Live It Like You Chose It - L,L,&L W/ Glenn Ambrose

Have you ever thought about being on the other side BEFORE this incarnation and exploring what you may have been thinking from a broader perspective? Why did your soul choose to incarnate here on earth? Because it did. This isn't an accident. I explore this concept as well as how this concept can comfort us in times of suffering as well as help us experience more joy while we're here.

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Welcome to Life,

Lessons and Laughter with your host,

Glenn Ambrose.

I forgot to put myself up on the screen the last couple of times.

Anywho.

Welcome.

Welcome to the show.

So today I kind of wanted to talk about this perspective that.

I found it interesting because.

I was I was gaining some solace,

Some some comfort in this.

Mentality that just kind of popped up in my head.

And what I mean by that is I was I was gaining some feeling some comfort from it just because.

All right,

How am I going to explain this?

Well,

I guess what I'm going to do is just kind of tell you guys a little bit about what's been transpiring in my life lately,

That way you guys can understand what I'm talking about,

Because just throwing it out there,

It doesn't really make sense.

So I've been going through some big changes,

A lot of inner self work and which is beautiful timing for my land projects coming out.

You know,

I've mentioned before that I'm doing a lot of inner work that's manifesting into the external circumstances.

So.

You know,

The external work is.

Pales in comparison to the internal work.

So I'm doing a lot of internal work,

And with that comes times where you're feeling.

Experiencing a certain level of suffering.

But the way the reason I want to explain this first is because my suffering these days is dramatically different than my suffering before.

And I want to make that distinction.

So my suffering before I would.

Kind of get wrapped up in it,

You know,

It would kind of pull me down into it and it would you know,

It could incite a period of depression that I went through.

It could incite tremendous suffering in different ways.

I guess not as tremendous as I had gone through earlier in my life,

But but but,

You know,

Some very some difficult moments,

Whereas now.

And it's not that I'm never going to go through one of those periods.

I don't know,

You know,

With tremendous suffering.

But now the suffering is more.

I can kind of keep my distance between me and it.

So I know that I'm going through something and I know that I'm experiencing some emotions and some sensations and possibly some some thoughts that I don't enjoy or don't feel good.

But there's a there's a bit of a space between me and them.

So I don't get so immersed in it and climb into it and actually experience this full blown depression or anything.

So.

So,

Yeah,

You know,

It's it's like I I feel all this angst and emotional suffering inside.

But yeah,

There's still an awareness that this is just something I'm going through.

It's not permanent.

It's not the end of the world.

It's just something I need to work through,

Which makes it a lot more manageable.

So I just want to explain that because,

You know,

I was about to say,

Well,

I was experiencing suffering and it's like,

Well,

It's you know,

There's different levels of suffering,

Man,

I have been,

You know.

Curled up on the floor in a fetal position.

With my heart aching.

So much that I couldn't even breathe,

And it felt like my.

Chest to turn to stone and it was crumbling inside of me or something like and thank God I ain't there now,

But I've experienced that and I didn't want to give the impression that it was suffering like that.

You know,

It's it was it ain't fun,

You know,

And I'm feeling it.

But there's also this level of awareness that,

OK,

Let's dive into this and go through.

Um.

So is that kind of suffering?

So I was having that kind of suffering and this concept popped into my head and I had heard it before,

Thought of it before,

But it just stopped me for a moment.

And the concept was,

Is that.

Glenn,

You you chose this.

You chose this journey you're on here.

You chose this earth.

You chose this incarnation.

And not only did you choose it,

But you chose it from a higher.

Level of consciousness than you are at now.

When you chose to incarnate here on earth and go through this.

Evolution school.

You were on the other side,

You had full knowledge of your soul,

Yourself,

The types of experiences you were going to have on earth.

I mean,

I you know,

The belief systems vary around this,

But,

You know,

I probably.

Structured many of the experiences that I've been through.

Especially the ones that were the most difficult,

Because those are the ones that incite the most growth.

And that's what I'm here for.

So it was just,

You know,

So I just kind of.

You know,

Like I said,

I had heard this intellectually before I had even contemplated it conceptually before,

But for some reason it just dropped in out of nowhere.

I hadn't thought about it in a long time.

