The Magic Way Seeds (And Human Beings) Sprout

Humanity is being asked to turn inside more, to befriend our deeper selves. But so many of us have been trained to be so outer-focused, how do we make the change?

The secret is in the way a seed sprouts. First, its shell cracks, and then comes the struggle to put down roots and draw nutrients from the soil.

In the same way, the shells of our egos must crack open which can feel quite unsettling. Then we learn how to draw sustenance from our eternal Nature/Creator.

Premasudha's wide-ranging wisdom and humor helps us to relax into our deepening, making the whole process feel easier and more doable.

Transcript

May your hearts be filled,

Maybe just be filled up with love and compassion,

Which is it's your birthright.

That is who you are.

And we're just working with reminding you,

Reminding you,

Reminding you who you really are.

And so it's unsettling.

There are several of you who are unsettled with me right now.

And I'll tell you,

You know,

What happens with all of us.

This is all of us with the evolution process.

We might have an opening.

So the seed sprouts.

It's great happiness.

And immediately the next step will,

We will attempt to bond with the teacher from our ego for stability.

You understand that?

It's like where we have this opening,

But the ego goes,

Oh no.

So it will approach the teacher and try to bond at the ego level to actually control the teacher,

To actually control the soul.

Okay.

And the teacher will go,

That's not going to work.

Okay.

So the individuals turn back on themselves and they go,

Well,

I thought she was loving.

I thought she had my back.

And an authentic teacher does,

But the authentic teacher is not going to encourage the ego because that's what has to die.

And this is the struggle working with people,

Especially when it's at a distance.

So there isn't the comfort of the physical presence and there's no possibility of body work.

Yeah.

So I'll tell you in my journey,

I had to increasingly every step get more and more humble,

More and more like,

Okay,

Show me to my teacher,

Show me,

I don't know,

Show me.

Now this might be easier to do with someone like Amma who's like a thousand of me,

A million of me.

But if a teacher is lodged in unconditional love,

They will help give you a path and it's,

They'll help show you a path.

And then it's just up to you what you do with it.

And sometimes we have to pull back.

You know,

Sometimes we have to plateau for a while and think about things.

It's not wrong.

It's not wrong to try to bond at the ego level with your teacher for stability.

It's not wrong.

It's profoundly human.

This is what we're like.

That's it.

It's just,

It comes down to the heart of the seeker,

How much they want truth,

How,

How much courage they've got,

How willing are they to see their own ego and let it dissolve?

Yeah.

And it's profoundly unsettling.

And,

And to,

To move out of the ego is the scariest thing a human being can do by far,

Because it's like being put in front of the firing squad.

The ego will,

Will flood you with that kind of feeling that you're going to die.

And your thoughts will,

It will again be flooded with,

You know,

The twists of the ego,

The ego trickery.

And you just have to like,

Be with yourself,

Observe it till it calms down and you start to see the lit path that the teacher's trying to show you.

Yeah.

I have tremendous empathy and respect,

But you know,

In the old days,

I would get,

I would,

I was overly compassionate.

So I would go along with the ego to,

You know,

To give the person time.

And that really did not work.

So what I do now is I just am true to the path I'm trying to show.

And I just let the person have space.

If they're drawing back,

They're drawing back.

I send love and compassion.

You,

You're in my heart always.

And especially if you're having trouble,

Because I know what that's like.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And this work,

It's,

It's a bit I increasingly,

I feel like a surgeon,

You know,

Like cutting out the ego.

Yeah.

And you know,

You think of surgery,

It hurts.

But you can feel if it's on the right track or not,

You will be brought to it,

You would like it might take some months,

But you will actually come to Oh,

Okay,

I see.

Yeah,

It's either that or you decide the teacher doesn't know and you go find another teacher who suits you better.

Yeah.

Right.

You know,

At this time,

A lot of people feel that,

You know,

Darkness,

It's,

It's in the outside.

We have this frenzy celebration period to kind of cover it up.

But a lot of people are,

You know,

Feeling this darkness.

So it is actually a wonderful,

Wonderful time to transform.

Because when the darkness comes up,

It's,

It's showing you what your,

Your soul wants you to see through.

