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Hello Maria,
Welcome sisters.
This is so interesting,
This is so beautiful.
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Oh thank you my love,
It's absolutely wonderful to have you here.
Okay,
So today is an interesting one.
First and foremost,
When I realized,
When I was tapping into what I wanted to speak about today,
Something that came through,
Hello sisters,
Welcome.
I'm on YouTube live and I'm just so excited.
Thank you,
Thank you,
Thank you whoever that's watching.
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So today I was tapping into what I wanted to share about the beautiful gift that you are and to just awaken something in you and it's so interesting whenever everything aligns because what popped up on my,
You know like how Facebook and Instagram has that thing where,
Hi Karen,
How my sisters all here,
Hi Jamie,
Welcome.
On my Facebook and Instagram,
On this day,
Something popped up and it reminded me of my past and it's so interesting because I had to kind of sit with myself and actually rejoice in how incredible life can be and then I was on a call earlier today and I was sharing about how I sort of manifested the life that I have right now and it's so incredible that we as human beings,
Spiritual beings having a human experience,
It's so easy for us to forget how powerful we are as manifestors and I wanted to jump on here today to talk about how we can truly,
Truly access that authentic goddess power within us and in my books when I talk about goddess power and I want you to just tap into that yourself as well,
How does it feel like to be a goddess,
How does that goddess energy feel like and I'm just going to share how it feels like for me and you can very well,
You're very welcome to share that,
Tap into the comments,
Share that,
Okay.
For me,
An authentic goddess power is not a power that goes out to seek for approval or validation,
It's not a power that wants to overcome someone else's power,
It's a power where she luxuries,
It's like a Venusian power to me,
It's like she knows that even though she's swimming in the unknown,
The ocean of unknown,
She knows exactly what she wants and she allows her desire to percolate,
She allows her desire to dance with the universe and she just knows that the universe will work out everything that needs to be worked out and all she really needs to do is to hold that energy of her wholeness and she doesn't even have to like try hard to hold that energy,
She just is,
She embodies that stillness,
She embodies that and when I tapped into this energy,
When I was just channeling through some messages when I was sitting in tea ceremony today,
This message came through for me,
We all come from the unknown and at the end,
We go back into the unknown and I just thought it was so beautiful and I get chills even speaking it out loud right now because it just stands for everything I wanted to share today and you know,
I don't script my lives,
I let what needs to come through come through and when I had all these little things coming together for me,
I just knew that you know,
I needed to share some of my truths and you know,
One of the things that I don't talk about enough is that I would absolutely never have dreamt that I would be doing this today and that my goddess light can be shang,
It should be,
Can be out there shining,
Let's just say it this way,
Can be out there shining light for others.
I never ever felt that I was capable of that but here I am embodying this truth every single day and hello beauty,
I'm just going to read out your beautiful comment,
Mine is my inner self love and freedom of golden flying,
Oh I love that,
A goddess who trusts the unknown,
Yeah exactly and in fact I would actually invite you to feel into how it would be like to embody that unknown,
To embody the knowing that I've got this,
I've got this and letting that land,
Letting that really really land in you,
How does that feel like to just really be so in love with everything in life,
Everything,
Every single thing that comes through because I truly want to tap into this today very honestly because I always get this question you know like I would really love to do this and that and that and I'll be like okay go and do it,
What's holding you back and a lot of times it's like you know I don't,
I wish I had that,
I wish I had the money to do it,
I wish you know my husband would allow me to do that you know or like I wish my work would give me time off to do it,
Like I wish I had like you know the time to do it,
Like time,
Time,
Time,
Time,
Time,
Time and one of the things that I really really want to share is that it is so important for us to access that truth of who we are so that we are not bound by time,
That we're not bound by things that were invented by humans.
People are,
We are here,
We are here in a space where a lot of things were invented by the logical high functioning mind for our convenience and yet we have fallen into this place where we are attached to the identity of the mind and somehow or another we began to be constricted by what we first in the first place invented for our convenience right.
So Karen says mine is my inner woman in total control of herself knowing that I am the creatures of my own life and that I can create and change my experiences as I desire yes amen to that,
Amen to that.
I truly love this,
My sisters you all know this,
I just absolutely believe that when we claim,
When we reclaim the power that we can create anything we desire in our lives we activate something that is so much bigger than this human experience that we are and I want to say this in a way that I don't ever want to come across like I'm disregarding the human experience because in my work it is essential to place these polarities side by side to draw that beautiful,
To draw that beautiful artistry,
The art,
The mastery of the art of embodiment and enlightenment at the same time.
