Q: How Do I Find Joy In Writing About Grief?

Every other week, I read the Akashic Records of one of my Substack followers to try to answer one of their creative questions or provide insight into one of their creative struggles.

This is a recording of the second reading I did, and it was in answer to the question: How do I find joy in writing about grief?

Intro and outro music by Serge Quadrado.

Transcript

Hi everyone, This is Mariela. Welcome to the second installment of Creative Advice from the Akashic Field. Today's letter was sent to me by Kay. And here's what they wrote. De Maria La I am struggling with finding the joy of writing, Especially now I am writing a book about Greece. Writing about losing my mom is painful. I know this is a book I need to write. But how do I find joy in writing it? And here's my response to Kate. Dear Kay, Thank you for sharing this with me and for asking your questions. Someone in my writing with the Divine Coaching Program is currently writing a book about grief. So I'm sure you can imagine I was incredibly curious to find out what your Akashic Records had to say about your question and struggle. The moment I entered your records, The atmosphere felt subdued and the air felt heavy. I saw you going through the forest. And your energy felt frantic, As if panic was building? And suddenly there was a clearing, And it was clear to me that you'd stumbled upon it by accident, That you weren't expecting to find it. Light was pouring in through the canopy. And as you stepped into the light, It was like you could remember how to breathe. There was a sense of awe of Holy hell, What is this feeling? And the answer to that question was. . . You are touching the Divine. This is what it feels like to touch the divine. I saw you looking up at the sky. Hat back. Eyes closed, Soaking up the sun. And then I received the word light-deprived. And the phrase. They haven't let the light touch them. There was such a release going on as she stood there, Soaking up those rays of sun. That I was told not to ask you a question yet. I needed to let the scene unfold first and hold space for the healing that needed to happen. Lots of light was pouring into the crown of your head, Being released into the earth through your feet. Eventually you started growing until you were able to look over the tops of the trees. Tall enough for the sun to always reach you. Your record keepers want you to remember that light can always be found. You just need to reach for it. When I felt room to ask you a question. I did, And I asked. How can Kay find joy in writing a book about grief and losing their mom? I immediately saw an onion and the layers were being peeled off. At the heart of the onion was joy in its purest form, And connection, The joy of connection, Of being connected, Of having been connected. And next I felt gratitude. And once I felt that. . . Both the joy and gratitude felt almost overwhelming. Much like how it felt to enter that clearing in the scene above. Because it felt so similar, I asked about the two metaphors, The forest and the onion. And your record keepers acknowledge that the onion is the forest and the heart of the onion is the clearing. You trying to find your way through the forest and looking intently at each layer as you unpeel the onion, Both feel like you're searching for an entrance into your own story, A perspective, An angle. But at the very heart of it is pure connection, Pure joy and pure gratitude. I asked your record keepers, How can Kay reach that clearing, That heart of the onion? And what I received was that there's a fear that the grief. If you allow it fully. Will drown you. That will consume you. But the only way through grief is to actually go through it. You can't bypass it. It's not either grief and sorrow or pure, Unadulterated joy and gratitude. It's both and, Like how the dark needs the light and the light needs the dark. At this point I asked, What needs to be healed, Cleared or cleansed for Kay to release the fear that their grief will be all-consuming? And they told me that wasn't the right question to ask. So I try it again. What can Kay do to release this fear? This time I did receive an answer. Your record keepers want you to sit with your grief and meditate on why it feels the way it feels. What is it about this particular loss? That makes you afraid of losing yourself. What is at the core of it, At the heart? They also want you to ask yourself whether you're still allowed to experience joy, If you ever were. If not, I want you to ask yourself when this started, What caused it? And how your mom's passing affected it. Last, I want you to check in with yourself whether you're ready to let the grief you've been holding on to go. If not. . . Why not? Why are you holding on to it and what needs to happen for you to be ready to process and release it? It's at this point during the reading that I felt blocked energy around your heart chakra. There is cosmic energy coming in through your crown and earth energy coming in through your feet, But neither can pass through your heart. And I was told to tell you to work with pink calcite. I was then expressly told to not send Reiki to your heart chakra. But I did receive the advice to place the threefold flame we work with in Magnified Healing in your heart. So I did. Feeling the reading was coming to an end, I asked whether there was anything else you needed to know right now, And here's what I received. You're not alone in this, And you don't have to do this alone. There are people who will carry you through this if needed. And your guides are always there to support you in whichever way you need them. Do try to remember that. I then closed your records. I wish you so much love and support on this journey and I hope you know you can always reach out to me. Ariana. Until next time.