There is so much pain tied to habits that has turned into addictions.
Addictions are habits,
Bad habits that do not serve us.
And when we are attached to another person who has an addiction,
A habit that is not serving that person,
Then we have a co-addiction.
We are our love,
Our blood,
That we feel we owe somebody to stand by their side.
We can have a biological imbalance that we always help.
That gives us afraidness to stand in our self-imbalance.
And in that case,
We will almost always end up in relationships that is not balanced.
Where we are controlled,
We let ourselves be controlled,
And we give the addicted person the ability to keep lying to himself,
To you,
Or I should also say herself,
Because this is not a man thing or a woman thing who is the,
In some cases,
Abuser and abused.
Because it goes far enough,
And especially if there is addiction to drugs involved,
It will at one point end up in some kind of physical or mental abuse.
So,
Dear friend,
We are going to do a meditation together to ask for help into co-addictive relationships.
Not to break them,
Not to find an easy way out or a solution.
We are going to ask for these subtle threads of light,
Enlightenment,
Enlightenment that we call mercy.
Not that we stop to do things or stop to take responsibility,
But we let our dream body lead us to observe,
To make choices,
To stand in our love or our commitment or what it is.
It's not to give away our own programs,
But sometimes our programs is a habit that is keeping us down.
And in that case,
We will start to slowly in our own time and tempo,
Change little by little or by programming those unhealthy habits that always let us be the victim,
The helper,
The provider.
Because we do not serve the addicted,
We do not serve ourselves.
If we really want to have a relationship in communication and love,
We have to trust that we are worth loving,
That by being strong in this way,
Then we are helped by the spirits,
Not willpower strong,
But to be strong enough to trust the universe's help.
We can find communication,
Love,
Hope.
It's not a guarantee that it will work out,
But it is our only chance.
We cannot stand any longer,
Or we can until we are so pressed that one day we burst out in anger,
We end relationships,
We hurt each other.
So let us now go into a meditation to search for guidance and help.
If you want,
You can close your eyes.
I have already closed mine.
It is not that we are in the same room,
But somehow the vibrations of my voice is now vibrating in your ear.
Time,
Space,
In this way does not exist.
And in the real way,
It does not exist.
So what was the past is not the future.
The future,
What is now,
Is my voice.
Consider it the voice of a soul friend.
Who knows what addiction is?
Who knows what co-addiction is?
There are no easy answers.
You can only see what you stand in yourself.
It is not like I am a psychologist or a shaman over you.
I am a person who suffer,
Who has suffered,
And who is willing to suffer in the future if that is for the best to understand.
But you do not want more suffering than necessary.
To ask for joy in this life that we are given,
All of us together.
And that this person in our lives that makes us co-addicted will also find this enjoyment to smile,
To make choices.
Maybe they choose not to be with us.
We cannot keep together in fear.
We must keep together in a free choice on both sides to believe that we are good enough to be chosen.
A bow that dictates ghost that is living inside the brain.
Because we also have a ghost inside our brains.
The ghost of being left alone.
The ghost of not being good enough to be loved,
To be chosen as we are.
To not let other people press us down.
To feel good enough in the way they are acting in their habits.
Made maybe years ago,
Back in the childhood,
In a former life,
In the DNA.
Addiction is bad choices made in the need of survival in a cold environment,
In trauma.
Co-addiction is bad habits made in the childhood to be able to get some love.
To be seen,
To not be left alone in the family,
By friends,
By old lovers,
By jealousy directed at us or even hate in this life,
In childhood or in a former life.
We now ask the spirits,
Like a circle of light and love,
To embrace our body.
Fill the aura around our bodies in a new circle together.
We are not alone.
We are enlightened.
We have communication at this moment.
The suffering was not the reason why we came.
The suffering is there for learning.
It's all learning to take responsibility slowly as we,
One step at a time when it feels comfortable.
Make our steps,
Breath,
Breathe through the feelings of anxiety,
Shivering hearts,
The feeling of not coping,
Of being left alone.
We breathe through that feeling and the next breath,
Make us see we are still alive in our bodies given to us on earth to be the home of our loving dream bodies.
We are angels in physical bodies set to make them happy,
Enlightened and to learn and enjoy the steps on earth.
To be grown-ups responsible enough to observe into the mistakes,
Into the pain,
Into the life and to be responsible for the little choices that in the end create the big choices.
This enlightenment is given us in so much love,
So much compassion,
So many tears of understanding in the pain that we sit on,
On the shoulders of and still we feel that little spark of hope in our heart.
I am worth loving.
I am lovable.
I am love.
I am light.
I let my vision be enlightened.
Observe and take responsibility of one little choice at a time for this light and happiness and love that my heart desire.
And we breathe in light and we breathe out light for each other,
Enlightenment for each other,
Vibrations of communication and love.
And as we breathe out,
We let our dream bodies fall down to earth where we have left the things we don't need for each breath.
For each breath,
There are things that can go back to earth.
Namaste.
And when you feel like it,
Your dream body feel like it,
It opens your eyes into this frequency we call the life,
The normal world.
