Love Face To Face

In today’s Satsang, Premasudha helps us to dissolve the inner barriers to the heart, that are largely rooted in negative childhood experiences.

For example, feelings of hopelessness that we felt as children may now resurface, not to harm, but to be released.
By staying present with these emotions, without judgment, they can transform into inner peace.

Throughout the Satsang, we witness unique stories of growth and healing. We may also notice the light of self-compassion beginning to shine, nurturing great strength and trust within.

How swiftly these blocks dissolve depends on our willingness to embody our Divine Self. The more we open to our truth, the faster the path clears. Please remember evolution has a rhythm of its own; forcing or even pushing the process will backfire and slow us down. Our evolution has a rhythm of its own. Just follow it and flow.

Transcript

Thank you for coming.

Thank you.

So we're gonna do continue with the face-to-face work.

So I want to make sure everybody gets some time.

Right now I'm going to start with Cindy.

Cindy,

Sweetie,

Can you demute yourself?

I demuted myself.

Good morning.

Good.

How are you?

How are you?

You're in the hospital,

Are you?

No,

I'm home.

You're home.

Oh,

Great.

I'm gradually improving.

I'm so glad.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Sweetie,

How are you feeling?

Up and down,

But right now I'm good.

It was a heart problem,

Right?

Respiratory.

Respiratory.

Chronic respiratory failure.

I'm going off oxygen this morning.

We'll see how that goes.

Okay.

It's a variable thing.

I have a muscle disease,

Myasthenia gravis.

Yeah.

And when that's flaring,

I have a hard time breathing.

And so it's chronic respiratory.

Very scary.

I mean,

You must know up close and personal how scary that must be.

I can just- It's very humbling.

I would think- A gentleman yesterday said his illness was very humbling.

So are mine.

Very humbling.

It's like,

Oh,

Just everything stops and all you can hear is breathing.

Just quiet.

Right.

Right.

So I'm just feeling into you.

Is there anything that's on your mind at all,

Apart from just feeling not 100%?

Oh,

I'm feeling better than I did yesterday.

So it's good.

It's all good.

The two things that struck me from yesterday,

I've been listening to satsangs on the recordings because I just can't quite get it together.

Yesterday,

The two things that struck me were not breaking through is your hesitation can be a not belief,

Not believing in God ultimately,

And believing you're a traumatized child.

Right.

I feel like I had a breakthrough.

No,

I'm not fixed,

But it's a layer I went through with the traumatized child.

I just reencountered a massively reoccurring theme in my family and just said,

No,

No more.

I'm not.

I'm not going to respond as a traumatized child.

I'm a strong woman.

I'm an adult woman.

I'm 65.

It's about time.

Yeah,

But I just,

You know,

Everything turned.

I just leaned into Alma.

I said,

This has to happen.

I'm 65.

I cannot continue this.

I love it.

I love it.

That's it.

You go girl.

I am done.

I'm listening to another satsang that you did.

I can't remember the name of it,

But you talked about how your brother was treating you poorly and how you responded.

You didn't respond immediately and I didn't either.

I just went in to witness.

I just witnessed it.

Her response,

My response,

And what I'm responsible for is my response.

That's it.

I'm still trying to find a way to communicate,

You know,

What is her passion,

Her love,

And I'm working on it,

But it helped me a lot.

That applied directly to my situation.

Everything I'm seeing is applying.

I can find application in my life.

I am still happy.

I think there's this incredible need for practical spiritual knowledge that's applying and you just made my day,

Sweet one.

Truly.

Yeah.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Blessings.

Cindy,

You're in my prayers.

Okay.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Corinne.

Okay.

Sweetie pie,

You come forward,

Girl.

How are you?

Hi.

I'm sore,

But I had,

After last week's satsang,

The Sunday,

I had a Christmas,

You know,

Dinner with the family,

Family dinner at White Spot,

And I was,

I usually skip them.

I usually don't go,

Because with the extended family,

Like in here,

In Vancouver,

And I usually skip them,

But something,

I was feeling a little different,

And then I was like,

You know,

I go because,

I don't go because of all this kind of like garbage,

Like it's just garbage,

Right?

Like,

I feel,

They feel,

Oh,

I'm mad because they didn't treat my family right.

She's mad,

But we're the kids,

Right?

Drama.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And I usually just stay out of it,

And then I was like,

Wait a second,

You know,

Like,

I'm not a kid anymore,

And in fact,

The elders are dying off,

And so it's,

It's us now.

I choose,

Right?

And then something happened,

And I was thinking throughout the week,

Whatever,

What do I do?

Maybe I should just call her and see if she actually wants me to come,

And then after the satsang,

Like,

I just picked up the phone and called her,

And I was like,

And we had like a two-hour conversation,

And,

And it was,

And I even,

I don't remember,

I said something of like,

And I felt the wall,

Actually,

During our satsang,

We were talking about the wall,

And how separate,

Like,

I was feeling that as if I had just met you,

Like,

The year,

Like,

So strongly,

Like,

You know,

Like,

Years and years ago,

How I used to feel that,

And it lifted towards the end of the satsang,

And then I called her,

Like,

After the satsang,

I went to lay down,

I couldn't lay down,

I just called her,

And I remember saying something,

Where I,

Dead silence from her,

Because she was getting,

I could hear it in her voice,

That shaky thing,

I get it too,

And we're all going somewhere else,

And,

And I was just like,

I don't know where,

But I was like,

Kind of bold,

I guess,

It was like,

You know,

Like,

She's,

Why,

Why,

And I was like,

Well,

Actually,

It's up to us,

They're all old,

They're kind of set in their ways,

This is so good,

This is so good,

You've got this boldness underneath,

I know you do,

It's great,

I mean,

This is quivering on top,

But there's that boldness underneath,

This is great,

Good for you,

Sweetie,

Good for you.

And then I had a,

Okay,

And then after,

So I'm so happy,

I'm still very happy,

Anger has come up now,

But at that night,

I threw up,

Like,

I was throwing up all night after that,

And yes,

Okay,

I have an egg allergy,

Which I have been throwing up,

But this was different,

Like,

I didn't eat any egg,

I,

Like,

I,

Clearing.

Okay,

So this is clearing,

Stomaching your divinity,

Right?

