Turn To Unconditional Love And Look Out For Miracles

There is something about being in Premasudha's company during Satsang that helps weave unconditional love into our bodies. Inevitably, our minds too, open up until we gradually understand ourselves and our lives better and feel warmer to others and safer in life in general.

In the great peace of unconditional love, amazing events, both inside and outside occur, as a kind of empirical evidence of the love power present. At one point, even Premasudha's unattended phone interrupted, calling the name of the satsang member she was speaking to, and reflecting on the point Premasudha was making. Humorous empirical evidence of Awareness is present.
What's not to love?

Transcript

I just want to give a shout out to somebody who I guess I've known for more than ten years.

She's been a seeker coming for sessions,

And sometimes with seekers we don't know how many lifetimes of emotional complexes we have.

We don't know the load we have to face,

And this woman has walked around in very deep levels of pain,

Facing what she had to this life,

And she has had the experience of bliss.

It's just a medal of honor for this woman,

Because I witness just extreme levels of pain,

And at the same time I would have the feeling I can't get through.

So it was painful for this one,

Too.

But I actually think when this one feels pain,

That actually helps the process,

You know,

It's not a waste.

This is a triumph of the human spirit that this woman experienced her soul,

Experienced her bliss,

And it's a reassurance to all of you,

Wherever you are,

That our soul really,

We are our souls,

And we can deepen into that experience.

And somebody who's achieved self-realization is walking around with a baseline of that bliss.

It's always there,

And at the same time they're doing the work.

It's like Amma talks about when she achieved self-realization,

She sat around for about two weeks just in bliss,

And you know,

My feeling is this incredible woman deserved it,

Because if you read about her childhood and what she went through,

It's off the charts.

And so around 18 or so,

She experienced self-realization and bliss,

And then she got the message after two weeks.

She had a little holiday,

They gave her a holiday,

And then it was kind of okay to go back to work.

So again,

There's a baseline of bliss,

But if you're working with helping people clear,

And you're working with the collective,

There is a degree of dissonance on top of that.

There's a level that no matter where we are in the journey,

We are always beginners.

That is the safest perspective,

No matter where you are,

Because it will keep you humble,

And it will keep you walking carefully.

The razor's edge,

You know,

Spiritual journey,

Razor's edge,

Yep,

You got to watch your step.

Mama talks about that,

And this was after she was self-realized,

She was giving darshan and everything,

And she just had the thought of,

Oh,

I'd like a lovely sari,

I don't know,

In some colors.

And the next day or so,

A couple,

A fairly impoverished couple,

Came forward and gave her this expensive sari,

And she went,

I'm never doing that again.

It's just the remembrance that we're in our humanity,

Staying with a beginner's mind wherever you are,

Because that actually draws another thing I wanted to talk about,

And I say this with a gentle smile and a warm heart,

But,

You know,

Sometimes when I'm talking to you,

And I'm talking to individuals in the satsang,

And it's clear that there is a level of judgment of some of the processes of the people who are asking questions,

But for me,

I would see that maybe even though it looked messy,

The question that was asked and the process looked messy,

That that person was higher up the mountain than the person that was judging them for the slightly messy process,

Do you see?

I'm just like,

I just have to say that you can't really,

You've got to watch that stuff,

Because in the case of a few of the people I've been talking to,

They haven't even begun to do that level that the people in the messy process are doing,

So it's a very gentle,

You know,

Tug at the sleeves,

Because I think back to myself and what I was like,

So I can't really judge anybody here,

So,

But I just thought I'd spell that out,

And for the people who are coming forward with the messy sounding messy,

It's like they need a really safe place.

I'm feeling a wonderful persistence in all of you.

That is something else I wanted to raise.

Okay,

So when I was talking about last week or so,

That it was like a spiritual journey was like going for the gold,

You know,

Going for a gold medal like an Olympic athlete.

Okay,

Now it might be easy to get caught into that idea of doing something,

You know,

Doing a spiritual journey,

Doing the practices,

Keeping it in mind,

But with a doing energy,

And I'll tell you,

That will get you nowhere,

So I just want to shine a light on these subtleties to save you wasting any time.

So when I was talking about going for the gold,

Like an Olympic athlete,

You could also say like an extreme sport,

An extreme sport.

It is the deep sincerity of the goal.

So the Olympic athlete doesn't watch too much TV,

You know,

Their life is just dedicated to this processor,

And it's that.

It's more like an inner dedication,

A consuming dedication that's not coming from doing,

That's coming from a feeling of being and how much one wants to know the creator in oneself and express the creator,

Know the Amma within us and express that inner Amma.

Yeah,

It's a very deep feeling,

Being level.

