How The Soul Energy Dissolves Ego

"Out Of Our Bodies - And Out Of Our Experience"

This Satsang spotlights the process of embodying our true Soul energy as Premasudha highlights all the joys and difficulties that come with the task. Sincere student Alex describes her experience of the hump just at the top of her back dissolving as the kundalini flow relaxed the tight muscles of her neck and shoulders.

Premasudha reminded us that a tight neck and tight shoulders reflect the ego's too-narrow perspective and penchant for taking responsibility for things that need to be given to God. We can grow out of our emotional complexes just as Alex is doing, and the proof is the body will also heal and pain disappear.

Transcript

Blessings.

Yeah.

Oh,

I'm so happy to see your faces.

You have no idea.

But maybe you do.

Yeah.

Blessings.

Blessings.

You guys are getting a big blast of blessings.

I can't help it.

I mean,

I don't want to help it.

But it's just and this is being transmitted to your bodies.

This is a big satsang.

And I,

I know,

Some of you have been feeling this because I've got some messages from you about your excitement today.

And I'm not exactly sure what's going to happen.

Except that it feels to me that something is going to be transmitted to your bodies.

That your bodies are going to receive unconditional love on a whole new level.

And when your body receives it,

Your head goes along for the ride.

It's like a woman gives birth,

And suddenly she's a mother.

She's got all the characteristics of a mom,

Her psychology changes,

Everything changes.

It's the same thing when we receive this divine love when we in our bodies,

Open up to the true awareness that we are the true being of love that we are.

Okay,

So I can feel I'm feeling resistant.

It's okay.

It's what's clearing,

Because really there's going to be a dam breaking.

And it's going to happen in the healthiest possible way.

Okay,

So don't worry,

Just come along for the ride.

Try to keep your focus part of your focus on your physical.

It's like a pregnant woman.

She's got one,

One eye on her inside and one eye on her outside.

Yeah,

But truly,

There's going to be a dam breaking today.

And it's going to happen in all of us.

In some of you,

It's going to be unconscious.

Some of you are going to be very conscious of it.

And it's,

It's what the dam breaking is,

Is that you're actually going to comprehend this work more,

You're going to get what I'm talking about.

It's like speaking to little kids.

And you say the same thing over and over.

And then you know,

Around two or something,

They get enough brain development that they can comprehend it.

It is the same with our spiritual journeys.

Please understand this.

We're just like we're like little kids going through the steps into this comprehension,

And it dawns within us.

It's like with children,

The comprehension dawns within them.

That's what happens on the journey,

And it will happen at the absolute best possible pace.

Please understand that for some of you that are so hard on yourselves,

It is just happening at the best possible pace.

Okay.

So when this Kundalini flows within you,

Which,

You know,

As you,

If you keep coming to the satsangs,

And if the teacher is truly awakened,

It is inevitable that your Kundalini will be activated just as a byproduct.

And again,

At a pace that you can handle.

And as that Kundalini blows up your spine,

It will begin to clear physical disturbances,

As well as emotional ones.

And spiritual ones.

Actually,

It's all spiritual.

It's all coming from our distrust,

You guys,

And the distrust of other lives.

I should slow down a bit.

Yeah,

But also,

Please think about listening to the satsang again,

After because you'll get it more.

You know,

I'm going to ask Alex to speak about her experience with her body.

And I just want to give a little bit of background is I met Alex,

And she moved in across the street in a sort of a rental,

She was renting for a bit with her family.

And we met on the street.

And she had Griffin,

I think,

At that point.

And do you know,

I'm often moved to,

It's kind of my selfless service,

I,

I speak to moms,

And I give them a big blast of unconditional love.

And Alex,

You know,

Hadn't sought me out at all.

So it was me offering this to Alex.

And as time went on,

You know,

We started working together.

And,

And I don't know,

We've known each other about four years,

I guess.

But Alex is sincere.

No.

So there's some things that happen when you're sincere.

And,

You know,

Again,

With this,

Don't criticize yourselves,

Because all of you will just become more,

More sincere as a byproduct of turning up,

I promise you.

Okay.

So Alex,

Will you just talk about,

You know,

What we talked about?

It's about,

You know,

The back of your neck and up?

Yeah.

Well,

I don't know how far back to go.