And it just was giving me a tremendous sense of comfort because it reminded me that like I have a very small perspective here on earth,

Just like,

You know,

As we all do.

And it's very easy when we're going through something difficult to what what our brain does is it zooms in and focuses on that.

And it's kind of all we can see is it's just the difficulty.

Right.

And to.

To help navigate that,

It's it's beneficial to take a step back and zoom out and put it back in the perspective and go,

OK,

You know,

Yeah,

Maybe,

You know,

Whatever the particular problem is at the moment.

That's not that doesn't encapsulate my whole experience here on earth.

You know,

Like whatever I'm going through,

I can go through it and come out the other side.

I mean,

Let's look at the past,

What I've been through already.

It's.

Yeah,

But if I can go through all that,

I sure as heck can go through what's whatever's in front of me,

So.

You know,

And when your mind's kind of in that negative head space,

It it does it kind of does the opposite.

Well,

Not kind of.

It does do the opposite.

It it goes,

Oh,

Well,

I experienced this in the past,

Suffering in the past.

Now I'm experiencing suffering again.

So that means I'm going to experience suffering in the future.

And it's like,

Well,

Yeah,

You probably will experience most suffering.

There is no life free of suffering here on earth.

It's just but what are you going to do about it?

Are you going to use it to grow and expand and work through and get better at it and maybe learn to do what I was saying earlier,

Put some space in between you and it so it doesn't totally take you over and you get better at going through these things.

You know,

Like I posted a picture on social media the other day,

That was,

You know,

A lot of people think Zen,

They're using the term Zen.

They said,

You know,

A lot of people think Zen looks like this.

And it was just this dude peacefully meditating with this beautiful waterfall behind him and nature.

And it's just,

You know,

Blissful.

And I said,

But Zen really looks like this.

And it had that same guy meditating in another picture would just fire all around him.

And he was completely at peace.

And it's like,

You know,

It's not that we're going to be in fire all the time.

But the anybody can be anybody can squat down and meditate in the middle of nature with nothing wrong.

And be at complete peace.

I mean,

That's.

It's almost hard not to,

To some degree,

But unless you're in the middle of going through something,

Of course.

But so that that's not spirituality,

That's not growth,

That's not like,

Wow,

Like you can be peaceful and everything's going your way,

You must be really evolved.

No,

It's it's can you stay at peace in the center of the storm?

You know,

That's that's growth,

That's expansion,

Because we could be at peace when everything was going our way,

When we're three.

So now I'm 57,

Like there should be some sort of growth like.

Well,

I'm still good,

You know,

I'm still good when everything is going my way,

Like I was when I was three.

But whenever anything goes the way that I don't like it,

I throw a fit and spiral into a depression,

Just like when I was three.

OK,

Well,

Then you're not really growing.

You're not you know,

You might be going through the suffering,

But you're not using the suffering to grow,

You're not expanding,

You're not becoming a better version of yourself,

You're not becoming more capable of of hanging on to that piece,

Even in difficult situations.

Right.

So so it's it's this evolution that we're aiming for.

But I digress back to the back to the topic.

Where we were,

You know,

And this is the stuff I like to contemplate,

Just take that concept and just go expand on it,

Like contemplate it.

So I go,

OK,

What does that mean?

Oh,

I chose this.

Oh,

I was on the other side and I chose this.

Oh,

OK.

Like that doesn't really do anything.

We have to contemplate it,

Take it deeper.

What does that mean?

It expand our comprehension,

Our imagination around that concept.

So I picture myself sitting on the other side in complete bliss,

Fully connected to my entire soul,

Knowing that I'm eternal.

Knowing that I am connected to source.

Knowing that I am love energy.

And and I'm sitting up there and I'm going,

What do I want to do next?

What do I want to do?

Like because I can do anything.

I'm just an expression.

Of love of God.

So what do I want to do?

I want to evolve more.

There's this inner urge for me to evolve my consciousness and become more of myself.

Oh,

And and just contemplating that I get filled with love.

Right.

Now,

This is all imagination while I'm on the other side.

And I can feel some of it in my heart,

Of course.

But but I'm imagining this and I'm like,

Oh,

Wow.