Yes,

And it felt so different,

Like,

It was very different,

And at the end,

I was just on the floor,

Like,

Like,

The prayer wasn't even like,

I was just like,

Help me,

Help me,

Like,

It wasn't even like,

I couldn't even think of anything except,

Like,

Just help me,

Like,

Help me,

Yeah,

That was all,

Like,

That's it,

That's it,

It's just when we get primal,

We,

When we get primal like that,

That's what works,

Good,

You know,

It,

The,

The,

The,

The wall seemed thicker,

Because it's,

You're making a big step with this,

You know,

Felt like the old days,

Because you're making a big step,

Okay,

It's not going backwards,

It's a big step,

You guys,

When you feel throwbacks to the past,

It's just a bigger step,

That's all,

You know,

When you feel like you,

How you used to feel,

Yeah,

Corinne,

This is really good,

I mean,

You know,

You've got this boldness underneath,

I,

I,

I know it,

You know,

So I'm,

I'm,

And you've got a resilience,

A sturdiness and resilience underneath too,

You know,

So this is really good,

And you know,

It won't all be perfect,

But just going conscious,

Just like what you're doing,

Like taking more responsibility,

Going I'm grown up now,

It's like being a lion,

Rather than a scared kitty cat,

Right,

Yeah,

Good,

Good,

I feel like putting my hand through,

Shaking your hand,

Congratulations,

Yeah,

That's it,

Good girl,

Yeah,

Awesome,

Okay,

Good work,

I'm gonna keep scrolling and,

And I will be choosing people who I'm sure that I haven't spoken to,

Miriam,

I haven't talked to you in a while,

Do you want to speak at all,

Yeah,

There you are,

Nice to be here,

Oh good,

Sweet one,

Yeah,

I'm wondering how you are,

We haven't spoken for a while,

Yeah,

Sweet one,

How's things,

I'm not very well today,

I've not been very well for a few days now,

So I'm resting today,

Well sort of resting,

I think I've got,

I don't know what I've got anyway,

So how am I,

Is it flu or emotional,

Like are you,

Like is it kind of,

I think it's a mixture of both really,

I think it's fluey,

Yeah,

It's also that I've been,

I mean over the December,

I've been really run down,

Really tired,

Really exhausted,

Picking up everything that's going along,

Yeah,

So I had business here at home,

I didn't go to my son's this year and even though it was really nice,

It was quite emotional as well,

So I had little moments where I was tearful and I let the tears come these days,

Good,

Because I don't,

You know,

I'm one of these people that I haven't been able to cry a great deal,

So I've been crying a little bit more,

Especially over the holiday and I think,

I feel that December really was showing me how worthless I often feel,

Even when there are good things,

And not,

Have you finished,

That worthlessness?

I know,

I know,

I just think I know,

I know you do,

Yeah,

It just,

It's,

I feel my heart,

It breaks my heart,

That's,

But it was quite in my face during December,

You know,

Because there are some good things happening in my life at the moment and that,

To be able to,

To embrace them rather than think that I'm not deserving or worthy in them,

So where I am at the moment is just about having,

Being forgiving of myself and being loving of myself,

No matter what,

No matter what I'm feeling or what other people might think,

Or just to have those two things inside of me,

Or where I am at the moment.

Good,

Good,

That's what we were talking about yesterday with Jenna,

And it's a really important shift,

When we decide to just be loving and forgiving of ourselves,

No matter what,

Actually we become invincible,

Because it's your God self that is loving and forgiving of yourself,

No matter what.

Well,

I think December was that month where that feeling of worthlessness,

And it was,

What was bringing it up was good things,

It wasn't the challenges that I have,

It was the positive things that were happening,

So I became really,

Really aware of it,

And I've been sitting with it,

And I just,

Not I just,

I'm having compassion,

Forgiving myself,

And yeah,

And that's where I am in this moment really.

It's good,

You know,

There's a more peaceful aura around you than before,

Quite significantly,

So you know,

That's data,

You're on the right track,

Not that you need it particularly,

Because I think you know you are,

But I'm just confirming.

Yeah,

I do listen back to the satsangs,

And I hear you say quite a lot,

You know,

Even though you hold these satsangs,

Which is a wonderful space,

The only person that can do it for us is each one of us as an individual,

And I'm a firm believer of that,

I can listen to you till the cows come home,

And I'm blue in my face,

But if I don't myself,

If I don't at least try to make a small effort,

It doesn't make a difference how big or small that effort is,

Yes,

Is that,

You know,

And it does take effort,

It does take effort,

It does,

But it's an effort I choose to take,

No matter how small,

And you know,

What I do realise is it's so important for me to have,

If I don't pray when I get up in the morning,

My day is very different,

Right,

So I do need to pray in the morning to whatever I believe to,

Because I've seen that I feel different,

And you mentioned something in one of the satsangs,

The will to will their will,

I'd already heard that from somewhere else,

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

It's quite common,

Yeah,

That is part of my mantra,

Because you know,

I do have self-will,

And my self-will is quite strong,

But you know,

My self-will run on my ego is,

My small ego is,

You know,

Hasn't got me anywhere really,

So that's part of my prayer in the morning,

To align my will to the will of the divine really,

It's really important,

So it's good to see you all,

Even though I don't often get here,

It's nice to be here.

Yeah,

It's not only do I feel this more peace in your aura,

But you're softer,

It's really cool,

That's real progress,

That is unmistakable,

Yeah,

Yeah,

That's real embodying,

Yeah,

That's awesome,

Now my hat off,

Yeah,

Okay,

Good,

Thanks,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Thank you,

Sweetie,

Bhavani,

How are you doing,

Where have you gone,

There you are,

Oh,

You can see me well enough,

Okay,

Good,

Yeah,

I can see you,

Hi,

How are you doing,

Yeah,

I also had a,

Hi everybody,

A shift this week that feels very significant,

And it's one of those subtle shifts,

So my husband and I split in June,

And it's been,

Yeah,

Turbulent,

To say the least,

Inside of me,

And this,

This,

I don't know,

Just a few days,

It was just after New Year's,

It was starting on New Year's Day,

And then it kind of just,

By the second of January,

I kind of dropped into the self-compassion,

I'm actually reading a a book called self-compassion,

And it wasn't even that I started practicing anything specific in it,

But I just,

It just started coming,

Like,

Something will come,

You know,

My emotions,

Or my thoughts,

Or even,

You know,

Sensing my husband's pain,

And the whole thing,

And I just wrap it in,

It's kind of like a cloud blanket,

I just,

I don't know,

I know,

I don't even say anything,

I just wrap it in the cloud blanket,

And hold it,

It just,

Sweetly,

And,

And it's made a big difference for me.