But I guess just,

Just recently,

The physical change I felt.

Okay,

Well,

Maybe go back,

Go back to embrace the whole story of it.

The whole.

So,

Well,

It feels like such a long story.

But I am,

I know,

There's been a complex around my shoulders,

And my neck.

And,

You know,

I've always had tension and pain.

And I've always had,

You know,

Probably since childhood,

The I don't know which vertebra it is,

But right where you know,

Your neck meets your shoulders,

That kind of protruding part of the spine has always protruded a little bit extra,

It's always been kind of like a hump,

Almost.

And I've done yoga and body work and,

And,

And lots of physical practices for years.

And it didn't matter how good my alignment and posture was,

The hump was always there,

There was no,

Like,

There was just no movement,

It felt fused that way.

And recently,

About a week and a half ago,

A few days after a phone call with you,

Pramasutha,

And we'd been working with my crown chakra opening.

It started with headaches for a few days.

And then,

Which wasn't surprising to me.

And then I felt a tension in that area behind my neck,

But it was different than the usual like sore neck feeling.

It felt good.

It felt like,

Like,

If you've been sitting for too long,

And your legs are all cramped up,

And you're finally able to move,

And you've got like,

Kind of that,

That tingling and tight feeling,

But it's like the muscles opening,

And there's movement.

And I felt that in my neck.

And I realized,

Oh my god,

I can,

Like,

I can move this part that seemed fused together before,

Like,

There's movement.

And I was able to just straighten my neck up.

And there was no pump behind there.

And yeah,

And it's the most,

I mean,

Yeah,

In these four or five years that I've known you,

Pramasutha,

You know,

There've been many experiences of connection,

And then separation,

And connection,

And separation,

And resistance,

And all of that.

But this has been the most obviously,

Physical change in my body,

For it to just happen.

So it's been really amazing.

And,

And I still feel it this week,

Like it's still really sore.

It's uncomfortable.

And I feel like I can feel when I'm hunched back into the old position,

And then I but then I'm able to,

Like,

Straighten up again.

So there's this back and forth,

But but there's movement,

Which is totally new.

Right.

And the solution came invisibly in a way.

You know,

It's like this is the byproduct is it's kind of an emotional spiritual yoga.

Because this is how my body realigned.

So Alex has her old position of her old ego.

And now her whole body is shifting into a new realignment.

Okay,

That is proof positive of moving into embodying your soul energy more.

That's what it feels like the old stuff just lifts.

And the fact it was in the shoulders and the back of the neck.

Do you see we get stuck in a particular perspective?

This is part of what's changing with Alex,

We get stuck in a particular perspective.

And we take it all on our shoulders that we have to figure it out and figure out how to like become our God self.

And it's like the ego is just spinning its wheels.

Because it's just we just need to give it over and let God figure it out.

Because we're just these little human beings.

And we are just so incapable.

What's capable in us is our God self.

So the more we give our God self,

The right of way,

The more expanded we become,

And the more taps into our bodies.

Now,

This these experiences that that Alex described,

These are what build our faith,

And they make it the,

You know,

It's kind of like proof positive.

Right?

Okay,

And I can feel there's some very subtle knowledge wanting to come to all of you.

It's like coming and knocking at your door.

Just as we're talking.

You know,

Just listen to my words.

I mean,

You know,

Please don't go like,

Oh,

I can't feel it.

It's,

It's a lot of you might feel it.

But a lot of what I pick up on is below consciousness.

So don't worry,

It's still happening.

That's it.

That's it.

It's a very subtle energy,

But it's infinitely powerful.

That's it.

But so thanks,

Alex,

For speaking.

And it will be inspiring everybody,

You know,

And it will make us more likely to pay attention to our bodies.

And notice these things.

Because you see,

If we don't notice,

We don't build the knowledge,

Like Alex could have had a realignment without really cluing in that it had to do with her bigger understanding.

Okay.

Can I add one more thing?

Please?

Good.

Also,

So the days when I noticed this movement,

I was really excited.

And I remember I,

I think I wrote to you or we talked and I told you about it.

And then in this week,

Since then,

I felt really heavy,

And kind of stuck again.

And I noticed these thoughts come up that were like,

Oh,

Still in pain,

And my neck still stiff.

