Hello,
Welcome to Thriving After Addictions Healing Inner Child and Emotional Processing Part 2.
I'm your guide,
Erin Colleen Garrity.
Find a comfortable seat or you can choose to lay down.
Make sure you have a quiet area for the work we're about to do.
Start breathing deep in and out through your nose,
Giving yourself permission to melt down into your body.
Imagine taking a step back from your front body,
From your profile,
And melting inward.
Draw awareness to your breath.
Specifically,
See if you can breathe in and out through the nose.
And imagine all of your focus honing in on the area right below the nostrils.
Use the slight sensations as you inhale and as you exhale.
Notice how the air is cool when you inhale and slightly warmer as you exhale.
You don't need to worry about anything else in this moment.
Just keep breathing.
As you keep focusing on this area around the nostrils,
You might start to notice that you're relaxing more and that you might have subtle sensations moving around your face or maybe just the area around your nose.
I invite you at this time to melt into the seat of the observer.
Witness yourself.
You're not your mind.
You're not your body.
You're not your thoughts.
You're the consciousness that pulses below the surface.
As you continue melting,
The outside world fades further and further away from you.
And on the inside,
You're cultivating a sense of safety.
Like you have a warm blanket wrapped around you and then also wrapped on the inside of you.
You find with each breath,
Your muscles can relax a little bit more.
Notice how when you inhale,
Your body gently inflates around the chest and belly.
As you exhale,
Just like a wave smoothing down back into the ocean,
Letting go.
Follow this rhythm with gentle awareness.
Imagine that your entire body can breathe every muscle fiber,
Even your bones and your cells pulsing with life,
A gentle rhythm.
Each time you exhale,
Releasing another layer of tension that's wrapped on the surface of your body.
This is not you.
You have full permission to let it go.
And if you start to fear the next step of melting into yourself,
I'm here.
We're here and the universe loves you dearly,
Deeply,
Unconditionally.
Your body is a temple,
A vessel holding on to these energies.
We're going to start to travel into discomfort and pain.
Remember that these sensations are not you.
It is only trapped energy.
Release any thoughts,
Release any shoulds,
And allow yourself to experience the language of the body.
I want you to draw awareness now to your throat.
Notice if there's any tightness,
Any clenching,
Not just on the surface,
But buried deep.
Perhaps there are words you didn't speak.
Perhaps there are things you held back from saying,
Hurt that happened and acknowledgement that didn't.
Breathe into this area and when you inhale,
Accept what is in this moment,
Any feeling,
Anything that didn't happen in the past that should have,
Anything that happened in the past that shouldn't have.
Forgive yourself.
You did the best you knew how.
Breathe,
Inhale,
Accept.
Exhale,
Allow.
Forgiveness,
Freedom,
You are not your past identity.
You have full permission to let that go right now.
As you continue to accept and allow in this area with your inhale and exhale,
Perhaps you might start to notice a fluidity,
Any blocked energy starting to move.
That blocked energy,
That pain,
It was never you.
It was just hiding below the surface.
With each breath,
You let it go,
Allowing truth and wisdom to move through you,
Massaging you like pieces of silk,
Wiping away any pain.
Take a deep breath,
Inhale,
Exhale,
Full permission to let go and move on.
Draw your awareness now gently into the belly.
Notice any clenching,
Any tightness.
This may be reflective of past times where you did not honor yourself in that moment.
It's okay.
You did the best you knew how.
Forgive yourself.
Forgive them.
For all the times you may have disconnected and left yourself,
You're fiercely going back into yourself and loving on yourself.
We can relearn and rewrite our story.
We do not have to keep playing the tapes of the past.
Inhale,
Accept into this area.
Exhale,
Allow.
Letting any resistance around this area and allow yourself to channel love.
You have full access to an overflowing well of love that exists inside of you.
You're just releasing the tension around it.
All you have to do is remember your greatness in this moment.
As you continue to breathe,
Letting go of each individual layer.
Take a deep breath into this area.
Exhale.
Creating and allowing space for love to flow and fill up pool in this area.
Breathing into your muscle fibers,
Into your bones,
Into yourself.
Noticing any hurt,
Any clenching,
Any pain with empowerment,
With confidence.
Breathing deep and sinking down in and around the hips and pelvis.
You might notice some hurt here.
You might notice some caution.
On top of all that,
You might also notice anger.
Release any restriction,
Any limiting energy around this area.
Allow it to flow through you.
Letting any heat,
Any apprehension,
Anything that takes you away from being who you are in this moment.
Your natural state,
True love.
Letting go of any damage around this area,
Any sacrifice.
As you let go of the heat and allow it to flush through you.
Inviting in forgiveness.
Inviting in a cool energy that's healing and soothing for you.
Take a deep breath,
Inhale and exhale.
Accept and allow.
Accept and allow.
Holding so much space for yourself.
They didn't know that they were causing pain.
They didn't see it.
Together,
We are here and we are acknowledging it.
We are allowing it.
You are not your pain,
My darling.
Underneath the pain,
There is love.
Release resistance,
Allow it to flow through you.
With all the safety in the world,
With all the compassion until the shell around your heart cracks open and you feel your heart overflowing with love.
I want you to collect this loving energy in your entire body.
It's soaking into your skin,
Into your pores.
Soaking into your muscle fibers and connective tissue.
The soft glowing energy,
Love,
Forgiveness,
Compassion keep shedding off the outer layers.
They are not you.
They were never you.
It was always the pain.
There's nothing wrong here.
You are so loved,
So loved.
Your heart becomes so full that it overflows and moves down your arms,
Absorbs into your rib cage.
Only filling up every single ounce of your body,
A wholeness you've been missing.
A wholeness that's always been there.
It's always been there.
You just forgot.
You can choose to be whole at any moment,
Letting go of your past story.
Keep observing your body,
Noticing this healing energy flowing through you.
It is a part of you until it is you.
Soaking deeply into your cells,
Vibrating highly.
You find so much forgiveness for the world.
So much forgiveness for yourself,
For your younger self.
Picture your younger self.
Whether you were a small child,
Teenager,
Maybe just yesterday.
You're always growing and changing and learning.
I want you to picture your younger self at a time maybe where you were suffering.
You had some big pain you didn't know what to do with.
Look into your eyes,
Just pouring out all of that compassion and love.
Just being in your presence.
That younger self starts to become healed.
All of the pain washes away.
All of the suffering,
Everything you didn't have in the moment,
Now you have.
It was always within you.
I'm just here to show you.
You can imagine taking both of your hands,
Touching gently the head of your younger self.
Just slowly,
With so much tenderness,
With so much love,
Just giving a gentle kiss on the forehead.
Perhaps a small embrace.
You know in this moment that you are more healed,
That there is unconditional love and safety that is always there with you.
You know it now in your bones.
You are never alone.
You were never abandoned.
It was simply an illusion.
Now you are connected to that universal loving energy,
Wiping away any unnecessary pain or suffering.
You can let it go now.
Keep remembering who you are.
You are a gift.
You can choose in this moment to radiate love outward from the inside.
And now you can be the change you wished and hoped for so long in the world.
You become the change.
Namaste.
