Sue Chats: Pockets Of Self Doubt

Chats with Susan is a podcast aimed at helping strong capable women who have pockets of self doubt access their inner wisdom and clarify their inner truth. This conversation is focused on those pockets of self doubt, and what to do when we're sitting in one to remember our strength and capability.

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Welcome to Chats with Susan Burrell.

And that's me.

I help strong,

Capable women who have pockets of self-doubt access their inner wisdom and clarify their own truth.

Chats with Susan Burrell is where we have rich conversations about empowerment,

Radiating your brilliance out into the world,

And loving yourself more than you would ever have before.

And who doesn't want that?

So let's get started.

Hi.

So,

Today I felt really led to talk about pockets of self-doubt because,

Oh boy,

Oh boy,

Have I been delving into my own pockets of self-doubt and kind of not sitting in one or two and throwing a pity party,

But well,

All right,

All right,

I'll tell the truth.

Yeah,

There's been a bit of a pity party in my pockets of self-doubt.

And I know that I'm a strong,

Intelligent,

Creative,

Capable woman,

But boy,

When those pockets open up and you trip into one of them,

It's really challenging to see your way out.

And it's challenging to see the truth of who you are,

That you are strong,

That you are capable,

That you are creative.

And I think as human beings,

We all go through this.

We all have pockets of self-doubt that open up into gaping holes because maybe they're attached to a gaping wound of our past.

And what's been going on in the last three,

Four weeks here,

Well,

Actually last several years is what I call a paradigm upshift.

We are shifting from how we used to operate as a humanity.

This is everybody,

People.

It's not just men or women,

It's humanity.

And we are being forced to wake up to the way we have all been interacting or not interacting that no longer serves the mental health of human beings and it does not serve the health of the planet,

Planet earth.

And so this upshift is about awakening more and more to the truth of who we are.

And so when these pockets of self-doubt open up or show up,

It really is,

It isn't a criticism about who we are.

And believe me,

I'm raising my hand.

I am one of those people that the minute I start doubting myself,

I go down the rabbit hole of,

Well,

I should have done this differently.

I shouldn't have eaten that thing I'm not supposed to.

I shouldn't have had that extra glass of wine.

I should be more productive.

The shoulds show up and the shame shows up.

And these are very,

Very old paradigms that humanity was taught several centuries ago to believe in and until we eventually embodied them.

And then we operate out of wounding that's not even ours in this lifetime,

Wounding that was passed down in our ancestry or wounding that was talked about in some sacred book that you read and you go,

Wow,

I'm really must be messed up.

I wanted to use a different word,

But I'm not allowed to.

And so what happens is when these pockets of self-doubt show up,

This is how I'm dealing with it people right now,

Is really trying to take a breath,

Take a pause,

Zoom out of the circumstance or the feelings,

Try and lift myself out of the feeling enough to go,

Where is this coming from?

Is this true?

Byron Katie in what she calls the work asks this question,

Is it true?

Is what I'm thinking or feeling true?

And that's a great question to ask yourself when you've tripped into a pocket of self-doubt and can't quite see where the edge is to climb out because the pockets I am discovering now is about the old way of operation that I thought maybe I had let go of or healed,

But the old way of operation that really is gone.

It's actually like it's dead.

The old way of being is dead people.

That's what I call the paradigm up shift.

We all keep thinking we're going to go back to what is quote unquote normal,

But what was normal for us or for the generation ahead of us is no longer normal because there is no normal now.

In order for each individual on this planet to be fully loved by themselves and for themselves and fully expressed creatively and therefore connected to each other,

Then this normal way of being,

Whether it's the ideology of us versus them,

Black and white,

Right and wrong,

Those things don't work anymore because there has been a consciousness shift that's been occurring over the last few years,

But really intensely this last year.

And so if you're finding yourself angry for no reason,

Hello,

That's my day sometimes,

Or you find yourself wanting to just sit down and cry for no reason,

There's nothing bad going on in your life,

But man,

A good cry would feel good.

And then you start questioning yourself as to why you're having these emotions.

It's because they're attached to old,

Old,

Old stuff.

Could be from your childhood,

Could be from your ancestry,

Could be from your genetics.

