Hello,
It's me,
Lorraine K.
Rudolph,
Also known as L Star R,
Founder of the Self Sovereign Studio.
Today,
I come to you guided by my intuition and by the wisdom blessed upon me by my teachers,
Matt and Ashley Schaefer and Louisa Dorian,
Founder and team leaders of Mastery of Magnetism,
Frank Macari,
Founder of the Thriving Coach Academy,
And my Reiki master,
Kelly Strolls.
I humbly welcome you to today's meditation.
As we begin,
I want you to check in with your body and get as comfortable as possible,
Wherever you are.
Whether you are sitting,
Standing,
Lying down,
Or even driving in a car,
There is a place for you here.
Let's take a moment to move through the body together.
Starting with your face,
Notice what's there.
Any tension in your jaw,
Your forehead,
Around your eyes,
Just allow whatever needs to adjust to adjust.
Move your awareness down to your neck,
Your shoulders,
Let them drop,
Your arms,
Your hands,
Your chest,
Your back,
Your stomach,
Your hips,
Your legs,
Your feet,
All the way down to your toes.
As you settle in,
Feel the groundness of gravity beneath you,
Not as pressure as support,
The earth holding you exactly where you are.
Now we are going to start by breathing together.
We will take three intentional breaths,
In for four counts,
Hold for seven,
And out for eight.
If you are operating any machinery,
Simply allow your breath to breathe naturally and let the words wash over you.
For everyone else,
Let's begin.
Breathe in,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Hold,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five,
Six,
Seven,
Out,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five,
Seven,
Eight.
Breathe in,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five,
Six,
Seven,
Out,
Two,
Five,
Six,
Seven.
One more time.
Breathe in,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Hold,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five,
Six,
Seven,
Out,
Two,
Three,
Four,
Five.
Now allow your breath to return to its natural rhythm.
One deep breath in,
And out.
And if you're not operating any machinery,
And you feel so inclined,
You are welcome to gently close your eyes.
If you are operating machinery,
Or simply prefer to keep your eyes open,
That is perfectly okay too.
You are still fully here.
One more breath in,
And out.
You are here.
You are held.
You are exactly where you are supposed to be right now.
Take one more slow breath in,
And as you exhale,
I want you to try something.
Just for a moment,
I want you to look at the room around you,
Or the darkness behind your closed eyes,
As if you have never seen it before.
Not with the eyes of someone who knows what everything is,
And what it is all for.
With the eyes of wonder.
Did you know that children laugh on average around 400 times a day,
And adults around 15?
Somewhere between childhood and now,
Most of us traded wonder for worry.
We swapped curiosity for caution.
We got so good at knowing things,
That we forgot how extraordinary it is that anything exists at all.
Here's a perspective I want to offer you today.
One that has completely changed the way I move through life.
We are all babies.
Not babies in the sense of being small,
Or fragile,
Or not enough.
Babies in the truest,
Most liberating sense.
New to this.
All of us.
Always.
Remember,
It's out of level one,
Into level one.
Every new version of you is a baby version.
Every new chapter is your first chapter.
Every next step is something you have genuinely,
Literally,
Never done before.
And that's not weakness.
It is the most honest thing about being alive.
Think about what babies do.
They don't judge themselves for falling when they're learning to walk.
They don't compare their progress to the baby across the room.
They don't decide they're too broken,
Or too behind,
Or too old to try again.
They just try again.
With full presence,
Full curiosity,
Full openness to whatever this next moment brings.
What would it be like to move through your life like that?
And here is the other layer of this.
On the scale of the universe,
On the geological scale,
The cosmic scale,
The scale of something so vast our brains can barely hold it,
On the godly scale,
We are all extraordinarily young.
Our souls may be timeless,
And our human experience here,
This body,
This life,
This journey,
Is breathtakingly brief.
We are all baby beings,
All of us,
Crawling around on a tiny blue planet in one corner of an incomprehensibly large universe,
Trying to figure out how to be alive.
And in that,
There is something so beautiful,
Because it means the universe isn't expecting us to have it all figured out.
It's inviting us to be here,
To wonder,
To try,
To fall and get up and try again,
With the same wild openness a baby brings to everything.
So today,
Just for today,
I want to give you the permission to be a beginner,
To look at your life with fresh eyes,
To give yourself the same grace you would give a baby who is learning something for the very first time,
And to remember that wonder,
That pure wonder,
Open anything is possible wonder.
It is not something you outgrow.
It is something you can choose to come back to,
Anytime,
Any moment,
Any now.
Begin to bring awareness back to your body.
Wiggle your fingers,
Wiggle your toes,
Take a slow,
Easy breath.
Before you open your eyes,
Take just a moment to be grateful.
Grateful that you showed up for yourself today.
Grateful for this time you carved out.
Grateful for who you are becoming.
That is no small thing.
When you are ready,
Gently open your eyes and carry this with you,
Not just into your day,
But into your being.
Let it live there.
Let it settle.
Let it become part of who you are.
You did the work today.
Now go be it.