Right,

Right,

I can feel that.

The past days,

I feel,

Still feel like,

Like,

I,

My heart,

My heart center is,

It's,

It's intense,

I'm not even really sure what's going on there,

It's,

It's just,

I don't know,

It's a big,

Big knot of everything,

But yeah,

It felt,

I can't get out,

Because I've been angry,

I've been angry at my husband for,

You know,

We split six months ago,

But,

You know,

Like,

A year or two,

At least,

Or even more than that,

But then growing,

And the anger dropped,

Because I just,

You know,

I'm not,

I just,

Whatever it is,

I just hold it,

In the self,

In the,

You know,

Cloud blanket of,

Of compassion.

Yeah,

It's good,

Good step,

Good step,

Good step.

You know,

If you keep that going,

I mean,

Have the will that you really want to move into feeling the compassion,

So you can do an exercise like that for a while,

But the goal is to feel it,

Right,

But I can see that it's really helped you,

Okay,

So I think you're really on the right track.

Yeah,

You're,

I can feel it's,

Again,

More peaceful,

And you're,

You're kind of less split,

I don't feel the split so much,

This is very good,

This is good.

Just constant,

This,

You could even bring it with imagining I'm holding you,

Okay,

And then that brings it closer to your body,

Which is good,

Because finally,

You will embody this compassion.

But just do what makes you feel good,

And what you're drawn to do.

Okay,

There's no rush to do what I said,

If you're very comfortable with what you're doing.

It's good,

It's a step in the right direction,

Good.

I feel like I want to give you a flower.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

That's very good.

Okay,

Good,

Right,

Right,

You're good enough,

Sweet one.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

Sweetie.

Yeah,

We're all so,

You guys,

We're all,

We got these heard hearts,

You know,

But this is real progress.

I'm like,

Thrilled,

This is like,

Fun.

It's like,

And everybody doesn't have to have like,

These kind of stories,

You know,

It's okay to be,

You know,

Not feeling good.

So,

Saskia,

Did we talk last time?

Did we talk?

No,

We didn't.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

Hi.

I'm good.

I'm good.

You know,

I just think how long ago that the dragon blast was.

When you had the famous dragon blast.

Yeah.

You know,

From Masuda,

That's the best thing that ever happened to me.

I mean,

When it happened,

I wasn't happy,

Because it kind of shook me to the core.

And I felt like the last idiot in the group.

And,

And then after that left,

I felt,

I really felt a deeper connection through it.

And it's,

It's,

I could feel listening to it again,

And again,

I could feel something speaking through you.

It was neat,

I could feel something through it.

And the connection stayed,

The connection is there,

And it continues.

And I had really nice days with the boys,

Christmas,

New Year's,

It was great.

And I didn't have much time to meditate,

But that connection was always,

Always there.

And I feel my heart a lot more.

It doesn't feel always good,

But I feel which is great.

And I get answers from Amma,

I get answers when I,

I get doubts,

And then she shows up,

She's just there,

And she soothes me or hugs me.

And randomly,

Even,

Even if I don't ask,

And that feels really nice.

And two or three days ago,

My dad fell,

My dad is 91.

And he's actually quite okay,

But he fell on ice.

And they had to bring him to the hospital.

And he just has to lie there and he's in pain.

And I spoke to him,

And I could,

It was so nice,

I could connect with him through the heart.

For the first time ever.

And then it was,

And then it was so nice.

I talked to my mom after and she said,

Oh,

You can't talk to him like that.

He doesn't understand.

And I kept saying,

Yes,

He does.

I was dumb.

I said,

Yes,

He does.

Yes,

He does.

And then she changed too.

I could feel her going inside.

And it was,

There was a really nice feeling with my parents.

And yeah,

That's where I am.

Wow.

I feel like we're all in another dimension.

This is Amma,

Right?

She said she was gonna make it so that everybody connect up to their being more.

And I think that's what's happened.

Because I'm gobsmacked.

Like,

What the hell?

I'm gonna be out of,

I'm gonna be out of a job.

Saskia,

How is your hip?

Oh,

It's much better.

But I don't care so much anymore.

It's just,

Yeah,

It is what it is.

You know,

It's I'm not in pain.

So yeah,

I think it'll,

Yeah,

It goes back and forth with me.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Just noticing,

Just noticing.

Yeah.

And not being too obsessed,

Not getting too obsessed about bodily pain is,

Is that's,

That's what helps it heal the fastest.

Yeah,

No,

I feel really,

I feel blessed.

And I feel happy.

I feel sad because the boys left a little bit,

But I feel it's temporary.

And it's,

I don't know,

I,

Yeah,

I just am.

And I feel it feels good.

It's good.

Yeah,

Yeah.

Yeah.

And Tristan,

Is he staying in Victoria?

Is he going back?

He doesn't know till this summer.

But he's here now.

He's actually with,

With his with Emily,

And he's just talking.

He just wrote last night.

He's thinking of staying a week longer.

He can't go back.

But they're really happy.

They're really happy together.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Young love.

Yeah.

She's,

She seemed like a really unusual,

In a wonderful way,

Girl.

Yeah,

Absolutely.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

She grew up for everybody in the background.

She grew up in Salt Spring Island,

You know.

So sometimes,

You know,

When we grow outside the city,

It's good.

Yeah.

I'm pleased to hear this.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Thank you so much.

The Dragon Blast was really great.

Even if it didn't.

Oh,

Yeah.

No,

No,

No.

I know.

I know.

I'm like,

I am such a gentle soul.

I'm sometimes uncomfortable with that stuff.

But it's,

It's just when I,

You know,

It's either stop the satsangs or else roar.

Yeah.

No,

I know.

It's not your hobby.

And I'm very thankful.

It wasn't from life.

You know,

It wasn't something that life threw at me that that made me feel like that.

That's it.

You know,

If you don't get it from the teacher,

You get it from life.

It's much easier to get it from the teacher.