It's not coming up to crush you.

It's coming up to be seen through.

And for you to move into more truth.

Right?

Okay.

You're feeling very,

Very delicate and sensitive.

I can feel that's kind of the energy that everybody's carrying inside.

Yeah.

And the other thing is,

You know,

If you just turn up to satsangs,

You will,

You will grow because they deeply fertilize your soul.

So you don't even have to do anything much,

You know,

It'll just flow in as a byproduct of turning up,

Because of the level of the energetic work going on.

Yeah.

It's this very sensitive,

Delicate work that's being done right now with all of you.

It's like,

It's almost like I can see with many of you,

It's like the seed has sprouted and you're putting down roots and the roots are,

You know,

You put down the roots,

You're looking for water and nutrients.

And you know,

It takes a while for these roots to be able to do it.

There's that tremendous insecure place for a seed where it really needs a lot of care,

Warmth,

Water,

Sunshine,

To safely sprout.

And for it to connect up so it can receive the nutrients.

It is the same thing that happens psychologically,

Because we're all part of Mother Nature.

We put,

We have an opening,

And we put our roots down.

And there's the insecurity of happening when we've lost the protective shell.

And we haven't learned how to really bring in our God self,

Our soul,

And to allow it in,

To allow it in.

And this is what I'm working with all of you right now.

And it's as if the channel in your roots is,

Is so thin,

It's hard to let the nutrients up.

So I'm working with,

It's,

It's almost like helping your subconscious is relax.

So you can open the channel in these roots.

So you can open in safety.

You can open and let the love in.

Right?

Right.

Because sometimes when we're making a spiritual step,

And we're insecure,

There's a tension that comes in of like,

Oh,

I hope this works.

I hope this works.

And you know,

That that will show us how bond bound by the ego we are that tension.

It's the ego coming in.

It's just noticing it,

Just noticing it.

It's like you really want to relax,

I can feel this,

It's this delicate part of your psyches.

And you you on one level,

You really want to relax.

But it's,

It's almost like you feel like you can't,

It's,

It's just,

You don't know how.

It's okay.

This is why we do this.

This is why we do satsangs.

Because just in the warmth of the energetic bath that you're in.

That's it.

That's it.

It's funny,

Some of you are really wanting to finish with this part of the task.

And to just get the nutrients and the connection to the soul.

And you're kind of impatient to that.

That again,

There it is fear,

That's okay.

Bit of ego,

It's endless,

Just notice,

All you have to do is notice,

Don't fight your ego,

Just notice.

The noticing is God noticing.

Okay?

When you notice the tricks of your ego,

Or just the contamination of the ego,

When you notice it,

It is your soul noticing it.

Okay?

So you don't fight it.

Just noticing it is enough.

That's it.

Some of you are finding life difficult,

You just find life difficult.

So it's almost like you don't know how to surrender into this.

And I get it.

And everything I'm saying,

It's shining a light on resistances in you.

And it's to free you.

Because once these resistances are spoken to your conscious mind,

You,

It disempowers them.

Yeah.

Good.

Okay,

Good.

Good.

Right,

You got that it disempowers them.

And the reason it disempowers them is you're in your subconscious,

You,

You,

It's like when we hear something from somebody who has actually done it,

We know that they've done it.

And we it's easier to surrender.

Because subconsciously,

We're aware that they have,

They're shifted,

They're kind of living in a different way than we we are.

Right.

And that's why it's the power of an authentic knowledge coming through an individual.

That's what does the work.

I personally just watch this knowledge come through this love come through.

That's it.

And it does the work.

That's it.

That's it.

Some of you are going,

It couldn't be so simple,

But you actually know that it could be.

But it's why we can hear if we hear something from somebody who's really caught in their ego,

It has no power.

But it's it when somebody is really awake,

We will remember what they said for years.

And it is why these books by these illuminated people last centuries.

That's it.

Okay,

Good.

There's a that's it.

There's a greater surrender.

There's still quite a lot of caution.

It's okay.

Don't worry.

Don't worry.

It's the coldest darkest time of the year.

Yeah,

But you're held in great love and compassion.

That's it.

And really,

I'm endlessly surprised by the movement.