Actually today I wrote something about Zen because I feel like so many people get this thing and you can replace Zen with enlightenment or I don't know meditation or just stillness itself the word itself is absolutely interchangeable but I'm sure you know energetically what I'm saying here.
It is not about placing yourself outside of life and that is like enlightenment yes I'm done with life right.
Zen truly is about participation you know that stillness that comes the embodiment that comes from living in life and also at the same time knowing that you are so much bigger,
So much bigger than the human mind and I think the world right now humanity at large is being called to come to this awakened space into this awakened state of consciousness where we start to question like how can life be just this?
How can life just be this smallness,
This fear,
This paying the bills,
This trying to be loved,
This expectations to be met,
To be met right because I feel like a lot of us are sitting on the sidelines thinking of stillness,
Thinking of power,
Thinking of the goddess energy,
Thinking of inner peace,
Thinking of limitlessness when actually it is exactly inside of you already and what you really need to do is to tap into that right.
It takes inner work to dive deep into this and maybe that is one of the many reasons why many women don't want to do it but if you're here and you're hearing me and you're listening intensely and you want to know how can I be limitless,
How can I really create the impact I dream of creating with my art,
With my gifts,
With my ability,
All these little things that you know is yours,
You have to understand that it is a choice first and foremost and again whatever I say here I want you to take that with pure curiosity.
If it lands for you,
If it resonates with you,
Amazing.
If it doesn't,
I bless you and I leave you to really cultivate that sense for yourself in any other forms of ways that you resonate with but in my world when I came into a space where I found myself engulfed in my smallness and in my fears of failure and I grew up with that all my life.
I've been told to always have a plan B to fall on.
Don't do anything artistic,
Don't do anything that is self-made or entrepreneurial because entrepreneurs always fail.
Entrepreneurs,
They go bankrupt,
All these things right and then me taking that giant leap and say oh no I really can't live another year or even another day working in a place where I had no passion for and so the first time I actually made a move for myself was leaving a full-time job in marketing and actually saying you know what I don't care how I'm gonna work at this magazine,
This luxury magazine that I dream of doing.
I dream of working there since what I was like 15 years old and they didn't hire but somehow or another I met the beauty editor at the time and then I was like you know I just really want to work there whatever it is and she was like um well I'm looking for an intern and I ended up becoming the oldest intern there like probably when I was like 24 years old I think and so I didn't care though it was pure bliss for me it didn't matter how much I was paid I was paid a daily rate yeah I know Jamie I know it's like we all have that right we've been told something or another and so when I first made that decision you know everyone thought I was crazy everyone thought that it was like incredible like how can she be in training at this level like all my friends were in you know high-flying jobs and people who graduated from my university were like finance advisors and things like that but I was here I was a little beauty department intern packing beauty products and shipping them to celebrities houses and you know this this little nugget you know driving her little car and nobody even cared to lay eyes on who I was and then one year later I became the beauty editor I got hired and I replaced the previous editor who left and it was just one of those things that you start to notice that people actually started paying attention and then you start to have these or at least I did I started to have these ideas that I had to act in a certain way or I had to be in a certain way and all my life I've been told to hustle and really try harder to to climb the the the ladder to to somewhere be something and if I didn't become the editor in chief or the deputy editor then I meant nothing right yes Alex I'm still being told that I won't find success or opportunities in the arts yeah see so imagine this I want you to bring yourself back to this big big context that I'm working from every single day now I wish I knew that back in the day and that is what drives me every single time to come on live to share what I have to share and to share my work and to to hopefully elicit that spark in you you know I don't work in a way now where I wonder okay who's gonna see my work oh my god why is there no likes on my Instagram anymore or why is there no comments why isn't anyone sharing my work is there something wrong with me you know like is is someone is someone hating on the way I write all right I had to let go of all those things I really did I really had to go into that chaos because I cared a lot I did I really did if you scroll back if you have that curiosity and you actually have the time you can actually scroll back on my Instagram to the bottom and see all the poetry I used to write and I I created this account at the time because I didn't want my friends or my colleagues at the time to see what I was doing on the other side of the world basically like I had two identities or even more than two I don't know but you know because and also because one of my colleagues actually said like oh god not another like you know spiritual boo boo boo post please put that somewhere else she said and I remember that was the moment when I just knew okay I need to create another account for this I don't have that space here and it's not respected whether it was supposed to happen anyway I don't know but that was what happened and that was where this whole thing started and then quite swiftly after that I met T spirit and I started to really commune with the spirit like never before and that has led me this far to where I am right now you know so yeah I mean the journey hasn't been easy you know T spirit has really taught me to finally find a sanctuary where I can sit with the stillness and the chaos at the same time and then eventually embody that vortex of stillness because I've always been a doer it's been really hard for me I'm a generator as well if you do human design if you're curious I'm a generator and I have a sacral authority and