That's good.

Good comprehension.

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah,

Yeah.

When life gives it to us,

It feels like there's no safety net.

Yeah,

You know?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Good.

Oh,

Saskia.

I'm pleased.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Good.

Susan,

I'm not sure if we spoke.

Have we spoken?

Recently?

Sweet one.

I'm here.

Can you hear me?

Yeah,

I can hear you.

Oh,

Yeah.

We didn't speak yesterday.

I mean,

We spoke maybe a couple weeks ago.

I can't remember exactly.

The holidays have my timing.

Confused.

Okay.

Yeah.

So how are you?

I'm mostly good.

I've noticed that like when I first I first started to like engage with the satsang a few months ago,

And I was listening a lot to your recordings.

And I noticed like,

I had that big,

You know,

Like,

The ego would like bang against you.

And it was like,

Very felt very,

Like,

Tumultuous.

And I've noticed it's calmed down a lot.

It feels it just doesn't feel so extreme.

And I'm happy with that.

And I feel like I've been been able to trust more,

Feel love more.

There's been letting go like it's,

It's not gone,

Of course.

It's just not so extreme.

The last few satsangs have been really helpful,

Like everybody sharing their stories.

I see a lot of myself in every everybody's,

Um,

You know,

Kind of struggle.

And for me now,

It's kind of up is it's some more family stuff.

That's kind of a theme today,

I guess,

With the holidays and stuff.

But I'm really,

I'm really struggling with my immediate family.

And I've been asking and praying for Ama to help offer me some grace.

I kind of don't know.

My,

My sister's been stonewalling,

Stonewalling me for some time.

And it's just and my my family doesn't share like emotional feelings.

And I don't know how to get through this except to like,

Separate and estrange myself.

And I,

I've been trying things and nothing feels good.

And my father passed away Christmas Day a year ago.

And I've been trying to be supportive of my mom as best I can.

And she's very closed off person.

And I realized my dad kind of had the he kind of got a bad rap,

Because he was loud.

But I realized he was the emotional connection I felt in the family.

He was always like emotionally honest,

It didn't always look pretty.

And I and I'm really struggling with what to do with all of this.

And I don't want to be consumed by it either.

I want to move on with with with my life,

You know,

And I feel like my family's always and I'm wondering if like,

It's this is how I felt growing up.

Like I always felt different than my family.

I traveled,

I speak languages,

Like,

I'm an artist,

You know,

All these things.

And,

And I just feel a lot of suffering.

And I feel like when I think about them,

I think they want to annihilate me.

That's the feeling.

And then so then I just I'm separate myself and I'm alone.

And this affects my my daughter.

For instance,

We we did not I did not go to my mother's house for Christmas Day.

I did not want to be with them because I don't feel like there's any truth between us right now.

And I didn't want to fake it.

How old is your daughter?

She's 20.

Okay,

So she's grown up.

I mean,

You know,

She's grown up.

Yeah,

No,

She's good.

She's totally affected by it.

You know,

Like,

Okay,

Well,

Listen,

I remember,

Like,

I struggled with my family.

And this channel said,

Like,

That I wasn't supposed to,

Like,

Fit in with my family,

And that they weren't supposed to,

Like,

See things my way,

Like the way our lives had been sculpted,

It was never meant to really be.

So,

You know,

Maybe that's similar with yours.

You know,

Maybe you're just,

You know,

Like,

I just made my own life,

You know,

And you know,

Really,

The people I work with are my family.

Do you know what I mean?

It's lovely.

I don't need a family of origin.

Yeah.

I've lived away from my family for a lot of my years.

Like,

I lived in Australia.

I lived in Africa.

I moved in,

When my husband died,

My daughter and I moved 10 hours away to West Texas.

And that's where I raised her in the desert.

And then I came back when she was,

Like,

Middle school,

High school,

Because I don't know,

I got really scared about raising this person by myself.

And I thought I was gonna fuck it up.

And then,

Like,

Coming back has kind of been a disaster.

Like,

I'm always happier when I'm not near.

It's just like,

Yeah,

I mean,

I think you're gonna have to act with integrity.

I mean,

Be with what the dad is showing you.

Like,

Okay,

It doesn't have to,

It doesn't have to look like a cherry cake with icing on top,

You know,

Just the truth of things is safe.

You know,

You can be spacious,

And polite and loving,

But space.

Yeah,

I mean,

If you guys are different vibrations,

Your vibration will fall if you try to engage with them.

Do you know what I mean?

And you'll start acting badly.

Yes.

Do you know?

Yeah,

I know.

So why would you do that to yourself?

I don't know what I don't know what the conflict is.

But like,

I feel like I feel like intellectually,

I understand everything you're saying.

And I totally agree.

And like,

My New Year's resolution is to work on my chosen family.

Like,

I'm going to put that's where I want to put my energy this year.

Okay,

I want Susan,

Sweetie,

I want you to talk a lot less.

Okay,

I want you to listen.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah,

You're,

Yeah,

You're not a little kid anymore.

You should do what spend time with people who bring out the best in you.

Who see you in your power,

Who see the best of you,

You know,

They bring out the best,

They see the best.

And if you notice that you,

You know,

With people that you feel that you vibration falls,

And you start acting badly with,

Stay away from them.

It's just the ego trying to keep your vibration low trying to stop you from going up.

Because it feels more comfortable with,

You know,

Trouble,

Stress,

Feeling bad.

All that.

Yeah.

Okay.

Yeah.

I feel like I,

I need to blow some stuff in your aura.

It's like,

Okay,

It's like,

We can,

You know,

We can attract negative energies around us,

You know,

If we,

If we concentrate on less than loving things,

You know,

It's a little bit there's some,

It's not like huge demons or anything,

But there's a little bit of contamination by the darkness.

Okay,

I'm just gonna clear your aura and ask you to take care of yourself.

Emotionally,

Take care of yourself spiritually.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Right.

Good.

Okay,

I can feel that this has come home to your heart.

Good.

Good.

Okay,

Good.

Right.

Good.

So,

I think worked with Gordon last time last week.

Mitchie,

Yeah,

We worked last time,

Didn't we,

Gordon?

We had that big.

Yes,

We did.

Yes.

Thank you.

Yeah.

But is there anything?

Is there anything that's up or any?

