So when I started working on my inner child,
I believe I practiced mindfulness before even knowing what mindfulness meant.
I practiced slowing down with my triggers and slowing down when there was pain and slowing down when there was anger.
I could see something sort of bubbled up,
Tightened and caused such an unpleasant sensation in my body.
And I used to wring myself around it.
And then with mindfulness,
Which I didn't know that it was it,
I began to see it rather than be it.
And I could sometimes even visualize blobs of darkness or monster-like beings,
Something horrifying in my imagination as I started to see it and not just be the sensations in my body.
And one beautiful thing that has always helped me is sending back love.
Sending back love to the triggers,
To my fears,
To my pain,
To my anger.
But not to disqualify the emotion,
Not in a sense of non-acceptance,
But with a sense of acceptance.
Accepting that this is how my body has responded,
Allowing it to be and responding to it with love.
Saying,
Let be,
Let be.
And slowly,
Whatever I visualized,
However horrifying it may have been,
It starts to disappear.
And it starts to be just a little child which just wanted to be seen,
Wanted to be seen as to what it was going through or what it was without us trying to hush it,
Push it away or neglect ourselves in the process.
So the next time some emotion,
Any emotion visits you,
Send it back love.