A very big aloha.
My name is Reverend Cindy Paulus,
And I'm very happy to be here with you today.
It's an interesting process,
This process of understanding death.
In what we go through at the very deep level.
Energy and feelings we go through with the death of a loved one.
And I have written books about this and I experienced it with the passing of my father when I was 12 years old.
And that actually began my mother's journey and understanding.
That process and getting involved in metaphysics and meditation.
Understanding that whole journey that we take now.
It's been a lifetime journey now for me.
I have been amazed at how it's never the same.
And I experienced the passing of someone who has been my lifetime partner.
For 40 years,
40 years plus.
And that was very different than the way it was with the other people I've known who passed on.
And I have learned so much.
I have learned how we have to allow.
The depth of our being and feeling and being.
And not limiting that.
Amazing process of pain and thoughts and everything that you go through with the passing of a loved one.
And it's a learning process if you allow it to be.
And then I also understand the feeling that you go through.
Shouldn't be limited or washed away.
Lessened.
It's such a deep,
Wonderful growing process that we go through that's painful.
But the pain is part of what everyone goes through because everyone experiences the passing of a loved one.
And it doesn't lessen what you go through.
But it does make you understand.
That if you allow yourself.
To just experience this.
Extraordinary growth process.
With the passing of a loved one.
And if you don't,
Run away.
If you don't hide.
From that whole depth of that experience.
There is such.
.
.
Amazing growth.
And also such understanding.
And also such learning.
That comes from this experience.
And that is a gift.
And that is a gift that you can also experience better if you do learn to sit with it and to meditate and to allow.
Yourself to just.
.
.
Watch that whole process go through.
Your energy field,
Your emotion,
Your thoughts.
And it takes time,
And you can't hide that,
And you can't run from that.
And that is an amazing journey that I wrote a song I'm going to share with you here.
That I wrote after the passing of my mother.
And it's an amazing process that I think about that journey,
That if you've lost your mother or your loved one or someone very close to you,
You go through this.
And if you allow yourself.
Be open to receive.
That higher energy,
I totally believe.
That people do pass on and can.
Connect with you in spirit,
And they can be with you there.
I have no doubt in my mind.
I know that certain people aren't open to wanting to believe that,
And they then shut that out.
But I have had this experience so often,
I've actually written a book and an album about this.
And so I understand this process.
It's not taking away from what you're feeling.
But that connection that happens if you are allowing yourself to be open to that.
And I wanted to share this piece that I created about.
That journey with the passing of my mother.
Besides still waters I walk.
With the Angels of the Dawn.
For a new day has come,
And it's time for me to move on.
The rewards of heaven are waiting.
Far beyond compare.
Not the riches of the world,
But a far greater happiness here.
The soul can know the glory of God with love as the guiding light.
So look to the stillness of heaven beyond the darkest night.
Besides still waters I gaze at the light that sets me free.
In the Garden of Peace I have found my place,
And I am finally free.
So worry not,
My friend.
Call on me when you need.
I will come and be with you.
And spirit this can be.
Beside still waters I dwell.
Have faith and still believe.
Know that I love you forever and we will meet again.
Besides Still Waters,
You and me.
