Meditate for life success.
Hello,
My name is Christy Sedekeis.
Today I would like to share my journey on the birth of my meditation practice.
And how meditation has helped me become successful in several areas of my life.
However,
My main intention is to spark an interest in you to try and get.
And with consistency,
Building your own practice.
I am so very grateful I found meditation.
Or rather,
It found me.
So for over three years,
Every morning and sometimes twice a day,
If I'm lucky,
I attempt to allow myself outside of my head.
What you say?
Outside of my head?
Well,
Without even knowing it,
Most of us have been conditioned to always be thinking.
Playing our stories,
Planning for what happens next,
Wondering why and how,
When,
And focusing on this and that.
Mostly non-productive thinking that gets us nowhere.
Monkey mind,
I have heard it called,
Or as one of my friends so precisely named me,
Hamster thoughts,
Yep,
That was me,
And still is at times to some extent.
Simply unaware.
How exhausted I would make myself repeating and replaying conversations and events in my mind.
It's literally like a record,
Replaying,
Repeating,
Wishing,
Anticipating.
If not that,
Then thoughts of everything else under the sun.
Basically I was living in a state of past and future.
Really,
I was consistently replaying what I did.
Thinking on how I would have,
Should have,
Passed,
Then anticipating,
Fearing,
Doubting,
And living in the future.
Self-sabotage is a term I like to use.
But now I'm able to catch myself.
To watch myself at work and set myself back on course.
Okay,
So there I was,
During a dark period of my life about 12 years ago.
I was suggested to read a book called The Four Agreements by Dom Miguel Ruiz.
I remember finishing that book in one night.
And from that moment forward,
I began a personal journey of self-discovery and growth through spiritual awareness and connection.
At that time I wasn't certain as to what it,
This feeling was.
However,
It felt grounding and amazing to allow myself to be honest with me about my habits.
To learn about me through silent self-reflection.
Removing veil after veil.
I began to connect.
Certainly I had periods of highs and lows on practice.
But I always found myself coming back to center.
Always.
I became aware of its vibration and how I felt when more conscious of it.
In tune,
You know.
That book led me to others.
It's almost like the books found me.
The people I would meet were mirrors and were opening doors to portals of vision.
One day,
While reading a local periodical,
I came across a Buddhist center where they held weekly teachings incorporating meditating on a topic.
Or that topic.
So I went and wow,
The first time I was hooked.
The residing monk would read on a teaching,
Then we would meditate on how we reflected it.
This is where I learned how to meditate.
Well my vibration felt as though it were in tune with the universe.
And I felt like never before.
No person,
Food,
Sex,
Or thing made me feel as good as during this silent time with myself.
Even though I was still thinking,
I was learning how to watch myself in the act of thinking.
To become aware of the thoughts and how most weren't serving me at all.
I went consistently for a few months and then kind of fell off.
Then I found myself just visiting sporadically.
However,
Only at this beautiful center did I take the time to meditate.
I would ask myself now,
Like,
Why?
Why didn't I bring it back home with me and start a practice?
But it's quite probable that I felt it a burden of my time and my patience wouldn't allow it.
I guess I just wasn't ready to give up my thinking crutch.
Okay,
Fast forward seven years and I met a man who was starting on his path.
He and I would meditate together and boom,
The seed of daily meditation became watered.
And it grew.
It got watered and fertilized so well with the readings and videos of new spiritual guides and lectures,
Conversations.
This new knowledge,
It,
Me,
My practice of meditation became a daily gift of connection.
I formed a habit.
Now when I miss my morning meditation ritual,
I feel that my day is not complete.
For the rest of the day,
My energy seems off.
Like I forgot to do something so common practice is actually rising and getting out of bed.
My meditation practice anchors me.
That's how I got from there to where I am now with my practice.
Now why?
What keeps me loyal?
Why is this habit a must,
A part of my success?
Well,
Because it is me.
Remember I told you about my nickname,
Hamster Thoughts?
What I began to realize is my unconscious thinking was actually manifesting my future,
My reality and not in the true sense of who I am and who I wanted to be.
Gosh,
Did I really even know who I was?