And,

You know,

For Westerners,

Like I said,

I was talking yesterday in the question and answer,

Getting past the doing can be a challenge.

You know,

I wrote a post for LinkedIn once about motherhood,

And it's like,

When did motherhood turn into a doing thing?

Because motherhood is truly,

It's a being state with doing coming from the being.

Like the doing coming from a great love of the children,

So you cook for them,

Bathe them out of love.

That is true motherhood.

And when did it become like a list,

A to-do list?

You know,

You see,

No wonder we have confusion,

You guys.

No wonder we don't know how to experience the creator within us with this kind of conditioning,

Which is just getting worse.

But the good news is it will get so bad that we'll be returned to being again.

The pendulum goes back and forth,

You know.

Nothing's bad.

I mean,

Who are we if we're not doing?

Your love,

That's what you are.

Your pure love.

That's it.

And if you have,

You know,

A busy job and everything,

You just keep asking the creator to show you how to live,

Show you how to do things.

It's like,

You know,

One of my,

Well,

I don't want to say that,

But,

You know,

As one of the fellows,

This one's associated with the guy who's a neurologist and he self-realized.

So he found a way to do his job and meet social obligations and still become self-realized.

It can be done.

Just need to turn to the creator more.

Okay,

So that's the theme of today's satsang,

Turn to the creator more.

Yeah.

Turn to the creator more.

Yeah.

You know,

Amma talks about you have to walk out on thin ice.

You get the guidance from your heart and you follow it.

It's sort of like,

Is this okay?

Is this okay?

And then you'll find out that the thin ice holds and you don't crash through to the cold water and you can trust the guidance within.

Sometimes,

You know,

We don't want to actually make these steps.

We just want to come to satsang and hear it.

You know,

Remember that your life is your work of art and however brave you are is how far you're going to get.

Yeah.

Right.

That's what always got me.

It was like,

Well,

Nobody else was going to do it for me.

Yeah.

There's a lot more love coming through to you guys than you're feeling,

I feel.

Yeah,

Just to know that.

Just to know that.

Remember,

I talk about how our cells are covered with this alienation that we've learned.

So when love first comes,

It can feel foreign and not allowed.

But it's allowed.

Right.

And remember,

I was talking yesterday about that I'm so soft that this one has to get firm.

Otherwise,

We end up in cloud cuckoo land.

This one has to get firm with egos,

You guys.

So I just want to tell you a story of something that's happened with a satsang member who I'm very fond of,

But I just want to talk about,

And I hope she'll return,

But I just want to talk about how egos function.

So,

You know,

The starting now is firm.

There's this one admission to the satsang,

And it happened because people were coming in at all times,

And it was disturbing the energy.

And I can't allow that.

So one time,

This lovely woman came too late,

And so she was circling around,

But I couldn't let her in.

And then I explained why that I had to be firm with these things.

Well,

This happened again several months later.

So she came one minute too late,

But you know,

Again,

This firmness came with having asked for everybody to be prompt many times,

And she was ignored.

And they can't have that,

You guys,

Can't have that.

So I didn't let her in,

And she's very upset with this one,

And she feels abandoned.

But you see how the ego set it up?

The firmness was already explained.

So for her to do it again,

But for her,

She's experiencing that she was abandoned and rejected.

Right.

See,

This is the ego story.

I don't know whether she'll come back or not.

I hope so.

I hope she can see through this whole charade.

Right.

So this is what it's like working with us,

And we get into temporary blindness.

I'll tell you,

When your ego's up,

You will see everything kind of upside down,

And you'll think it's true.

Yeah.

The teacher will seem deluded and harsh.

Yeah.

So it just depends what you do with it,

What you do with it,

And how humble you can be.

It's not particularly to this one,

Just humble in face of life,

Humble in face of the process of learning.

You know,

If this dear one gets over this and can see how her ego grabbed her and set up something that was doomed to fail,

Her life will open up.

It'll absolutely open up.

But it's also why this one's very firm about these boundaries and about when the egos are operating,

You guys.

It cannot be indulged.

Otherwise,

We end up like losing the plot.

It's hard enough for Westerners because we're so outward focused.

So it's almost like we have to hold to the center with all our heart and all our might,

And any teacher has to in the teaching process.

Right.

Okay,

Good.

You guys,

There's a level that you're feeling safer.

I feel like I've almost swaddled a baby,

And the baby's feeling safe with the swaddle.

That's so interesting.

Right.

You have to know that your mom is,

She knows what she's doing.

Right.

Okay,

This is very,

Very good.

There's some of you who dance around sort of the outside of the satsang or,

You know,

Casual,

Little casual about it,

Which is fine.

