind of releasing from my body and I just allowed myself the opportunity to have fun.

I talked to so many different people and at the end of the event on my drive home,

I realized I talked to everybody I needed to.

I was everywhere I needed to be.

I connected with everything I needed to connect with,

Everything that I needed to hear from Tony I heard from and I feel like I resisted most of the time.

But like I said,

Towards the end,

I recognized it sooner and I could shift it faster.

Before I go on to other things,

My final exam,

Quote unquote,

Came when I left the event.

It was time to leave.

I had all my luggage.

I was leaving the hotel.

I get in my car,

Turn on my GPS and I go to leave.

I was like,

All right,

Angels,

Time to go home.

I start driving and if you've ever driven in Jersey,

It can be very confusing and fast paced and people are just,

They know where they're going and they just go.

I didn't really have the opportunity to just slow down or double check and a few times I missed where I needed to go.

I was taking a drive through Jersey City and I was starting feeling myself getting anxious all over again and frustrated and I can't do this and I'm lost.

I don't know where I am.

I was going right there to the fear again and I'm thinking,

Stop girl.

You just came away from this event and you're powerful.

You're strong.

Get a grip.

And of course I said it in the most loving,

Gentle way.

And then I reminded myself,

Flexibility is fun.

And I said,

I have nowhere else to be.

I have plenty of time to get home and I'm exactly where I need to be right now.

So once I slowed down that fear and that anxiety and I started to allow my heart and my mind to open up,

I got more clarity and I was able to laugh a little bit about it.

And I ended up going through Sarkaukas,

New Jersey,

Which is where the 2013 event was.

I'm driving down this road and I'm like,

Wow,

This looks familiar.

And there's the Wendy's that I stopped at last time I was here.

And I just kind of laughed.

It was almost like the universe was kind of giving me like a life review about how far I've come.

And again,

I could have resisted it,

But reminding myself to go with the flow and that flexibility is fun,

Allowed me to kind of open up and actually see the space that I was in and really get the lesson.

So I felt like that was like my final exam.

Like,

Did you really learn it?

And I feel like I passed with flying colors because I ended up at the bridge in the New York where I needed to be.

And it actually,

I think,

I think I missed a toll that I would have had,

Had I got on where I needed to be.

So anyway,

That may or may not happen,

But it was possibly a positive.

So I feel like when we have these experiences and you're going through it with and a consciousness of being present,

You get flooded with these experiences.

So maybe one of your takeaways from this,

If you're,

You know,

You have struggled with control and rigidity and it's hard to go with the flow because what happens is when things don't go our way,

We're in that space,

We just completely unravel and things become too much in their stress and their anxiety.

So just having these like minor adjustments to think about helps tremendously.

So again,

It wasn't me making these giant leaps and these big changes.

It was just minor adjustments.

And Tony talks about that.

It's like a two millimeter process,

You know,

Minor adjustments make huge changes in the long run.

And he likes to talk about golfers,

You know,

So if a golfer needs to straighten out their ball or they need to go further in distance,

What they have to do is only make minor adjustments in their body,

Whether it's a smaller adjustment in their shoulder,

A smaller adjustment in their hips,

A small adjustment to their hands or their feet.

And usually those adjustments are about two millimeters.

So this is where he gets that idea from.

And it's so true.

So somebody like me,

And maybe many of you can relate out there,

It's usually like all or nothing or there's these extremes,

You know,

I've got to do all of this all at once.

And so the two millimeter idea and going with the flow and flexibility is fun,

Have really been really great mantras for me to just say,

Okay,

Let me tone it back and make these minor adjustments.

So,

So again,

That was one of the big experiences that I had with there,

One of the learning lessons that I had.

So I really want to get into a little more of the fun things that happened while I was there.

When I before I went,

I logged into the crew page and you have the options to sign up for like certain jobs.

And one of the jobs that I saw that I really was intrigued by was a state inducer.

And I was like,

Wow,

Because Tony always talks about your state,

Change your state,

Change your state,

Meaning like,

If you're in a negative place,

Change it to a positive and take massive action and really be aware of the energy you're putting out there.

So I being a positive person was like,

How cool would that be is to be part of helping people remain in their in state.

So when I got there,

Of course I got that job.

