Be The Person You Are Born To Be

There are physical wheelchairs and emotional/spiritual wheelchairs.

We might see someone unable to walk physically but we ourselves are not "walking our talk" or living the life we came here to live.

In a subtle way we may be in an invisible wheelchair fueled by lack of belief in our own selves and trust in the Creator/Amma.

Premasudha talked about a woman who was in a wheelchair physically but had found her way to live in truth.

An Olympic level athlete, she became a paraplegic at 18. Her response was to set up an organization to help disabled people in India become able to support themselves.

She found a way through her own deep suffering into spiritual freedom by serving others who were in the same boat as she was.

Listening to this satsang can help us rise beyond our limitations and world view, leading us out of our comfort zone (which is secretly uncomfortable!!! although we might not want to admit that to ourselves or anyone else!).

Speakers: Franka, Varadarajan, Bhavani

Transcript

We're going to call on Amit Grace. Yeah, Her big, Powerful, Huge, Invincible grace that is so available to us, Especially if we, You know, Keep the windows of our mind clean, Open them, Open the doors, Don't fill ourselves with negativity, At least observe negativity. If it comes up, If you can observe it, It neutralizes a lot of the power. And it directs your psyche. Even just observing it directs your psyche towards more positive. Like sometimes I remember I just really couldn't replace thoughts. It was all I could do to witness negativity and that's good enough. And I go back to, You know, Those subliminals to keep your minds up that I've recommended before. Anyway, We're all part of the Creator and what we set our hearts on happens over and over. This is what my existence has proven to me. Yeah, Okay, So it is. So I want to talk about something Amma spoke about. There is a sad saying given by a woman who is a quadriplegic. She had been an Olympic-level athlete even by 18. She fell. I think she was doing something just nothing much. Anyway, She fell and she broke her neck and that was it. Okay. Now, This woman has since set up a foundation where she helps really crippled people in India take care of themselves because there's no safety net here or if you're disadvantaged. And it's shocking some of the stories she said about how families rejected people who, You know, Their family members who were crippled. So she has done all this while being a quadriplegic. She also got a university degree and graduated in the top two percent. Okay. Amma was all over this woman. Amma was like, This is what I'm talking about. Really, I'm always like, This is what I want you guys to do. Give your lives to compassion, You know. Give from your hearts. Give from your, You know, Where you were wounded and you found a way to heal or live with it, Then give at that level. It's like the wounded healer. You give it the level of your hurt heart. Where you were hurt, You give from that level. You don't go like a giving from a removed place. You really give right from the heart and that's what you see in Thammasuda. Okay. And that's why this work has power. So anyway, She was talking and then as someone was talking, She said, You guys are basically in wheelchairs. Most of you are in wheelchairs. You're in visible wheelchairs that you don't know about. She said, Most of you, Like she's getting very blunt and, You know, I'm happy about that because that helps you guys understand this work too. She was saying that most of you, Most of her children lack the mental strength to really rise up in their lives and serve. Most of her children get sidelined by their negativity. Yeah. Yeah. And this is, You know, I can't say exactly what Amma's talking about, But this is kind of when I talk about your miserable sinner stuff, When you go into the miserable sinner, You're so aware of all the things that are wrong with you. It's, Yeah, I feel so strongly about this. And when I'm yelling at you guys, I am actually helping you out of your wheelchairs. Because if I don't yell, You just keep playing around in this very low level spirituality. And that is what Amma was saying to the whole group. Okay. So it's good because you guys are willing and you, You know, You let me yell at you. I mean, You get hurt feelings and you keep coming back. You know, It's like you keep coming back because you notice you're a little freer. It hurts, But you notice you're freer. It's like, You know, That experience I had where I, You know, Had that psychological period of intense psychological pain. I saw up close and personal my psyche and the blocks. And I've told you about this before, That when I walked into the hospital that day, I saw this wheelchair and it was shooting sparks. And I thought to myself, I'm hallucinating. Okay, Because I had tapped into actually the creator energy, Even that's part of why I went into psychological chaos. Because I wasn't prepared at all. Okay, This work keeps you prepared. And also, You know, I had a kid with leukemia, A new baby and my husband left me and just, You know, The stress points were off the charts. So, But I saw this wheelchair shoot sparks and I went, I am crippled. I knew I was crippled. I knew that I was sitting in that wheelchair emotionally. And, And the wheelchair was caused because I was so angry underneath. Like, But really, I saw shooting sparks. And I was really aware I was hallucinating because I really knew it wasn't doing this. It wasn't an electric wheelchair at all. It was, You know. So when Alma said that, That this talk about, You know, And she said that, You know, Basically, There's these invisible wheelchairs, They're invisible to you. They're not to me. At all. And I'll tell you what the wheelchairs, It's like we're in this patriarchy. And we have low emotional IQs, Much lower than they would be if our feminine was felt free enough, Because she is allowed. She is allowed to let her perceptions to, To really honor them and, And, And let them listen to them and respond to them. And like I did with the wheelchair, I didn't criticize myself for seeing sparks coming from the wheelchair. I went, Yeah, Okay. I'm crippled. And I'm crippled because I'm angry. And it's unfelt anger. You see, You guys, This is very feminine, The high emotional IQ. It's like, This is a thing that I, I come across with working with you guys is we're also trained in being an object, Being productive. Being so out of focus, But our true, The true feminine nature is, Is way more inward than that, Way more poetical, Way more dreamy. Access to intuition, And some of you are quite developed there. But at the same time, Lots of you run the miserable sinner stuff as well, Heavily. And you see, The thing is, And what you do is when you get caught in the miserable sinner stuff, You ask me for a phone call, Which is okay. It's okay. But I'm wanting you guys to develop the more strength to be able to face this material. And, You know, Learn how to swim through it. To, I've said this before, The negativity comes up, You keep saying your mantra, You listen to, You know, The subliminals. You remind yourself that you're going to get your deathbed, You get exercise, Do exercise. So that you can shift to a higher plane. You shift, Your vibration goes up. You, You know, You can learn it now, Or you can learn it in 10 years, Or you can never learn it. And it's, You know, Everybody's got their own life pattern, You know. I don't want to make anyone wrong, I'm just getting braver, Because Ama is talking more along the lines of what Premasuddha says. And I