Releasing Abusive Beliefs

In this practice, Erin guides us how to create safety, compassion, and start planting seeds of love within. This meditation helps those who have been in abusive relationships with themselves or others, start to adopt beliefs that at our core, we are valuable, enough, and worthy of love.
We must create a safe space or love before we can release the abusive beliefs that keep us trapped in harmful relationships with ourselves or others.

Be the change you wish to see.

Transcript

Hello and welcome to your meditation on releasing abusive beliefs.

Take a comfortable seat or if you're upright just make sure that you're in a quiet safe environment to do some deep work.

Breathe in and out through your nose and allow the sound of my voice to create a blanket of comfort over you.

Allow yourself to maybe sigh and just let go of the heaviness and stress from the day.

Any wanderings or anxiety of the mind that prevents us from going inward just take a few deep breaths and with your inhale imagine gathering up this anxiety and as you exhale releasing little fibers the molecules of stress of any armor that prevents you from reaching your true space on the inside.

Letting go of the layers of tension,

Letting go of the layers of destruction,

Of anger and so we witness them as we breathe.

We increase the ratio of safe space within us and the pie chart of safety,

Relief,

Comfort starts to increase and the hardness and the loudness and the abuse starts to shrink and we start this from the inside out.

So let us focus on the soft qualities first.

Feel your body and I know that if we've been in an abusive situation for a while that sometimes we disconnect from ourselves because it seems too painful.

We do this to protect ourselves.

We do this because it's scary on the inside and we just can't take any more pain.

I know I'm here.

I care.

Right now in this moment,

Just for right now maybe you deserve some peace.

Right now just in this moment,

Just for a little while maybe you deserve some compassion and some love and maybe right now just for a moment you deserve some relief and contentment.

Breathe and keep dropping into the body and I know that sometimes we will resist but as you continue breathing and just staying inward perhaps it will start to get a little softer.

The resistance won't feel so strong and so we choose to stay.

With every breath we choose to stay.

Breathe.

Keep inviting softness and safety.

Softness and safety in the body.

Imagine that pie chart of softness and safety and acceptance starts to increase and we stay on that side in our safe bubble and we breathe into it and we melt into it and just for a moment recognize that this is being created within you.

This softness and safety is something you are choosing to create.

Keep breathing and expanding this love within you and again the body might reject the full idea of love right now and that's okay.

So we use modifiers.

Maybe just right now just for this moment.

I can maybe believe that I deserve a little piece of love.

Just a little piece and it's okay.

That is for me and maybe right now just right now in this moment I'm deserving of acceptance and compassion.

A little slice just for me and that's okay.

And as we breathe and as we get used to allowing that,

Ingesting that sensation rather than our body rejecting the concept of joy and love and happiness.

Bite by bite of inviting these warming emotions within.

Our body starts to get used to this foreign food.

Observe and witness.

Imagine taking a little bite of love and just feeling it as it digests through the body.

Imagining the little molecule separating and nourishing around your heart and your heart relaxes and you might feel like weeping and you might want to shed off the heaviness of resisting love because when you resist love you resist the connection that we all intimately have with the universe,

With the earth,

With each other,

With ourselves.

Your next bite of love spreading through the body just a small bite allowing it to nourish into your lungs and letting go of any grief.

You simply start to breathe it out letting go of the woman or the man that you were and becoming more expansive.

A glimmer of hope and recognizing that maybe right now just for a little while you deserve some love.

Maybe even a bigger slice than you once thought.

And notice how you expand in your body,

How breathing becomes easier.

Keep breathing.

And the next small taste of love starts to blur the lines of our bubble because we've gained strength.

We're starting to believe maybe a little bit that we deserve some love.

There's still a line within us of looking at our past abuse but we stop looking at it as evidence that we don't deserve love and we start looking at it as just stuck energy of a dark spot.

And we look at it with curiosity and fascination as to why.

Why do we keep choosing this?

Why do we keep choosing that we don't deserve love and that we're not good enough?

And we breathe and we don't analyze it with our mind but the curiosity comes from the vibrations of the body and being present.

And as the concept of joy and love and happiness start to become a little bit more familiar,

We start to notice maybe for the first time ever that the concept of self-rejection and abuse becomes a little foreign.

It doesn't quite seem natural.

And we breathe.

We don't overanalyze it but we're just witnessing it.

Breathe again and take another bite of love.