And it's not actually like I imagined it,

Or like,

Right,

Right,

It really that came up really strong.

And I could see how easily I could just fall back in that and just believe all those thoughts.

Yeah,

So that's been humbling to to notice that integration part.

But but being able to look at it as integration has been so helpful to just kind of distance myself from or not identify so much and believe the thoughts so much as they come.

But that is,

It's actually one of the most dangerous spots in the journey,

You know,

When we make a shift,

And the ego will go full frontal,

It will use just truly,

Like,

Our egos are just like these dictators,

And they will use every trick in the book,

Totally ruthlessly to try to get us back inside the ego.

And you know,

The thing is,

The ego is trying to help us because it it just doesn't know about the God doesn't know about the love was built from a scared child's perspective.

So you know,

It's doing its best.

But truly,

This is this is the most important part is being able,

Well,

It's at least as important as actually opening to the shift,

To be able to then witness the egos histrionics.

Truly,

That's so important.

Not to buy into them,

Even though you're,

You're feeling it,

Your body may be flooded with fear,

Despair,

Or,

You know,

Christ said,

If you have faith,

The side of a mustard seed,

So it's like if you can just have a mustard seed of faith in the shift,

And witness the integration.

Yeah.

And you see,

Just as like with Alex's issue about the shoulders and the back of the neck,

It was a very clear metaphorical picture.

Same with the feelings of heaviness and distrust,

Because it is the heaviness of the vibration with which we've lived that begins to clear.

But we will feel that heaviness as it's leaving.

And we will feel enormous distrust,

As it is leaving.

See,

Alex,

So it's just,

Again,

You're just getting a picture of your ego and how it functions with the heaviness and distrust.

Yeah,

It is,

It's sort of hard to keep this in mind.

It takes,

It takes willpower.

See,

On the higher levels,

We're just a hologram.

We're not even real.

So this is us realizing that the people we think so are so important,

Like our,

Our personal self doesn't really exist.

And our God energy comes in to fill the gap,

To fill the vacuum.

And then we become gifts to the world.

For Westerners to really think that we're just illusory figures,

That we're just kind of hologram is a great leap of faith.

It's much,

It's,

I'll tell you,

It's easy for me now.

And I have a lot of white hairs.

Okay.

Yeah.

That's kind of maybe the secret,

You know,

Alma says that she most likes the journey that's gradual with liberation,

Occurring in old age.

It's interesting,

I was thinking about this.

And I was thinking,

Well,

That journey then honors the physical to do you know,

It's,

It's almost like spiritual and the physical uniting Shiva and Shaki uniting,

No war between them.

But the physical is important to in its own way,

Even if it's just illusion.

Yeah.

You know,

When we're a mom,

And we're taking care of little children,

That that is,

You know,

Sacred,

Holy time,

And needs,

There needs to be great care taken at the physical level,

So that the children's souls can manifest as they grow older.

Please don't have a war between the spirit and the physical too much.

Okay,

Just embrace it all.

Because our spirit comes in through the physical,

Our journeys occur through our mammalian bodies.

Right?

Okay,

Good.

Okay.

Isn't that interesting?

I'm getting breakthrough time.

Right?

It comes in through the mammal through the physical.

Okay,

I'm just gonna all of you.

Every aspect of you is God.

Okay.

Okay,

It's very beautiful.

It's that I'm actually hearing.

This is kind of a comedy,

Because I'm,

It's like I'm hearing angelic music.

There is a moment,

You know,

Where heaven and earth meets.

And when,

You know,

My son had that diagnosis,

And I,

I decided to open the door to something else to happen.

I wasn't demanding a healing,

I just opened the door for something else to happen.

And in that space,

Heaven and earth met.

And he healed.

It's like this with all of you.

It's,

You know,

Alma says that if she,

If a person receives one hug,

Their whole life trajectory changes.

Because of this moment of heaven and earth meeting.

This is what this work gives space to as well.

That's it.

That's it.

That's it's beautiful.

All of you are doing it.

In some of you,

It's more subconscious,

But it that will come up.

It's happening in all of you.

That's it.

Room for your soul coming in,

Coming in to heal your bodies,

Heal your minds,

Realign your bodies.

That's it.

I remember the moment I realized that my heart was holding up my head.