don't think this is accidental at all. And notice what you're doing with this information. I mean, Just notice if you're doing the, You know, You're feeling bad about yourself and the miserable sinner, Or whether you're going, Hey, Maybe this is a door opening. Just notice, Don't judge yourself, Just notice what you're doing with that. Or whether you're going, I'm one of the really defended ones, Or you're going, I'm actually a lot like Premasuddha underneath. Look at what you're doing with that. Yeah. Yeah. I'm trying to give you permission, You know. You know, It's like the, Yeah, I mean, This is just, You know, My gig is to come in and remind everybody that every man and every woman can do this. This is my walk. This is what I came here to do. So, You guys are the crew. You guys are the ones who are gonna get it, You know. Yeah, Really, Really. I mean, It's like, Really. And it's just, Yeah, That's it. It's just, You know, It's sort of like realizing how stupid it all is to be so hard on ourselves. It's like, You know, When I talked about my shirt unbuttoned at this party, It's like, I look, And it's like, I could have cringed about that for four years or go, Meh. This is, I want you to take this stuff to heart and go, Okay, I'm gonna do meh. The next time something happens to embarrass me, I'm gonna go meh. Really, The most important thing, Most important thing is to come into your life, To live your life. You should live your life to be you and live your life. Nobody else could do it for the whole world. In the whole world, Nobody can do it like you can. You bring, Each of us brings that special elixir of our beingness, And our gift is in there. And nobody can do it better than us. Yeah. And you could just start laughing at yourselves. Yeah. Just start laughing at yourselves a little bit, You know? And think about the wheelchair. Like, I almost fell over when I almost said that. I went, I know that wheelchair. And I was thinking about you guys, And I'm going, Like, You know, That's what I'm doing when I'm yelling at them. I'm tipping them out of the wheelchair. You know? Tipping you. You can walk. You fake, Malingering person, You can walk. I know you can walk. I'm going to tip you out of this wheelchair. Yeah. Really. It's a, It's a, Alma was saying, It's just this, She called, She says the mental strength is so important. Like, You know, The ego, When it, When it comes up to, You know, Moving into truth, And what will inevitably happen is the ego will start rattling chains. And you have to be able to just watch it, Feel it, But not take it too seriously, To keep the focus on where you're going. If you knew how many days Pramasutha had of, Like, You know, What's it all about? Like, When are things going to get better? When am I going to be wise? You know, Or, You know, All the things I went through. It's like, You know, And I, And I go, Like, It's just all, It's all just a brief. This is the karma that's coming back. You know, Whatever you're going through is the arrow. The karma that's coming to you this life has left the bow, You know, Left the bow, It's coming. There's nothing you can do about it. Whatever is coming in your life, There's nothing you can do about it. But you can keep the focus on God. You can keep the focus on Amma. That's what you can do. And I'll tell you, It is way more fun to remind yourself about Amma and the Creator than getting lost in negative thoughts. It's way more fun to remember the Creator. Remember Amma, To remind yourself, Even as, You know, Things look dark. Yeah, I mean, It's just so much better than getting lost in the darkness with no hope. The more, You guys, Please listen, The more you think about the Creator, The faster your, Your evolution will be. It's so logical. If you don't think about the Creator much, And you're thinking about all your complexes and how much you don't like other people, What your mother did to you when you were like three years old, You fill your head with that. There's just, You know, Good luck. Like, The thing is, When complexes come up, We remember that stuff. So just, It's going to come up. So just say your mantra. The two things, Mantra, Do you remember from last week? Mantra, Gratitude. That's it. That's, You know, It's sort of like getting stem cells injected into your body. You know how stem cells will just heal whatever's wrong? Saying the mantra, Focusing on gratitude is like getting shots of stem cells. Really. Yeah. Yeah. But the only people that can do it is you. Okay. That's it. But I'm so pleased that Amma is talking about this sort of stuff. I'm just like, So grateful. You see, You have to, Before you can deal with this level, This more subtle emotional level, You have to, You know, You have to have enough food in your belly. You have to have, You know, Enough, Or most people need enough food in their belly, Enough money coming in that they feel secure enough that they can do some of this deeper work. And, You know, People at the ashram, It's very secure. You'd think it would be, People would be doing it right, Left, And center. I worked with somebody who's a lovely German woman. And I told her that she was a bit, A little bit nervous, Even though she's known me for a while. But the session really freed her soul energy in a very big way. And she was a little rattled afterwards because she felt so different. So I said to her that within, Probably take three months to integrate, But I told her that I thought Amma would give her a signal that she was on the right track. Or the next time she got a hug, She would really feel the difference in the amount of love that she was getting. And yet I'd given her space just because, You know, Just for her to just be with her process. And she walked by me yesterday when I haven't seen her, But she was like, Oh, Oh. So, You know, I assumed that she got a signal from Amma, And of course she would because it was freeing her soul energy. And she's moving past this concrete level, The 3D level, To realizing that evolution is more subtle. It's more, You know, You have to observe yourself. You have to like, You have to take responsibility for yourself, But not in a heavy shoulder, Heavy load on your shoulders. But you are responsible for what you do with this life. And many, Many, Many of the people I've worked with do not want to do this. But you've come to me, So good luck with that. You're going to get yelled at and pulled out of your wheelchair, Really. Yeah. That's it. Yeah. But I thought that maybe with Amma saying it so clearly that this would inspire you guys, Realize that, You know, It's not just that Prema Suta is a little odd and doing her thing. This is the journey if you want to get anywhere. Yeah. And, You know, Remember, I don't judge you. I just can feel what your soul wants, What your inner Amma wants. And I respond to that. Yeah. And there's no factorial, Like, You know, Really, I love you all, But what you do doesn't impact me, You know? Like, It kind of impacts me in the sense of, I love you, I want the best for you. But it's like, It's not a personal thing. Yeah, You're losing focus. Right across the board, There's a big loss of focus. Yeah. That's very interesting. You know, I have basically unconditional love for you. And if you bring yourself into my company, I will feel where you're caught, You know, In the wheelchair, Whatever. And it bothers me. And so I will take action to free you. Like, It bothers me like, You know, If you've got sand in your shoes. I can feel it bothers me like that. Yeah. And so that's why I remonstrate with you. So because I don't want sand in my shoes. But it's not like I'm