Who knows?

And it's not at this time,

It's not as important to know what is attached to because what I just discovered yesterday in a conversation with a very wise friend of mine,

Diana Barnes,

That I was in my pocket of self-doubt.

I was rewinding to want to explain why I was having these feelings of self-doubt,

Wanting to put my finger on it so I could fix it.

Hello,

That's the old normal.

There isn't anything to fix people.

There isn't anything to fix.

And thank you,

Diana,

For the gift of love and light that you are in my life and in the world,

Because you reminded me of that.

There isn't anything to fix.

The reason why I say that is because for most of humanity,

For,

Like I said,

Several centuries,

We were indoctrinated that we are broken.

We're born broken.

We will always be broken unless we give ourselves up to somebody else or something else.

And this is where the cults come in and people get stuck and confused because they think that they are fundamentally broken when they come into a lifetime.

And that is not true.

That was necessary for whatever was going on several centuries ago,

Even maybe one century ago.

That is not the truth now,

People,

Because consciousness has shifted so dramatically and each and every person on the planet is receiving a paradigm download that if you become aware of what your triggers are that are causing you to feel less than or causing you to not trust your judgment or causing you to judge yourself first and others,

Then it's because this new ideology,

If you will,

This new information is being processed into our DNA,

Our mind,

Our brain systems,

Our cells.

Okay,

I know it sounds weird,

But this is what is occurring.

And so when you trip into a pocket of self doubt,

At least in my current experience,

It is because there is old belief systems,

Old emotional,

Energetic hooks that need to be released,

Need to be let go of in order for you to have a more expansive and a more connected life.

And that's part of what empowerment is,

Is moving from feeling less than or moving from old ways of being and creating,

Co-creating and actualizing something that's better than what was.

And if we keep going back to what was,

Which seems to be what's happening right now in the world,

A lot of let's go back to what was and fix it because we can't move forward until we fix it.

And you're just recreating the same old garbage.

You just keep going back into the dumpster and you're diving deep to figure out what you need to fix when you don't even need the dumpster anymore,

People.

There is no garbage dumping place you need to go to because we are in this new paradigm of self-acceptance,

Self-acceptance and self-love and self-empowerment.

So I want to read to you a quote from my mentor,

Ernest Holmes,

Because it kind of,

He addresses this.

So one,

He says,

One should analyze oneself saying,

Do I look at myself from a standpoint of restriction?

This is very important people.

Do I see life limited to the eternal round of getting up in the morning,

Eating,

Going to work,

Coming home,

Going to bed,

Sleeping,

Getting up again,

And so on.

Break the bonds of apparent necessity and see life as one continuous expression of the infinite self.

And as this conception gradually dawns upon the inner thought,

Something will happen in the outer conditions to relieve the greater demands of necessity.

So what he's saying here guys is if we only live our life from this idea that it's necessary I do all these things and we get stuck in that rut,

Then it's very hard to see our way out or climb out of that pocket of self doubt even.

So what Ernest Holmes goes on to say is free yourself forever from the thought that the infinite,

That spirit may be pleased by a life of sacrifice.

Are you listening?

That the world is any better because of your misery or that righteousness is more perfectly expressed through poverty than abundance.

Know that the greater abundance of every good thing which you are bringing out in your life,

The more perfectly you are satisfying the divine urge within you.

Anything you can dream of is not too great for you to undertake if it hurt no person and brings happiness and goodness into your life.

Now I don't know about you guys,

But I want to live my life from that.

I want to have an empowered life.

I want to live a rich and abundant and opulent life.

I want to be creative and feel free to express myself exactly as I am,

Exactly the truth of myself.

In this paradigm upshift,

That's what's occurring is letting go of what used to make sense,

Which kind of puts you in a bit of a,

Well,

What makes sense now,

But the truth is the shifts and changes are for the greater good of humanity.

It's no longer the black and white system.

It's no longer the.

.

.

I'm not talking about color when I say black and white.

Do you know what I mean?

I'm talking about where you only see two gradations of life.

Life is multicolored.

It's incredibly beautiful when we can see that,

But if all we're doing is going through that,

Like you said,

The eternal rounds of getting up in the morning and going to work and coming home,

We're limiting ourselves.