Meanwhile,
My present state of me,
My being,
The one who was to or would be able to actually make the past and the future come together,
Was numb with overthinking and simply unaware of my true self.
So while listening to a guided self hypnosis,
Which I also suggest,
I came upon the word rumination.
And the meaning of rumination is the focused attention on the symptoms of one's distress and on its possible causes and consequences,
As opposed to its solutions.
Both rumination and worry are associated with anxiety and other negative emotional states.
However,
Its measures have not been unified.
According to Wikipedia,
I told myself,
So that is what I'm doing?
Ruminating?
It's funny,
Even though I had been practicing and educating myself on enlightenment and awareness,
I didn't associate my replay as something negative.
I believed it was or sometimes is comfort or fear based,
Being afraid of making changes to myself or even becoming aware of the effects.
I just kept on thinking.
Yeah,
Well,
Meditation has truly helped me with my overthinking.
So did that hypnosis session too,
Or the several that I did.
It is quieted my mind so I can be more present so I can see and hear clear so I can feel what the universe is saying to me instead of listening to my thoughts to static being unsatisfied,
Bored and unhappy.
Granted,
I have to work on myself daily,
And I can't stress enough,
And let me talk truth on how it is no easy job to own our truth.
But what I have found is through meditation,
I access my aura energetic expression.
I get a tingling feeling like tiny electric impulses.
My aura.
And at first I was scratching my head as to why.
It wasn't a very strong feeling but it felt good,
Like my body got super still and like my insides my blood was pushing against my skin.
Yeah,
Deep focus breaths really helped.
Anyways,
Okay,
So then one day,
Sometime later,
The universe spoke to secret.
It was presence that I was feeling.
I was in my car,
Looking at the trees with the sun on my face and for a long moment,
I was right there with the tree.
Nothing else except the laser focus on the tree on nature.
I was a lighted with joy joy joy.
I was like,
Could I be in a conscious state now,
I asked myself,
And then two minutes later,
I'm back to monkey mind.
And that's okay.
Remember me saying earlier,
Always coming back to center.
Well,
This is the practice.
Really though,
The meditation has quieted my mind in ways that I never would have been,
Would have been able to do with with shopping or drugs or alcohol or our mindless conversation with someone.
And the best part is that when the necessary thoughts that inhabit my mind become silent in the silence I can hear,
I can be,
I can manifest,
I can now see other possibilities and dimensions.
Now that I have room for presence,
I can create.
I use my time in my mind for purpose,
Instead of fear and self criticizing and anger and separation which ultimately keeps me in a sleep state going nowhere except round and round on the hamster wheel.
PS.
It is a daily journey.
I am motivated about the importance of personal growth,
As I am in my focus on diet and exercise,
Respecting my body is like this whole new world perspective at 46 years old.
Imagine.
And the most amazing part is as fast as I blink there are so many new things,
New eye opening experiences awareness understanding reasoning that I get to explore.
I feel rejuvenated grateful excited more confident grounded.
Like I'm living with purpose and have only just begun.
Imagine five years from now.
This may be you already.
This can be you too.
And yes,
My energy,
Excuse me,
And yes when my energy gets low,
Or in a funk.
When I start running on that hamster wheel.
I meditate.
I practice becoming present.
So meditating to build success in any area of your life is the purpose,
More like how to clean out your subconscious to clear your thoughts on how you currently believe yourself to be to become aware,
How they are interfering with whom you really want to be and inhibiting you from visualizing yourself as a person you truly are.
I even felt compelled to compose and produce a guided meditation on success that I would be honored to share with you.
It is on this app insight timer.
Because you see this guided meditation,
Never was until I created it in purpose.
It was in me.
I just had to be present to be able to bring it to life.
So,
Here I am.
This is a snapshot of my journey to becoming a meditator.
Yep,
That's what I call myself.
And why I feel a sense of purpose to share,
So that hopefully I can influence just one or tons of people to come along on this beautiful journey.
It all starts with closing your eyes and a place where you won't be disturbed and doing nothing but watching your thoughts.
Because truly,
It's in between them that we hear ourselves.
Thank you.