looking at you and going, Oh, You're so terrible, Because you're, You know, Really, I'm just always working with my own, My own data. The thing is, You see, You guys, You know, Bottom line, We're getting pulled out of our wheelchairs by things like war, By, You know, Food going up 50%. You know, This is, I mean, It's going to come from somewhere, If it comes from the outside, We'll get pulled from our wheelchairs. Or we can do it consciously. Yeah. You know, They've started, You know, Fairy tales have gone out of fashion. I'm sure many of you maybe didn't even read them. I don't know. Because I remember when I was about 30, It was sort of there's this kind of movement that fairy tales are so terrible. They're so scary and everything. You know what, Fairy tales just reflect light. They're actually really good training for kids because they're dark for us. They're treacherous people. Yeah. You have to be alert. Yeah. I don't know how kids will function, Really, If they don't have stories to help them. This satsang has a very big, It's a very big opportunity to become dislodged, To become more open, To have your comfort zone exposed, And you to realize that it's not comfortable at all. And I'm going to tell you, I'm going to read a client's account of a dream he had. And it is exactly where many of you are. And I'm going to use it to help you, Help plant some seeds, To help you shift. Remember, I told you a lot of my writing, Especially the book that I asked you to read about the search, My search for the ocean of transmigration. A lot of my writing is meant to actually shift you. And at the end of that book, Spoiler for those who haven't read it, There is a big wall that is insurmountable, Absolutely insurmountable. And this is what life gives us. It will just seem impossible. And basically, With a surrender, And these people got through it. And they got through it to a whole new kind of level of existence. And this is what happens. And this is why I'm like, I'm going, Why are you guys holding on to the status quo? And, You know, Why are you holding on to not learning how to evolve? That's what many of you are holding on to, Not learning how. When it's, It's how you transcend. And anybody can do it. You just have to realize that you, You know, That you don't, You don't really have a choice. But you know, If your inner Amma wants you to learn, You're going to learn. You can put it off. But I'll tell you, If you come to Prima Sutta Satsangs, I mean, I'd assume that all of you guys, That your inner Amma wants you to learn to evolve. I mean, There's so many teachers go to. Yeah, And again, This is taking responsibility, Why am I going to Prima Sutta? Right? It's so, It's so beautifully simple and clear, You guys. And the thing is, I just want you to be happy. I want you to learn how to be viable, You know, Your lives to be viable. So no matter what happens to you, You are so skilled spiritually that nothing will overwhelm you. Nothing will cause you to lose faith in life for any length of time. You see, It's like having a buoyancy tire that's with you all the time. It lifts you out of whatever happens, Whatever's happened. It won't, Doesn't have to do you in. Sure, If you get fired or something, It's kind of a drag. But if you really know that it's Prasad, It is, It's, Amma is giving you exactly what you most need to grow, You can rise to it then. Well, This helps you rise to your lives rather than being crushed. So don't resist learning, Please. Otherwise, Life crushes us, Like life will crush our egos. So we either get crushed along with our egos, Or we learn how to transcend our egos. That's good. There's movement. I'm feeling real movement. So, So I want you to really hear this. This is where many of you are. Okay, And it's, The dream is, I'm in a long sewer pipe. I thought to myself, When I first read this, I thought to myself, Oh, That's great. That's emotional complexes. It's not conscious. It's below the earth. So unconscious, Many of you are unconscious. You think you're conscious, But you're not. Yet. But we can walk into it going conscious together. So it's like, Most of us are in our complexes, Where we don't see the light, Really. We're not above ground, We're underground. Now, The good news is, In the stream, The sewer pipe was clean, Which is wonderful. It's a very good, Almost clean. It was a clean, Well-lit cement pipe with rungs, Which begins flat and turns into a 90 degree angle. So for a while, It's flat, And then it goes up 90 degrees. I am with someone, And it seems to be some kind of a race. Another person, The person who's with me says, Someone has to have the courage and ability to go ahead and take the turn upward. This requires momentum and to climb to the iron rungs to the top. I say, No problem. With a big push, I'm able to get there. And that is an achievement in itself. I'm out of breath and afraid of falling back down, Because it's hard to hang on, And I have only my left arm to do it. So it's his feminine side. At the top, The tunnel has narrowed a bit, And I can't see how to climb out. The other fellow catches up with me, And he says that we can get out here, But I can't see it. And I continue to hang on with my left hand, But it feels unsteady and not secure. Now, In the dream, The other person is his unconscious, Obviously, And it's probably the person who knows how to get out. So even though he woke up at this point, He'll find his way out. There is part of you that is totally plugged in and will solve any difficulty you have. Not only do you have angelic guides, But you have your unconscious, You have in your unconscious, Like if you've called on the creator, You'll have activated your unconscious to solve your difficulties. I want you guys to hear that. If you have really called on, Like that you really want to wake up, You will have activated part of you in your unconscious that will be functioning to solve things. Now, I said to this person, And again, You know, When Prana Sutta says this stuff, This comes out of great knowledge, Great knowledge for how to get out of your ego. And I said to him, For about a week or so, To frequently imagine the problem being solved and coming out into the sunshine. It could be done in many different ways. He could be speaking to the gentleman next to him, And that gentleman tells him how. Or maybe Amma sort of just, You know, They hear a shovel, And then the shovel comes, And then there's Amma who's taken a shovel to lift the earth. Do you see what I mean? To make a hole so you can come up into the light. This is where the whole sad saying is, You guys. You need to come into the light. You're not there. By and large. And if you do think, Like, I'll tell you, If you take this to heart, If you take this dream, Imagine being in a pipe and, You know, Not being able to get your way out, And then finding your way out into the sunshine. You're telling your psyche that you want to wake up. This is the stuff Prama Sutta did. I did not have a teacher for years and years and years. This is the stuff I did. This information I'm giving you is solid gold. Like, There's no big secret to the journey. It's like if you really want it, You do anything to help yourself wake up and use your imagination now. And auspiciously, I saw in my sole sight, I saw this gentleman reaching, Standing right side out of the pipe, Standing in full sunlight. So I know he's going to go conscious. Because I saw it. And if I see it like that, If it comes uninvited, And I see it, It always occurs. See, It's really simple, You guys. You don't have to do, You don't have to, You don't have to focus about how bad