The process is,

Is happening.

Okay,

Good.

Good.

Focus on the self compassion.

Yeah.

Good.

Good.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah,

I just I Yeah,

Bless your dear,

Dear heart.

Mitchie.

Thank you.

Yeah,

Blessing Mitchie,

You sort of fought me off last time.

So last week,

Not in a bad way,

But just,

You know,

You said you were feeling fine,

But I just want to check on you.

Do you do you wish to speak to me at all?

Yeah.

Hi,

Everybody.

Can you hear me?

Yeah.

Yes.

My screen is not working today.

But I can hear you.

Okay,

Good.

Today,

I'm very fine.

I was.

Yeah,

The satsang yesterday was very great.

And I feel I felt a lot of release and energetic.

And yeah,

I worked the whole night through.

And today,

I'm totally tired and exhausted.

And yeah.

And well,

That can happen,

Right?

Yeah.

But I did a lot of yoga and meditation during the night.

And yeah,

Maybe it's just a physical.

Yeah,

Exhausted.

I can't feel it.

Yeah,

I think it's just a integration of the process.

You know,

Sometimes we have off days,

It's a bit like pregnancy,

You know,

It's just like,

Can have an off day.

But Michi,

I feel like your deeper hearts being neglected.

Okay.

Yeah.

And there's nothing for you to fix.

I mean,

All you guys,

You know,

I mean,

All of us alive,

We all tend to fix and everything,

There's nothing to fix.

Just being here.

Just being here and breathing is the fixing.

It's Yeah,

You're,

You're so wanting to move forward on the journey.

And to and you're so sincere.

But your,

Your true heart is,

Is being neglected.

There's a level of,

Of your feelings that you're not in touch with.

But I know you work full time,

Right?

Are you working?

You're a teacher,

Right?

Yeah.

Full time?

Yeah.

Yeah.

You were thinking maybe about quitting or getting some space?

Did you decide against that?

No,

I haven't decided so far.

Okay.

There's a heart that's behind the way you're living,

How you're living.

It's like,

You know,

You're busy living and,

You know,

Yoga,

Work,

Kids and everything.

But there's a heart that hardly gets any attention from you.

And it's your real heart.

It's the real Michi.

And she's very,

Very beautiful and very,

Very sensitive.

We know this.

So you're not willing to,

You know,

You,

You're sort of scared to know about her,

You're scared to get to know her.

And there's no rush.

It's it's not it's okay.

It's okay.

Just listen to my words.

And don't don't make it a project that you have to then find this hard and feel it and everything.

Just just hearing that there's something in you that's kind of it's waiting for you to allow this connection to your deep heart.

And when you do that,

A lot of your problems are going to get solved.

They're going to get solved seamlessly,

Because the heart will solve them for you,

Because the heart's got Amma in it.

Like the deeper I've gone,

The more all my problems got solved.

I can hear you.

Yeah,

I feel it.

Good.

Good.

And the more I struggled to solve things like them,

Took huge amounts of effort,

And it was never a complete solution.

There was always problems.

It's like my landlord days where that one year I made after,

You know,

With this fourplex and all this landlord struggles,

And I made $288 profit from the whole thing.

That's kind of like a little picture of how we're often living.

This very,

Very gentle heart got crushed earlier,

But got crushed early in life.

But you don't believe in the crushing anymore.

You're actually waking up quite beautifully,

Certainly at your intellectual level.

So there's more room.

Your heart doesn't have to stretch so far to reach your head.

Your head is gradually moving closer to your heart.

Your understanding is getting closer to your heart.

And just keep doing that.

Just keep doing that.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Sweetie.

You have a very,

Very,

Very beautiful heart.

And this heart of yours is quite passive.

In fact,

You're passive about really important things,

In a way.

Like you can take action,

You know,

During your living and everything,

But sometimes following your intuition,

You don't always.

Yeah,

But you will.

You will.

It's a very beautiful heart.

Okay.

Yes,

Sweetie.

You're going to feel some more peace now.

Your heart's going to,

Like even this talk is going to help uncover it.

So you're going to feel a little more peace.

You're going to feel some peace coming in over the next few days.

And it's coming from your heart.

And it's coming from you being willing to listen more.

You're moving into being more willing to listen.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Well,

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Shiva,

You sort of fobbed me off last time too,

Not in a bad way.

So I'm just wondering,

Do you need me to speak with you?

Or have you had enough?

I don't know.

It's frightening to think about saying anything.

Yeah.

I listened and I got a lot out of what's been said.

I really haven't.

I can feel a shift.

But it's like terror.

I've admired the people that you've called out in front of everybody that they kind of,

You know,

You sit there and then nod with you.

But I think,

Oh my God,

I hope she would never,

You know,

I mean,

I have this fear that you would do that to me.

And I'm really,

I don't know,

You know,

I just,

I'm confused and yet I'm not confused.

You know,

I mean,

I listened to this spiritual journey,

You know,

The things that you say,

And they all make sense.

And yet somehow they don't make sense.

You know,

Sometimes it's like,

It's a different language that you speak.

And then sometimes I think,

No,

It's not.

I just,

I don't know what to say other than I'm afraid to admit I'm confused.

You're getting more honest.

This is significant.

You can just kind of put your cards on the table because,

I mean,

You've,

Yeah,

Good.

I mean,

You're just being very truthful.

That's good.

It's the language of the heart and it takes time to learn it.

But when you do,

It so makes sense.

And you'll go like,

What planet was I on before that I was scared of it?

But that's okay.

This is just kind of,

You know,

This is the Amma coming through Premasuddha,

Like Premasuddha's version of Amma.

Do you know,

This is the way the inner Amma,

Amma expresses through Premasuddha to really help Westerners come into their hearts,

Out of their heads and into their hearts.

And it's very scary for a lot of us.

It was terrifying for me too.

And lots of times we're really scared that if we wake up that,

Well,

We'll just regret the way we've lived our life.

And,

You know,

Amma says whatever we've done,

It's had to be this way.

Like our lives have already happened.

We just find out what our choices,

What our soul choices were.

I always feel about you that you're very scared of somehow getting into trouble.

Yeah.

And I know things were very uncertain and predictable when you were a little kid.

And it's okay,

Shivamaya,

You know,

You're way more honest than you've been.