so I've spent a lot of my time growing up like ignoring my sacral authority to the point where I had an eating disorder and I just lost touch with my body completely so I had to relearn how to really understand what I want because I couldn't even voice it it was so interesting I I remember whenever people ask me like so what do you want what do you really want like do you want this or this I couldn't even tell them because I I don't know I really didn't I I really couldn't tell and I lost touch completely with my intuitions at a time too and so that's why again this also comprises one of my biggest passions which is to teach women how to get back in touch with all their faculties not just being not just unattaching from the identity of the mind but also to work with the body so that you start to understand the language of your soul because the body is the communicator it's the bridge that kind of shares what your soul is saying and if you know how to tap into that vast world it is truly profound because now you're actually opening your faculties up to receive so much more of yourself and it is allowing you your full potential to be projected out into a reality through the body not through the small box of your mind so this is huge when I found out about it right and so I started to craft a way where I could really put this together because I felt that in my own work I felt that I experienced that and so I thought okay right here I was doing 11 pounds per session tea ceremonies and it didn't really sit totally fully aligned with me I felt really tightly fitted into a box and so I was wondering what can I do what is it that I'm learning here what are these amazing things that I can put together into a bigger scale like a bigger context as I was saying and I started to work from there so it's no longer about just serving stillness just serving tea for that momentary peace that guests would come in to have it was more about teaching people to cherish their lives teaching women to embody that sacred temple teaching women that they actually are goddesses right I know Alex is probably not a goddess but you do have a little goddess in you I'm sure but what I really want to say is how can we hold the polarities of yin and yang and then when I put that question out there the next thing that rolled into my life was oh actually there's so much to access about your ancestry there's so much to access about my lineage and so I started to dive into that I started to go into oh that sacred altar I had at home what I grew up with why is it there who do we worship why do we worship them who is this person and so I started to tap into all these beautiful things and the transmission started to come through the goddess of compassion Guan Yin and then I have all my Taoist ancestors and I have all these Taoist gods and goddesses and then I realized it let me down into the Taoist alchemical healing ways so what I'm trying to share with you my love is that when you throw away all the shoots right like things that people tell you in the name of love I believe they tell you because they care I would actually say truly tap into what exactly you want instead of satisfying them in the momentary space like the short-term satisfaction that you get from their approval the short-term satisfaction you get from their validation because ultimately if you are doing anything and this goes so deep in right even when you're doing your own thing right now I would absolutely do this myself I would have a daily check-in is there anything I'm doing now that I'm doing because I'm seeking for some kind of external validation so I'm in the midst of launching a new online offering the priestess of tea I am holding my energy container beautifully right now because for the first time I was actually saying that with my mentor yesterday I'm not actually putting this or hinging this on what other people would say how people will react how many people will buy you know and I have to hold that space I have to hold that container from a place where I am communing already with the highest self the highest selves of the goddesses who will hear the call and even then I'm keeping my doors open this is the thing I want you all to understand to embody stillness you keep your doors open for more magnificence to shine through the stillness that we talk about is truly the unknown so if we learn to work with the unknown if we learn to be in the unknown and also if we learn to embody the unknown we can actually access that space and then open our doorway to even allow more in so much more than your mind would ever ever imagine and this is the thing I feel like can take any person down easily and that is the mind's attachment to time the idea that it has to be like this by September it has to be this much by November otherwise I'm not worthy or that I why am I meditating today and then I still don't feel any stillness it doesn't work right so for me as a generator I truly truly can't really do anything that is not aligned not sitting well with me everything I've done even though it's been freaking hard I can put my hand on my heart and tell you that they were all things that I dreamt about from day one even the moments when I started to host circles and ceremonies even then not knowing what exactly I would be doing and even to till today I'm always consciously opening up more doors to what's going to come in I don't know you tell me or universe you show me because that is what we are we are galactic proportions where galactic proportions funneling down compressing into physical matter and we tend to forget that we tend to forget that we are stillness we tend to forget that we are peace we are love you know and that's when the embodiment goes out of the window and all we care about is how can we speed up our our vibration frequency how can we become more more more how can we generate more how can we manifest more but the the fun part of it is to how we can embody who we want to be how can we embody what we desire that is when the dreams start to come in without any reason any rightful reason it's just it just happens miracles start to appear around you ordinary things become extraordinary this is part of the artistry this is part of what it's like to be an artist this is what it is to be a mystic a healer whatever that you call yourself a priestess a goddess right the the essence of that is this authenticity this knowing in the unknown the the sense that we already are so much bigger than the fear that is going to captivate us in that singular moment because the fear will always be there to be honest you know even in the moments