you are and how, You know, You don't. Yeah. The other thing is, If you can please, You know, Try to understand yourselves. Like, Some of you have East Berlin patterning. So you just, That's part of your understanding of yourself to go, Okay, That's just, That's just something that, It's kind of why, You know, There's extra fear around movement and compassion for myself for that. Yeah. And it's coming from other lives for a really good reason. Like, There'll be some reason why it's that way. Like, It's, None of it's bad. But the self-knowledge is really important to understand yourself, Like, Understanding a little child that you've got. Like, We all, All mothers, You, You have an understanding of your children, You kind of get, You get them. You know, They might surprise you sometimes, But you, You get them. And it's like, Get yourself that way. Yeah. It's not that hard. You just have to be willing. And like, I'm a sense of mental strength. I mean, I, You know, I look at I go, You know, I used to have these huge fight, You know, On top of everything else. So, You know, My babyhood, And then my brother beating me up, And then I hit puberty. Oh, My goodness, My dad, Just, Boy, He just turned, He turned into a tormentor. He just was always on my back for stuff. Always. It's all healable, I guess. But one of the, One of the, What I was going to say is, The reason, Part of the reason why I have enhanced mental strength was, I stood up to my dad, And all those fights developed a kind of mental strength. You see, It, It's sort of like, There's, We get gifts even out of the hard things. So once, Once I got over, You know, Okay, So those kind of fights with my dad, What they made, It was a very high rebellion, That is very rebellious. And so I took this rebellion to God to, I would rebel against the spiritual journey. So I had to heal that. I had to keep learning to genuflect. The result of it all was partly is where this strong mind went through. It's sort of like you, It's like Amma says, You get the, You know, If there's a diamond in, In stuck in tar, Or oil, You will pick the oil, The diamond out and clean it because you want the diamond. It's the same with us. We, You allow the cleaning of these complexes. You, You allow yourself to grow out of them because you want your soul. Yeah. Now, Some of you guys, Please be very gentle. I'll tell you, In my 30s and my early 40s, I was not moving very fast. So, You know, I want you to be very gentle with yourselves, Some of you younger ones. Like, I don't want to indulge you, But I want you to be gentle. If you've got jobs and kids and everything, Please, Please, Please do not force yourself. Just hear what I'm saying. And when it is useful, It will surface and you'll be reminded. Okay. I really don't want you guys to get stressed with this, You know, Or push yourselves. I'm just trying to make it clear to you that you can have this. That's all. You can have it. It's like you can have it. You know, Who knows? I mean, You know, The 50s can be a very expensive decade. You know, It's not done overnight. The thing I want is you guys to get the glimmer. No matter what age you are, I want you to get the glimmer that the negativity is not accurate. Okay. Can you just accept that? If you just accept that the negativity you feel about yourself is not accurate, Then I will be happy. Because it's not accurate at all. At all. Please. You know, I worked with anorexics for a while. When I was going through university, I did volunteer work with anorexics. And we stood in front of a mirror, Two very skinny girls and me. And I was normal weight. They were so skinny. And they looked at me and they went, Oh, Janet, You're so slim. And we're so fat. I'm like, Oh, No. And they really thought they were fat. They were hallucinating. I want you to realize that you hallucinate your views of yourself, Your negative views of yourself. Yeah, It's a dark hallucination. Yeah. All of you are stunning. Really, You're intelligent, You're warm. You're just awesome, Right across the board. All of you. Yeah, Really. I really, You know, Higher emotional cues than normal. More sensitive, More thoughtful. All this beautiful. Yeah. Yeah. So it's like, You know, Bruno Groning, When he was working with people, Whole thousands of people or hundreds of people would assemble and he'd be on the balcony and he'd say, Rise out of your wheelchairs. And they stood up. This is my hope for you guys. You'll stand up out of these wheelchairs of this kind of grinding negativity about yourselves. And undervaluing about yourselves. Right across the board. Yeah. And the thing is, I just start yelling at you because you see, I can compliment you to the, Which is just telling you the truth, Compliment you telling the positive things. But if I do that too much, Then there's absolutely no movement at all. It just turns into, I've got another mama. I've got a better mama than I had. And some of that's okay. But it's also a spiritual teaching. Yeah. I suspect the whole world will be waking up much more in the next 18 months. So there'll be a momentum coming from the collective as well. Got any questions or comments or? We've got someone new, Barry, Who I talked to on the phone. You don't have to say anything, Barry, If you don't want to. But I was saying last week that sometimes people who haven't had much spiritual training grow a lot faster than the ones who have for a while anyway. No comments, No questions. The other thing I want to say is some of this information that I give to you, You're just fairly new to the journey. It's like, It's just to listen. It's not to try to do anything about it. So I was thinking about you, Robert, And about what I had said about your child self. And really, There's nothing you can do about that right now. It's just hearing it. And in two or three years, It might be useful. Yeah. And remember, The other thing, You guys, Remember most of your thoughts are wrong. Like, They're just your ego thoughts, You know. So please, Some of you have a tendency to believe your thoughts a lot. And if you can just have a little bit of door open of maybe this is true, And maybe it's not what you're thinking. Or this is what I'm thinking at this level of vibration, But things will probably look very different as I open up. Like, How much room can you make for the person you are born to be? Think of it like that. Like, You know, If the person you're born to be, Like, It might be easier for you to make room for your dreams to come true. If you think that way, The person you're born to be, It's not that you've got these dreams that you're just manufacturing and are probably impossible. Those dreams are coming from the person you're born to be. Yeah, Our dreams, You know, The real ones are, They come from our soul, You know, Of who we know we could be. Like, The person you know you could be. We all know who we really could be. And I'm just here to support you, Tell you what's possible, And to, You know, Be a bit of like a Sherpa helping you climb Everest, You know. Few supplies in the backpack. A few maps, A few tips. Yeah, Don't push yourself, So please, The women with the children, Please. Anka, Sweet one. Hey, Pramasutha. Yeah. Nice to see you. Nice to see you. Yeah, Yeah, Lovely, Sweet one. I kind of feel that I'm getting more into the state of seeing myself and loving myself, Because the past days, I was kind of contemplating about those past lives we were talking about at the beginning and everything. And now I do feel that I can have compassion for myself, For how my life is just going, How it is right now. And yeah, I just wanted to say that