Day 4 ~ Journey Out Of Depression

The following is an audio journal of my journey out of depression. I have studied self-healing for many years and have become aware of the things that I need to do to help me to feel better. My hope is that my experience may help someone who is struggling with depression or encourage someone to share their own experience.

I believe that the more we talk about depression, the more we will evolve and grow to be stronger in our fight against it. I will be sharing 7 days of audio journals in total.

Transcript

Hi everyone,

My name is Colleen and I'm the voice of Gabriel Free.

The following is an audio journal of my journey to move out of depression and back to feeling good.

I've worked for quite a few years on self-healing and most of it I've done through journaling.

This is the first time I've used an audio journal but I'm really hoping that if I put it out there I know that through the years I've figured out certain things that I need to do to start to pull myself out of depression and I thought maybe I'd share it and maybe it might help someone or encourage someone else to share their journey because we all know that with depression it's not talked about half as much as it should be.

So that's it,

Hope you enjoy it and I'd love your feedback.

Thanks so much.

Okay so here we are on day four.

I've just come in from doing my walk once again about a 20 minute walk and while I walk I'm definitely I'm looking at all the thoughts that are running through my head and one of the good things that I did notice is that hand-in-hand water and walking goes hand-in-hand for me naturally.

I don't even have to think about it so basically I drink a big container of water while I'm walking.

It's part of because I do I do laps so every time I got certain laps by the end of it I want to drink what I have so that's a good thing because water makes up so much takes up so much for our body we need it it goes into everything that goes on in our body.

Anyway as I'm walking today you know there's a couple things that I'm thinking about I'm thinking okay so this is day four I'm trying to look back like yesterday I have to say was a great day it was a pretty good day I felt like I had pulled my energy back into myself I've put up some strong boundaries to get here even with my dogs and stuff like that I found they were you know it was kind of like the tail wagging the dog they were kind of pulling me into their energy and what they needed on a regular basis and of course I was just taking the backseat all the time but as I'm walking I'm going hey yesterday was the first day that I meditated and I didn't fall asleep I actually you know followed it through that that's it's showing me that my focus is actually you know coming back a little bit because I was able to follow the meditation and at the same time that my body is not as tired because I'm not just like falling asleep in the middle of this meditation anyway that just gives me like some hope because I know that you know the meditation is when you're in that state it is so so healing I find it so healing it's like nothing else in the world exists and it's solely you and your body and encapsulates your mind and you feel everything running through your body and you're visually working on things so anyway that's one of the things that came up through my walk I also yesterday did of course self Reiki and I did I did Reiki on a family member so that all of that good energy flowing through me was great and I definitely I definitely recognize the difference in it okay so it's like I feel like I'm at this point where I'm going you know with the boundaries I'm going okay nope nope not that like the things that I let go of a couple days ago because they were drowning me a little bit I was getting into some negative thought patterns and guilt and all of those things about doing them and I haven't been back to them yet and I think I'm gonna wait another day I'm gonna get through day five I think and then I'm gonna start adding these things in a little bit at a time with some balance some balance so that I'm not bringing in heavy energy into my thoughts and into my body okay so now the other thing that I did recognize while I was on my walk was that I was there was a little something creeping in it's kind of a new issue that came up that might take a bit of preparation and I found myself being pulled to it and worrying about it and and all of this kind of stuff and I was like whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa because you know I still haven't there's some other things that are much more important that I kind of put aside yet right now and I'm not gonna I'm not bringing anything else in right now right now I'm just trying to establish my energy and get rolling here a little bit so I basically put that way on a backburner because it's probably like you know fifth on my on my list if I had one that I'm gonna slowly start adopting into my routine but it's not priority so I actually just had to kick that one to the curb so done done done I'll probably have to remind myself a little bit here and there because obviously it's something new that's coming into my vision a little bit and I'm gonna have to keep just being persistent and pushing that away so that being said okay I talked about the water that went hand-in-hand with you know the walking which is great because I'm hydrating myself and I don't have everything under control my eating and all that stuff no but I'm not even looking at that I'm not expecting I'm hoping it'll unfold as it shall okay but right now I'm only looking at what I can control and so my three magical things bringing in some water doing you know with that third magical thing of meditation I'm bringing in a little bit of self Reiki and I've added Reiki on naturally because it's just like that such a source of you know complete relaxation and clearing and healing so anyway now what I'm gonna I'm about to do my journaling and I have noticed even that my journaling the energy has kind of changed a little bit so basically what I'm seeing is I'm seeing my perception change and you can see that when I don't have on I'm not bringing in all of this you know heavy dark unresolved energy stuff that's out of control for me you know if I didn't have the boundaries up I wouldn't even be able to recognize this you know a little bit of power that I feel that I'm going oh my god I feel like I'm feeling better I'm feeling like I'm kind of in control of things and that's because I kind of scaled it all back and went down to just the things that I know that I need to be stable and that will affect my root chakra I think probably already have okay so it's affecting my root chakra it's also affecting my sacral you know I'm getting a hold of and putting up boundaries and everything for certain energies and well it's it's affecting also my solar plexus because I am I'm building some confidence and exercise has kind of always done that for it builds a bit of confidence and the things that I've put on my plate are doable the other thing that I was leading to and I got kind of got carried away there was that I'm recognizing that the thing that I've put in with this journal time is a medicinal tea you know I love my teas but I haven't really been I can see that I just kind of fell right off the truck there because I I really haven't even been doing a lot of my teas so this makes sense to me and like this morning I'm like yeah I think while I do this I'm gonna have a tea and I think you know my my new crush has been hibiscus and I've been doing hibiscus flower essence and lemon balm that's kind of what I have with me today but anyway all good stuff you know the tea just kind of brings around a little kind of soothing ceremony for me like it feels so good to drink to taste and then all of those medicinal qualities are kind of just like also entering my body and you know helping to support me on this journey so yeah so here day four fourth day of walking journaling and meditating I also have lined up another Reiki session and when of course I know that I'll be doing self Reiki through the day but after well no I think I'm still gonna go to day five and then I'm gonna start looking at you know okay now I've established a little bit hopefully I'm looking to day five I already feel it in my body and in my mind okay it's like I've closed a bunch of doors and it's like thank God thank God I just closed those doors and I get to just be here with the things that I know well it's self-care the things that I know are going to help me so really glad that I started this you know four days ago I guess it is right now but anyway I'm gonna let it go here for now and of course hoping to talk tomorrow have a good one bye

Reviews

I enjoy all of these days. I don’t know what self Reiki is. I guess I could Google it. It sounds like it works for you and from the days that I’ve listened to one through four now it doesn’t say that you take any medication which I do not want to do. so I’m listening to every word you say so that I could try it and see if that’ll help and look forward to hearing from you tomorrow actually I’m binging him so I’ll probably finish the whole thing today. Thanks a lot and I’m sure by now you’re feeling super..