So this is really good.

Yeah.

Could you just say one thing?

Just say,

I have trouble receiving love.

Could you say that out loud?

I have trouble receiving love.

Right.

How do you feel when you say that?

Well,

That didn't feel very sincere,

But,

You know,

I've been waking up to that.

I belong to this group.

And we were talking about fear.

And it came up that people of my,

I don't want to go into too much,

But it's an Enneagram group.

And it was that I fear rejection of people.

And I said,

Oh,

No,

I don't.

I said,

I don't fear rejection of people.

I just don't give them a chance in the first place.

And then after I said that,

I realized,

My God,

I really am so afraid of rejection,

You know,

Or judgment,

Very,

Very afraid of it.

And,

And so that's been in my,

Flying around in my head,

You know,

I mean,

I've been kind of working on that,

Being that awareness of,

Of how afraid I am,

And,

And how much I conformed all my life,

Because of that fear of,

Of,

Of rejection,

You know.

Yeah.

So when I said,

You know,

Say,

I,

I'm scared of receiving love,

And you said,

It didn't feel sincere.

You judged it,

I just wanted you to feel,

To just be with your body and your mind after you said it.

Okay,

Can you say it again?

And just be with how your body feels.

I have a hard time receiving love.

Yeah.

I,

My,

I don't feel connected to my body when I say that.

Right now,

This very minute.

Yeah,

Right.

Right.

So just feeling that though,

And noticing the disconnection.

Yeah,

That's good.

I feel sad when I say it,

I get sad.

Right.

And that's good,

Because it's the deeper sorrow underneath.

The sorrow we feel about when we feeling separate,

You know,

Where we don't let love in,

But actually,

When you feel the sorrow,

You're actually letting the love in.

When you feel the sadness,

You're actually letting love in.

Shivam I,

Yeah.

Yeah.

I'm not going to push you anymore.

You did very good work.

And even if you don't understand it all,

I understand it.

So it's okay.

And I'm the one steering the ship,

You know,

So I know where what's going on,

Where we're going.

So you just turn up and,

You know,

We'll get there.

You know,

We will.

Yeah,

Yeah,

It really,

These are transformative,

Because I think about a lot that's been said through the week.

I mean,

It's a,

It's definitely a process.

So it is and Amma is working with us.

She's turned up the heat in a big way.

Yeah.

Well,

Thank you,

Shivam.

I always have a warm spot for you.

You know this?

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Sebastian,

You fought me off last week,

Too.

You were kind of like,

Oh,

You know,

I,

My parents have got a dog and we walked and it's like,

You,

You,

You know,

When you want to fund me off you,

You kind of talk like that you talk like just that sort of an,

An ordinary snoozy person.

Well,

Do you hear me?

Yeah,

I can hear you.

Yeah.

Last week,

I was very much in my mind.

And even with packing busy and planning the next days.

And for me,

What I really realized during this period,

I was staying at my parents.

And this is very interesting,

Even for me,

It's,

I'm living alone in Berlin,

And this is totally fine.

But at the moment,

I visit my parents,

I feel more lonely than when I would be here alone in Berlin.

Right.

Right.

What do you think about that?

Well,

What I was reflecting about this,

And is something what I realized is my parents are living a life parallel next to each other,

Not really with each other.

So what was I was feeling is that I maybe fear their loneliness,

And perceiving it as my own energy and living it as my own.

Yeah,

But sometimes when we'd like go home for Christmas,

Also our sort of the injured child stuff comes up,

Right?

You know,

Like,

The,

You know,

The loneliness of the child,

The,

You know,

How you felt as a child.

Could be.

Yeah.

You know,

Yeah.

Yeah,

I've said this before,

There's some sweetheart,

There's some kind of wall that I hit with you.

And I think you it's even a wall that you hit with you.

Well,

From the way what I'm able to do is that I invite you to look even in each secret corner of my personality of my being.

So this is what I,

I try to do what I'm willing to do.

But if there are some walls,

I feel like they're out of my control.

What was the last sentence?

These words are out of my control.

No,

No,

They're not.

That is so funny.

It's the more sincere the desire for enlightenment,

What happens is all these walls will come up to dissolve so that you can achieve true enlightenment.

Okay,

How can I go through this world?

Yeah,

We well,

This is the million dollar question that everybody in the satsang everybody's like,

And they're trying to go through the walls.

And lots of times we make things worse when we're trying to go through the walls.

I mean,

Just,

You know,

One of the common walls that I've had in the satsang,

But it seems to be going away is that people would not take what I said seriously.

So when I just said to you,

You were feeling the sort of the solitariness,

The separation you felt as a child,

You were feeling again,

You kind of brush that off.

And it's like,

That's the place to start,

Man.

It's,

It's not them,

It's you,

It's you,

You're carrying it.

It's a veil between you and your soul.

It came from your childhood.

And it's like,

Part of you just doesn't know how to address this material.

And I get it because it's hard enough for women,

Let alone guys.

And Trilla Chan is just got like this,

He's in heavy emotional pain because he's moving through some of the walls.

I mean,

He's in heavy physical pain.

And that's one of the things that will happen is your body will start to hurt as these complexes come up to be removed.

Okay.

You're not the first one who's telling me about my experience as a child,

Separation and all that I should hold my,

My inner child as a two years old baby and all,

And still I have really,

I have no idea how even what you just said that I stay there and I'm okay.

Yeah,

But the thing is,

You can't reach enlightenment till this stuff's cleared,

Man.

So it's like,

I mean,

How much do you want to clear it?

It's how much we really want to embody our God self that determines how quickly this stuff dissolves.

I would wish immediately.

I know.

I think it's like you,

You're just,

It's like,

You're just scared to trust.

Sweet one.

I mean,

You're scared to trust whether this one's words are really knowledgeable,

You know,

To actually go near the wounding to heal it.

And you've,

And you've made progress since I met you.

It's all good.

It's all good.

You know,

You're,

You're moving forward in your own way.

But for me,

You're Teflon.

You're the Teflon guy.

You know,

It just rolls off.

Really rolls off.

Well,

Yeah.

You're busted.

You see,

You're busted.

Yeah.

I don't know.

It's,

It's,

It's,

And maybe,

Maybe you don't think anybody can really help you,

You know,

Or maybe you just want to do it privately.