and say thank you for supporting me on that. And the last past days, I did have some pain in my elbows, And in my knees. I looked it up in your books, Or in what you have on your page. And it made so much sense. And yeah, It also helped me to see that's just a part of my way to love myself. Yeah. That's very, Very beautiful, Sweet one. Is this all I want? Is it? No, Really, The self-compassion, Because that will change your trajectory of your life, Feeling it and feeling it again and again. It's like, It's sort of, I would say it's sort of like getting a hug from Amma. Amma says a hug from Amma changes their life. So does the habit of self-compassion. Once you make the breakthrough to be able to do it, You can go back there over and over. So, And elbows are change, And knees are relationship. So, There's a change in Franka's relationship with herself, And it's going to be a change in her relationship with everything else, With other people in life. Like, It's stunning. That's it. That's all. That's all I'm asking for. Yay. I'm so happy. And that you're using the transgenital body approach as a support to help you, Right? Like, To help. Yeah, That's it. Yay, Franka. Like, Blue stars, A++ stars for Franka. Hey. Oh, Really? Yes, That's it. That's it. I'll tell you, Franka has felt like the worst student, Often. And this is what happens, You guys. This is also what I'm telling you. This is what it's like. You feel like they're the worst student. You're so confused. You don't know. And then the light dawns, And you get it. You guys, It is like this. It is actually so beautiful if you just flow with it. And, You know, A whole bunch of stuff comes off your shoulders because you stop trying to live the life that we're taught to in our cultures. You just don't bother with a whole bunch of things that used to take your energy. You don't care. You're freer. And you see, We can do this every step of the way. You can have compassion for yourself and notice what's going on in your body. And you notice the complex lifting as you have compassion for yourselves. That's the journey, You guys. You see why I yell at you? And, Franka, This is coming out of the wheelchair. Okay? That is a beautiful example of coming out of the wheelchair. Yeah. And you guys, All of you, Remember, You know, You all go up and down with me, Right? I mean, I'm yelling at you or praising you and yelling and praising you, Like, Don't take it too seriously. I just do what I have to do to help communicate this to you guys, Because it can't really be taught in a, You know, In a cooking book instruction book or a computer instruction book. You can't get it that way. Part of why you get it is because I'm so deeply involved with you and I shout and praise you. It's kind of why you get it. You know, If the fastest way to grow is spending time with an awakened person in satsang, But having a relationship with an awakened person is the fastest way to grow. And you have Ava. So, You're so blessed. So, In such a fertile field. Yes. Yes. I call you guys the sprouters. It's so wonderful once you realize that you can actually just do it. You actually feel compassionate for yourself and you notice what your body's doing. And remember, This comes from ancient India. It's like this knowledge about the body. It was, It came through very, Very deep pain. Pramod Sudha went through really, Really, Really, Really deep pain to get this level of knowledge, You know, And I just want to share it. And like I said, The body approach was the same that was in this ancient Indian book from the sages. It was the same stuff. But I have to tell you, Really, This was like a little child's book compared to, I mean, This was a very long book. It was very detailed and everything, But it was basically saying the same thing. So, Yeah. I feel so blessed that Amma is talking, That she's rattling chains and she's talking about stuff like this, The wheelchair. And this woman, This woman who was paraplegic, Everybody loved her. The whole, The whole hall, All of our hearts went up to her. She was in her Amma energy. Yes. And she had very, Very good self-esteem, Like not anything that bothered you at all. It just felt lovely, Her love for herself. And she really believed in herself, You could tell. She really knew she was doing it. And imagine setting up a foundation to teach disabled people how to take care of themselves. She had, I don't know, She's got 50 people she's working with. I mean, It's just, It's miraculous that she's been able to do this. Like, It doesn't make any kind of common sense that she could do this. And this is the mark of transcendence. It's a task. What the person has done would be impossible. It would be just considered impossible. But when you bring in transcendence, It becomes possible. When you bring in Amma's energy, It's totally possible. Yeah. Yeah. I was so grateful to this client who sent in this dream because it's such beautiful picture. Yeah. And I saw him standing on the grass in the light. So he will, He will do it. But you guys, You could imagine yourself in his pipe, And then coming up into the light. And I'll tell you, You're telling your psyche, You're setting your psyche in motion to rise in vibration. It is, It is the stuff Premasuddha did, Because I didn't have a teacher. I just did this stuff kind of instinctively to kind of help myself. That's why I know it works. Yeah. And you, If you do it, Like, For a week, And then forget about it. Don't watch it. Just forget about it. It's sort of like Amma talks about, You know, If you plant a seed, You don't want to dig up the seed to see if it's growing. You just plant the seed and water it. Let it do its thing. It's the same with our psyche. You steer your psyche through the use of imagination and the dreams. Like, To go back into a dream you have and alter the ending so that the ending's positive. Or alter a dream if you have a nightmare, Yeah, And make it, Give it a new ending, A new transcendent. I would do that all the time. Steer my psyche towards going to God. It works. And those, You know, Subliminals to keep your mind up. You know, We have to have the energy to do these things. You have to put them on, But it will keep your mind up. Your ego will want you to forget. It'll want you not to bother. It'll want you to keep the low-level thinking, You know, Thinking about your faults and focusing on your insecurities. You know, You just watch it, You know. Premasutra had really a hard time getting over her insecurities. It's just, I didn't have a safety net, So I had no choice. It was do or die, And I, You know, I would scare it often, But I just kept, Kept, You know, Doing it. And doing things to comfort yourself, You know. You know, I got a dog. I played with my kids when they were young a lot. Did all the stuff that made me feel better. Yeah, I put myself first that way. You're all very beautiful, You know. I'm getting this bulletin. Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. And you're beautiful the way you are, You know. Yeah, Don't want any of you to stress about, About it. I want you to listen and, And put stuff in action as you feel to, As you get inspired to. So, You know, Some of you may start working with your dreams in a year, Even. You know, Just knowing that you can do it and it will, It will lead to more light is enough. Yeah. I'm just so excited that Amma's talking about this stuff more because it will, I think it will make it easier for you guys to take it seriously. Really, Bottom line is, I think people will believe me more now that Amma's talking about things. It's a big relief to me. Okay, You guys, Well, Nobody's got any. . . Oh, Om namah shivaya. How are you? How are you? Are you in South America? No, I'm still in India. Oh, You're still in India? Yes, I'm still in India. I wanted to return on last Thursday, But, Well, Let me, Let me start the story. You remember about my swollen feet and legs since August? Yeah, Yeah, Yeah. I assume I found the reason what happened or why the cures. Right now I'm still in India and I'm taking responsibility for my energy. I was giving a friend, At least I thought about, I thought he would be a friend. I gave him six and seven years ago some money to make a goshala, Healing retreat center, Getting some land. And my feet, This is what I realized today morning, It's, They're not swollen anymore. And for me, It really started when I started really to take action to to call my energy, My money back. So even this energy kind of was really stirred in this legs, Were not able to flow back. And now I'm calling it back. So now with the feet, Everything is fine. And that is why I'm still here. I was, I was canceling my flight because I had some. . . Okay, I want to just challenge you a little bit. So you got some backstory. Brangton's got, She gets this, What's it called? Emia, Edema of your ankles? Is that what it's called? Sebastian? I had a lymphatic oedema, Yes. Yeah. You're, I'm, You're going to be bothered by me. But if you opened what I'm saying, You could find freedom this life, Ma'am. So, Okay, I'm wanting to make it bigger. What you said, I want to expand it. Okay. So I told, I'm going to say Sebastian, It's just easier. Sebastian, It was a symptom of heart failure, Even though it wasn't actual heart failure. So this is a transcendent body approach. You look at the metaphor, It is what happens for people who get heart failure. I felt with Sebastian, It had to do with a little bit, That he had to find more courage to be true to his heart. Okay, So you've gone after your money, And this is part of you being true to your heart. You understand, It's not just going after the money, You're actually turning and facing these things, You see? So it is, I said to Sebastian, Look at what behaviors cause the edema to go down and look at the behaviors that cause it to get worse. So you're noticing it's, It's better, Right? This is it. Our bodies will give you data about your own alignment to your inner alma. I'm pleased to hear this, That you're, That you're going after it. Good. Good. Right. You look clearer and more masculine, You know, In a good way, Just like a woman looks more feminine when she's, Yeah. J Ma. Yeah. Because your bodies are big metaphors, They will give you so much information. Yeah. This is wonderful. This is what I wanted for people to get it like this. This is awesome. Good. I hope you get it back. On this great thing. Well, When I will be able to get back to Germany, Who knows? Because I can't, Well, When I will be able to get back to Germany, I don't know. I can't set my flight. No, I can't set my flight on Tuesday to really do this action here. Tomorrow is the next police appointment where this friend is supposed to arrive. So we need to speak face on face and, Um, With the Middle East stuff right now going on with Iran and everything, All the flights via Middle East. Yeah. They are not going. So, And the flights via Lufthansa with direct flights will come €1, 700 upwards. Oh, Yes, Exactly. Um, But actually tomorrow I would have to go back to work. I will see how it works. I'm flowing. This is great. This is great. This is great. Right. I, I can, I can see you shifted, Man. This is really good. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's, And it's helpful for everybody to see the changes in all of us. Yeah. And one thing I also would like to share, I met recently a guy and a man, Um, Even very spiritually related. And he gave me an advice to meditate on my Shiva and Shakti energy and, Um, To rise it from the belly up through the heart and throat to the third eye to rise it up to the abhava chakras and then meditating on going upwards. Maybe this is a little bit like what you spoke about, Just imagining the lights and growing towards it. Exactly. When you spoke it, It's very much related on what he told me and it feels really great to meditate on this. And remember when you do stuff like this, When you start going up, The ego goes and just watch it. Right. And keep coming to sessions because it's like, It will just keep reminding you guys, Reminding you. Yeah. I'm just telling you that because when we're on the journey, We, We, It's like anybody climbing a mountain, You, You have to know the kind of challenges that come when you climb. If you're not well prepared, If you start climbing a mountain in your shorts and sandals, You're screwed. Right. Yeah. So we have to be prepared for, You know, Everything, For all of it, Big breakthroughs, For the ego tantrums, For, You know, Just be prepared for all of it. And if you got a safe place to bring your heart, Yovana, And you know, Some place like this, Where you can move through things just in an hour or get confidence, Get your confidence strengthened, You know, Get your trust in yourself strengthened. Yeah, That's all I'm saying. So with every exercise for going up, It just, The important, You see, There's no, There's no exercise that does it. It's, It's, When you do these things, It's, It's just a way of, You know, Steering your psyche up, Right, Like what we talked about and focusing on God. But the most important thing is to understand yourselves. So that you, You don't, Okay, How do I put this? This is where these spiritual practices are to help give you a foundation, So that you can also understand yourselves. Because if you don't understand yourselves, You're going to be stuck forever in bad and good. Okay? Okay, That's it. That's kind of nails it, You will be trying to be good all the time. If you don't understand yourself, Because when you understand yourself, You just, You just sort of love yourself like a child, It comes out of like you would, Like a parent to a child, You come out of always having to be good, Or do the right thing. You just love yourself. Because you understand yourself. Do you see, Sebastian? I feel like you, You're on the verge of, I think, Pretty big revelations coming. I think that you've turned a big corner and that you are willing, Becoming willing to face yourself. And I think, Yeah, You've got some big understandings that are going to start to come. Yeah. Right. Okay. You know this too, You can feel it. Yeah. Okay, Good. Yeah. It's because you're turning and facing yourself. Okay. I just want to make the connection between your action of turning to face yourself, As well as these techniques. It's your decision to turn and face yourself that has set all this emotion. You guys, That's, When you decide to, That you're just, I'm willing to face myself. Yeah. This is fantastic. I'm a student. It's a very happy camper. Great. Yeah, I feel like I'm getting through more and more. Like, Yeah. And you see, It's so simple. It's so simple. Kind of. Anyway, Anybody else last call? Good work, Sebastian. Hi, Parameswara. Hi, Everybody. Yeah. Good. How are you doing? I'm doing, I'm, I'm doing good. It's a lot going on. And a lot of things are shifting. But we were talking, We're talking symptoms. And so I told you, I started weightlifting just recently, With the goal of getting in shape. And, You know, Like, Having that energy that I need to do everything and, Yeah, On all levels, And, And it feels great. And I love it. But my cycles late, It threw my cycle off. And so for the first time, I've never, Never just