So,
What's next?
The ego always wants to know.
It's never satisfied.
And whether you call it the ego,
The body-mind,
The character,
The unit,
It's all the same thing.
It doesn't exist.
It's just thoughts.
I've seen it described as that the ego is a bundle of thoughts but contained in what?
Contained in everything.
There's an anthropomorphic approach to looking at the ego that it's fine.
You know,
It's giving it this sort of.
.
.
Creating it as this character,
This thing that can be dealt with,
I suppose is okay.
But it's no more real than the thoughts and the stories that make up Knoll.
And yet it has this apparent power,
Especially in the context of the thought arising and then some sort of tension in the body.
And that can be in the form of.
.
.
I mean there's so many different ways that it happens but it's all.
.
.
It all comes back to a thought arising that.
.
.
No.
What is isn't.
.
.
Is it correct?
It needs to be changed.
This can't be it.
Or even in these quote unquote glimpses that happen,
Oh my gosh I'm having a.
.
.
I just had a glimpse.
That's amazing.
And then the ego says,
Let's go get another one or oh I've lost it.
Those are all just thoughts arising.
In fact there are egos.
.
.
Some.
.
.
I read it called the spiritual ego which is I guess interesting.
It's all just labels.
But spiritual egos taking place in what I refer.
.
.
What I think of as non-duals.
Like as in dual,
As in pistols.
Like no that's not right.
That's not what non-duality is.
Or that's not what Advaita is.
Or I read a post the other day that was saying that Neo-Advaita is creating a blemish.
On Advaita.
On traditional Advaita.
Sorry.
Blemish on what?
But it appears to be powerful.
There are teachings or books or words,
Let's call them that,
Writing about how the ego needs to be destroyed.
And what.
.
.
How can you destroy something that isn't real?
How can you destroy something that doesn't exist?
It's just a thought.
So making an attempt to destroy ego.
Making an attempt to stop your thoughts.
Lots of.
.
.
I hear lots of people,
I can't stop my thoughts.
Well don't.
You know you don't.
Don't make that attempt.
The thought,
I need to stop my thoughts,
Is just another thought.
I mean it gets really really ridiculous.
It's that it ends up being shining a camera into a TV into a TV into a TV that sort of infinite or two mirrors put up to each other.
It's.
.
.
Any thought that arises that I should be doing this,
I should be not in this position in life,
I should be not sitting here,
This outcome shouldn't have happened.
Those are all thoughts or the ego coming in and laying its claim.
It's not always negative.
And negative and positive are,
You know,
Those are all just more labels.
Isn't it fun trying to figure out how to talk about what is this impossible thing to talk about?
But thoughts will arise.
I need to be in a different place.
Man,
If I could just awaken,
If I could just figure out this this non-duality thing,
Because I'm not there yet.
And where?
Where are you not?
You know,
What place can you go to that you aren't already?
And the ego has an interesting way of kind of putting its arm around you.
Again,
We're anthropomorphizing it,
We're giving it,
You know,
Some sort of character element,
Putting its arm around you and saying,
Hey great job,
You're really getting this,
You're really getting this non-duality thing,
Man,
You're crushing it.
You're further along in this path.
There's nowhere to go.
And even this phrase,
There's nowhere to go,
Is just another thought arising.
Thoughts arise.
Hey,
Make a video,
Someone might find it useful.
Or,
I'm gonna stop making these videos,
I don't know why I'm doing them.
They're all just,
It's all just fodder,
It's all complete nonsense.
That said,
When that truth is seen by no one,
Then it just ends up being sort of,
Or can be,
I don't want to,
I don't want to,
I don't want to state,
Oh these are just observations,
That's all this is,
These are descriptions,
But I don't want to say what may happen in an experience and may not happen.
But it can be seen that there's more of a lightness and the volume of those thoughts,
The volume of the ego lowers and seeps into the background a little bit more.
Almost as if I get this vision of like a roommate that you love,
A close family member that you love that's roommate,
That has a,
That just loves to sing,
You know,
And they keep singing and they keep singing or they just like talking and so they keep talking,
They keep talking.
That may irritate,
That may create irritation,
It may create tension in the body,
But over time you get over it the same way that you've made dogs barking or in,
You know,
In Latin America,
Weed whackers cutting the grass,
Construction happening.
Any energetic tension that you feel is usually,
Unless it's,
You know,
Unless it is sensory elements,
Meaning like it's cold or it's hot,
Those kinds of things,
A lot of times are attached to specific thoughts,
Thoughts that are arising like,
And maybe that's happening as you're watching this video,
It's entirely possible that you're like,
This guy has no idea what he's talking about,
That's not my experience of how non-duality works,
There's no one there,
There's no one here,
And that's the beautiful paradox that all of this is and that's what makes me absolutely in love with discussing this and reading about it is because it is apparently happening,
And if the ego is,
Has a power over no,
It's over no one,
It's not,
It's really non-existent,
It's just nothing having apparent power over nothing,
But some messages about things going on in the world,
Whether it is advertising messages or spiritual messages,
Are the ego at work saying this isn't enough,
You can be better,
You can get to another place,
You should be better,
You should be in another place,
They're just thoughts,
They're just thoughts arising from nowhere,
They don't mean anything,
They don't,
And yet it's the ego's,
I guess,
Job,
Maybe,
I don't know,
To create,
To look for meaning in everything,
Like,
You know,
Oh,
I was reading and this word came up and then someone at the supermarket said the same word,
What does it mean?
No,
And and if that's,
If that's what comes up,
Fine,
Have fun with it,
There's nothing wrong with that,
Everything's allowed,
Even the ego and its constant chatter,
Even all these thoughts that come up,
You know,
Good,
Bad,
Here,
There,
Not in the right place,
Everything is allowed because it's all this,
It's all one thing,
And the ego may never stop its attempt to change what is,
But it's not real,
It's just a thought,
And it can be considered or it doesn't need to be considered,
But it's just what's happening.
The ego's a tricky little,
Little,
Little dude,
But it's just a thought.