And when I got there,

What our job was to do was to go out into the crowds and the lines and really amp people up,

Answer questions for them,

Let them know what's happening on the inside so that they have certainty.

Because again,

Like me,

We need certainty in a lot of things.

So and our job was to rally people up to calm them down.

And I loved I talked to so many people when I was there.

I talked to them about my experience,

The new time,

New people,

You know,

What to expect,

You know,

I just,

I just really enjoy the opportunity to share what I knew.

And one of the things that they talk about as being a crew member is it's not slave labor.

It's really an opportunity for you to go down there and hone your skills and have like a big plethora of people to be able to do that.

So if you're a salesperson,

And you want to practice your sales skills,

You get on the sales team.

You know,

For me,

I wanted to practice working on being able to comfort and support people on the fly in in crisis and being able to be able to think fast or quick and be able to really stand in my power as a caregiver with the opportunity to be able to comfort people.

So I really had no idea what people's needs were going to be until I I showed up and I was in it.

The beautiful thing is they really use this WhatsApp.

I know I've never heard of WhatsApp,

But I love this app.

So when you got on like a team,

You put your phone number in and the beautiful thing that I loved is I had complete support.

So I had people looking for customer service.

I had people who hadn't gotten their tickets and needed to know where to go.

I had people who had physical handicaps.

And the thing is,

I would just go right on that WhatsApp and say,

Hey,

Does anyone know where customer service is?

Or,

Hey,

Does anyone know where Lost and Found is?

Or,

Hey,

And I got a response from from this team,

This team of 100 people that it was on.

And it was just so incredible to be there and be able to be supported and to be able to help people.

And there was a girl there on the first day talking about support.

There was a girl there on the first day who was with a crew member already.

And I happened to just walk up and she had this look of panic on her face.

And one of the crew members,

I don't think she was part of the team and included in that app that I was in.

I think she just happened to randomly come across this girl.

And in the arena,

The general admission was up really,

Really high.

And so she was starting to get really anxious about being up there.

She was overwhelmed and she started to just,

You know,

What my therapist calls leak.

You know,

She's like,

I got,

You know,

It took so much for me to get here.

I spent so much money,

You know,

And now I feel like I'm not going to enjoy it and blah,

Blah,

Blah.

Because she was told from somebody that there were no upgrades,

That you couldn't upgrade your ticket.

So I just said,

Okay.

I said,

Nope.

I said,

Let's let me get on,

You know,

My app and let me find out what I can do for you.

So they directed me to send her to customer service and literally you could just see her so happy that she had a next step.

And again,

We knew going in there that people were going to bring their worries and fears.

They were going to bring their shit with them.

Pardon my language,

But we all have it and they were going to bring that with them.

And our job was to comfort them and support them and teach them and inspire them.

And so the beautiful thing I loved about the organization is they didn't tell people,

No,

They were always there to support people and to help them,

But they didn't cater to them.

They really set really good boundaries,

But they were really there to make sure every single person had an incredible experience.

And they relayed that to us as the crew members and we relayed that to them as participants.

So I didn't really know what happened to her.

And then the next day she was down in the crew area.

I think she was using the bathroom in that area and I saw her and she had different credentials on like each section had their own color.

They're like,

You know,

Their neck necklace that they wore or their credentials.

Lanyards,

That's what it is,

Lanyards.

And I saw that she had one that was on the floor and I went up to her.

I'm like,

Hey,

I'm like,

How are you?

I'm like,

I see you got your upgrade.

And she's like,

Wow.

She's like,

I can't believe you remember me.

She's like,

Thank you so much.

She said,

I went down there and I told them my situation and they upgraded me for free.

And I just had so much pride in the organization and I just felt so good about it for her because I knew she was going to have a really great experience and she was so happy and so relieved and you could just see the shift.

Now that was just a minor adjustment for the organization.

It really didn't take much for them to say,

Hey,

You know what,

We'll do this for you.

But it made a huge difference in her life.

And so again,

A couple of days later,

I saw her,

It was like towards the end and I said,

Hey,

There you are again.

Now what I find is funny is that you have what ended up being 14,

000 people in this arena.

And I kept seeing this girl a few times over.

And so at the end I said,

Tell me this wasn't the best experience of your life.

And she's like,

It was.

And she was just telling me how happy she was.

And I left her,

I walked away from her thinking,

You know what,

I had the opportunity to shine some light in her life to offer her some comfort,

Even though it was something very small.