Like,

Oh,

I just want to be more of myself and more love and express that love in new,

Profound ways.

And that the universe is my oyster.

I can do anything.

What do I want to do?

And then I look down at Earth and I'm like,

Oh,

My God.

Like there's so much duality down there.

And at this time in human history,

There's actually a shift occurring in consciousness.

And wow,

What an amazing way to up level.

You know,

And I understand that I fall asleep down there and I and I forget that I'm eternal and I'm love and all this stuff.

And then I have to work through that and I have to get to the place where I remember it and use that remembrance to expand myself.

And and wow.

You know,

Like.

Oh,

So,

You know,

I'll go through this period where I'm an alcoholic,

Might even last 20 years if I'm stubborn enough,

If I've really fallen asleep.

But whatever,

You know,

I'm eternal.

20 years is the blip in eternity.

It's not,

You know,

Contemplate it like you guys can do this.

Contemplate it from.

Your perspective now and use it to,

You know,

Use your imagination to to connect with what's,

You know,

What you could have possibly been thinking when you were over there.

I did a mini version of this in five minutes,

You know,

And I started feeling this comfort,

So I'm diving into it a little bit more deeply now.

But.

But I have contemplated it before,

And it's like,

You know,

Wow,

You know,

Let's go down there and it's just a little while like.

So then I want to kind of relate,

Like,

How do I how do I relate to?

What that would feel like if I was actually.

On the other side,

Saying that,

How could I relate that to a human experience that I've had?

And it's like,

Well,

You know,

School school is 12 years.

That's that's kind of a long time.

It's not exactly what I was looking for,

But let's let's play around with it a little bit.

It's contemplation.

We can do that.

So it's like,

Oh,

OK.

So,

You know,

School was.

Difficult for me and in a lot of ways,

Traumatic,

Which I've.

Don't use that word lightly,

But over the last three years,

I've really seen how much.

It played a part.

It was.

It was tremendous suffering when I was a kid,

Like to my core,

Because it was every day being told that I was bad and not good enough every day and yelled at and looked at with disgust,

You know,

Like just.

And I wasn't a bad kid,

I was just I couldn't sit still.

So it's just but but it drove the teachers crazy because it disrupted their class.

And,

You know,

So just walking down the hall and having people look at you like.

Like you're a pain in the ass,

You know,

Like that,

That's that's hard to deal with on a daily basis and cause tremendous suffering.

But when I'm on the other side,

I'm looking down at that and I'm going,

Yeah,

You know,

You'll experience this and it's going,

You know,

For my soul to evolve,

For my consciousness to evolve,

I need to be able to learn how to stand in that and not lose myself.

I need to be able to go through the most extreme conditions where where people are just.

You know where it's coming at you from all sides and trying to break your will,

Trying to break your spirit and just being able to hang on to a piece of it,

Even though like as a child,

You're you're powerless,

Right?

Like the adults.

They can do whatever they want to you,

It's almost.

It's almost like in the past,

Like I've had past life regressions and stuff like this,

And like so I zoomed back and of course,

I don't understand the full experience,

But but back when there's a caste system,

This place is on earth that it's still like this,

Where people where there's slaves.

OK,

Like that's one aspect.

And then not just slaves,

But also a caste system where the higher ups can do whatever they want to you.

They they can.

Hurt you,

They can pull you away from your family,

They can kill your family,

They can kill you,

And you know,

This is like that much control over you.

Of course,

My life wasn't like that.

This time around,

It was like that in past lives,

But in this time around.

Adults,

When you're a child,

Adults can do whatever they want to you.

They can make you stay in your room all day.

They can,

You know,

Just just punish you in all sorts of ways.

If you don't do what they say to do.

Right.

So that was a similarity.

Not that I'm saying I was a slave in this lifetime or anything even close.

I'm just saying emotionally,

There is a similarity there.

When you were a kid and and everyone around you is trying to break your will,

Trying to get you to fit into a box that you don't fit in and constantly telling you you're bad because you don't.

It's difficult not to eventually just drink the Kool-Aid and say,

OK,

I'll do it.

And I tried to.

But on a soul level,

I wouldn't allow myself to.

I will.

I would not allow myself to forget my truth.

And it caused a tremendous amount of suffering.