Well,

I would love that someone could help me.

Well,

Sebastian,

I try to help you,

But you don't really take what I say too seriously.

So there we are.

It's okay.

It's okay.

It can feel very unsafe to let anybody get really close to us.

You know,

It's okay.

I mean,

I didn't let Abraham get close to me.

I let Amma get close to me to help me.

But if you just,

If you just accept that that loneliness that you felt at your parents was the separation from your soul that you're caring and that the,

If you feel the deep sorrow at being so separate,

You will tap into your soul energy.

Just getting that logic.

Yes.

I'm getting it and I will do it.

You,

But you,

You see,

You can't do it like it's like your ego will try to do it and it won't work that way.

You see,

You actually have to let someone love you into it.

You actually,

Yeah.

People spend their whole,

I've listened.

There are so many people I've met who spent 20,

30 years on the journey and they have just gone round in circles.

They have wasted their time trying to do this stuff themselves and it can't really be done on your own.

Really,

It can't.

Amma says,

You know,

Everybody needs a teacher.

There's,

I'll tell you,

There's only a tiny,

Tiny percentage of people that can do it themselves.

There are people that have come in with very,

Very little garbage so they can do it themselves,

But the rest of us.

But you could just ask that it become really clear to you,

Whether what I'm saying is true or not,

You know?

I mean,

I don't know who you'd pray to,

To ask for that clarity to come.

Who would you pray to?

Universe,

My highest self.

Okay.

Yeah.

Then as to be shown.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And it's all good,

Man.

I mean,

You're still very young,

So.

I just knew a lot,

Known a lot of people who wasted their time and a lot of them laughed at Premasuddha.

This is the,

I really have to say this,

They'd laugh at Premasuddha and imply that I was just like cuckoo and I'm like,

I was like,

I don't think you're really doing the journey.

That's what I'd be thinking.

And you know,

When I,

When I come across them,

They're still going around in circles.

Yeah.

You're very dear and I'm not being critical.

It's just your ego's in control and the journey doesn't work that way.

Yeah.

But I know you're sincere underneath and I know you have a heart of gold and I'm very patient with you,

Sebastian.

I haven't gone dragon,

You know,

I haven't gone dragon.

So sometimes it doesn't fit like that.

You're so patient.

I remember the last session you wanted to stop and kick me out of the session.

Oh,

Did I?

Well,

Well,

You know what?

Yeah.

Well,

You just get truth from me,

Really.

So I guess you made a shift because you didn't,

You weren't kicked out.

You did.

You must have shifted enough that we could keep going.

Yeah.

You're very dear.

Well,

Just think about this,

What I've said.

Okay.

Many blessings.

Yeah.

Many blessings.

I don't know who,

If there's anybody that I've missed.

Veronica,

Sweet one.

We haven't talked.

Thank you.

Hi.

Hi,

Sweet one.

What's up,

Guys?

I hope everybody's doing good today,

But hi.

Yeah.

Thank you,

Pramasuta.

I've recovered from COVID.

I got really sick on the 22nd and it really knocked me through a loop.

I haven't been working since then.

And just the thought of going back to work has been debilitating,

Almost,

In a way,

Because I realized how I was burning the candle at four different ends and something has to change in my life.

So that was really hard for me to battle myself on,

Thinking that I had to do the full-time job,

Do the mother thing,

Take care of the home,

And also hold space for other people emotionally and hold the space open for myself to keep feeling things without lashing out.

That's been a challenge.

And I felt like I was just completely leveled.

It leveled me.

But,

Yeah.

Can you get a delay before you go back to work?

I'm going to go back tomorrow.

Your doctor couldn't write you like a sick note that you're,

You know?

Yeah,

I have a sick note.

Because why would you go back to work so quickly?

Hmm.

If I don't go back,

Then I might lose the job.

Oh,

What's your job?

I'm a hospice nurse.

Okay.

So it takes a lot out of me.

Sweetie,

Yeah.

My comfort.

Sorry.

No,

Sweetie,

It's a lot.

How many hours a week do you work?

At least 40.

Because after my visits,

I come home and then I have a lot of paperwork to do.

And the paperwork part is what I'm getting hung up on doing.

It's like I sit down to do it,

And my mind won't let me.

It's like I meet a big resistance.

And that was something that I was tossing and turning in.

Like,

Why can't I sit and focus on this?

This is part of my job that I must do.

But even now,

I'm just coming up against it and realizing that my life is moving in a different direction.

And that was a hard thing to swallow.

Moving in a different direction,

Like how?

Like,

I feel like I have to pivot.

Away from your work?

Like,

Finding different work or stopping or?

Finding different work.

Well,

Yeah.

So I'm just trying to do what's best for me.

How old are you,

Veronica?

Two.

Pardon?

I'm 32.

Yeah.

And how old?

You got one child or two or?

I have two little boys.

Eight months and five years old.

Wow.

Yeah.

Since the baby came,

My life had really,

Really changed from there.

His father and I didn't get along.

He was actually pretty abusive.

So I had escaped and I moved in with my grandmother,

Which is a mutually beneficial place for all of us to be.

Sounds good.

It's a good thing.

Um.

But from.

Since May,

My life looks completely different.

Completely different.

And I feel like,

You know,

Since 2020.

I feel like I've lived so many lifetimes just within these past few years.

And I understand that that's like me clearing my karma of my past lives.

And,

You know,

Moving myself closer toward God and closer toward Alma.

And I feel this huge connection toward the earth.

And I just keep trying to focus on,

You know,

What it's whispering to me.

And what direction to move that will that will allow me to like become closer and closer to that.

So I feel like.

You know,

I fought with myself because I love my job and I love caring for people.

But I know that I can't shoulder it all.

Yeah,

It sounds very intense to me.

Yeah,

Sweetie.

And a lot of stress points.

Yeah,

Sweetie.

I think you need lots of tender,

Loving care.

Hold your grandmother.

86.

So you're taking care of her,

Too,

I guess.

We take care of each other.

OK,

Good.

Yeah.

Really blessed.

Very blessed.

Over the holiday.

And we spent we spent a weekend together.

I don't get to see her very often.

She lives in Memphis,

Tennessee.

Is this your mom?

Was it your mom,

You said?

Yeah,

They said,

OK,

She lives in Memphis.

