For many of us birth or even pregnancy can be quite a traumatic experience.
Each of us definitely has,
I mean even from one pregnancy to the very next,
You can have a completely different experience.
I want to preface this meditation by saying that if your experience of not being able to fall pregnant,
Of the pregnancy,
Of the delivery or anything beyond that brings up too much pain or emotion for you,
Please know that it,
You know,
This might not be the right one for you today.
It might be here for you in the future if you find yourself at a point where you're open to re-imagining that pregnancy experience.
I found this like a beautiful opportunity to go back in and do things that I actually didn't experience when I was pregnant.
I felt like I was able to go back and energetically almost change the story in some ways of my actual pregnancy versus this meditation.
But I did just want to flag that unless you are in the space to hold this visualization,
Please,
With my deepest love,
You know,
Come back to it another time when it feels right for you.
This meditation came to me in a breath class and it was such a beautiful meditation that,
Oh my gosh,
I just had to share it with you.
So if you are currently pregnant,
Maybe you've already given birth.
I had my baby 18 years ago at the time of recording.
Maybe you held a baby Maybe you held a baby that didn't make it earthside or maybe you want to think about a future baby.
But either way,
This is such a beautiful connecting experience with that tiny little soul.
So let's begin by just getting really comfy today.
Nestling your body in,
Make sure you're warm,
Make sure you feel safe.
And let's just settle now all the way into your body.
Taking your mind's eye down into your womb and we're going to visualize inception,
This moment of seeding like a little explosion of golden light.
And just really see that initiating connection here.
As this little soul comes into your body and begins its experience with you.
And so noticing the feeling that arises in you as you notice this initiation point,
This connection point.
And circling this little one in this really beautiful golden light.
This is the beginning of not just your connection,
But a lovely protective layer for them.
Take a deep,
Deep breath into your belly at this point.
You might even put your hands on your tummy here as we really connect.
As we really connect.
And now you notice that that little tiny seedling,
That little embryo is starting to grow.
We can really travel through time here.
So noticing the development of the baby,
You might see the spine being created.
You might be able to see the little heart beating.
Fingers and toes,
The shape of their head.
Noticing it just deliciously floating around in that warm womb.
Feeling that deep beat of mama's heart.
You can really notice the baby noticing this.
As we offer more golden light now to this little cherub.
Really see that the whole womb is filled up with this pulsing light,
Or maybe for you it's a steady light.
Do you see sparkly gold?
Do you see it more like a liquid?
This is absolutely your experience.
And at about the point where we see little bub fully formed,
A little bit bigger there in the tummy.
We offer a mesh coating and this mesh coating is a gentle mesh and it is a mesh to help create a barrier so that this little one doesn't need to inherit any trauma that is not for them.
So we don't need enormous rigidity or big barriers.
You might notice a tendency here to really want to shield and protect.
But the qualities of this very fine mesh are actually very very powerful.
And so just know that even a thin coating will offer protection.
You might notice at this point as baby is bigger even still,
An urge or a natural desire to rock your body.
Certainly in the breath session I had,
I was very active in the rocking of my body,
That nurturing sway that we do naturally.
And so if you find your body moving or wanting to go somewhere,
Just go.
This is absolutely whatever feels right for you.
And so find yourself now loving this little one.
So this is a moment of deep deep connection.
You notice that you are able to be one-on-one,
Undivided attention.
What do you want to tell your little one?
What's important for your baby to hear from you?
Really feel that transfer.
As you're holding your baby now inside,
Knowing that the time has come,
We're going to make an agreement that we're about to do one of the hardest things together.
Let's do this together knowing that we have each other.
And so visually now,
Really importantly,
Keeping that beautiful golden light all around the baby.
Let's do this together,
Knowing that we have each other.
Keeping that beautiful golden light all around the baby.
As the baby comes down through the birthing canal,
Notice the cord,
The birthing canal,
Everything is this channel of beautiful golden light.
And as your baby is delivered out and nestled onto your chest now,
Through that whole umbilical cord,
There is still this beautiful golden light.
So you're still deeply connected here at this point as you hold your baby in your arms and you gaze down upon their face.
Offering now words of welcome and intention.
What are your commitments,
Promises or intentions with this little one?
Let's just stay here for a little bit more and deeply connect through eye gazing.
Connect through eye gazing.
You might be noticing the energy around your baby.
You might even be noticing what your baby is sharing with you.
And as we come to the end of this meditation,
Know that that coating of protection,
That coating of love and light,
No matter the age of your baby now,
Is still intact and that connection is still there.
Thank you so much for joining me,
Sending enormous love to you.