But it was necessary for me to go through that and not lose my will.

And I went through stages.

So in the beginning,

I tried to to become who they wanted me to become.

And I couldn't.

I like I was literally physically incapable of sitting still in a class for six hours a day or whatever.

So like I couldn't do that.

So then when I was around seventh,

Eighth grade,

I just went,

OK,

I'm bad.

Now,

I accepted I was bad on a surface conscious level.

But I never accepted that on a soul level because I knew better.

Right.

And then after I got sober,

It was like I went,

You know,

I went through these stages.

It's like,

Well,

Let me see how many.

Well,

It's about I guess about,

You know,

13,

14 years of me going,

Oh,

I want to be good,

I want to be good,

I want to be good.

And then I decided,

OK,

Screwed,

I'm bad.

And that was until I was thirty five when I got sober.

So it's more than 14 years,

But.

You know,

What is that,

20,

21 years or something?

So like 20 years of of.

Thinking I was bad on a surface level,

But knowing a difference deep down and then waking up spiritually and finding that good that's inside of me and all this stuff.

So that's my journey in a snapshot.

So the the but what I was saying is I knew I was going to go through those periods,

Right?

Maybe I didn't know exactly how long it was going to take me to wake up.

I think I was stubborn.

I think I was supposed to wake up earlier.

I went through quite a bit and I just refused to wake up and I just kind of resolved to this mentality that I was rocky and that life could knock me down as many times.

And I just kept getting back up and just getting back up and just getting back up.

And I thought that that's what life was like.

So and when I locked on to a belief system like that,

It was really I locked on hard,

Man.

Like I believed it not only consciously,

But subconsciously,

Probably not unconsciously.

But I believed it on a very deep level.

It was like earlier when I was like 18,

I didn't think I could die.

I was like I was suffering so much that I thought God hated me and was going to keep.

And I was like,

If God really hates me,

What would he do?

And he's like,

Well,

He's not going to let me off the hook by dying early.

I'm going to be here suffering for many,

Many years as long as I can.

I'll probably live till I'm 100.

And it's going to be horrible the whole time.

That's what you know,

That's probably the worst thing.

So that's probably what he's going to do to me.

So I think and I actually believed this and I used to go run out in traffic and do crazy things just to prove to people that I couldn't die.

And I believed it so much that it actually worked.

I like manifested things like like the absence of my death.

It's like it was insane.

So then,

You know,

So when I adopted this rocky mentality,

Just life knocks you down,

Get back up,

Life knocks you down,

Get back up.

I was just in that pattern.

And I would just I wasn't looking to change or grow or awaken or anything.

I was just like,

I'm just going to keep doing this.

I'm just going to keep doing this.

So that's when I had to be completely laid out and my legs taken out and basically pummeled into the ground until I couldn't get up anymore.

And I was on the edge of death and then have this orb of of love called my son Mateo to pull me back out of that.

I needed to be just just pummeled because I wasn't waking up.

So I think I was supposed to wake up earlier and I just wasn't.

And that was the messaging that I got when I finally did wake up.

And I looked back on that period.

That's what spirit,

God,

My soul was telling me there,

Like you weren't waking up,

You were you were supposed to.

But you were just too damn stubborn.

You weren't going to wake up.

So we had to get you to where you were either going to die or wake up.

It was the only way.

So.

I think that that's what happened.

I don't know if I wrote that when I was on the other side.

Maybe I did.

I don't know.

You know,

I'm thinking we have free will.

So my idea is that I probably laid out the experiences I mentioned earlier,

You know,

Up until I was 14 and then 14 to 35 and then finally waking up,

Not necessarily those years,

But just the experiences in themselves.

You know where I was trying to be good and then I accepted I was bad and then I woke up.

That that was probably how things were going to go.

And I may have even written in their alcoholism.

You know,

So so maybe I did have a vague plan,

But I believe we have free will and we have choice,

So it's my choice whether I'm going to awaken or not.

So if I'm looking at that from above and I'm going and I know all that and I'm like from the perspective up there,

I'm going,

Oh,

It's totally worth it.

There's a blip in eternity.

What's 20 years?

What's 100 years down there?

It's nothing.

It's nothing.

And the growth that I'm going to experience because of it.

