You feel panicked with the level of intensity that you're carrying.
The mania of it all is painful and disorienting,
Like a swirling tsunami of feelings and ideas and exhaustion riding in its wake.
This energy is not an accident.
What you're experiencing is not evidence of brokenness,
Miscalculation,
Or unworthiness.
This energy comes from all of the unprocessed experiences that you're carrying,
Along with stories in your mind that say that where you are is not where you want to be.
And so that energy that you're feeling is an activation state.
Your psyche is telling you that the conditions that you are in are not sufficient for experiencing the things that you are carrying.
What the psyche wants is integration and connection so that it can expand.
So this energy wants to propel you forward.
That's terrifying,
Especially when you're already so exhausted.
You want to use that energy to tread water,
Just enough so that you can maybe get some rest.
But as soon as you wake,
The tiredness is still here,
And the panic still awaits you,
Because the type of rest that you are craving does not come from inaction.
The type of rest that you are craving comes from receiving security and inspiration.
Inspiration comes from the Latin word spiro,
Which means breath or breathe.
Inspiration is not something that happens to us.
Inspiration is something that we must seek.
We must breathe it in.
We cannot just chase security,
Because tight security without any inspiration is just a prison.
And when you wake up in a prison,
It's natural.
It's natural to feel that urging to want to get out,
That confusion about where beauty is.
That frustration comes from the locked doors and empty hallways.
What if you could accept that this intensely painful experience that you're in is a psychedelic experience?
Psychedelic,
Which comes from two Greek words,
Which means mind seeing or mind clarifying.
You are on a journey,
As all psychedelic journeys are.
You are on an expedition of transformation.
You are transforming who you are to become who you want to be.
And this energy is not an enemy standing in your way.
It is wind awaiting you to open your sails so that it can help you carry yourself forward.
It is a propeller.
We simply have to figure out which direction you want to point and how and when do we open your sails.
