Welcome to this full moon in Capricorn guided meditation.
Find your position now and take a moment before you even close your eyes to feel the weight of your body exactly as it is.
Feel any heaviness in your limbs,
Any of the tiredness you might be carrying,
The weight of what has accumulated since the last time you truly stopped to look at your life with an honest lens and let it be exactly as heavy as it is.
And when you're ready,
Close your eyes.
This is a full moon in Capricorn and Capricorn operates in truth.
It can kind of feel like that harsh clarity almost like cold,
Clean water.
While it might not always be pleasant at the end of the day,
It's a relief.
So if part of you came here tonight with a little bit of dread,
That's okay.
That's actually very appropriate because your nervous system already knows that tonight you're here to be honest with yourself.
And that takes a lot of courage and energy.
Take one long,
Slow deep breath in and release it completely like releasing a breath you've been holding in for months.
And again,
Take a nice big deep breath in,
Exhaling it out through the mouth,
Letting it all go.
And last one,
A nice big deep breath in through the nose and a slow exhale out through your mouth.
Bring your awareness to your feet and imagine them becoming heavy like they're made of stone.
Having been in this spot for a thousand years unmovable.
That heaviness begins to move upward through your ankles and your calves and your knees.
Every part of your lower body becoming dense and rooted and still up through your thighs your hips and the base of your spine feel the ground beneath you as though it reaches all the way to the center of the earth.
There is nowhere you could fall that the earth would not catch you.
Moving up to your belly and your lower back your chest and your heart Saturn ruled hearts carry a great deal of things like responsibility plans,
Fear,
Grief let your heart be heavy tonight if it is but also let it be held relaxing your shoulders into that heaviness your neck and your face every muscle releasing and softening bring your attention now to a point of cool,
Steady silver light at the center of your forehead right in your third eye this is Saturn's light and it shows you exactly what is there instead of what you want to see with every breath you take your mind is growing quieter and more honest with yourself.
All of that busyness drops away and what remains is the part of you that has always known where you actually are on your path what is working,
What isn't what you've been telling yourself is almost ready imagine that you're standing on a mountain top at a very high ledge far above the ordinary world this is a mountain that you've been climbing for a long long time,
Months,
Years in some spots the air here feels thin and cold but crisp with clearness everything you can see below is wrapped in a soft darkness so you can see the shapes of things but not the full details and up here the full moon casts everything in a sharp silver light Capricorn's moon is practical,
Unromantic and honest she does not make the mountain look beautiful she shows the truth of what is there turn around and take a look at the path behind you the one that you spent all that time climbing up let yourself see it all,
Some of it was harder than it needed to be some of it you might walk differently now and some of it you're actually really proud of take a moment to observe and take it all in turning back around you see in front of you there's a brown candle that burns with a low unwavering flame that even the mountain wind cannot touch,
Take a seat in front of it and gaze into that flame for a moment beside you there is a piece of paper and on it has all the goals that you've been carrying,
All your ambitions,
Your projected timelines and the versions of success that you've been measuring yourself against pick up that piece of paper and read it over in the moonlight of everything written on this page what on this list is actually yours?
We're going to move through three questions and I want you to feel the answers in your body as much as you think them in your mind Capricorn is an earth sign,
The body knows before the brain does the first question is what goal or ambition have you been carrying that belongs to someone else's definition of success this could be a parent,
A culture,
A version of yourself that you outgrew but maybe haven't actually let go of take your time with this notice in your body where you're holding on to this there might be a tightness in your chest when you think of it maybe a pain somewhere or a dullness,
That's all just information that your body is holding if something does come up,
Hold it in your hands bring it towards the candle if you know that it's not yours,
You can let it burn if you're still questioning whether it's yours or someone else's bring it to the flame and let the heat make the decision clear let your body tell you does it stay or does it go and whatever that answer is,
Trust it the second question is what timeline have you given yourself that is quietly punishing you a deadline that maybe felt motivating when you first said it but now lives in your body as shame or pressure or almost like a feeling of failure because you haven't yet reached it even though that you've continued to show up and work and try many people think Saturn is about punishment but really when we look and understand Saturn properly,
It's about structure there's a difference between a timeline that challenges and elevates you and one that wasn't actually realistic to begin with is there one that you need to release right now not the goal itself,
Just the timeline that you've been holding yourself to when you have your answer clear hold it to the flame and let it go and the third question,
What are you actually proud of what progress have you made in this cycle that you have not fully acknowledged because you didn't think it looked like it was at the finish line yet Capricorn energy only counts the wins but when we mix it with Saturn's wisdom we can begin to understand that even climbing towards that goal any progress forward is still an achievement who you have to become to get this far is the real result so take a moment right now to acknowledge what you've built and what you've become since you started your journey and let that land in your body the same way that a good piece of news does like the feeling of being genuinely seen and loved by someone whose opinion you respect as you're standing by this candle imagine brown roots coming from the earth into the soles of your feet these roots travel all the way down to the earth's core and they fill you with solid,
Sturdy and safe energy recalibrating you to the frequency of the earth Saturn can be very ungrounding so let this energy flow through you until you feel rebalanced and whenever you're ready bring yourself back to this present moment that mountaintop slowly dissolving into the world around you feeling the temperature of the room any noises or sounds around you and gently wiggling your fingers and your toes creating any gentle movements that you feel are needed we're going to take one final deep breath in through the nose just expanding your chest and your tummy and sigh it all out,
Letting it go and when you are ready,
You may open your eyes thank you for joining me tonight and I'll see you next time