Oh,

My God,

It's so worth it.

So it's kind of like,

You know,

Going to school.

Well,

I got to go to school 12 years or I got to go to college.

Maybe that's a better example.

Like when when somebody is thinking about going to college.

Or any type of training for a particular job,

Right?

Hopefully they're doing that because they like that the job that they're being trained for,

And they think that it's going to help them live a pleasurable experience here on Earth.

So they look at that college and some people like school.

Some people don't.

I'm going to go from my perspective.

I don't.

So I go,

Would would I go through four years of training?

To have many,

Many,

Many years of being able to make a living in a way that brings me joy?

Well,

Sure.

It's a great trade off.

Right,

It's great trade off.

Spend four or five years or something getting trained and then you can work in that field doing something that you enjoy for the next 40,

50 years.

That's a great trade off.

Right,

It's it's.

Short term decisions and actions supporting a long term goal.

That's beautiful.

So,

You know,

I take that and I'm like,

I'm on the other side and I'm going,

Well,

100 years,

It's nothing.

Look at all the growth I'm going to get out of it.

Look at all the joy.

Look at the expansion.

I'm going to be able to look at all the love that I'm going to be able to share as my soul advances.

It's totally worth it.

Knowing the suffering that I was going to go through.

Like that brings me comfort because I'm going.

If because I don't think my perspective is better here than it was on the other side,

I think my perspective was better on the other side.

So which one would I trust?

Right.

This.

Temporary,

My new little perspective using what,

20% of my brain or something like just minimal perspective from my minimal experiences.

I don't even understand half the things that half the people on the planet have experienced here on Earth.

I can't.

Understand or comprehend eternity.

So my perspective here,

While I'm here on Earth,

Is so much smaller.

And yes,

I'm working to expand it,

But I'm not going to get it to the level that it's at when I'm on the other side.

That's a broad expansion.

That is an expanded perception.

That's an advanced perspective.

Right.

So if I'm over there going,

Looking down at Earth and I'm going.

Whatever,

Man.

Yeah.

You know,

It ain't going to be easy,

But like,

You know,

Like you can make it and you and and and the benefits you're going to get out of it are going to far,

Far,

Far away the negatives.

So go.

Yeah,

I'm I'm going,

Man.

I'm definitely going.

I was on the other side saying that.

Looking down at Earth,

Going absolutely man,

Let's do this.

It was my free will,

It was my free choice to come here.

And when I look at life through that,

Then I go,

OK,

Well,

What?

Like why to go through the suffering?

Of course not.

I mean,

Can this is the suffering part of it?

Yes,

It's part of it.

Is it going to expand me conceptually?

Yeah,

It is.

If I use it to grow.

OK,

Cool.

But is that it?

Well,

What about like that?

That's that's looking at it,

Then kind of the negative side.

We're looking at the suffering and we're going,

OK,

The suffering must be worth it.

Otherwise,

Why choose to incarnate here?

Good point.

Yeah.

OK.

Yeah.

OK.

So the suffering is worth it.

I get it from a broader perspective.

The suffering is worth it.

Cool.

But that's only one side of the picture,

Right?

The other side of the picture is the non-suffering.

We don't just come on Earth suffering the whole time.

It's duality,

That means is a good side to the suffering is what we would deem as the negative side,

Because it ain't fun.

But there also is another side to life.

And that's the beauty.

That's the joy.

That's the love we get to experience.

I mean,

Look at this picture behind me.

That's the view from my backyard.

I mean,

Are you kidding me?

The beauty.

On this earth,

The rolling hills,

The palm trees,

The blue skies,

The clouds,

The sun,

The moon,

The stars,

The nature,

The colors of flower,

The flowers just bloomed right outside my kitchen window.

And my whole house smells like these beautiful flowers.

I mean,

For the first half hour this morning when I woke up,

That's all I could smell.

I was just walking around,

Just.

Oh,

Thank you,

That's so beautiful,

That smell in my house.

All the people that we love.

You know,

Looking at your child and just going,

I didn't even know this much love was possible.

Right.

Your spouse,

Your family,

Your friends,

All the good experiences you had,

All the fun you had rolling around the grass when you were six.