And I was no longer relying on my neck muscles,

Or my shoulder muscles,

My heart was holding my head.

That's it.

I wanted to tell you that,

For those of you that don't know it,

When you cross over into self realization,

The way you do it,

Is that your mind just lets go for an instant,

It is a tiny instant.

And then after that,

You can no longer go back into your mind.

And what happens is,

You're,

It's sort of like,

I don't know how to explain it,

Sort of like the dead body of your mind gets kind of cleaned up and taken away,

You know,

It just gets it just melts.

And you're,

It's,

It's like the tidal wave of your being comes in and flows in,

And takes over all the space that was occupied by your ego mind.

That's it.

That's all it is,

Do you understand?

And that's why the focus is so much on being able to witness your ego,

And allow your soul energy,

Allow your essence,

The right of way.

Okay,

For anybody who's feeling separate,

The your being is holding you,

I am holding you,

You can lean back on God,

You know,

Anama.

God,

The way that your journey is going is exactly the right way for you.

Some of you have trouble with that hint.

It's true.

It's our egos that say it should be different.

Or that we should be faster or a star student or whatever.

This,

This will fertilize the roots of your being.

Yeah.

If you think of a seed,

You know,

The seed sprouts,

And the seed puts,

Develops roots,

It sort of uses all the crappy stuff of the shell for energy.

Okay,

So it eats up the shell,

Basically uses the energy to put roots down to find nutrients and water.

The same thing happens to us psychologically,

We have a breakthrough or an opening,

We see our ego in stark relief,

We get grossed out by it,

It gives us the energy,

Our gross doubtness at our egos gives us the energy to side with the truth of things to keep turning to God.

And we by doing that we put our roots down into our being to draw what we need to actually become our being in human form.

Yeah.

So this is what this work strengthens,

Just turning up,

Just turning up,

Week after week after week.

It'll just come in seamlessly.

There's nothing to do.

There's no emergency.

There's no schedule to meet.

Because you're already enlightened,

You're already eternal beings.

You know,

And you're either on your last life,

Or you're not like,

It's just like,

You know,

It's a process,

You just wake up to the truth of things.

Again,

Just like a child,

The comprehension grows.

It's very,

Very beautiful.

It's a lot.

Yeah.

I can feel the sincerity.

Yeah,

Of purpose.

That's it.

And remember,

Your soul will solve every single problem.

It doesn't matter what kind of mess you're in.

That will just all get solved.

Right?

We return to our hearts.

We leave our heads and we return to our hearts.

Okay,

Now,

This can feel dangerous to the ego.

And this is why we need a lot of patience,

You know,

With our fear and our discomfiture.

Just be patient with it.

Please don't try to fix it.

Just be with it.

The body is making a shift and you're there's a lot of shifts going on with your molecules,

The atoms.

You know,

There was a student of Ramana Maharshi and he wrote in a book and I can't remember his name.

I'm not that good with names sometimes.

But he was talking about how fairy tales are the remnants of spiritual tales in the West.

It's so interesting.

Because Einstein said,

If you want to increase the intelligence of children,

Have them read fairy tales.

And even though fairy tales are distorted,

There's truth in them that makes them captivating,

You know,

The captivated us for centuries.

In fairy tales,

The man and the woman get together,

The prince and prince get together,

Princess and prince,

And they live happily ever after.

And it's a,

It's a metaphor for the sacred marriage that Jung talks about.

Inside us,

The innocent male and innocent female getting together.

It's what happens in self realization.

Internally,

The innocent male and female get together.

And they live happily ever after because you're awake.

You're awake to the love that is within you.

You know,

You know what,

You know,

Love wins.

Oh,

You know that there was no battle.

It was just a phony battle.

It was just so stupid,

Because it's all love.

So of course,

Love wins.

You know,

Because it's just the truth of things.

So you know,

You can go into a dark movie and watch a scary film,

But you come out,

And it's all sunny day.

It's the same principle.

It's like we wake up and we just discover all the whole thing's just love.

I can feel some of you are going like,

You know what,

You know what,

It doesn't feel like that.

Your cells are being strengthened.

Just by turning up for satsang.

If you go to the satsang of any person who's awake,

Your cells will be strengthened.

And the,

You know,

We're all like snowflakes.