We are creating a very small life experience and we're each,

Every single human being on the planet is here to be fully expressed as themselves and to be fully accepted as themselves.

The black and white thinking or the old paradigm,

The old normal of having to fit into the box,

That round peg in a square box or the square peg in a round box or whatever that is,

I broke my box down years ago,

But whatever that is,

Continually trying to make ourselves perform or be good for other people,

For our bosses,

For whatever it is,

The climbing up the corporate ladder so I can have this thing that I think I want,

The house or the cars or the whatever,

All that is gone.

It doesn't work anymore.

And the trying to fix what was or trying to fix what is doesn't work anymore either.

It is really about finding an inner foundation of love and loving yourself more than you ever have,

Like I said.

And so in order to live an empowered life and climb out of the pockets of self-doubt that you may find yourself in,

It's very important to begin to build an inner foundation of loving yourself.

And I don't know if I said this earlier,

But I'm going to say it again.

One of the ways,

Because I was in a pocket of self-doubt is journaling,

Is writing out all the things that are working for you.

Not the stuff that you're whining about,

Not the stuff that you're throwing your pity party about,

But the stuff that is working,

That I did accomplish this yesterday or I do have this in my life,

Whether it's love or a friend or I have a new puppy,

So maybe it's a puppy.

But whatever it is that contributes to you feeling lighter and not so dark and to you feeling more empowered or more self-accepting,

Journal that out.

Make a list if you have to do lists,

But write it down for yourself so you can remind yourself,

Oh yes,

Yes,

Today I have these things.

Instead of rewinding into the old idea of where you didn't fit in or where you didn't do enough or where you should have been this other person that you aren't,

All those things.

Because again,

Everyone,

That is done.

That shaming,

Blaming,

Pointing the finger at someone else,

Taking over responsibility for other people's mistakes,

Neglecting yourself,

Not nurturing yourself,

All of that is done.

It's old.

If you continue to operate from there,

You're going to find yourself in a lot of pockets of self-doubt.

In fact,

I don't know that you'll be able to step without falling into one.

The only way to get out of the pockets of self-doubt that I've experienced is by rebuilding my inner foundation of self-love and remembering what my purpose is here on the planet.

My purpose is to connect everyone into that inner well of self-love,

Self-respect,

And self-esteem so that they can live an empowered life.

In fact,

The clients I work with,

I call it a journey because I've journeyed.

I've walked this path before,

Which is why I guess I needed to share that I was going through pockets of self-doubt this week.

Because if you haven't walked it and lived it,

It's really hard to explain it.

The clients that I work with,

I help clients learn how to live a life of freedom,

Owning your brilliance and claiming your opulence,

Claiming the richness of your life,

The goodness of your life.

We do that.

I do that by identifying and then removing not only mental and emotional blocks,

But the energetic blocks because the energy systems hook in deeper and we will find ourselves rewinding to old behavior that we thought we had completed or healed or let go of.

In removing those energy systems,

You are able to then gain deeper courage and build an inner foundation of self-love.

I do this just by healing and shifting your inner perspective of yourself and your outer perspective of your world and tearing down whatever barriers you may have been exposed to or put up.

I said just a few minutes ago,

I got out of my box.

I let go of my box.

Sometimes I find myself in a different box,

But the old box,

I don't got anymore.

That's what I do when I work with clients is I help individuals learn how to live an empowered life.

It's a great journey and I hope that you will allow me,

Susan Burrell,

To be your guide.

That wraps up our chat for today.

Thanks for joining me.

If you want to learn more,

Go to susanburrell.

Com.

You can contact me through the website.

There's blogs for you to read.

There are videos to watch and remember,

I am an intuitive healer and spiritual guide at the Crossroads of Life.

I would be more than honored to help you on your journey to live an empowered life.

Here it is.

Reviews

Insightful, thought-provoking. Provided me with a few nuggets of inspiration as I contemplate and navigate a period of near-crippling shame and doubt fueled by a lack of sel-discipline/self-love. Thanks for putting this out there. 🫶🏼

Thanks for a great attitude to wake up to

Just what I needed