And this time again as you witness outside of your bubble the abusiveness and the never being good enough at the same time you absorb deeply that yes indeed right now you deserve some love and it's unquestioned unquestioned by the body.

Of course just a little bit just a little bit of love and I deserve it.

I watch the darkness kind of swirling and moving curls of smoke but it starts to become less dense and still more foreign.

Breathe,

Soften into your body and imagine your heart starting to open just the tiniest bit because it feels safe,

Because it feels like it can.

Just the size of a mustard seed.

Just big enough to plant these words.

I am love.

I am love.

I am love.

Just the size of a mustard seed it's small enough to where it can enter and if there's any resistance it's so small to where it just kind of bypasses that resistance.

We imagine that seed just makes its way down into our core.

I am love.

And with each time you say that you grow a little taller and start feeling a little more powerful,

A little bit more deserving,

A little bit stronger.

I am love.

I am love.

And that phrase,

That mustard seed gets tucked away so deep to where our mind can't pull it up from the roots and analyze it.

It's tucked away.

It's in you now.

It's in your cells and it's been watered enough,

Given assurance to where it does start to develop roots and you breathe and you imagine with your mind's eye coming up and into your body and once again looking at the abusive content we used to replay in the mind and we find that the electricity,

The power of it has been taken away and it has shrunk and it's not so scary and it's not so overpowering.

We kind of feel like on our side that we have power and electricity moving through us.

It's like this change has happened under the radar and we breathe and imagine that as you exhale now you start to be able to release this smoke,

These abusive thoughts and they're so foreign.

They don't even,

They don't even make sense anymore and you can barely even hear the words of them.

Something value,

Something enough.

Take a deep inhale.

Exhale.

You can actually feel the negativity leaving your body and as you inhale lightness and it's different but it doesn't feel foreign.

It feels more like home than the other stuff.

Once again exhale deeply.

Every last drop and that smoke again there's less of it.

It's less dense and you can just see it and almost brush off your shoulders and brush off around your heart and your belly like it's just leaving and it's like we've woken up.

We realized,

Oh yeah these clothes are dirty I don't want to wear them anymore and just like that we decide to take them off and throw them in the hamper.

These do not suit me anymore.

They are not me and they never were.

I remember me.

I remember me.

I remember me.

Breathe.

I am strong.

I am lovable.

And I keep watering that love and I breathe into it and I make it real every day.

Every day I remember love.

Every day I remember I am worthy and if there's any clenching or tightness around it I simply drop in.

Take a few breaths and go towards the side that's less foreign.

The side that is more loving and soft and inviting and light.

That is who I am.

That is the path and the path is illuminated in light now.

I remember.

I remember.

I remember.

Namaste.

Reviews

WoW! Your meditation is hard BUT work I need to do ... definitely slowly at first. You covered the steps forward and that I needed. Self Acceptance and Love are radical concepts. You provided a gentle path to do the work.
Thank you.

Such a kind, gentle, and deeply compassionate meditation overflowing with love, self-acceptance, and ultimately, strength. 🙏 ❤️

Really kind, loving, caring and gentle. Beautifully done.

Really beautiful voice and narration. Thank you for this beautiful reminder that I am love ❤️

Erin's voice should be boxed up and given to people as a gift. Love this ❤️🕉️

Content warning:
Passive non-binary erasure around the 8 minute mark. If you're not a man or a woman, you'll have to make a mental edit here.

It's a wonderful abuse recovery meditation otherwise. Thank you.

Amazing ❤️ I will definitely be coming back to this one. Thank you x

Incredible I always feel you can hear the soul in the voice such a powerful transmisdion of love namaste Sally

Wow. One of the most touching and healing meditations I've ever heard. Its art how you take the resistance away and provide access to feelings people might have never felt. Thank you ❤️

This was done with such gentleness. I began crying right at the start. 😓 Thank you 🌞

This practice is absolutely nourishing. Perfect for an outdoor meditation in the sun. I’ll be returning to this practice again 🤍

Great! Wonderful interplay of words and music. Thank you!

This was absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing this gift with us.

This message is encouraging. It helped a lot. Thank you so much. ❤️

Thank you

For anyone who has ever had been self critical or felt not good enough , this meditation is for you.

Thankyou 🙏❤️

Beautiful. I like this a lot. The visualization of breathing out the dark smoke is very helpful.

Medicine for the soul 🙏🏽