It's fine.

But often,

It's a level of alienation within you that your ego doesn't want you to face.

So you come sometimes and go sometimes.

Yeah.

It's sort of like,

You know,

In a relationship,

Like keeping a relationship lukewarm,

So that nobody's rattled too much.

Yeah.

Sort of like,

You know,

Somebody who's dating you and dates you for a while,

But then if it gets too close,

And you don't see him or her for like three weeks.

Yeah.

I want to talk about shame.

This is prevalent.

You know,

This one felt it in herself a lot in my earlier years.

And the hard thing is,

With the journey,

Sometimes when you're moving into truth,

And you're taking an action into truth,

You can feel ashamed of it.

And it's like the ego is trying to stop you from loving,

Basically.

But some of us are circulating in shame,

And we haven't even accessed our true soul energy yet.

So I want to speak to this.

Okay.

One is,

You know,

The one of the commandments,

Honor thy father and thy mother.

You know,

I think it was in my 50s before it dawned on me that if I could see the goodness and greatness of my parents,

That I could see my own goodness and greatness to understand.

And as long as I was seeing them as second rate people,

I was functioning as a second rate person.

I'm not kidding you guys about this.

And it works the other way,

That if you see your goodness and greatness,

You'll be able to see it in your parents.

Okay.

You know,

With the kids,

When they grew up,

You know,

And I told you,

They told me the best thing I ever did as a mom was get the dog,

The golden retriever.

Well,

The other thing I saw that was very humbling was that because I had not truly deeply forgiven my mom and dad,

I actually wounded my kids in the same way,

But a different version.

Yeah.

Yeah.

That was very shocking to me.

But,

You know,

I forgave myself because really not to wound our kids,

We'd have to be self-realized,

You know,

Like,

You know,

It's just,

It's just the human condition to the extent that we're in our egos,

We'll wound our kids.

But that was very sobering for me to see.

So when I saw that,

You know,

That when I honored my parents and saw the golden them,

I could see the golden me,

I realized why we had that commandment,

Honor thy father and thy mother.

Yeah.

It's pretty simple.

And in our eras,

You know,

We're very focused on trauma and all the things we're doing wrong.

And we,

We kind of ignore the good things and the strengths,

Say,

Of our parents.

You know,

Amma says,

Nowadays,

The modern mind is like,

They'll look at a painting and they'll see,

You know,

The black spot on a white canvas,

And that's all they'll see,

The black spot.

But really,

The rest of the white canvas,

There's a symphony of whites and different brushstrokes and everything that just don't get noticed.

We just see the dark,

You know,

We really do tend to do this until we have allowed our hearts to wake up.

Right.

To be able to see the gold within us,

You guys,

And then we can see it in others.

Yeah,

I want to say,

Julie,

See the gold,

Sweet,

See the golden yourself,

Sweet one.

Yeah.

Yeah,

You're gold.

Solid gold.

Solid gold heart.

Does anybody have any questions or comments?

Not that you should.

But as I said,

You know,

And we do have question and answer sessions,

But I did say that when you actually come forward and ask a question,

You're actually opening to the creator within you by doing it.

There's another thing I want to talk about.

This one got,

Made progress by embracing herself no matter what.

No matter how difficult or smelly or corrupt or whatever,

It was like there was nowhere else to go.

So I just ended up embracing myself and,

You know,

Giving over to the creator and letting myself be shown.

Okay.

So one of the things I saw is that even when our thoughts erupt,

You know,

With something we don't want to think about,

Even the topic of the erupting thoughts will be telling you something about your journey.

Okay,

Now,

I don't know how useful this information is for many of you.

But it's,

It's kind of how this one navigated.

Now,

A lot of the,

These thought eruptions,

You won't,

You won't be able to see the,

The message in these thought eruptions until later,

Till after it's over.

But the usefulness is that you might,

It might help your self-knowledge.

Okay,

So there's a lovely young man who was with a,

You know,

He considered the love of his life,

But he kept on having these thoughts about this girl from 10 years ago who actually rejected him.

And it was really bothering him.

And he was thinking,

Well,

You know,

I don't know that I'm going to be able to,

To marry the love of my life.

Maybe it's all going to go off.

I'm going to really off.

I'm going to really ruin things.

So he got more and more heady,

More and more trying to fix,

Right?

Okay,

Think of yourself in that situation.

I mean,

This is what we do.

We sort of get in a pressure cooker with whatever is happening,

And we,

We,

We try to fix or want to fix it.

Okay,

So there are a couple of clues to this,

The thoughts that were erupting.

One is,

This girl had rejected him,

Had made her lack of interest very clear.