like, Not gotten my period. Unless I was pregnant, Which I'm not. Yeah. So does that bother you? Yeah. Because it's, Yeah, It's out of, It's out of my, It's out of my usual, You know, Usually with stress when I push myself to come earlier. And it's uncomfortable. Oh, You feel kind of bloated or something? It's kind of a few times because I've been going regularly to the morning meditation, The Kali Temple, And you know, Sitting there like, Oh, This doesn't feel all that great. I kind of wish it was, You know, Not like this. Okay, Well, I think this is really good in the sense of, Maybe you can come out of this rigid structure that you walk around in where everything has to be certain ways. It's sort of like, Like, I go meh of my periods, Like meh, Meh, If I felt a little bloated or any meh, Like, You're a woman, You're going to feel, You know, It's good to observe that your period's late, But to make it any kind of focus at all is taking you away from God. Yeah. Like, Trying to control. Like, I think it's really good. I think you live in a very, Very rigid, Rigid, Small structure, Very full of control. So, I think this is great. This is like, It's like, The structure is, Maybe the structure is beginning to fall apart a little bit. It's coming right on clockwork. Good. Good. I agree with that. It seems like it is because, Like, The weightlifting, It's, It just, It feels really good. And then there's the whole body process afterwards of trying to get enough calories to support it. And I've been walking around with a bit of brain fog the past few weeks, Which is actually kind of nice, A little bit like, Oh, I'm not really thinking much, I'm just saying my mantra. Yeah, It just sounds, You know, Sweetie, You really need to find your heart this life. So, This feels to me like, It's like this very, Like, It's beginning of a bit of more of a dissolution of this very heady, Rigid control that has kept you so imprisoned. And I just, Just let go. What? What? I so, I so hope so. Well, You're the one in control. Yeah. Right. I mean, It's what it seems, It's what it seems like. Yeah, It's like, Sweetie, I am almost desperate to get through to that heart in there somewhere. I know there's a heart in there somewhere. Like, But it's to get past this kind of actually very small mindedness, Sweetie, I'm gonna hammer. This is you coming out of the wheelchair. It's very small mindedness, Like, Oh, Well, Any of it, Like, Period, Late, Any of it. It's like, Or singing a mantra, It's like, Do you really want to connect up with your inner Amma? I mean, Because I'm not sure you want to. That's the bottom line. And so, You fill your head with kind of what seems pretty trivial to me. And make mountains out of molehills, It's like. There's a heart in there, A very, Very beautiful heart that's emerged with your, You know, Running to wipe the tears of that woman. And she yelled at her kid, Right? Right. Yeah, There's a very beautiful heart in there. But it's like the heart has to reach your head. There's this heart information that has to be allowed in your head. And it's so full of this small minded control stuff that your heart can never get through to affect your thought processes. Okay, This is major, You know, Yelling at the wheelchair. That's your wheelchair. It feels great. I mean, But Bhani is responding like, You know, Elation. Yes, Because it's true, You guys, We register truth. If we want truth, We will feel elated. Then, But Bhani, I also want you to grab hold of this stuff more, Not just make me into a maternal figure, Who endlessly is going to keep repeating this to you, Because I won't. Yep. Remember, I said you can't come for a session for two years, Like I will push you away. Yep. Right. But you've got time to learn. I'm not going to be too horrible. You've got time, You've got a kid, It's okay, You've got time, But it's a must do. There is a heart in there that is just so desperate to be able to reach air and to be allowed out to play. Yeah. Right. So you have to witness yourself, You're gonna have to start witnessing the ways your thinking keeps you small. Just like I said to Sebastian, He had to witness this, You know, Heart failure when he's, What happens to his ankles, When he's not being true to himself, His ankles will swell, I promise you they will. So these body things can be wonderful. Things that correct us, Catch us. Yeah. In your case, It's just a little bit of effort of, I want this life. You know, We women, I'll tell you, You guys, This is taboo to say. But we women get older, And we become less attractive. I know, I'm really, I'm gonna spell it out. And so if you, If a person stays kind of small and neurotic, They just get more Yeah. It becomes less attractive. Yeah. I remember, I remember feeling like I got so much attention when I was young and good looking in my 30s, You know, With, With all my troubles, I got so much attention. And as I got older, I got less and less attention for trouble. I noticed. So I'm not telling you anything that I didn't have for my own. And you know what, It was very good for me. Because it was part of what brought it home, That I had to deal with myself. But I've stepped across the line with you, I've actually made it worse. You've actually, You've actually cringed out. There we go. So I want to, You know, I want to roll that back a little bit. It's too harsh. I was looking for something to kind of jolt you out of your, Yeah, Jolt you like really jolt you so that you could really start to take responsibility. And when I say with that, Just noticing the ways you keep yourself small. Just notice them. And, You know, I'm very fond of you. And you're so dear when you come up to me and you, You know, So keep doing that. And we'll bumble into it. Yeah. Okay. How do you feel? It feels good. I can, I can bumble and keep at it. Yeah. You felt something when I talked about the heart, Right? You felt excited or something, Right? What did you feel when I was talking about the heart? I mean, I felt the elation all over my body. And before I even started speaking, I noticed that my heart was like pounding, Like, Like, It didn't, I didn't feel nervous, But it felt like the heart pounds before you're about to go on stage. And you're like, Can I really do this? Okay, Good. Okay. So this is really important. So there was a feeling of elation. But there was a feeling of like a little kid. Oh, It's like, I'm going to have to perform. Or this is something I have to go on. It's not quite accurate here. It's Yeah, It's something that you have to do. It's your heart was pounding because you you have a belief that it's something that you have to do. But it's not. It's not something that you can do in a doing way at all. It's like one day you will just start doing it. One day you will just find enough room that you can you start witnessing your thoughts, You'll get so tired of what you're doing, That you will just start witnessing the thoughts that keep you there. It just happens organically. There was someone I was speaking to. And as we were speaking, They could feel how out of alignment their head was with the rest of their body. And they were a little nervous about this. And I said, Nope, This is part of the healing, You feel the truth of things, You feel how your head is out of alignment with the truth of what's going on in your body. And this is where many of us are. And this is why your heart was pounding, Sweetie. Because you think you have to do something that you know, That somehow you're responsible to have to do this. And I'm telling you, Yeah, All you have to do is just open to what I say, Like just, You know, Hear it, Be