Yeah.

And it's always nice to see her.

But,

You know,

Ever since I was a child,

I understood that she saw me as competition.

And so,

You know,

Competing with your mother for her love is has always been,

You know,

A theme that I,

You know,

Now I'm older and realizing that that's what it is.

I can't blame her.

But it's just a fact.

And whenever she came to visit,

I had gone to church with her,

My family's church.

My whole family goes to this one church,

My cousins,

The pastor there.

And it was the first time I had gone into Baptist church.

And I was raised Roman Catholic.

Right.

So I'm very familiar with the ritual and with strictness and,

You know,

Following the shepherd.

Right.

So I never agreed with I never really agreed with it.

And I never knew why until,

You know,

Now that I'm older and going on my own spiritual journey and understanding the mother from my Catholic background and seeing where she walked with me to where I am today,

It let me release the need to be seen by my own mother.

So whenever I went to church with them,

I tried to speak to them in the language that they understood,

Which was like Catholic Christian way.

So I tried to relate to them as a mother to the mother through the mother.

And that made me feel a huge breakthrough,

You know,

Just reaching my own the heart of my own family.

So good,

Good,

Good.

Yeah.

You've got a lot of guts,

Sweetie.

Past two weeks.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

Yeah.

I think you need a lot of tender,

Loving care.

Try to give that to myself.

Yeah,

Please.

I'm going to be giving you some energetic support because you really need to take care of yourself.

And we can,

You know,

We can all email you after this.

Okay.

Thanks for listening to me.

I mean,

It means.

Yeah.

Look,

Everybody's hearts touched.

Yeah.

Everybody's hearts touched.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

So how are we?

Have I spoken to everybody?

You know,

Remember,

I started this face to face last week.

Have I talked to everybody yet?

Not sure.

Is there anybody I haven't spoken to?

You know,

I'm gobsmacked.

I am so thrilled by the energy that I'm feeling today from you all.

It's like,

I just feel the lights dawning,

Lights dawning around the self-compassion.

And I feel this growing strength and growing trust.

Yeah,

I'm like,

This is so different.

Do you remember when we started the group and nobody would talk for the longest time?

I'd say,

Does anybody make comment?

Nobody talk.

And I babble away,

You know.

And then I remember you started,

You know,

Somebody would make the odd comment and everything,

And it's just snowballed.

And I'll tell you,

The level that you guys are engaging with the truth of your lives,

I'm really touched and I'm really impressed.

Right across the board.

Yeah,

Really right across the board.

Yeah,

I'm like,

My hat off.

You guys,

You're turning into spiritual warriors.

Yeah.

Yeah,

Really.

Spiritual love warriors.

Yeah.

And your honesty and your vulnerability and your willingness to get,

You know,

Fried by the dragon and keep coming back.

It's like,

Because some of you,

It's like Trilla Chan.

I mean,

Trilla Chan,

I mean,

I yelled at you for months.

I did.

I yelled at you for months and you kept coming back.

And now you're having this big breakthrough,

Which I know that you're still wobbly about.

But it's good just walking through it.

It's good what you're doing.

And it will transform your life.

Yeah.

Oh,

You guys.

Has anybody,

You know,

We've been going for a while now,

But does anybody really need some attention or need a comment?

Anna,

Something about you,

Sweetie.

Anna,

Are you asleep?

Yeah.

How are you doing?

You were very vulnerable when we talked in class,

But I'm just wondering how you're doing.

I'm extremely exhausted.

And yeah,

But there's a peacefulness rising in me.

And yeah,

So I feel kinder to myself and I've been up and around all day and feeling just a bit more content with myself.

So but now I'm really exhausted.

You know,

I love that you said that what was rising,

A peacefulness was rising.

Yes.

Yes.

You guys,

This will come after we experience hopelessness.

If you just are with the hopelessness and pray,

You know,

Don't try to fix it.

Just be with it.

Embrace it.

It turns into peace.

Because it's the child who felt hopeless.

So it's coming up to be cleared.

And then you connect up with your true nature more.

So you will feel this peace.

And sweetie,

The exhaustion is you're just exhausted with the way you have lived your life,

With the level of defenses that you've been carrying and how strict you've been with yourself and,

You know,

Always on yourself.

You're feeling how exhausting it is to live this way.

So this is healthy exhaustion.

Yes,

It feels like that.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

This is so great.

I'm so glad you guys,

I went through all my challenges to be able to play here with you.

This is just for me,

This is just like the celebration of life.

This is just so wonderful.

You know,

So with your struggles,

Just keep going because it's just,

You know,

It's just so worth it.

It's so worth it.

And when we come together like this,

Half the difficulties fall away in the company and the support.

Yeah.

And I'm so fond of all of you guys.

And I think of you so often,

You know,

And send you love.

Yeah,

I'm always working with you.

And you have armor.

It's like,

You know,

You got armor.

Yeah.

And try,

Laura,

Try to stop fighting.

Okay,

Stop fighting.

Just surrender.

Okay,

Laura,

Learn to surrender.

Okay.

I was thinking about you the last couple of days or just thinking about how you fight your corner.

And it never works,

Really.

Look,

It never works at all.

You know.

I am going to Florida.

I thank you.

Um,

What I'm struggling with after listening to Susan and Veronica today is moving into a facility near my mom instead of with my mom because I'm afraid I would behave badly if I moved into that dynamic.

Sure.

Sure,

Sweetie,

If that feels good.

I mean,

Do you have enough money to pay for a facility?

Yes.

It's much cheaper there.

It's much cheaper.

Yeah.

And plus,

I wouldn't be depending on my mom to take care of me.

She's 80 years old and she still works.

Yeah,

Sure.

Maybe that's the best way then.

That sounds good.

But I am fighting and that's a freaking miracle.

Thank you.

What's a miracle?

What's a miracle?

That I'm going back to Florida.

So,

Thank you.

Well,

You know,

Also remember you don't have to.

If it doesn't feel right,

Don't do it.

Honestly,

My soul had whispered,

You know,

Your mom has a bigger bathroom than anybody you know here that's handicap accessible.

You'll be okay.

You've got your sense of humor.

You'll be okay.

Okay,

Well,

Blessings.

Yeah,

Blessings to all of you guys.

Okay,

Bye.