Welcome to this meditation,
Healing from Narcissistic Abuse.
As you're leaving a narcissistic relationship behind,
Or a narcissistic family system,
Or a narcissistic work system,
Or a narcissistic religious system,
You're deeply wounded.
Your trust in life and in yourself has been interrupted,
Deeply,
Deeply eroded,
And now it is important to regain your trust in yourself,
And in life,
And in humanity,
In relationships.
Let us take one deep breath to feel that your presence,
Your body is still here,
Even though you've been through all these abusive moments,
They're in the past.
You're here,
A former victim,
Now becoming a survivor.
Take a deep breath in,
And out.
Feel the cold air going into your body,
And let the warm air stream out of your body.
You're here,
You're alive.
Many times you have been gaslighted,
You've been told that you are crazy,
You've been questioned,
Controlled,
Made to doubt yourself,
Your own perceptions.
You've been isolated from others intentionally by systems of persons that wanted to control your every move,
And now you're becoming free.
You were a victim,
But now you're becoming a survivor.
As you're breathing in,
And out,
An awareness that your body is here,
And you are one with your body,
Maybe you wrap your arms around yourself,
Give yourself a long,
Long big hug.
Feel this compassionate touch,
And promise yourself,
Promise your body,
Promise your emotional body,
Promise your spiritual body,
That you will never,
Never go back,
And that you will never allow this to happen again.
Take a deep breath in,
And let it go.
If you feel tears arise from your heart space,
All the way up into your head,
And your eyes get watery,
You feel pain in your heart space,
Or your gut,
Just hold yourself gently with that pain.
You will heal as you breathe in fresh air,
A new life,
Freedom,
And you breathe out while you're embracing yourself.
All the darkness,
Painful memories,
Crazy,
Crazy times,
You breathe out and you let go.
You are not what happened to you.
You deserve to be free.
You deserve to be happy.
You deserve to heal.
You deserve to trust yourself.
Take a deep breath in,
And let go.
The past is no more.
A new life is beginning right here and now,
As you compassionately wrap your own arms around your shoulders,
And you let the emotions come.
Let those feelings arise freely and gently,
Compassionately,
Patiently.
There's nothing wrong with you.
You're not crazy.
You haven't done anything to deserve this kind of treatment.
You're beautiful.
You're meant to live free.
You never have to go back.
You're beloved,
And you can love yourself.
You might not be able to say that right now or feel that right now,
So maybe you just put an intention into your loving embrace.
I'm intending to love myself.
I'm intending to trust myself.
I'm intending to heal myself.
I am a survivor.
I'm free.
I will never go back.
Just imagine a warm light from above,
As if the clouds open up and the sunbeam is just streaming down,
Filling your whole being with a gentle,
Warm,
Kind light.
All darkness has to flee.
All former abuse,
All memories of shame,
Of guilting,
All the pain that is in your chest and in your body that you're holding is being warmed by this warm,
Loving,
Compassionate light.
As you breathe in,
You breathe in light,
And as you breathe out,
You let go of all that pain,
Of all those memories,
Of all those shame and guilt-ridden experiences.
You let go of all that control.
You let go of all the isolation and the manipulation,
And you just allow this gentle,
Warm light embrace you and fill you with new light.
Surround your arms as you are hugging yourself and hold you in being.
Yes,
Healing is possible.
Yes,
You deserve to be free,
To be well,
To be safe.
To be respected.
Yes,
You are a survivor,
And you will never go back.
Now,
Maybe sit quietly,
Let the emotions rise,
Hold yourself,
And let the light hold you.
Just as gravity is holding you in place right now,
Just know that you're not floating away.
You are being healed by the light of creation that is liberating you,
Healing you,
Freeing you,
Freeing you to be yourself.
You will trust yourself again.
You will love again.
You will be loved again.
And yet,
You will never go back to narcissistic abuse that is now behind you.
Take a deep breath in and out.
May you be blessed.
May you be safe.
May you trust others to walk with you on this journey of healing.
Be well.