So,

You know,

Teachers are a snowflake.

They're a manifested snowflake,

Really,

You know,

Snowflakes are different.

So all the teachers have a different view of God,

A different flavor.

But it's all God.

And actually,

If you get a whole bunch of masters in a room,

They're not going to agree in lots of ways,

Because they're seeing it from different angles.

And you just choose the teacher that you resonate with.

And maybe their past lives involved where you've known the teacher.

But it's a great relief.

I know from my own experience to finding a way to tap into the larger meaning and the peace of the truth of things.

You know,

And you you can't fail,

You know,

It's like a little kid trying to walk a walk,

They they trip,

And then they get up again,

They just get up again.

I used to roll around in the dark for weeks,

Sometimes like berating myself every time I fell.

Yeah,

What a waste of time.

Actually,

I got a terrible wake up call.

This for any parent.

Okay.

So really,

I'd had a spiritual fall.

And I was just rolling around in darkness and almost willfully,

Like really mad at myself and that up.

And my son.

Oh,

God,

This is so crushing for me to even tell you.

When he's 80 said,

Mom,

I don't know what you're doing.

But what you're doing is really hurting john and me.

And he was just talking pure energy.

Yep.

That's how real it is.

What's going on in your minds.

That's how real it is.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Thank God he spoke up.

Yeah.

So you know,

This is what this one brings is a great knowledge of how,

How bad it can get and how horrible we could be,

You know,

How deluded and lost and everything.

And that's why there's such sturdiness here.

Because I'll tell you,

If this one could get through it,

Then there's hope for the world.

You know,

I told you in my early years,

I'd go around to psychics,

And they go,

Oh,

Boy,

If you ever get through this old woman,

You're carrying so much garbage.

And I'm going like,

I'm going like,

I'm paying for this.

I'm paying to be told I have so much garbage.

It's like,

How helpful is that?

Yeah.

I learned a lot through this.

Yeah.

Yeah.

And it was very cold and dreary and separate for me in those early years.

But I knew that my sons were never going to have any kind of good life if I didn't find a better way,

Because I just knew that the family patterns,

If I didn't stand up and walk this walk,

That the family patterns would just get worse.

And that they crucify my sons,

If they'd already crucified me,

I knew I couldn't bob it off.

I couldn't,

Like my mom once said to me,

Well,

Janet,

I knew you do it.

And it's like,

I'm like,

Yeah,

Well,

Thanks for standing by why I get hit by an avalanche of crap,

You know,

Which is what happened to me.

And it's why I'm so devoted to the journey.

And it's like,

I did not want to watch my children.

Get this avalanche.

Yeah.

Right.

Right.

So I'm seeing such beauty in you all.

And how to say this.

It's like there's some neglected beauty to when I say this without any criticism.

So I see it with great understanding.

It's like,

You're neglecting it because you you can't see it.

But I can see it.

And you know,

This is if a teacher's witnesses us,

It it loosens the ego,

It can loosen the ego,

It can loosen this.

The self neglect.

Uh huh.

Right.

You know,

If you have a little kid who's scared,

And you give the kid a hug,

You comfort the child,

You don't step aside from the child and go like,

What's the matter with you suck it up.

You know,

We any parent knows that that backfires.

So why would you do that to yourself?

Please,

Please?

Why would you do that to yourself?

Step aside from yourself and ask yourself to suck it up.

Be with what's ever is going on.

And give it to God.

Or pray if you can't give it to God,

Just pray and hope that there's a God.

I mean,

That's what it's like sometimes maybe it's just like it feels like,

Oh,

Is it really there?

It is.

But please this self neglect.

I can feel it even more strongly.

It's coming up.

It's part of what's shifting today.

It's part of this breakthrough.

Self neglect does not work.

Not if you're like,

You know,

There's selfless service,

You might,

You know,

Somebody might extend to serve.

Ama hugs you no matter how she feels.

No matter how tired she gets,

She just keeps hugging.

There's that.

But there's the self neglect of it's kind of like self denial.

It's kind of more like your ego telling your soul to suck it up.

That's what I'm talking about.

Yeah.

You know,

If you're really tired,

One day you can lie down for 20 minutes,

Give into it.

See what happens.

There's a woman I saw on YouTube,

She was talking about how she was always tired all of the time.

