One of the things that can surprise people who've had a spiritual opening is the feelings that they have that they're doing something wrong,
That they're doing the journey wrong.
You know,
You're not,
But it will feel like that.
The reason it feels like that is because allowing the deeper perceptions of the heart,
The more sensitive perceptions to allow more of the compassionate side of our natures to come up has been taboo in this culture.
And I think that,
You know,
It can be a shock to realize this.
And a lot of the characteristics that come up with an awakening,
The parts of us that have been pushed down are actually are really loving parts.
They're parts of more of the feminine aspect of ourselves.
So,
You know,
Especially for women,
It can be shocking because they start to wake up and then they feel like,
Oh,
It's taboo.
I can't.
I'm doing it wrong.
I'm doing it wrong.
Look at what's coming up in me.
It's not allowed.
You see,
The trouble is that when things have been repressed,
When they come up,
They're often,
They don't,
They're not in good shape.
You know,
They don't look good.
If we've repressed,
Say,
Our compassion and our love power,
When it first comes up,
It can be really kind of,
It can come up as a kind of really stuck in your head quality.
Oddly enough,
That is what the seeker will experience,
How stuck in the head they are and how rigid they are.
But it's just really,
Really,
It's just the compassion that's been repressed,
Wanting to come up.
So,
This is what makes the journey so confusing sometimes.
So,
But the point of this video is if you do feel that you're doing it wrong or it's not allowed,
That's just what your ego is telling you.
The spiritual journey is fundamentally kind of messy,
You know,
Because you're always having to turn and love out the qualities in yourself that are not working,
You know,
For the ego stuff,
The parts of you that are not very nice,
Maybe.
You have to,
You know,
Put your arms around them and allow these attributes to heal.
It's like,
Say,
We might go around with,
Like,
We might be a bit greedy,
Say,
We go around with a fear of lack,
It makes us greedy.
So,
It's coming up to be healed.
We may feel,
You know,
We may have to feel the full feeling of lack coming up really intensely for the healing to occur.
And this is part of what might feel like it's taboo that you're not doing it right,
But it's actually your fear clearing so that you can walk forward with more compassion.
So,
On the journey,
Sometimes we go through really uncomfortable periods,
But it's okay.
Just keep the focus on your heart and on who you're wanting to become.
Yeah.
There's a great soul inside you that's wanting to be freed up.
And,
You know,
Women sometimes walk around in kind of a prison because they don't feel they can come from their feminine.
So,
They're so careful and watchful about their appearance,
But they may resent this underneath because they may,
You know,
Feel like that it's their birthright to,
You know,
To be able to express your true nature.
But,
You know,
We might,
Women often,
I notice they'll watch themselves a lot in a supervisory way.
And instead of just speaking the truth,
They'll go around it or avoid it because underneath they feel they can't have their true nature.
They can't be free,
But you can.
You can.
And the world really needs this loving feminine energy.
And if you've got the courage to just allow it and to just put your arms around yourself when you're clearing your negativity and then make the shift into expressing more of your true nature,
And it will be so worthwhile.
You know,
In my journey,
I've had so many spiritual fires where I was just saw so much darkness in me and so many misunderstandings.
And then,
You know,
I just ask the universe for compassion.
I take it all to God.
And then I would be reborn and my love would be stronger.
I hope this makes sense.
Really,
I'm just wanting to help,
You know,
Give you the confidence to become your true self because who you really are is so much better than any fake version of yourself that you learned.
Okay,
Bless your heart.