It ended up being something really huge in her lifetime.

And they reiterated often that as a crew team,

People look up to you and they respect you and they admire you not in a pedestal kind of way,

But in a,

Wow,

You know,

You're doing really great and I want to be like that.

And so I felt really good about the work that I was doing and this shift in this person's life.

So that was another experience I wanted to share.

I do want to share about my fire walking experience.

And now I had fire walked in 2013 and it's exactly what it sounds like.

It's a bed of grass laid out.

It's kind of like those,

I forget what the designers call it or the landscapers call it,

That they put like grass down,

Sod,

Sod.

That's what it was.

It was like layer,

Like just a rolled out layer of sod.

And on top of it,

What they do is they burn wood all day.

And this is the first day.

And what they do is at the night of the fire walk,

They take those embers,

They put them in wheelbarrows and they send a wheelbarrow to in the middle of two lanes.

And I remember in 2013 going into it thinking that there was some trick to it.

I'm like,

They can't have,

You know,

All these 5,

500 people burning their feet and there's got to be some trick to it or there's got to be something to it.

So I went into it,

Like really not taking it seriously until Tony started to talk about it.

And he,

He shared the fire and he shared what the hot embers looked like.

And so we were getting ready in 2013 to march out of the arena and it was at midnight.

And right before then I saw the fire department walk in and fear just washed through me.

And now I'm thinking there's no way that they would pull out the city officials and the fire department if this wasn't the real deal.

I'm like,

This is not a joke.

And my first thought was like,

I don't think I can do it.

I'm not really sure.

I don't really know.

And just the fear just kind of overcame me.

And so my friends that were with me at the time kind of,

We all cheered each other on.

And I remember thinking if I don't do this now,

I will,

I know surely I will have to come back and do it again.

And so I remember thinking,

So you might as well suck it up and do it.

So you have 5,

500 people in 2013 walking out of this conference center,

Walking out into New Jersey,

Into the streets,

Walking to these fire lanes.

And at the time I remember them saying there were 25 fire lanes.

And I was like,

Now we're chanting and we're in state and Tony gives us a mantra to say,

And I remember getting up to that,

That patch of sod when it was my turn.

And the trainer I knew could tell that I was anxious or overwhelmed or fearful.

So he just sat me for with a minute and then he said,

Go.

And I totally missed my opportunity to go.

I just didn't hear it.

And then I went to go and he stopped me and he's like,

You can do this.

You've got it.

Say yes,

Say yes.

And then of course,

I'm saying yes.

And then he says,

Go.

And I just go and I remember again thinking there's got to be some trick to it.

I remember pausing for like a millisecond to like look down to see if it was real.

And I remember there was this person on the side of me who was walking along the side of me and I wasn't aware of the person until I paused and I got in my head and was like,

It was thinking like,

Is this really real?

And I looked down and I saw the hot embers and I heard somebody yelling at me,

Don't stop,

Just keep going,

Keep going.

And it really kind of like put the fire under me,

No pun intended to get myself to the other side.

Now we're only talking about a five or six step walk,

But it is far enough when you're walking on hot coals.

And so I got to the other side and they said,

Wipe your feet and celebrate.

I got through that and I jumped up and down and blah,

Blah,

Blah.

And it was over.

And I remember all the way back to,

To get my shoes.

I remember thinking,

Are my feet burned?

I don't know.

It's cold as cause it was November and I'm thinking it's cold out.

My feet are freezing and I,

I don't know,

Do they feel hot?

Do they feel cold?

And my friend looked at me.

She goes,

Stop,

You're fine.

You know,

She probably heard my mental chatter.

Uh,

She said,

You're fine.

Everything's fine.

You know,

You did it,

You did it.

And I remember going up there checking my feet and of course there was ash all over my feet and,

Um,

And,

Um,

And,

And,

But no burns.

So,

Um,

I didn't have any hotspots or I didn't leave with any souvenirs.

Um,

And so fast forward 2017,

When I was looking at the jobs that you can help,

Everybody works as a fire,

A fire team member,

Um,

That night of the night of fire walk.

And one of the jobs that I heard about was called a fire angel.

And of course,

You know,

Me,

I love,

I love,

You know,

The whole idea of the angel.