Some of you are making with very little support beyond satsangs.

Yeah.

The other thing I want to talk about with this particular teacher,

You know,

It's like all the data with my son,

You know,

He was dying.

We went to different specialists,

They all said that and the data I was getting was he would live.

So I was true to that.

Okay,

There was no sign of that in the outer world.

I was just true to it.

Okay,

So this is what I do with you guys.

So there's one individual in the group,

Who is a lovely woman,

And she's had,

You know,

She's worked as a social worker.

And she found a very good mentor.

And she sort of moved to the outside of the mainstream of social work and chose a form that she could be true to,

That she felt she could live her life teaching this.

Okay,

So it's a rarefied,

Very humanistic approach within the realm of social work.

Anyway,

When we first met,

I said to her,

You know,

I feel that you're going to help introduce spirituality into mainstream social work.

Now,

She looked at me like,

Yeah,

Okay.

And at the time,

I thought,

Oh,

I feel this is true,

But it looks like kind of a long shot,

Really.

You know,

So interestingly enough,

Over the five years,

Things have altered.

And there's her mentor,

Who was retiring,

Has a fully accredited Institute and asked her to take it over.

Now,

She may or may not do this.

But it's certainly a vehicle,

Or she may do it with several other people.

But it is a vehicle to bring in the spiritual knowledge into mainstream social work.

Okay.

Okay,

So when I'm working with you,

This is,

It's like a long sight.

What comes through is a long vision of where you're going and where you're meant to be.

And I've just learned to be true to it.

And sometimes it makes no sense to me at the level that,

You know,

It's like my son,

All the all the evidence was that he was dying.

But I knew he was going to live.

It comes in at that level.

And this is what can be challenging for people.

But you see,

Your soul will know whether it's accurate or not.

And that's who I'm really speaking to.

You guys,

I'm speaking to your souls over and over and over.

That's who I'm speaking to.

That is who I love your souls.

And I embrace your egos as well.

This is what we're like,

You know?

Yeah.

Yeah.

But I'll tell you,

Like,

You know,

Egos are really,

You know,

Look,

Other people see how revolting egos are,

Right?

Like,

You know,

We see it in other people,

It's hard for us to see it in ourselves.

But egos are always twisted.

They're always like,

You know,

The,

Like a serpent,

Like trying to figure out what's good for them.

What's good for them?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Please,

Like,

You know,

Let yourself be grossed out by your ego,

Because if you get grossed out by your ego,

You will surrender.

And egos are just this ugly coat that,

You know,

You took on.

But it never was you.

It's like a caricature of who you are.

Yeah.

It's like a reversed,

Distorted mirror vision of your true self.

Yeah.

Right.

So it's like side with your soul,

You know,

If you go about your lives,

And you're aware that you're a soul as well as a human being,

And you keep steering your focus towards the eternal,

It will come in.

It will flow in.

But if your focus is,

If you're going along with the ego,

Without any self-awareness,

You're going to keep crashing into walls endlessly.

And you'll feel an unfulfillment.

And your dreams won't come true.

Yeah.

Uh huh.

I know.

That's a sad thing.

Like your dreams don't come true.

Because your dreams are actually coming from your soul.

And you have to listen to your soul before they come true.

Yeah.

You need so much love,

All of you.

It's coming in waves and waves and waves.

Just if you think of your souls behind your heart,

In the front of you,

But just kind of behind your heart,

There it is.

I want to talk again about metaphors.

So because for Westerners,

Sometimes it's hard for us to go into deep meditation until we've had years of practice.

So we can work with ourselves through looking at the metaphor being presented in our lives.

Because they will tell us all about our soul's point of view.

Our soul will try to communicate to us through the events of what happened to us,

What we're surrounded in.

So I'll give you an example.

When I was in journalism,

So I was 24,

And I got a job at the Sun,

Or yeah,

In the Sun building at Canadian Press for the summer.

And I found a room close by,

Which was in walking distance.

And it was very inexpensive,

Because I was saving money to go to England.

So I got this place,

It was pretty,

There was stained glass windows.

Okay.

So there I am,

And it turns out that I'm in a building full of prostitutes.

There are strange men coming to the door,

All times of night,

All the time.