truthful. When I say what are the responses, You know, Noticing them being truthful, Being transparent, Like your being, It's all good, You will get there. You will get there, You don't have anywhere else to go. Nothing's going to work well till you do. Right? And you trust me, I can feel it. It's a very deep trust. And that is so good. That's part of why you you're moving, Because you have this deep trust. Yeah. And it's good, Because it's trustworthy. It's like, It's what I'm saying. It's like, This is a 40 year training. I'm speaking from Yeah. Yeah. Right. Right. Okay, I want you to, You, Vavani, I'm really seeing your beauty. Okay. Inside and outside. It's very coming very strongly to me seeing your beauty. Yeah, Just as you are. You're very, Very beautiful. You are. Yeah. Yeah. You're, You're, You know, You're here at the ashram. You're, You know, You put your life on the line. You're really, You're really stepping up to be like a spiritual warrior. You are. Yeah. That's it. It's just seeing your own beauty. You do that, See your own beauty. Guys, That's, This is why Premasutra, I'll tell you, This is why Premasutra's work is getting more strong right now. If you notice over the last couple of months, It's because I'm seeing my own beauty. I'm seeing the miracle of that I surfaced from my upbringing. Like I'm seeing the hugeness of what I've done or, But it was Amma who did it. You're seeing my own beauty. So the work's coming through more strongly, You know? Yeah. It's not being popped up or anything. It's just when you see your own beauty, That's it. When you, You're, You're part of God. You're part of God. You are God in human form. You can't be more perfect than being on the spiritual journey with sincerity. That is as perfect as a human being gets. Oh, The other thing, Guys, Remember how I told you that Bhagavan Maharshi stepped in a wasp's nest and got stung and he, He blamed himself and he said it was a correction from the universe. So, And I've been talking about how nobody in the human, In the human realm is perfect except maybe Amma. But I have to tell you what Amma said. Amma said that when, With one of the things with the children, Did I just tell you about this? That when the babies and the mums go up to her for some ceremony, I don't know what for, But the, There was a long wait. The babies weren't supposed to be fed before they saw Amma, But then there was a long wait where the babies were getting hungry and everything. And it was written up as a paper that Amma was not compassionate because she made these babies and mums wait for a long time. And Amma said that she took it as a correction, But she wasn't being compassionate. She took it as a correction from the universe. This is Amma. Okay. So, This is a kind of humility to walk around with. You're always open to correction. Never have it sewn up. You're just always doing your best. You're just always doing your best. And she also says the, The best, The most powerful thing you can do is listen to what an awakened teacher tells you and contemplate it. Chew on it and do your best to, You know, Implement it, To get the most from it. Right. And that was my experience. I just, Whatever was told to me, I just really took to heart. I would practice it. I would think about it. I would pray about it. Yeah. Because if somebody is awakened, It is the creator speaking directly to you about what you most need to hear, What your next step is. I mean, It's, It just makes the journey so much easier. People could meditate for 10 years and still get hooked by their ego and never see themselves clearly. But, You know, Once you've been witnessed by an awakened teacher, You can, You can just develop that. It's, It's, It's just to be able to be able to see yourself clearly. Yeah. To have, You know what it is, Is to have your existence validated so that you start to feel your existence within your human body. You start to feel your soul's existence within your human body. And when you feel your soul's existence within your human body, When it's validated by a teacher and you feel it, Then it can get bigger and bigger and bigger. Most of the problem with people, The reason they get stuck in the wheelchair is because they can't feel their soul energy. They don't know how to access it. They don't know how to fight for it. They don't know that it's even there. So, Bhavani, Gradually, I feel like over the next two years, You will understand this more and more. And for some reason, You were persuaded to go very small with yourself, To make yourself very small. And when you start to see the way your mind keeps that going, You'll be able to witness it and get bigger. And really, There is, Once that happens, There is no ceiling on how high you can go. That there is a beautiful, Beautiful, Beautiful, Loving heart in you that's way bigger and way more powerful than you have any idea of. Yeah. And, You know, You will, On your journey, You will feel sorrow as you see how small you've kept yourself. You will, You will feel sorrow. And the most important thing, Bhavani, For you, For your life, Is to fall in love with love power and not just power. Okay? Because this conditioned part would like power. Yeah. So, Think about how you're trying to do Pramasutra for her power or her love power. Make sure that it's the love power. Because people get attracted, They see, They go like, Oh, Pramasutra is a powerful woman, I want to be like that. Well, It's love power. It's not the normal power. It's love power. You get it by loving, Letting yourself love and honor yourself. Yeah. And then sharing that. There used to, There was a guy who used to ask me out for dinner. And I would go because it's like when we went for dinner, He would actually seem to listen to me. It was sort of stupid. It was sort of ridiculous. Anyway, It dawned on me that he wasn't really interested in the journey, But he really liked the idea that he had the power to invite a spiritual teacher out for dinner and that she would go. And when I realized that, I went, Oh, God, This is where Pramasutra gets too indulgent to people. So, Yeah, He wasn't interested in learning how to love, But he liked, It seemed there was power and he was kind of attracted to that. So, I'm really strong on, I only want people around me who want the love power. And really, It's the only people that will be able to stand it. You have to really want the love power to sit and listen to being yelled at sometimes. That's true, Isn't it? Because it's very humbling. It's horrible. Yeah. But remember, It's just what Pramasutra did to herself to get here. You know, I would be very clear about where I was really, It would become very clear where I was off. And I would correct, I would see it, Gag on it and correct and forgive myself and move on. Yeah, It's interesting, Bhavani, I'm getting it's possible for you to drop an enormous amount of baggage over the next five years. Yeah, Really an enormous amount. Yeah, This is thrilling. And everybody else take that home, Go me too, Really. That's it. You say me too, It'll happen. Truly, It's the way it goes. This is becoming more and more ecstatically fun. I have to say, I'm very grateful to you guys. Okay, I've thoroughly enjoyed being yelled at this time. I really have. Yeah, This wasn't, This last one, This wasn't serious yelling. Compared to what we've gone through. Okay, You guys. Okay, So I'll send this off shortly. And yeah, Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. And remember, Imagine going up from under the earth into the light. Okay. Just use your imaginations. Bye, You guys. Bye. You're so cute. See you.