There is a place even when you feel out of sorts or unmoored and lost,
Disappointed or stuck.
There is a place where you still belong to yourself and this practice is about finding that place again.
So take a moment to settle and if it feels comfortable,
Allow your eyes to gently close and bring attention to your breath.
Not changing it,
Just noticing.
The inhale arriving,
The exhale releasing.
Notice the weight of your body,
Your feet,
Your hands,
The fabric of the clothes that you're wearing,
Where you are supported,
The ground beneath you,
The surface that is holding you.
And now gently deepen your breath.
Inhale slowly through your nose for a count of four,
Three,
Two,
One and hold just a moment and exhale through your mouth for a count of six,
Five,
Four,
Three,
Two,
One.
Again inhale steady and full and exhale longer,
Softer,
Letting your body follow.
One more time now,
Just breathing in and breathing out.
Let your breath return to its natural rhythm.
Now gently bring to mind where you're stuck,
Where you're uneased,
Where you're stressed,
Where you're holding or clenching or worried or concerned.
What's the area of your life?
Maybe it's not the most overwhelming one even,
It's just something recent,
Something real.
A moment where you felt activated and not in the alivening way,
In the constricting way.
Notice what begins to stir in your body as you recall it and focus on it.
Is there a tightness in your chest or your jaw or your stomach?
Is there a heat,
Quick,
Rising or is there an urgency?
Perhaps the sense that something must be said or done or undone or chosen or fixed or controlled right now.
Just notice and as you notice gently name it.
Something in me is reacting.
Not I am reacting,
But something in me is reacting.
See that creates a little space.
Something in me wants to defend.
Something in me wants to control,
Fix,
Push,
Prove.
Something in me wants to retreat,
Hide,
Stall,
Wait.
You do not need to argue with it.
You do not need to placate it.
You don't need to alter or edit or fix it.
This is just your invitation to see it,
To notice it and to name it.
Take an inhale and slowly exhale.
There is a difference between you and what is happening within you and definitely what is happening around you.
Right now,
See if you can feel all three.
What is happening within you is different than what is happening around you and those things are different than you,
Who you are.
That moment of activation,
That is the moment where we can be more of a witness to the part of us that needs attention.
We could be more aware of the part of us that can notice.
Return now to the part of you that is not rushed,
That does not need to raise its voice to be heard.
That does not need to compete,
To force,
To solve,
To explain.
Notice that that part simply remains.
You see,
We often believe that it is the loudest emotion in the room,
The heaviest emotion,
Maybe the most triggered emotion that sets the tone.
That anger or fear or tension,
Those things dictate the direction of everything else.
Many of us think that other people bring us down or their vibe or their direction is just bringing us all down,
But that is not quite true.
Both social psychology and esoteric wisdom keepers will point towards a fact,
Which is that the energy that is most articulated in a group,
The most grounded,
The most steady,
The most centered,
That is what organizes all the space around it,
And that can be you.
Not by overpowering what is happening,
But by returning again and again to your center.
Being from the inside out.
So don't be too quick to believe that others can pull you away from yourself or can infect you with their bad mood or their fear or their expectations of how things work.
Consider instead that you can always return to you.
And you can be the energy that transforms them.
This is the practice of remaining anchored,
Even as things move around you.
This is the way we transform the moment,
Not by force,
But by witnessing from the inside out.
Feel your breath again,
Inhale and exhale.
Whatever is activated,
Let it be there.
Just see if you can stay in your center,
Quiet,
Aware,
Here.
This is a space that is still yours,
Right here,
And you are finding it again.
Maybe the feeling is still there,
Maybe it won't disappear.
Perhaps you are no longer carried by it,
Though.
You may still speak,
You may still set a boundary,
You may still choose to leave or stay,
But that choice will come from here,
From something steady and clear and something chosen.
Gently,
Silently,
Or aloud,
Repeat,
I return to myself,
Even now.
This is the place in me that remains.
I can return to myself,
Even now.
This is the place in me that remains.
One more breath in fully,
More,
More,
More,
Feel life fully,
And exhale,
Release.
And when you are complete with this meditation,
It is time to begin again,
From your center.
We always get to re-choose.