Today I am thinking about the things that I'm tolerating in my life.
What am I tolerating?
What situations,
People,
Words,
What is it that I'm tolerating?
What is it that I'm receiving and accepting in my life?
Why am I being tolerant sometimes?
Is it because I'm afraid of something or is it because I find happiness in something that I just accepted as a reality in my life?
Is it because I decided to be happy with it or am I calling myself tolerant because I in fact am afraid of something in particular and so I am accepting something in my life because of being afraid of doing something,
Of saying something,
Of being something,
Of being true to myself?
Is it because I'm afraid or because I am in a place of love that I'm calling myself tolerant?
Is it making me happy or afraid?
Is it expanding me in a way that I feel that I'm knowing myself better,
Accepting myself better,
Shining more or is it from a place where I feel stuck,
Silent,
With no expression,
With the lack of freedom?
What is it that I am tolerating?
What's the meaning of me being tolerant?
Sometimes we put ourselves in some sort of situations that lead us to a place of darkness,
Of feeling not okay with this person or with this situation or with this action or with this reality in fact.
There's something in our lives that we are not feeling as pleasant as we want it to be.
But why is that?
Is it because we are not conscious about it and we've just realized it and so we will search for a solution or is it because we decided that we don't deserve what we really want and so we are accepting this thing in particular because we feel,
We believe that we don't deserve more than that.
Why do we say the word tolerance?
What is that in fact?
Is it serving us because we see it as a great thing that is actually making us happy,
Making us see the good aspects of something that probably we could see as a bad thing but in fact we are actually looking at the good sides of it?
Or are we calling tolerance to those things that we don't want to accept but yet we resist to ourselves and we end up accepting it just because we want to be a good person for example,
Just because we believe that being tolerant is good for us,
Is good in society.
People will accept me more if I am tolerant because being tolerant means not creating a conflict,
Accepting,
Being harmonious,
Bringing harmony between people.
But what if I am believing that being tolerant is good but yet is doing a bad service to myself?
What if being tolerant actually means to me in this particular situation that I am looking at that I am being silenced in what comes to me,
My truth,
What I am?
What if I am putting this particular word tolerance into practice in my life in a way that doesn't serve me?
So today I am thinking about the things that I am actually tolerating because I got used to.
I got used to be a tolerant person for example because I got used to believe that being tolerant was good for me.
I was being seen as a good person,
Someone who tolerates.
I am looking at those things that don't serve me,
That in fact hurt me,
Destroy me in a way or in many ways or simply don't serve me or simply are not good for me.
I don't feel them as good for me and yet I am accepting them.
I keep feeling this feeling of resistance and so I call it tolerance because if I call it resistance or not wanting or not liking it or hating it for example,
It's not going to sound so well as being tolerant.
It's some kind of disguise for what in fact I am doing to myself.
So when I decide to accept something that doesn't serve me,
That I feel it's not good for me and I don't have the courage to face it and change it and be part of a solution,
I then call myself tolerant to disguise what in fact is happening to me,
What in fact I am choosing to do with myself in that particular situation or in those particular situations that I see in my reality.
And then I keep attracting more and more because I decided that they were going to be part of my life and maybe I forgot that I decided that long time ago for example and then I don't think about that decision anymore and I keep actually choosing the same every day and seeing the same result because once I decided that I was going to tolerate that in my life.
But what if I decide that I am going to look at those details with the glasses of light of what really serves me as a soul in this planet.
Then maybe I can see clear what in fact is serving me and not serving me so well and then I can feel in each of those details what is it that I am tolerating and in fact I don't want to tolerate anymore.
Not tolerating it is not going to make me a bad person.
Really maybe it's going to make me a real person,
Someone who speaks their truth,
Someone who stands up for themselves.
So today I am feeling this wish of looking into my reality with the eyes of source and really feel and see what in fact am I tolerating that I don't want in my life anymore and when I do that for each single particular thing in my life that I feel I am tolerating and I don't want it anymore I decide that I will be part of a better solution,
A better choice,
A better answer.
I decide that I am going to answer with words of wisdom and truth and light and I will no more tolerate these things that don't serve me and if it requires courage then I will have it.
The only way for me to be happy is to keep pursuing my true nature,
Is to keep speaking my truth more and more and yes sometimes it's hard but I want to be at ease feeling that I am in that direction,
The direction of my true nature.