And I'm so clued out.

It takes me weeks to realize what is going on.

Okay.

So,

Okay.

So this was telling me,

My soul was telling me that I was prostituting my true nature by being in journalism.

That I was using my gifts in this very outward way,

Where I would be writing about things that were fairly meaningless to my soul,

In that I was doing it for money.

Okay.

Like,

Did I realize this at the time?

No.

What I realized finally was the building was full of prostitutes.

And just these weird men who kept coming to the door.

Anyway,

It's like this big comedy of this ingenue,

This naive person.

But anyway,

There's data in what is happening to you.

Okay.

So I'm going to give you some more examples just from my life to help you get used to the concept.

So for example,

You know,

When I moved into this building about a year ago,

So,

You know,

I talked to people and I said,

You know,

Shared this healing ability.

So we started with like groups downstairs where I could just work.

It was sort of just my offering to the people in the building.

And,

You know,

Everybody's it's full of older people.

So everybody,

Very few people have even heard about spirituality.

So it's like,

We didn't really know what to do with it.

So I kind of went,

Okay,

This isn't going to work.

And I was aware of,

You know,

Again,

Wanting to just share this love.

So I was in the situation where I wanted to share the love,

And I couldn't add a physical level,

But I kept sharing the love,

You know,

Through prayer,

Just through.

So the love kept coming to them.

Okay.

So,

And there were some people from a different country who really thought that maybe I was doing voodoo or something,

You know,

So it's just the whole hilarious.

Anyway,

So what's,

And oh,

Also the other thing I talked to you about is my difficulty with the manager.

Yeah,

That I had to,

That I told him that I would be writing down our interactions,

What happened.

Okay,

So what has happened now is people are knocking on my door asking for sessions,

Which I'm offering.

I'm working with one woman who's 93,

She has trouble with her legs.

So every week I go and I work with her heart and I work with her legs.

There's another woman whose daughter is,

She's 93,

And her daughter's here,

Who has,

You know,

Has,

Is scared to go out of the house.

So,

But she visits her mom,

So I'm going to be working with both of them.

And the manager's brother has come and he put an exercise bike for me,

You know,

To put it together.

And I offered him $50 to do this and he said,

Janet,

You're such a nice woman,

I could never take money from you.

See,

Now I just want to give this example of a situation changing,

Altering,

Just through observing and the power of love being allowed in.

And so this would be reflecting me,

A change of a greater fullness of the love coming through,

Do you see?

With the initial barrier,

Seems like a barrier,

Now there's a flowing through the barrier.

So this is what I'm speaking to you about,

Like,

Look at the situation you're in,

And then notice the changes.

And notice if it darkens,

You know,

If a situation darkens,

Then your soul's,

You know,

Agitating,

Asking you to face the resistance inside that this is showing you.

Yeah,

You see,

You're,

You're not,

In the bigger picture,

You are not the individual that you are.

Not really,

You're your soul.

That's your seat of gravity.

That's your center.

That's your throne.

And the self realized person,

It's just living on that throne in their human life.

But you guys have all got a throne in there.

Yeah.

Right.

And your soul has endless information for you.

Endless help for you.

But you know,

Your soul is asking you to open your eyes,

For your awareness to grow.

So it can come in because one of the things you know,

Amma says,

One of our biggest obstacles is our narrow minds.

Because our,

Our minds are too narrow,

To be able to embrace our heart.

We judge our hearts as wrong,

Because we've got these narrow,

Narrow minds.

In my experience with people,

This is the biggest obstacle is,

Is narrow minds.

And it's we're trained.

It's not a fault.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

Good,

You got that about it's not your fault.

You're,

It's our training.

That's it.

That's the key to growth,

Then you can just,

You know,

Allow these things to change without berating yourself too much.

That's it.

Okay,

Good.

There's some of you are really becoming centered.

That's it.

There's this deep centering going on.

It's as if some of you are feeling your soul's infinite compassion for you.

You know,

Your body mind complex that you are you're,

You know,

An individual,

But really your body mind complex that your soul knows very deeply through many,

Many lives.

Your soul has seen you in different bodies and different circumstances.

