A friend recently wrote me that she was stuck in volatility.
I'd never heard the phrase before,
But it immediately hit something deep inside.
Maybe you are steadfast,
Calm.
Maybe you know exactly what you're doing,
Where you are going.
Maybe you trust yourself.
Maybe you know that you are worthy of love and breathe,
But just maybe you struggle with those things.
You struggle with knowing what you are doing,
Where you are going.
Maybe you doubt yourself,
Your worth.
That can be such a hard place to be,
And it makes the world feel so full of upheaval and uncertainty.
In your days,
Royal like an ocean with currents you don't understand and you can't control,
Sit,
Breathe.
Get clear inside.
Let everything settle.
And from that space,
Allow yourself to know that you,
Yes,
You are worthy.
You are worthy of love and goodness and connection.
You might have a history with all kinds of voices that makes that hard to believe,
But hear me now.
You are worthy.
You are worthy of love,
Of all kinds of good things flooding into your life.
You are worthy of connecting deeply with other human beings.
If you have these doubts,
If you face these struggles,
Please do not let it be one more sword to pierce your tattered soul.
Put down the weapons you attack yourself with.
Please put them down.
When you are stuck in volatility,
When you don't know,
When you struggle,
Sit and breathe and know you are worthy.
You are worthy of love,
Of all kinds of wonders.
You are worthy of deep and real connection.
Trust that and gently,
But insistently,
Like a caterpillar crawling on the ground,
Make your way toward those safe spaces and beings that can hold you and hold your mess as you rearrange yourself.
And by that,
I mean the mess of those untrue thoughts that poison you.
Make your way toward those safe spaces and beings that hold you as you grow your wings,
As you unfold,
As you fly off into your little wild life where you live light and shine.