And I said to myself,

Oh,

I said to my boyfriend,

I'm like,

I want to do that.

I want to be a fire angel.

And,

Um,

And so,

Uh,

When I got there on day one on training day,

They were picking members of the fire team and they were talking about what the job of the fire angel does.

Now,

What the job of the fire angel does is that the fire angel stands by the lead trainer.

And what they do is they literally walk people across.

So I'm kind of like,

I've got my hands out to my side,

Um,

Stretched out and I'm like side stepping back and forth.

So I'm,

I'm literally at the,

The lead trainer walking.

When that person walks,

My job is to walk on the side of them,

You know,

Sideways and then to go back and get the next person.

And again,

So the idea of the angel is that they know somebody's there.

They're really not aware of you.

They don't see you because they're in state,

But they're aware that there's something there.

And I remembered that that person,

Um,

That was the fire angel for me really helped me get to the other side.

It was like the fear in the moment,

Um,

Was going to stop me and I was going to burn my feet,

But that person was there to just guide me across.

I didn't think about it until they were sharing this,

These jobs.

And my first thought was I went down there.

I had a lot of back pain.

I was struggling and,

Um,

And I didn't know if I could do it.

I just didn't know if,

Cause they did say that you're probably going to be walking back and forth this lane,

Um,

Crossing over,

Over 400 people.

And of course the fear set in and I was going to do a different job.

And as they were calling out numbers for,

You know,

You just raised your hand and they said,

Oh,

You're fire lane one,

Two,

Three,

Four,

And there were 30 going to be 32 lanes.

And I remember thinking,

No,

You came down here and you want to do this job.

So,

So put your hand up.

So I pulled my hand up and of course,

You know,

As,

As things happen,

Um,

He started in the back of the room.

And so now he's making his way back.

Now I've got like ants in my pants.

My hand couldn't have been up any higher as I'm kind of like waving it and he's at 29,

30.

And then finally,

And I'm thinking,

Oh my God,

He's only got two people left.

He looks at me and I gave him this big smile.

I'm like waving at him.

He pointed to me and said 31 and then the girl in front of me was 32 and that was it.

So it was almost like the universe was saying,

Are you sure?

So I was like the second to last pick to be a fire angel.

And I was just so happy.

And I was like,

All right,

Angels,

Um,

You know,

Um,

I'm really going to need your support.

I'm really going to need your help,

You know,

So that I can do this.

And,

Um,

And again,

The training for the fire angel was wonderful.

And,

And one of the things that,

Um,

When I got out there,

Again,

I was nervous and they say,

Look into the person's eyes and,

And,

And walk them across and make sure their eyes are looking up.

And now our job was not to say anything at all.

We didn't talk to them.

We weren't,

We weren't able to make a connection.

We were to be able to close,

But just far enough away so that they're doing it themselves.

And Tony says,

And believes that if they take the first step,

They've done the fire walk.

So if they take the first step and they veer off course,

So they don't make it all the way down the lane,

Then that's perfectly fine.

They took the first step and they've done the fire walk.

Now I have to say,

One of the things that they said was that,

Um,

That,

Um,

Um,

I lost my thought for a second.

One of the things that they said was that the lead trainer,

The person who tells the person to go is going to know if the person is in state or ready or not.

And I remember thinking,

How are they going to know it's going to be so quick and so fast and it's dark outside?

Well,

Let me tell you,

Having that close up,

Up close,

Up in front job,

I could see the look in people's eyes.

I could see the fear that people came up to that,

That patch,

A sod with,

I could feel their stories.

I could see the pain.

I could see what they were releasing.

It was just the most incredible spiritual experience that I've ever had with that many people.

You know,

I've always loved people.

I've always loved,

You know,

Social behaviors.

And I've always loved seeing patterns and you know what people like to do.

But in that moment and seeing all those people,

So it becomes a blur.

Our turns into the next hour.

People just keep coming.

The lines are long.

And again,

You're looking at those people.

I looked at over 400 people in their eyes as they crossed and I could see the transformation.

I could see where they took that first step and there was like a shift and a change.

And I heard people praying.

I heard people screaming.

I heard people crying.

I heard people just,

There were people there from every culture.

There was every language.

There was every religion there and not one person was,

I'm this person or I'm that person.

Everybody was there for the same one experience.