You know,

Like all that stuff we've enjoyed,

All the beauty on this planet.

You know,

There's so many things that I haven't done yet.

You know,

Like going to my neighbors,

Going to Egypt today,

I believe.

I haven't been yet going to Egypt and riding a camel to go check out the pyramids.

I'm so excited to do that.

The the you know,

The safaris in in on the Serengeti and,

You know,

Just seeing the animals all in their wild habitat and stuff.

Just free out in nature,

Like,

Oh,

My God,

I can't wait to experience that.

And that's just a couple of things,

You know,

Like and all the stuff that I have done,

Skydiving and hang gliding and jumping off waterfalls and and all the you know,

Like,

I mean,

Just it's endless.

All the beauty and wonderful things that I've experienced.

And there's so much more to go like that's what brings me comfort.

You know,

And it's all because of this concept of reminding myself that I chose to be here.

I chose this from my broader,

More wise perspective.

I chose this.

So why don't I live it like that more?

Why don't I live it like I chose it?

You know,

Boy,

That's a good catchphrase,

Live it like you chose it because you did.

You know,

You didn't just trip and fall out of the other side and land on earth and go,

Oh,

Whoops,

Last I knew everything was good.

And I was going to go grab a beer and I tripped.

And next thing you know,

I'm incarnated in this earth.

You don't know.

We chose it.

We've got free will.

Free will is eternal.

Because love is eternal and love is an free will is an aspect of love.

So it's it's it.

We chose to be here,

So let's live it like we chose it.

You know,

Let's look for the beauty if it,

You know,

It's this is why I kind of liken it to taking a vacation,

Because.

Most people on vacation have a good time,

Right,

There's some people that want to control everything and they just can't cut loose and.

It's not fun going on vacation with those people,

But like most people when they're on vacation,

They're like they're seeing things they've never seen before.

And they're like,

Oh,

My God,

This is so cool.

This is so beautiful.

Oh,

Wow.

You know,

I can't believe there's places like this on earth.

And this is so and they don't have anything to do.

So the more relaxed and they're like,

Oh,

Wow.

You know,

And then they might try something and be like,

I didn't really like that that much.

But hey,

I gave it a shot,

Right?

Let's do something else.

It's let's try this.

Oh,

That that sounds like fun.

Oh,

I really like that.

I might do that one again.

Like that's how we're supposed to be going through life.

I'm not saying all the time.

I'm not talking about this spiritual bypassing or whatever the hell people are calling it nowadays.

You know,

Not functioning from reality and denying.

No,

We're going to go through our suffering and we're going to go through our periods of growth and duality and all that stuff.

That's part of our journey.

But it's only part of it.

It's not all of it.

The joy and the pleasure and taking in all the wonderful aspects of this life.

That's the other part.

And I think we forget that,

You know.

I think we forget to.

Live it like we chose it and just be like,

I chose to be here,

Let's make the most of it.

You know,

That's.

I love coming from this perspective because it's just there's certain things that resonate with me and I.

You know,

I like the concept.

Of just kind of sliding into death sideways,

Doing Mach 10 with my hair on fire.

Going,

Whew,

That was a hell of a ride,

You know,

Get the most out of it,

Man,

You know,

That's why I don't worry about like all the scars I have on my body and broken bones and stuff like whatever,

Man.

It's like it's,

You know,

I'm going to hang up this meat suit used when I'm done.

I'm not trying to be safe.

I'm not spending all my energy trying to make sure that that I,

You know,

I never get hurt or nothing bad ever happens.

Like then you get to end of life.

And what have you experienced?

Like what?

It's like from.

From that broader perspective,

Do you think that you were like,

Oh,

My God,

There's so much danger down there.

I'm going to I'm going to do everything that I can to never break a bone or never get any stitches.

And then if if I make it through 100 years without any broken bones or any stitches,

Then I'm going to die happy.

And I'll and I'll when I get back on the other side,

I'm going to be like,

Nicely done.

No,

I don't I don't think so.

I don't think that was the concept that we had on the other side.

I'm not trying to get hurt.

I don't enjoy getting hurt.

But if I do in the process of having some fun,

So be it.

You know,

I actually think I take calculated steps to not get hurt.

Other people think I'm crazy.