So my,

My bet is this guy actually has trouble receiving love and has trouble validating his true nature,

Which is like most of us,

And he's young.

So blessings,

You know,

It's all good.

But do you see the message in choosing to obsess about this person who rejected him?

Yeah.

Showing how he's treating himself,

Really,

His own dear heart.

So this one just helped him with,

Kind of into a wild self-acceptance,

Which is this one's forte,

You know,

Because it's the only thing that works.

A wild self-acceptance,

You guys,

That is what,

That's what the journey is,

Finally.

But so I want you to like,

Not make everything bad.

It's more like get curious,

You know,

If you've got some thoughts coming up,

Get curious to what the roots of them are.

And even if you can't get that knowledge till later,

If you don't really decode it till after it's over,

Just knowing that everything about you is a value,

Okay?

It's like there's gold in the mud of the lotus.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Just the getting curious and paying attention and observing.

And one of the places you guys get hooked is where a dear one was speaking yesterday about she woke up feeling really good and she went,

Oh great,

I'm doing it.

I'm really getting the journey.

And with that,

You know,

She went off because if we've got a vested interest in it,

If we've got a bad and good running about our states,

We're circulating in our ego,

You guys.

The witness,

It's really important,

You guys,

The witness is neutral.

You know all the talk about witnessing yourself.

It's a neutral witness because the thing that's witnessing you is your soul.

Your soul doesn't do bad or good at all.

And it is the act of witnessing because it's your soul that's doing it.

It will gradually dissolve the darkness without you having to do something about it or fix yourself.

This is the most important thing for most of you to get.

So you can really,

Really like begin your journey in a useful way because it really,

It can't really start until you are witnessing from the soul.

Because,

You know,

There are a number who witness from the ego and you think it's a soul and it's not.

It's the ego and it's giving,

The ego is giving editorial comment about bad or good or whatever.

Right.

This is the difficulty with the journey,

You guys.

But if you keep going,

Wherever you are,

If you keep going,

You will find this neutral witness.

And this one will validate it when you do.

It takes a lot of courage to realize that maybe one's been a bit deluded.

Like,

Tell me about it,

You guys.

Yeah,

It takes a lot of humility and courage.

But it's sort of like if you're going for the gold,

The athlete who's going for the gold,

They just,

You know,

Keep going.

The witness is neutral.

And that's why all you really need to do is witness.

Because if you witness,

The darkness will dissolve.

And the reason the darkness will dissolve is because when you as you witness your process,

You will feel sorrow at the being stuck in the darkness,

You will feel sorrow at being stuck in shame or confusion.

You guys,

It's a very loving process.

It's love.

You're loved.

It's actually heartbreaking to see the kind of,

You know,

I've got to fix myself that's operating so,

So strongly.

And you see,

To get to the witness,

You have to be really,

Really interested in finding that.

And it doesn't,

You know,

It's,

It's a challenge to get there.

It can take some years to get there.

But you get brought to it.

Your soul's doing it,

You know.

Your soul's like I said,

Your soul brings you into,

It brings you into trouble and takes you through the trouble.

It's like,

Whatever you're going through is your soul's curriculum this life.

You haven't made any mistakes.

It's all the curriculum.

It's hard for you guys to believe that.

Mama says it,

She says it's already happened.

So if it's already happened,

Then whatever you're going through is already happened.

It's your curriculum.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Michael,

Please.

Go ahead.

Hi,

Premasutha.

What you just said about feeling neutral.

I understand what you mean.

And,

You know,

My head understands it.

But when I think about seeing things neutrally,

It's almost like,

Well,

That means that I won't experience,

Or I wouldn't experience any emotion.

You know what I mean?

I mean,

I know it's not what you mean,

But I just have trouble connecting the two.

Okay.

So your question is,

What exactly?

How am I supposed to feel neutral,

And then experience the emotions that come with that?

Where do you think you've asked that question from?

I mean,

I guess it's a head question.

Pretty much.

You know,

If you feel enough sorrow at being as stuck as you are,

And you're not feeling it,

And you're not feeling it,

And you're not feeling it,

If you feel enough sorrow,

At being as stuck as you are in your head,

And I say this with great respect,

Michael,

Because,

You know,

You did fantastic work yesterday.

And also,

I've been watching you over these months.

So I say this with great respect.

But truly,

When you really feel the sorrow of being so stuck in your head,

You will drop down into your heart.

And you will be able to witness.

And if you don't want to drop down out of your head into your heart,

You won't witness.

So how do you feel about what I just said?

I know that's right.

But I,

To be honest,

I don't know if I can.

I mean,

I'd really like to.

But I don't know if I can.