Do you know what,

If you are tired all of the time,

Chronically,

That is denial.

Okay,

You're running denial.

Okay,

So just think of it that way.

Like,

And realize that you can lie down and give the denial over to God and ask for help.

And then keep the door open as the reasons for the denial unravel.

Because you will get the information about it.

Okay,

You all have permission to grow.

You all have permission to come into a very big comprehension.

You know,

I told you that when I was in,

When I had a nervous breakdown,

I had and I was in the hospital,

I had an experience of the Kundalini.

And within two days,

I was discharged.

It's like,

I was in chaos,

I had this Kundalini experience,

I came back to myself within two days,

The doctor saw it within two days,

I was just quietly discharged.

There's more to that story,

But we don't have time for it.

So but I want you to realize that when you when these changes come in in your body,

You can make quantum leaps that just take place in your body,

And they're solid.

So you can get a wave of Kundalini energy coming up your spine,

That would just lift you from one vibration to the next,

In a quite a seamless way,

Except you would get what Alex described afterwards,

Which is,

Is this really going to work?

Is this really true?

When you just keep talking to God,

Basically,

And you stay invincible,

Because God's invincible.

So if you keep talking to God,

Nothing can stop you.

Okay.

I wanted to ask if anybody any questions or comments.

And later,

I also want to ask if you're interested in just a question and answer satsang sometime.

You can let me know that.

You could email me if,

About it,

If you feel like it.

Anyway,

Questions,

Any questions,

And please anything that you feel you want to bring up just anything at all,

And you cannot make a mistake.

My Prima Suda,

Suzanne,

I just want to say I feel so much love power.

I cannot describe.

I feel a lot of resistance in my shoulder.

And it's feel like clearing this resistance.

Okay.

Yeah.

Okay.

So Suzanne.

Okay,

Great.

But even you saying that this energy is clearing the resistance is actually you moving into your head trying to manage things.

Okay.

Don't,

Don't do that,

You guys.

Okay.

And it's Suzanne,

I'm not making you wrong,

Sweetie.

Yeah,

Describe,

I can't describe what what's going on.

Now.

It's,

It's very huge in my heart.

So I feel this big energy and in my whole body.

Yeah.

So,

Suzanne,

Just be with it.

And,

You know,

Don't box it at all.

Okay.

Okay.

Yeah.

I mean,

If you want to do something with it,

You could go you could just imagine that it's coming into yourselves,

But you see,

Okay,

This,

This energy has a wisdom and a life of its own.

And we just observe if you just observe it.

Don't do anything about it.

Just observe it.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay,

So then observe your life.

Suzanne,

It's like,

You know,

When we get these energy things,

We,

If we just keep going in our lives,

We will shift into more love.

So you just will go to the shop,

And you'll have a lovely encounter with the cashier or something,

Anything,

It doesn't matter.

And what will happen is this heart energy will integrate.

But Suzanne,

Just give it way right over like,

Just the head editorializing,

You don't want you just want to become a witness.

Yes.

Yeah.

Okay.

So tell me what's happened to the blossoming round the heart?

Is it staying the same?

Is it getting more?

Or has it gotten less as I've talked?

It's getting a little less.

Right?

Exactly.

Yeah.

Yeah,

It's gotten a little less.

Partly because you're on some,

You feel like on that you've done it wrong,

Like a little child who's getting instructed,

Right?

Yes.

Okay.

Exactly.

Okay.

And,

Okay,

So just be all of you like,

This is,

This is really important.

This is how it works.

Okay,

So Suzanne felt a little instructed and that she's done it wrong.

And this is just a minute,

How do I put it?

Sweetie pie,

It is reflecting how you're holding on to it all with your ego.

Do you see?

It's reflecting even what I pointed to earlier that you had a box around it,

You had a,

You know,

That you were going to get in there.

Okay,

I don't so hard to explain this sometimes.

Okay,

Suzanne,

How do you feel right now?

I say yes.

Good.

Is it?

Is it smaller?

Is it gone back to its original?

Is it bigger?

What's going on with you?

It's bigger.

It's bigger.

Yeah.

So Suzanne just embraced part of her ego.

Okay,

With a little help from this one.