like i was just looking back in terms of like where i was today four years ago to today i still walk with fear back then it was fear of something else and now it's a fear of something else i love these mingling of ideas creating space for stillness and practicing true attention and openness yeah i love the idea of i i oftentimes have a lot of conversations with women and a lot of the similarities that hold space in in in the truth of who we are is that we we know that stillness we remember that stillness and i i read something yesterday that was so beautiful it's almost the saying it's something i would paraphrase but it's almost like that stillness it's a remembrance of where we were before we were born this beautiful starlight in the sky and then in that singular moment we fall into this beautiful space where we start to grow in the void we are created and then we become the creator who is constantly creating and then we start to create this creation that is this life and i think we all desire to remember that stillness because that is the moment when we were close to someone who mothered us who held us who gave space for us to grow in that nine months in that body right so that remembrance is real that remembrance is something that i don't even need to put into words but you can feel it in your body and so for us to access that stillness it's powerful because once you've accessed that stillness then you truly will understand what it means to be in wu-wei in non-action and you know in zen they call it the no mind but the no mind is truly about living in a way that you live with such a like a clean slate like a like a living an embodied way of living where you're laughing like a young child but you also have the wisdom of an old sage that is what it means and of course like we experience life we cry we scream we get angry we get resentful it's not about suppressing these things it's about acknowledging the chaos of being human and then coming back to that stillness and then really transmuting them alchemizing them into a bigger vortex of stillness that is how the stillness begins to expand stillness doesn't expand because we meditated for an hour today stillness expands because we have dropped even deeper into not needing to know not needing to know everything not needing to to to to suppress anything not needing to hide away aspects of us we want to keep allowing more and more of who we truly are into this world it is so needed you know whatever that you know for example alex has all these beautiful bowls tea bowls that he makes these are beautiful things and karen has this beautiful like amazing ability to cut through the galaxy to bring me salvation to wounds and then jamie as well with your beautiful sisterhood and just being able to hold space for all these things and if maria is still here still being that space of helping people to access their ancestors everyone has different aspects and if we don't allow that in then i don't think we can even ever even see the change that we want to see right and i think that's what really makes me keep going because i want to be the change i truly believe that and for me i don't want to stop i i don't want to stop ever and i don't want to be you know hiding in the wings and waiting until i've got it you know to finally go out and say what i need to say and do what i want to do and and so i just want to hold this for you because i feel that we all sometimes get really really taken out by certain fears that are not even ours and the illusions of security oh my goodness one of the things that woke me up like the f out of me was that i realized that oh my god i'm still operating on like an employee mindset in so many things to be entrepreneurial to be a goddess let's just put it this way we have to make a choice like i said in one of my posts recently great pill or blue pill make a choice and then choose to lead yourself yeah everyone is so magical if only we allow that magic to come in can you imagine how amazing the world would be honestly seriously yeah if we could just allow that right and it's so important that you make that choice for yourself because you do create your own reality every single person i remember one of my mentors said this like at the end of the day there's only one of you there's only one of you here and so we we tend to do this quite a lot if a client works with me we explore the blueprint at the subtle body level why we have these people appearing around us and how it feels like to bring it down to the earth level and it's so beautiful because we're no longer attached to the mental stories when we do this we're actually accessing it through the cosmic level and also the body level and then transmuting any energy that feels like a block in the body through embodiment practices and that is one of the things we do because we don't want to be locked in by another mental stories you know it's just one of those things that really keep people very very small when we could be out there flying when we could be really out there just doing our thing and trusting that it's gonna be amazing and will there be days when we are in the void yes there will be days like that because it is just like the seasons of our lives there are no exceptions to us being human but you don't see a tree or a flower going like oh i hate being in the void i'm gonna stop growing now i'm gonna take myself out right you don't see a flower or a tree doing that so why do we do that as humans right and i think the one thing that came through when i asked that question myself is that we are so attached to your mind and it's time that we really really stop taking ourselves out of the game and allow our fears to to to be that beautiful butterfly sensation that will open the gateway to our transformation and yes there needs to be work in terms of like if you have you know if you have always had issues with your nervous system then it definitely will be good for you to get into the work of how to differentiate something is really not right for you and what is actually the fear of expansion which is actually a good fear okay so do the work know that you've got this and don't ever play small ever again make that choice great pill or blue pill and then just delete yourself whatever you need to get yourself to that sacred space where you access all of you and allow all your light to come through give yourself that don't wait until you've got it to do what you truly desire life is too short for that okay all right my loves so um thank you so much for joining me um i truly truly appreciate you and i will be speaking to you again soon goodbye