Right.

And when you say,

I don't know if I can,

Who's the I that you're speaking from?

Is it your ego or your soul?

Yeah,

Well,

I mean,

It's not my soul.

Right.

So just seeing that you're speaking from your ego,

And you're going,

I don't know if I can.

And we both know the ego will have to dissolve.

This I in you will have to die before you can witness.

It's the ego that stops the witnessing.

It's the I that you're speaking from that stops the witnessing.

Just getting that,

Michael,

It's not a fixed thing.

Just getting that understanding is kind of the key to witnessing.

And even if this just knocks out a few legs under the foundation of this ego,

That's good.

It's a good exercise.

It's not wasted.

It's good.

So what are you doing with this?

As we're talking,

What are you doing with it?

And what sensations are you getting in your body?

Fear.

Okay,

Good.

Fear and well,

Yeah,

Mainly fear.

Fear and sorry,

What was the thing that you didn't want to say?

I haven't been feeling so great since yesterday.

I feel a bit weepy.

And yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

And we worked together yesterday and you moved into a much bigger being present at the end,

Right after our wrestling that a bit,

Right?

You moved into becoming more present.

Okay.

So I actually feel that in the integration of that session,

That you're going to find that you're much farther along than you think you are right now.

Okay.

So that's the good news.

So let yourself be swaddled a bit there and reassured.

It's okay.

It's almost like I don't want to know anymore when I'm further along.

Otherwise I'll get smug again.

It's like,

Even that's a danger.

Oh,

Trust yourself a little more,

Man.

Don't get phobic that way.

Like we're bumbling idiots.

PhD.

What is it?

PhD.

And what's my word?

Idiocy.

Yeah.

Like,

Come on,

Relax.

This is what we're like.

We take ourselves so seriously,

Like we're goof.

I can't say goofballs.

My son told me it means something terrible.

So again,

Even that,

Okay,

I can't use that word.

You know,

Listen,

Michael,

It's just great that you're doing this.

Yeah.

I mean,

I want to do it.

It's just a minefield.

Am I a mind,

Not a minefield?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Hold on.

I'm going to,

You know,

It is the law of the jungle in lots of ways.

The spiritual journey has that aspect.

I mean,

You know,

The eat or be eaten,

It's a little bit,

We either do it or we don't,

And we get the results.

It is,

You know,

It's got a bloodless,

Tough quality.

But with a spiritual journey,

If we're really deeply sincere,

We get through anything.

Okay.

Innocence is invincible.

So you could have the ego,

The size of Everest.

And if you're really,

Really innocent,

You can achieve self-realization in one life.

Yeah.

So,

Dear one,

It's just what's going on in your heart is the most important thing.

And if you don't like stuff that you're doing,

Just put your arms around yourself and think to yourself,

Premasuddha loves you.

Okay.

Do that.

Think,

Premasuddha loves me.

If nobody else in the whole world does,

Premasuddha does.

Brahma,

Of course,

Does.

Does as well.

But really think that way,

You guys.

Think that.

Premasuddha loves you.

That's what all this is,

To help you Yeah.

And if you get that Premasuddha loves you,

Then it will be easier for you to witness yourself,

Actually.

Whatever works,

You guys.

Whatever works,

Just do it.

Well,

Michael,

Like I said,

You know,

You're kind of a late starter,

You know.

So,

Yeah,

It's kind of tougher in a way,

But I know you've got a heart of gold in there.

You've got flexibility,

And you moved into,

I think you'll see that more work was done in that session than you realize.

Yeah.

I'll tell you what,

Michael,

Just focus on being kind to other people.

Stop thinking about Michael.

Just hold doors open for him.

Kind to other people.

Stop thinking about Michael.

Just hold doors open for people.

Give people money.

Do that.

That's what works,

You guys.

That's what works.

Really.

Really.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You could also write a letter to the universe,

Michael,

And say,

In six months,

You want to be able to witness yourself,

And you want this transition to be as gentle and easy as possible.

Or you could say,

You know,

Eight months,

Whatever,

And burn it,

And then forget about it.

And I'll tell you,

It will tend to happen.

I have done that so many times.

When I was faced with something I could not solve,

But don't think every day,

Okay,

I wrote that letter,

So in eight months,

I'm going to be free.

Don't do that.

That's like digging up the seed that you've just planted.

Yeah.

You guys,

The journey is actually easy,

In the sense of these simple things work.

And if you really want it,

I promise you will get it.

I promise you.

It just cannot happen that someone who's sincere doesn't make progress.

Always progress gets made.

What I'd like you guys to realize more is to admit,

And I say this with love,

But like how insincere and conflicted you are really about the journey,

Okay?