And it was just incredible,

Overwhelming.

There were these drums playing in the background and it was almost like methodical.

It was almost like a hypnotic and there was this rhythm and this flow that we were in.

And I stopped at one point thinking,

Wow,

How amazing and how lucky am I to be so up close and intimate with this experience?

And I remember thanking God and the angels and having so much gratitude in that moment because I knew in that moment I would be a better practitioner.

I would be a better spiritual advisor.

I would be a better person to humanity to be able to be in such a melting pot,

To be able to be in such a space where everybody was there to champion each other.

And again,

I could see these people stomping up their pain.

I could see children walking across and I'm thinking,

God,

They're going to have such an incredible life.

I saw women that I knew probably struggled from abuse or pain or struggle or suffering.

Single moms.

I saw dads.

I saw business owners.

I saw wealthy,

Wealthy people.

I saw poor people and I just saw like just the energy of everybody becoming one and having this one experience and being able to share in that excitement and blessing that they were having at this event.

I walked away from there and literally fell in love with humanity.

And I said,

This is it.

This is the society that I want to create.

This is the energy that I want to be part of.

And I vowed to come back and create a business or establish a space where I can create that or I can be part of something like that.

So my firewalking experience this time was again,

Unbelievable.

And after everybody finished walking,

I of course had the opportunity to fire walk myself and there was no hesitation.

There was no fear.

I was going to stomp out that fearful person inside and I walked for my inner child.

I walked for that inner child that needed support and love and hugs and needed really somebody to show up for her.

And I called her out before I did the fire walk and I said,

It's you and me baby and we're going to do this.

And I walked across.

I of course had no hotspots.

I went home with no souvenirs.

And again,

It was just an incredible experience.

And that was day one.

And as the time progressed through the days,

I realized that the universe just starts to show up for you.

When I started to honor that process of go with the flow and really reiterating that flexibility was fun.

So one of the things that they were saying was right before the fire walk,

It was incredibly hot and sticky outside and they were,

They were really kind of getting a little anxious about having all those people in that heat going out to walk on more fire,

Um,

Fire,

Hot coals.

And so would you know probably about a half hour or less before the fire walk,

We marched out of there at midnight.

Would you know right before the fire walk,

It rained and cooled everything down.

The humidity was gone.

It was an absolute perfect night for a fire walk.

And I just kind of laughed.

I'm like,

Of course,

Flexibility is fun and you get what you need when you need it.

And so I just had some other experiences throughout.

I remember giving these hands out,

Doing these seat drops where,

Um,

You know,

You just kind of put flyers down for people for classes and trainings that are coming up.

And there was a man that was trying to communicate with me and he was looking for somebody and he was speaking Spanish and English and it didn't really understand.

And I said,

You know what,

Sir?

I said,

I'll be right back.

I'll get you somebody who's a translator.

And you could see he was like,

Oh,

Okay.

Thank you so much.

I remember walking up the stairs and thinking,

Oh crap,

Where am I going to find a translator?

How,

What in this big arena?

I'm all the way up,

Um,

On the concourse and the upper concourse.

And I'm thinking,

Where am I going to get a translator?

Well,

I walk out and there's some people who are passing out the flyers that I was in another section.

And I was just asking them where they put the box.

And then my first thought was like,

Hey,

I'm like,

Do you guys speak Spanish?

And they both looked at me and they were like,

Yeah,

We do.

And I said,

Oh my God.

I said,

There's a gentleman who's looking for somebody.

He seems a little distraught.

I'm like,

Would you mind going to talk to them?

And they were like,

Yeah,

Sure.

No problem.

And I remember thinking,

So I walked him to the guy and you could see the calm in his eyes and they were so kind and compassionate towards this man.

And I left thinking,

Wow.

I'm like,

I needed a translator and these two people just showed up in my life.

How cool is that?

Um,

So there were some other experiences where,

Um,

On day three,

It was the Saturday.

Um,

Now at this point I had walked like probably 60,

000 steps.

It was just insane.

My back was killing me.

My legs were so sore.

My calves were on fire.

My feet were burning and I had to go do this process to support,

You know,

A section of people.

So everybody was inside the arena and I was sitting on the concourse outside of,

You know,

Where the,

Where the seats are and I'm just sitting outside and it's completely quiet out in that,

Um,

You know,

That upper concourse I'm sitting out there and I'm just sitting down,

Just stretching my legs and,

Um,

I'm super uncomfortable.

