Me Creates The Isolation & Craves & Destroys Socializing

**Note: Truth does not always sound pleasant. If the mind is not really peaceful now, it might not be a perfect moment to listen to this podcast, one has to be aware of the emotions or reactions that can block one from listenING ATTENTIVELY and with HUMILITY. This talk is a meditation practice. What one needs to do is listen attentively, without getting stuck in words, examine the mind in silence, not agree or disagree, just look at the mind as it is. Doing so is already part of true meditation.

Transcript

And in this civilization of the individualism,

Which is the result of this infinite divisive process of thoughts,

People,

Everyone is trapped in their own unique division.

And this becomes the signature of the individualism,

The uniqueness of this division is a signature.

And this creates numerous issues,

Bringing about this tremendous difficulty in talking to each other.

Because the mind is so trapped into the fragments,

There is a strong need,

Demand for decency,

So we can speak to each other.

But what is beneath this decency is utter superficiality.

The talks are phony,

The mind feels it,

And all of this bring about the tremendous difficulty to socialize with people.

And also it is because this incessant division of thoughts that bring about such a need for socializing because the mind is oscillated by those fragments,

Meaningless fragments.

This utter loneliness is therefore created out of this oscillation,

Self-oscillation.

And such a mind still wants to find comfort from socializing,

But this difficulty in doing so bring a sense of denial.

Can we see this clearly in the life?

Can we then turn inward to observe the thoughts objectively?

If I don't change inwardly,

Any external solutions is futile.

I have to observe myself objectively.

My life is trapped by thoughts,

By all kinds of fragments,

All kinds of idiosyncrasies,

Which are all the fragments of thoughts.

My own taste,

My own flavor,

My own preference,

My own liking,

Disliking.

When I meet people,

I still express them.

By doing so breaks the conversation.

That's why look at our life,

It's full of all kinds exhibitionism,

Self-expression.

And when we bring this self-expression to the conversation,

We kill the conversation.

And as we really go deep into ourselves to see this disorder of the behavior,

It's finally fragmented thoughts,

Fragmented thinking.

Can I take no sides?

Can I stand in the middle to watch?

Can I say that this me,

This petty entity,

Which is me,

Has no meaning at all.

It creates the self-oscillation,

Creates the need for socializing.

But at some time,

The me kills all the conversation because the me is so into the self-expression.

Greatness,

Aggression.

If I don't end me,

All the issues will exist in different forms.