And it knows you inside out and backwards.

And it knows what you're going to respond to and what you're going to run from.

And it will do everything possible to create circumstances that allow you to waken in the gentlest way possible.

It's like taking a little scared kid and taking them to a situation where,

You know,

It's going to be doable for them.

That's it.

So if you look at things that the situation you're in,

Or how people treat you,

And your response to them,

If you look at it,

Like,

It's all a huge metaphor.

It's like a play going on in a theater.

And you're in it.

And this play is reflecting how your soul sees you,

And is in the actions and interactions in this play.

You have the choice to move into more truth or pull back into fear,

Or just try to remain the same.

Yeah.

And the patterns from our family of origin will tend to repeat to until we grow past them.

We can watch that.

You see,

The spiritual training,

You have to know yourself.

You have to get interested in knowing and understanding yourself.

You see,

The difference between wanting to know and understand yourself and just going to spirituality because wanting to be fixed,

Or kind of what egos do.

I'll tell you what egos do,

But you guys will know this.

Egos will not feel happy.

Like,

If we're in our ego,

We're not happy.

Like,

We can't be happy,

Actually.

So we might go to a spiritual teacher,

Spiritual training,

To try to become happier.

So it's like the ego will try to use the teaching to have its ends met,

To become happier,

To become happier focused on things,

To be happier as one uses people to get more things.

You're just not going to be happier.

The ego dies.

That's what makes us happy,

Because our souls are just happy.

Part of you guys,

There's a feeling of fatigue or kind of a meaninglessness in some of you.

Maybe enough information this way.

Yeah.

Sort of like with little kids,

When little kids get tired,

They just get tired.

So a loving mom just stops asking them to do much.

Yeah.

Okay.

So I'm just with you here.

Right.

You know,

You guys,

You don't have to push yourselves at all.

It won't work.

So don't.

Don't push yourselves.

There's no rush.

Can't be rushed.

You know,

What I found in my own life is a kind of acceptance of life helped.

I just realized that life was stark in a way.

You know,

It's kind of the seed sprouts or it doesn't.

Sort of like,

You know,

If you're throwing seeds,

Throwing seeds,

What did Christ say something about some seeds land on rocks,

And they don't sprout some land and fertile soil,

And they're lucky and they sprout.

It's just life is has a starkness to it.

Now,

In a way,

It's really safe,

Because you will only experience what your soul has set up for you.

It's all choreographed and safe.

But when we look at life,

It can look stark,

You know,

It's like,

You know,

If we're,

If we're not paying attention to Mother Earth,

We will have climate trouble.

I mean,

There's,

It's pretty stark.

So what really helped me was I just put my arms around that,

And I stopped trying to have happy endings,

Or force happy endings.

I just put my arms around the utter starkness of life.

And I prayed wildly.

Yeah,

It's like taking what comes,

Embracing it,

And praying wildly.

Even that's too much for you guys.

It's an instruction.

You registered that as an instruction.

Okay,

That's so interesting.

This is my,

I'm learning here.

Yeah,

I don't want to overload you.

Yeah,

That's it.

You're all very safe,

You know?

Yeah.

And this energy,

You know,

Coming through this one comes to you all the time.

And actually,

Especially if you're having troubles with me,

It increases actually.

Just like a parent thinks about a child they're having trouble with,

And worries about them.

Yeah,

There's a really deep need for love.

I feel sometimes how impoverished our culture is around loving,

And what it does to all of us.

But it's healable.

It's healable,

Because the truth of it is,

We're in eternal love.

It's all love.

You're love.

Separation does not exist.

We just think it does.

So we hallucinate it.

This is the world.

It's a big hallucination,

A mass hallucination of separate,

Of a belief in separation.

That's it.

And when we're hallucinating it,

It seems so real.

It's like,

You know,

The nightmare,

Waking up from a nightmare,

And you realize it's all okay.

I feel like you need something coming through me.

Now,

I don't know whether you need to shift in order for this to happen.

You see,

It could happen that way.

But there needs to be a shift in you guys before something in me can come through.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

And it's not,

I mean,

It's in me,

But it's actually a metaphor for what's taking place in you.

This whole situation is a metaphor that you're tapping into a deeper understanding.