And this man walks by me,

He walks by me looking at me and I just kind of smiled at him.

He slows down.

He looks at me and he said something about stretching.

I was like,

Oh yeah,

I'm super strong.

I need to,

I need to stretch.

He's like,

Then he said to me,

Do you need a stretch?

And I thought he said,

Do you need to stretch?

I said,

Yeah,

Definitely.

I need to stretch.

And he said,

No,

He goes,

Well,

And he came back a little bit and he goes,

I'm a personal trainer.

He goes,

Do you want me to stretch you?

And my thought was,

Oh my gosh,

He's an angel.

He's coming to me because this is exactly what I need because they have guys in the crew rooms doing that,

But it was always too full and too busy.

So I just never did it.

And so I looked at him.

I said,

Oh my God,

I said,

You have no idea.

Absolutely.

Yes.

Now again,

That's part of me learning support and self care and to say yes.

So he laughs.

He goes,

Well,

Do you mind lying on the floor?

And I'm like,

Sure,

Absolutely.

And I'm thinking,

Oh my God,

We've had like probably thousands of people walking with their dirty shoes on this floor.

And I'm thinking,

But I don't care right now because flexibility is fun and this is where we're at.

So I just kind of laughed and now he's stretching my hamstrings.

He just kept stretching my calves and he was so,

Um,

How could I say,

Um,

Uh,

Precise in particular about it.

And he was kind of joking.

He's like,

It's so funny because I do this every day for my job and here I am doing this.

And I kind of laughed.

Um,

And I said,

Well,

I said,

You're really good at it.

Thank you so much.

So,

You know,

I was in a lot of pain and you know,

I was kind of breathing through it.

And,

And so we talked about,

You know,

How he went to Johnson and Wales because I mentioned I was from Rhode Island and I told him that my brother is the executive chef at a country club.

And he had said that he,

Um,

He left the restaurant industry and he started out as a personal trainer.

And now what he does is he cooks for his clients.

Well,

I was like,

Wow,

That's so incredible.

What an opportunity to be able to help people in their mind,

Body,

Spirit,

You know,

Um,

Emotions.

And so anyway,

When we were done,

You know,

I got up and of course I already felt like two inches taller.

And,

Um,

But I,

Again,

I was still in,

I was still sore,

But I felt so much better.

So I told him,

Thank you so much.

I said,

My name is Gladys.

I shook his hand.

I looked down at his name tag and his name tag said Gabriel.

And my first thought was like,

Holy moly.

This is the Archangel Gabriel.

I know it.

And so I just kind of gave him some advice as to what's coming up.

I thanked him profusely and he walked away.

And I remember thinking,

Oh my God,

That is exactly what I would think Archangel Gabriel would look like.

And I believe we just talked about Archangel Gabriel in a podcast earlier.

And so how amazing that Gabriel showed up in my life.

I know he was an angel.

Would you know when I woke up Sunday morning,

When I woke up that Saturday morning,

I could barely walk.

I was in so much pain.

Would you know how I woke up Sunday morning?

I had no pain at all whatsoever.

All the soreness was gone.

I had no stress,

No pain in my back.

And I still to this day don't have back pain or pain in my legs or anything.

And I know I was healed.

I know that that was God's way to thank me for the service that I was offering these people.

He sent an angel to me to help me when I needed to the most.

And that's when I really learned self care that I don't have to always do it myself,

That God will send me the people,

Places,

Things,

And ideas that can support me in my own healing process.

And it was just an incredibly liberating experience.

So I know I've kind of gone on for a long time.

There are plenty of other things that I can share.

We're not going to do questions with Ben today.

But what we will do is in the next podcast,

What I'll do is I'll invite questions from Ben in and we'll do a podcast on questions from Ben because I know he really enjoys Tony Robbins.

He's followed him for a little bit.

So I'm sure he has his own questions.

So I thank you for listening.

I hope you can show feel how excited I was and what a treasure this experience was.

And there were so many other experiences.

So I'm always happy to share and life is an adventure.

So just go out and just show up and have fun and invite God and the angels in your life.

And you'll be amazed at how much they change your life.

And so it is.

Thank you so much.

And I send you love with heavenly hugs.

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