Many of you.

And I say this with great love and patience.

It's not like a bad thing.

If you can see it,

Then you can drop down into more sincerity.

Do you see?

Every step of the journey will bring you into being more sincere.

And if you can see how conflicted you are about actually allowing it and give that over,

Then grace will come in.

But you guys,

Again,

I'm calling a spade a spade.

Many of us love our thought processes.

We love our thought processes more than we love our souls.

Really,

You guys.

So we keep playing in our thought processes.

Yeah,

This has been a bit like home truth.

Another thing I want to say for,

You know,

The coming out of shame,

You guys,

Is,

You know,

Not only that,

Honor thy father and mother,

Look for the gold in them,

But also follow through with your journey.

You see,

The more you act along the lines of where your soul wants you to go,

The more self-respect you're going to get.

If you're refusing to take any action where you really have to embody your soul more,

You will not have feelings of self-respect.

You'll have feelings of secretly hiding underneath,

Really deeply underneath.

You might feel that you're secretly hiding.

Yeah,

You know,

It is these really deep feelings underneath that are telling us the truth of what we're doing.

I told you that my eldest son,

John,

Until he was eight,

I would say,

How are you feeling?

From the time he was a little boy,

I'd say,

How are you feeling?

And he'd say,

I feel proud,

Mom.

And I'm like,

What's that?

Like,

You know,

It's kind of like thinking happy or sad.

And years later,

I realized that he was feeling proud for having overcome the leukemia and decided to live,

You see,

That he decided to face this lifetime.

So he felt proud.

He was proud of his decision.

It's like that.

And that's the good proud.

That's not the,

Like,

Pride.

That's like,

You know,

When you act in keeping with your true heart,

You feel,

Like,

Valuable.

You feel self-respect.

Because you know you're walking it.

This is really key,

You guys.

Because a lot of our patterning teaches us to be passive couch potatoes emotionally.

Like,

Even if we're not sitting watching TV,

We're deeply passive.

We don't tell the truth.

Often,

We don't tell the real truth.

We hide a lot.

We say what we think is acceptable.

We squish our impulses often.

You know,

I've told you,

I had an impulse to bring this rinpoche I was seeing.

I was deeply depressed,

And I had an impulse to bring him flowers.

And I squished it.

And then I started feeling like,

Pramasutra,

This is going the wrong way.

You know,

Honor the impulse.

Honor your impulses,

You guys.

So,

I got him yellow flowers.

And he was meditating on longevity.

And he gave me double the time.

And also,

My impulse was validated by him.

That he mentioned that he was meditating on longevity.

And the flowers,

The color of the flowers meant something to him.

Because yellow is the color of longevity in Tibet or wherever.

Yeah,

You guys.

This actually passiveness is,

It feels like the biggest problem.

What happens is you start feeling the cost of not coming forward.

The cost of not coming forward the cost of feeling heavy and confused.

The cost of that feels higher than just moving into truth.

Yeah,

I got,

I have so much empathy.

I mean,

I mean,

The journey is just takes so much.

And it can be so confusing sometimes.

But if we don't do it,

We just have to face another life.

You might,

You know,

If you're really sincere,

You guys,

You might ask yourself why you're so passive about your journey in some ways,

If it rings true.

If it rings true,

You can ask the universe to show you why.

And the universe will answer you.

It'll get woven in.

Okay.

Okay.

So,

I can feel all of you guys,

You're all turning outward.

And remember,

The secrets are inside.

Do you remember Archangel Gabriel came and I saw him and his message was,

Tell them the answers are inside.

I'd never seen one before.

I mean,

I'd heard them,

But this,

He showed himself showed himself to make the point to me,

Really,

I think,

To tell you guys to turn inside.

That is where the answers are.

You know,

Alma talks about how,

You know,

We go looking for,

We lose something,

We go looking for it on the outside,

Like outside,

Like our house outside.

But we lost it on the inside of our house.

We lost it inside ourselves.

That's where it can be found.

You know,

We can,

We can do courses,

We can even do yoga,

Kind of at the,

From the outside in at the body level,

Without listening.

Right?

It's the listening.

It's what you're scared of the listening.

And it's interesting because it's coming up and actually the fear around it's being reduced just by raising it.

Just by speaking of it so explicitly.

Right?

You can come more from the inside in your lives,

All of you.

Not a head process.

Huge amounts of love coming to you,

All of you,

Especially around this.

I mean,

You guys,

It's why you,

You turn up the satsangs because this one comes from the inside,

You know.

Saskia,

Did you have something to say?

Or was that a mistake?

No?

Okay.

Maxi,

You have something to say?

