Healing Through Compassion - Gut Pain And Identity

In this audio track, David describes the imagery he observed during a group healing session in which the object of attention was a lady with gut / abdominal pain. He also discusses the effects he experienced as well as experiences reported by other participants of the group session and the lady who was the object of attetion in the session.

Transcript

Hi,

Thank you for listening.

This audio track is a description of what I observed during a group session in which the object of my attention of the session came from a lady who had been describing extreme gut pain.

So once we have established an energetic connection in the group and I feel that I'm supporting the pattern of resistance,

I bring my attention to the symptom that the lady had described.

I begin picturing a lady with gut pain and soon I see this lady begin clutching her abdomen in pain and then she starts to bend over,

Bend forward,

And then she starts to double over in pain,

Clutching her abdomen.

She eventually falls down to her knees still in pain and then she falls onto her hands and knees and the next thing she's doing is she's starting to crawl on her hands and knees and then the scene starts to shift where the background comes into view and she's in the sand.

She's on a beach.

She's crawling away from the water so she's crawling up the beach,

Away from the water,

And she's got something in her,

In her fist over her shoulder she's,

She's holding what looks like an enormous dragnet,

Not just a simple cast net,

Where you catch bait,

But an enormous commercial size fishing boat type of dragnet and she's got this over her shoulder,

And she's,

She's not going anywhere she's crawling in place,

Just crawling in the sand but not moving anywhere and she's exhausted,

She's very weary just worn out be down miserable she's sweating and she's just not getting anywhere just moving in place crawling and crawling but not getting anywhere she cannot possibly haul this load carry this load.

And so,

As she's just completely worn out,

She drops this net off her shoulder and starts catching your breath,

Kind of panting gasping for air kind of collapses down onto one of her elbows,

Still panting and then she starts to collapse back on the other elbow so now she's kind of on her back propped up on both elbows,

But now her,

Her perspective is reversed,

So she's seeing.

She's looking toward the beach now toward the toward the water.

And what she sees in the water is this dragnet.

Now,

That it's this huge dragnet in the water,

And partially on the beach and it's,

It's not full of fish though,

It's full of everything imaginable that could possibly make up for identity,

Anything that a person could identify with things that relate to her personality her beliefs,

Or intellect or IQ,

Her gender,

Her culture,

Or pride her reputation,

Her social status,

Things that make her happy,

Things that she reacts to and so on so on,

Anything imaginable.

And in this net I'm seeing how even little simple things that she was told when she was young.

Even things that are considered to be positive you know you're pretty you're smart,

Things like that.

And I'm seeing how in this moment how even these sort of things we attempt to identify with those things and then try to become those and now we need to be the pretty one or the smart one because that's what we were identified as or that's how we were labeled.

Now I have to live up to that.

So,

Everything imaginable that she could possibly identify herself as is in this net.

And so as exhausted as she was carrying all this.

It was a tremendous relief,

Even for that brief moment to not be carrying all of this and or even carrying any of it.

But it's conflicting.

As she looks at everything in the net.

Everything is precious.

Everything's important.

There's nothing that she could possibly choose to dispose of not even one thing.

And yet,

When she feels the relief of not carrying even a single thing in the net it's incredibly liberating.

But how could she possibly sacrifice anything in this net.

So as she slowly starts to let her gaze drift toward the left in my,

In my perspective from this net in the state of contemplation,

She scans over and sees that there's nothing but open beach.

And in that moment it's,

It's a terribly frightening prospect to her,

Because it has nothing has nothing in it it's,

There's nothing to identify with.

It's complete emptiness it's kind of like walking into an empty house or an apartment,

And it's completely empty.

It could be exciting because it's a blank canvas.

But it can also be frightening to think of all the things you need to get to fill up this place.

And it just reveals how great a void or emptiness there is.

And so she continues to notice this emptiness of the beach,

But as she keeps watching she starts to notice the waves are coming in and going back out.

And as she keeps watching the waves her awareness deepens into the waves and she starts to feel like she is the waves.

And then she notices that she's sitting on the sand on this beach and the sand is everywhere,

The beach is covered in sand but again she deepens her awareness into the sand and she starts to feel like she is the sand,

And she starts to notice the breeze the air it's everywhere.

The breeze is everywhere the air.

And she gets into that and she feels like she is the air she is the breeze she is the atmosphere,

She is everything.

And she starts to scan back toward the net and sees the same emptiness but in,

In relation to the net,

And it becomes frightening there's never going to be enough to fill this net there's never gonna be enough stuff.

But again when she scans away from the net and sees the emptiness as it is,

It's completely liberating,

It lacks nothing,

It's complete it's everything.

She is everything.

She's free.

And she's one with everything.

And so when I was in that exact moment,

For me as a therapist,

There was a single moment in time,

A flash of memory of all these teachings that I learned as a child the teachings of the Christ,

Things that he told his disciples such as no one has left houses or brothers or fathers or children or farms for his sake for the sake of the Christ that would not receive 100 times as much now in the present age,

In the age to come eternal life,

And another teaching of not even when one is rich does his life consist of his possessions.

And another one,

Unless the seed falls into the earth and dies it remains alone.

But if it dies,

It bears much fruit.

And then another one,

Whoever wants to save his life,

Loses it.

But whoever loses his life for my sake or for the sake of the Christ will find it.

And in this moment of this lady's story,

I as a therapist experienced a deeper understanding appreciation of all these teachings that I've learned from the time I was a child,

But never fully appreciated never never fully understood everything that we could possibly attempt to achieve or gain or work toward to build our identity only actually takes us further away from who and what we really are.

While it seems like an incredible sacrifice to dispose of any of it.

Once we've completely freed ourselves from every possible object with which we can identify we are completely one with all that there is.

We've actually gained everything.

And so it turns out that we never actually sacrificed anything at all,

We gained everything by losing everything.

So it seemed this is paradox.

The seed looks a certain way to us and represents something to us that is so important and precious that we would just do anything we can in our power to preserve it in that form,

But in so doing,

We prevent the true power within it from ever being released.

So all must be surrendered freely,

Willingly,

Voluntarily.

And over the next couple of weeks after the session,

Several of the participants of the group informed me that some of their symptoms had significantly improved.

And a couple of weeks later,

The lady who had the gut pain who was the object of focus of our attention in the group session notified me that her gut issues were dramatically improved.

Reviews

Wow - this is a fascinating visual story. David is a gifted inspiring healer.

Thank you

Brilliant, eye opening re: identity