This,

You know,

All the non dualists talk about self observation,

Self,

You know,

Knowledge of self.

It's,

It's by paying attention to these kind of subtleties.

What brings us into greater knowledge?

Just,

You know,

Words are kind of good shift and remember,

Suzanne,

Until somebody's achieved self realization,

There's always more to learn.

Right?

Right.

Yeah.

So it's no tell you,

I'm a used to roll her eyes at me sometimes.

She would roll her eyes with truly I've been humbled to bits.

Believe me.

Uh huh.

That's it.

Yeah.

And I'll tell you,

Suzanne,

You have permission on.

And it's a sankalpa to for you to find it more and more easy for you to just integrate this into your body seamlessly,

And increasingly learn to bypass the head.

Because the head is just,

It's just our heads are so stupid.

With this thing,

You know,

It's,

They're good with,

You know,

Having to figure out how to pay income tax or something.

But this level,

Our heads are not reliable.

Okay,

Okay,

I want to go back to you.

What's happening in your heart right now?

It's much bigger.

And I feel a kind of laughing in me.

I don't know.

Yeah,

Really?

Yeah.

Like,

The whole thing.

It's just a big comedy.

It just looks like a tragedy.

But it's a big comedy.

Yeah.

Okay.

And I'm feeling that I'm just going to make some may there be a bigger and bigger melting as organically as possible.

That's it.

That's it.

Thank you.

Thank you for speaking up.

Thank you.

Yeah.

Anybody else got question or comment or?

It's kind of like,

There's so many threads to what I've said.

It's like,

What do you do with it?

But you all got it.

If any of you would like a question and answer to be arranged?

Could you put up your hand like this?

So I just question and answer?

Yeah.

Okay.

Okay.

Okay.

We'll do that.

We'll do that.

Yeah.

Okay,

Good.

Okay,

Good.

Yeah.

Okay,

Maybe,

Maybe even next time.

Actually,

That might be a good idea to integrate all this.

You know,

Before this session,

I saw this dam being overrun by the energy,

You know,

The dam being dissolved.

And I'll tell you,

You know what a joke,

You know,

Damn,

You think of it like a damn blocking the energy.

Well,

The thing that blocks our soul energy is exactly this when we go,

Oh,

Damn,

When we go,

Oh,

It shouldn't be like this,

Or what's the matter with me,

All this stuff,

Just blocks the energy,

Or it shouldn't be happening to me.

I mean,

It's all very human,

Okay,

We're going to feel like this,

But just don't side with it.

Side with the fact that anything that's happening in your life is the most loving thing that can happen.

And it's,

It's happening to awaken you to the truth of you.

So you don't have to keep coming back for a million years,

You guys really,

Really.

Imagine being stuck on the earth plane for a million years.

Oh my goodness.

Life 999,

999 because one refused to love oneself.

I don't want to do that.

I know.

It's so funny.

It's like,

Why would we set up such a torture just because we're not wanting to love our true self?

You know?

Yeah.

That's it.

Okay.

You know,

I'm so unbelievably grateful,

You know,

To all of you coming and being so open energetically.

And even if you feel that you weren't open energetically,

You were underneath the resistance that you might have been aware of.

It's like nothing stops the creator.

Okay,

It's just you can't really stop it.

You can't.

It wins.

Okay.

Thank you so much for coming and,

And bringing this out of me because you know,

Then I get to bathe in this for the rest of the day,

You know?

And,

And you know,

Sometimes I it's like,

I don't even think that I know much except when I sometimes when I start talking,

I go,

Oh,

Yeah,

There's a lot of knowledge here.

It's all good.

It's just such a comedy.

You know,

We're all just human.

And we're divine.

And the roots of your beings are stronger now than when we started.

You're more in truth than when we started.

You know,

There's some of you,

Okay,

I'm going to catch it.

It's we're coming up to close.

Some of you are closing the doors already,

You're starting to close the doors and come back to your self,

Your conditioned self.

And please don't do this.

Remember,

Remember to see yourself as I see you,

Please.

Keep that mind,

Please.

Please.

Please.

Yeah.

How I see you.

Please.

Please.

Please.

I can't stand.

I can't stand broken hearts,

Please.

Yeah.

See you the way I see you.

Okay.

Okay.

I love you so much.

Yeah.

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