Yeah,

Sweetie.

Yes.

Hello.

When you just talked about these impulses,

I find it really,

Really hard to trust myself in these.

So I always think it's kind of coming from the head and I don't know if I should really do it.

And what bothers me around it is that I would love to trust myself more,

But I feel always like I should ask somebody,

Ask you,

Ask a friend,

Ask my sister.

And I'm kind of feeling also sick of it,

But I'm also feeling I'm so scared to really trust me and just take whatever comes.

So yeah,

Just sharing what came up.

So Maxi,

I guess we're going to put you in front of the Barring squad then,

You know,

Because you won't trust yourself,

Right?

Okay.

Let's,

Let's all shoot her.

Sweetie pie,

Listen.

Yeah.

Finally,

It gets,

We just can't stand it.

So you just start following,

You know,

Because,

Because it's just so,

Yeah,

I,

You know,

Sweetie,

Again,

You know,

Who are you speaking from?

No.

Yeah.

Right.

I'm the scared Maxi one.

Yeah.

There you go.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Pretty much.

Yeah.

It's,

It's kind of like my nightmare,

You know,

Would be a satsang full of,

Well,

I shouldn't say this,

But I shouldn't say it because we're,

I was going to say like,

Full of people who just want to listen and not do anything.

But I can't say that because you're all beloved and you're all doing your best and everybody's making progress.

So it's all good.

It's just like,

From where this one sees,

It's like,

We so should have been doing this yesterday.

You know?

Yeah.

But,

You know,

Maxi,

I'm feeling as we're talking that it's just so familiar for you to sit in this kind of wobbly place of judging yourself and repressing yourself.

It's the Maxi,

You know,

Best.

Yes.

But she's,

You know,

She's like this.

It's just a facsimile,

You know,

I think when you start just acting on what you know,

You're going to start feeling peace and you're going to start feeling like that you're breathing fresh air.

And I actually do feel that our bodies take in more oxygen as we move into truth.

Do you know that we actually extract more oxygen from the air?

I truly have experienced this.

All of our biological capacities just become.

Do you know that my phone just said I can only find Maxi in the United States.

Now that is just off the wall.

Okay.

Okay.

There it is,

You guys.

Okay,

There it is.

Thank you,

Universe.

Okay,

Maxi.

So let's find the Maxi in Germany,

The true Maxi in Germany,

The real Maxi.

You're so close to just doing it,

Sweetie.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah.

You know that,

Right?

Yeah,

I know that.

Yeah.

And also,

You'll go like,

Oh,

I if I say this one more time to premise Suda,

She'll slice off my head.

This could be good.

This could be good.

Yeah,

I feel like you're almost at the end of it.

So it's good.

Yeah.

Do you see you guys what a bumbling process it is,

You know,

And the phone even helped.

It's so funny.

And I never listened to that Siri or whoever I never activated or,

You know,

It's not anything I use on my phone,

The thing that spoke.

So that was pure Amma.

Yeah.

Okay.

That's our miracle for today.

That's good.

Yeah.

Good,

Good,

Good.

Sweet one.

Yeah.

Beautiful.

I'm glad you're laughing.

Yeah,

I know.

It's a comedy.

This is all the stuff that will just make it easier to take some action,

You know,

Just to be yourself more.

Yeah.

Yeah,

You'll just find yourself doing it.

Remember,

You guys,

If you keep the focus on the creator,

What happens is the creator will I want to say marry into your body.

That's interesting.

You're the creator will come in,

Will get strengthened in the cells of your body.

And you will just find yourself doing things.

You see,

Even without the decision.

Okay,

Maxi,

Without the decision,

You'll just find that you're doing something that you're more in alignment.

Yeah.

That's if you know,

When people are really sincere,

You know,

About bringing in the creator,

That's what happens.

And the aches in your body will be healed up as well.

We've talked about that.

What is getting healed the aches in your body,

The aches and the pains in your body will get healed through the realignment into truth.

Ah,

Have you missed this?

Yeah,

You've missed this.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

You missed the body thing.

Okay.

Okay,

Sweet one.

Maxi's waking up.

Yes.

Your body,

You know,

The all the stuff I talked about,

You know,

Sometimes the solar plexus will really hurt when we're moving through.

Yeah,

You know this,

Right?

Yes,

Yes.

Yeah.

But let's just say it for the rest of you.

It's a,

You know,

Our solar plexus might really hurt if we're clearing control issues.

And as we clear them,

As they're resolved into more truth,

The pain goes away.

We don't have to fix things.

We just have to stay focused on the journey.

When,

When,

You know,

After Peter left,

Like Peter and I split up,

He left for three months,

My elbows hurt so much.

