156 Loving Your Self - Even If You Don't Feel You Do

This is a very personal story about when I felt so alone and unloved. It was around 1978 and I had just escaped from a Christian cult. I was enrolled in a 4-year Master of Theology program looking for answers. I was, also, taking refuge. My life was upside down. Perhaps you have felt despair, anxiety and depression. If so, I offer you what I found then. As I sat still, suddenly, in my despair, I saw that I felt so intensely bad because I did care about myself and, therefore, my difficult inner and outer life. If I didn't care deeply, I would not feel so bad. Yes, creating inner tension was not the best way to show myself love but it was because I cared. I wanted better for my life. From there I could baby step my way to health.

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Wow, William, I am so sorry you went through such a tough journey to establish a clear understanding of your—and all of our—being. But you made it through, and it is so loving of you to offer your realizations so systematically to help others.
Thank you!
Donna
PS I’m up to 14, but skipped to this one when it turned up on my daily selections. I will continue through sequentially, but this was a tremendous insight into your journey. Thanks for recording it.

Don’t you think we need those dark places so we experience the contrast In life? When I went from the dark depths of alcoholism to the sunlight of the spirit and recovery… I can see my recovery as an amazing gift

on another talk, you mentioned not being attached to preferences. That really got me thinking. Grieving the death of my husband has been the hardest thing I’ve ever done. As I come up on the three year anniversary soon, I can say to myself, yes, I was attached to the preference of him being in the physical world. (I know that’s a stretch because of course we want our loved one to be in the physical world) however, he is just as present with me now in the spirit realm since I am claire sentient. I’ve been meditating on that concept for days. That my preference was him being in the physical world, but can I accept him in the spiritual realm and not be attached to either one. (more glimpses to non-attachment, I guess)

Thank you William for this most beautiful and helpful podcast. And for sharing details of your personal history, at a time that was painful to you. Thank you for this act of love. It made me think of a beautiful experience I had while giving Reiki, a few years back and I think it is worth sharing.
A young woman came to me, she had cancer and it was terminal. She was afraid of dying; and over the months, when she came for Reiki, she would tell me of her chaotic life, and the turmoil she felt. She had a good quality of life for several months, but eventually her health deteriorated and she asked me to go to her home to give her Reiki. So when I arrived, I could see that she was near the end. We started Reiki and I had my hand over her heart chakra, when I felt the Master Jesus near us. He conveyed to me to tell Lucy - not her real name- He said to tell Lucy that He loved her very much and she was loved very much, but that she must love herself. He was most insistent that she feels the same love for herself as He felt for her. I felt her heart centre opening and felt His love flowing through me into Lucy's heart centre. And so , there we were, locked together, as though in a group hug, resting in the Christ Love. This went on for several minutes, and I shall never forget the undescribable feeling of love, that I experienced, during those minutes.
Early the next morning Lucy's husband phoned me to tell me that she had past away, that morning, in her mothers arms. But he had to tell me that during the evening, a few hours prior to her passing, Lucy had told him that she had never felt, during her whole life, so much at peace as she felt then.
Thank you William for showing and reminding us of the importance and power of self love.🙏❤️

Thank you for sharing your experience .Grateful for this talk.
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Such a powerful realization. You have this beautiful gentle way of guidance and it is felt with the heart. You love yourself, and you are loved. I love myself, and I am loved. 🙏🏼❤️