You seem to be hearing it from the outside,

But actually it will be occurring on the inside as well.

It's a metaphor for listening to your own soul.

You're being willing to listen to your own soul to bring yourself into this.

You know,

As you understand the metaphor situation,

Everything's metaphor,

You won't take things so personally.

You'll take it as like that you're watching a play.

So you're in the play,

But your center of gravity is you're watching it.

So if somebody's rude or mean to you,

It doesn't have the same hurt level because you're watching it.

You're not involved in it on one level.

On another human level,

You feel it.

But the more you can watch,

The less reactive you're going to be.

And the better solution you can find,

The more you can allow your soul to find a solution to show you how to respond.

Your soul will show you how to respond to everything.

I feel like a lot of you are feeling a lot of demands in your outer life,

Which isn't surprising.

I'm just noticing that.

You know,

This satsang is,

There's a lift available from it.

But that lift will be felt as you realize that you can become more conscious and aware and neutral about the situation you're in.

That's what's going to give you the lift.

And that will be you opening the door inside yourself to your deeper understanding.

You guys,

There is no rush to do all this.

I mean,

I understand that,

You know,

It's just like motherhood.

It's like you have to tell little kids the same thing over and over.

It is the same thing with spiritual students,

To say it over and over.

There is no rush,

Particularly.

But if you want my input,

Like through calls or,

You know,

Having a evolutionary relationship with me,

I will be focused on freeing you from the ego.

Okay,

So there will be discomfort.

So just be open to learn for those who want to come forward.

Right?

Good.

Good.

And just coming to the sad things will help for your soul.

If you do it for some months,

I promise you,

There will be a deepening,

A kind of deepening like water,

You know,

Water soaking into a cloth,

Into a sponge.

You sponge up,

It will strengthen your soul.

And it will help you evolve organically,

Rather than trying to figure it out with your head,

And going round and round in that labyrinth of thought that is exactly what you need to grow out of.

That labyrinth of thought is just a distorted mess.

And we all have these,

You know,

We all have had countless lifetimes,

Our own individual lifetimes,

And then we have our conditioning,

This life.

So our minds are all idiosyncratic,

And defended.

And that's why,

You know,

You can say something to somebody,

And they get offended by something that's just sweet.

I saw this,

You know,

How I go around to talk,

You know,

I speak to mums when I'm drawn to,

Which is almost 100% of the time.

And I saw this thing about this woman going,

She wished that boomer women would stop talking to her about her children.

It was like,

She was saying that they're like so intrusive with their comments.

And I'm like,

Our minds are so different,

I would have been so happy with my kids,

If somebody,

You know,

Walking with my kids,

If somebody said,

Hey,

You've got lovely kids,

Or whatever,

Sharing the human condition,

It would have brought me out of myself,

I would have been thrilled.

And this person was like,

No,

No.

So our minds are just so different,

And idiosyncratic.

But our souls are one.

Our souls are love,

You guys.

Warm,

Comprehension,

Compassion,

Silence,

Infinite knowledge,

Infinite knowledge.

Okay,

The thing I really want to end on,

I really want to emphasize is,

Please value your intuitions,

Value the knowledge that comes in,

Even if it feels really thin.

Okay,

So I want to tell you something that happened to me years ago,

But certainly a while ago.

I had this sense of that there suddenly there were 14 angels in my room.

Now,

I did not feel great warmth,

I didn't see any light.

I just knew kinesthetically,

There were 14 angels in my room.

Okay,

So that's,

I'm pretty kinesthetic.

That's how I get stuff.

I just know that.

So I thought,

Well,

What's this,

You know,

And I didn't even feel huge compassion coming from them.

It was just like a report.

And then I go on the internet,

I google it,

And I go like 14 angels,

And it's like,

It's a Catholic thing,

A Catholic intercession thing.

It's a knowable,

It's a thing.

These 14 angels go to intervene in your life to help you.

Okay,

Now I have to tell you,

It was the weediest intuition.

Like,

I didn't feel their love.

I just got the report.

Okay,

But after that,

There was huge changes in my life.

And part of the changes was I actually knew what it was.