Like nine out of 10 pain.

And,

You know,

Elbows are changing direction.

Yeah,

My life is changing direction.

You see,

It's,

It's just seamless.

They just watch it.

And when I was solid in this new direction,

All the pain had gone then.

Yeah,

I have this pain in my right elbow.

Okay.

Yeah.

Yeah.

For two weeks.

Okay.

So change on your So change on your masculine,

On your masculine side.

And maybe change in your work in the world or how you're going to work in the world or whatever.

And it's not to,

You know,

Get too analytical in it.

Like,

You know,

You don't want to kill the butterfly,

Just keeping it loose,

Loose.

But really,

You guys,

The head,

The understanding of the body,

You know,

The trends and transcendent body approaches on my website,

If you,

If you can just keep it in mind loosely,

It will give you kind of a light for your journey,

You can say,

Okay,

My control issues are coming up.

My control issues are coming up.

If you're say a solar plexus pain,

And then you can,

You'll notice that control issues will be in your head.

And when the pain goes,

You will have resolved that issue.

It is so simple,

It gets overlooked.

The big something,

If you're going around going,

I am say,

You know,

Say I say,

Okay,

I'm Janet Hobbs on the spiritual journey.

And I make an identity of Janet Hobbs being on the spiritual journey.

I may be deluding myself.

Because the idea of me being on a spiritual journey is taking me away from the simplicity of just being Janet Hobbs.

Do you understand?

It gives me a new,

Slightly phony identity.

And that's the danger of the journey.

And we can get lost in that for a whole lifetime.

Point of the journey is to become more fully yourself.

So if Janet Hobbs on the spiritual journey,

Makes me more interested in being true to my heart and loving and really learning how to love deeply.

Then that's good use of being on the spiritual journey.

But if it's going around with Janet Hobbs,

Judging herself 24 seven,

About my inadequacies as a spiritual student,

Or how I'm having trouble witnessing myself,

Or how I'm just doing it wrong.

That's not going to be any help at all.

That's just the ego run amok.

Honor yourselves,

You guys,

You're God in human form.

Everybody makes mistakes.

Everybody's a work in progress.

Will you not just love yourselves,

You guys?

Will you just think about just loving yourselves?

Please.

Please,

Yeah.

It's like,

Make it easy for Pramasutra.

Just love yourselves too.

Don't put it all on her shoulders.

You do it.

Really do it.

Not just really do it,

Like a deep decision to do it.

Like,

I'm going to rise to this this lifetime.

Because you're the only one that will be there in lots of lonely moments.

You're the one who was born.

You're the one who's going to be there in your deathbed.

Nobody else will.

Love thy God with all thy heart and all thy soul.

That's the commandment.

And it means love the God within you with all your heart and all your soul.

The God is not outside you.

Well,

It's inside and outside.

The source of the God is inside you.

It's in your heart.

Right.

This above all to thine own self be true.

Right.

All the great deeds of the world have been done by people who are being true to themselves.

The really stuff that lasts,

You know,

The really important stuff.

Right.

Love yourself.

Right.

It's not so hard.

You get in the habit.

You get in the habit of it.

Really,

That's what happens.

You get in the habit of loving yourself.

You learn how to do it.

There isn't anybody else anyway,

You know.

I mean,

We're all one.

I mean,

Everybody is an expression of our own soul,

You know.

Yeah.

Love yourselves.

No matter what.

Right.

Good.

And if you can do that in Kali Yuga,

You are a spiritual superstar.

Okay.

That's it.

That's it.

However much you can.

Badge of honor.

And if it's hard for you to feel it,

Just put your arms around that and go.

Premasuddha loves me anyway.

I really,

I don't have to be perfect.

It's okay.

And maybe you'll have a dream tonight that will really cement this,

Cement this concrete image.

Right.

I'll tell you,

Showing up at satsangs,

It works.

Okay.

Good.

Yeah.

You're in my heart.

I send love and blessings so many times during the week.

I bounce out of bed on Saturdays and Sundays,

I do.

And I'm honored to have your company,

That you come,

Really.

I'm honored.

This one's honored that you wish to come.

And this is my gift to Amma for all the work she did with this one.

And Amma's patience with me is where I can find patience with you guys,

Because we're all just,

You know,

We're all like abused children,

You guys,

Really,

From compared to who we were really born to be.

You know,

It's like,

Everybody on earth is like an abused child.

And we just need this great,

Great compassion and love for ourselves and hang out with people who strengthen it in you,

Really,

And avoid those who,

Where you feel weaker.

It's just not worth it.

You're my beloved.

Thank you for coming.

Bye,

Everyone.

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