So then I validated it to know,

I thought,

Okay,

I've got 14 angels working with me.

I've got this extra help.

And then boom,

You see,

Like,

We all go by the seat of our pants.

I feel like you guys,

Whatever knowledge I've got,

I just got through just trying my best,

You know,

Wanting to know what love was,

Having trouble with this world,

You know,

Just not wanting my son to die.

Just like that.

Just a kind of wild.

I am going to ask right now for this group,

Or you've turned up,

I'm going to ask for particular angelic assistance,

Okay,

Over the next few weeks for you.

Do you remember I said in the last time,

I think,

That sometimes when I was talking to somebody,

I would see,

Like,

I would get like,

Okay,

Five angels have been sent to this person,

You know?

Okay,

So you are getting this angelic support.

You deserve it.

You earned it.

And really,

It could extend to the people who just watch this video after,

But they might not believe it so easily.

Whereas with you guys,

I feel like it's like you could,

With part of you,

You could consider that maybe this is true,

That this will happen.

And actually,

It will.

I know it will.

But you need it.

You need it.

You need the extra blessing.

You need it.

So it's really,

You're pulling it out of me in a way.

This.

Right.

Like an intercession to help you.

Yeah.

Almost.

What I'm getting is to help you become more unstuck,

You know,

Like to clear any stuckness,

Particularly.

There's nothing wrong with stuckness.

We all get stuck.

It's like,

You know,

In a river,

Sometimes a river gets jammed up.

And then finally,

It pushes through whatever is obstructing it.

So this is what happens with us.

It's like we have these obstructions,

The stuckness,

And then we move through it.

And our bodies change.

Your cellular soul connection is strengthened.

Your vibration goes up.

Okay.

But,

You know,

It's so,

I'm getting like,

That's too instructive for you guys.

I've got to back off again.

Just give you love.

Stop instructing you.

Right.

We've all been instructed to death.

So I just want to share the love coming through in a way that works.

Yeah.

There's this angelic support.

There's more energies coming in support.

And it can extend to your families as well that will.

That's it.

May you feel it.

But if you don't,

Don't worry.

You know,

There's a hesitation.

There's some,

I'm hoping that something comes through that helps you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

It's such a thing to evolve,

You know.

It can be so difficult sometimes.

And then,

You know,

A door opens inside,

And then it's so worth it.

But it's as if it's been dreary for some of you.

But it's like that sometimes,

You know,

Dreary.

I have no movement.

That's it.

It's okay.

It's just like that sometimes.

It's like climbing a mountain.

They're boring parts.

They're beautiful spring plateaus,

You know,

Wildflowers.

They're sheer face,

They're storms.

It's the whole thing.

Yeah.

Some of you are looking outward in your lives.

You're looking outward for something that actually you can only get by going inward.

Yeah,

I think this is the obstruction I'm feeling.

I think this is what's coming up for many of you.

Yeah,

You can only get it from the inside.

When you get it from the inside,

It will show up in the outside.

That's it.

That's it.

You have permission to go inside more.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it.

That is the key to this whole satsang we got there.

It is for you guys to have this felt permission to go inside more.

That is it.

You did it.

We did it.

The angels help,

And they're still going to be with you.

They're going to be with you for weeks,

But you could just ask them to stay permanently.

You know,

You can do stuff like that.

That's how it works.

You're gods.

So I'll tell you,

If you ask for that to be permanent,

It will be.

But it will also intensify your journey then.

You'll be asked to surrender more,

Probably.

Okay.

Well,

Is there any,

Is anybody desperate to make a comment or question?

It's 9.

30,

But there's a little bit of time if somebody's desperate.

The other thing I'm thinking of is maybe having a satsang and then having half an hour after for people who want to ask questions,

Doing something like that so that there's room for people to receive whatever help they need.

Did you have a question?

No.

Okay.

Well,

On Benjamin.

Hi,

Benjamin.

Hi,

Benjamin.

I wish you a merry,

Merry Christmas.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Christmas is coming and the goose is getting fat.

Okay.

Good.

It's great,

Sweetie.

Have a wonderful time to all of you.

All my blessings and all my love,

And it comes to you all the time.

Okay.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Blessings.