I don't know why.

I just don't.

I don't I don't see this crazy.

I see this living without fear,

Trying to control every aspect,

You know.

So.

So,

Yeah,

That that's the concept.

And let me see if there was let me see if there was one other way that I wanted to come at this and or if I covered it already.

Well,

I think it was about.

Taking comfort in it.

Well,

Yeah,

I guess I guess I think I covered both ways because when I was first starting the podcast,

I saw it in two ways.

And the worst first way I saw it was taking comfort when you're going through a difficult time.

Right,

So that was when I was talking about going like when we're going through suffering,

Going,

Hey,

Wait a minute,

I chose to be here,

I chose I knew I was going to be going through these this type of suffering and learning these types of lessons.

And I chose to come down here because from a broader perspective,

I knew that it was worthwhile and it was worth doing and I was going to benefit from it.

So why don't I embrace and grow through this stuff instead of just sitting there going,

Oh,

My God,

I'm suffering.

This hurts so much.

Oh,

I hate this.

Oh,

This is so horrible.

I'm suffering.

I hate this.

Like just,

Oh,

I suffered before and now I'm going to suffer again.

Oh,

My God,

I hate this.

Like you're not looking for the lesson when you're in that energy.

You're not looking to expand.

You're not growing through it.

You know,

I did a podcast a little while ago.

If if you have to go through it,

You might as well grow through it.

Right.

So like if you're going through all this suffering and you're not growing,

You're actually creating more suffering in the future because the suffering is there for you to grow,

For you to transcend it,

For you to expand so it doesn't hurt so much.

And if you're just allowing yourself to to hurt and suffer and you're not growing from it.

Then guess what?

It's going to have to happen again because the whole point is for you to grow.

So if you don't if you're if you don't like the suffering you're in,

I suggest that you do everything in your power to grow through it,

Because if you don't,

One thing I can guarantee you is it's going to come back and it's going to look very similar and it's going to feel very similar.

And then you'll make it through that.

See,

That's what I was doing.

For 20 years as an alcoholic,

I wasn't looking to grow.

I wasn't looking to expand.

I wasn't looking to learn and become a better version of myself through my suffering,

So therefore I just went through suffering after suffering,

After suffering,

After suffering.

And it intensified and intensified and intensified.

Why?

Because if you're suffering a little and you're and you don't choose to awaken,

Then the suffering has to increase.

You're not going to the universe isn't stupid.

It's not like,

Oh,

Well,

We gave him ten pounds of suffering and he didn't choose to awaken.

So let's give him ten pounds again.

No,

It goes,

Well,

If ten pounds of suffering didn't make him open,

Let's give him 15 pounds of suffering.

Maybe that will force him to look at things a different way.

Oh,

No.

OK,

Well,

Let's give him 20 pounds of suffering because the 15 pounds didn't work.

They're not going to go,

Oh,

Well,

The 15 pounds didn't work.

Let's give them five pounds.

What sense does that make?

No,

It's going to increase in intensity until you learn,

Because that's what you're here for.

You're here to expand and to grow and to learn.

So whatever needs to happen for that is going to happen.

OK,

So.

When we understand this broader perspective,

We can use the suffering to grow and expand,

And that's half of it,

Right?

And then the other half is the joy and the bliss and the peace.

It's going,

Wow,

I chose to be here,

So I chose to go through this to grow.

OK,

Well,

Let's grow then.

And then you make it through that difficult time and you grow.

And then there's you still have a whole aspect of life left.

So that's the joy of it,

Right?

That's the expression of it.

That's the the the manifestation of your growth as you grow and you become more of yourself and more loving.

And more joyful.

Because when I hear to shrink,

Right,

Or to become more hateful or to lower our vibration,

We're here to raise our vibration higher,

More loving.

So as we become more of ourselves and more loving,

We have more love to share.

We have more experiences to take in with experience,

More gratitude.

So we have more things to be grateful for that comes into our existence.

And it's like,

Oh,

And all these experiences that we get to have.

And,

You know,

Like we're in an experiential existence world.

So go experience it.

It's fun.

So that's the other part.

This looking at our suffering from a broader perspective so we can use it to grow,

But also when we're not suffering,

Really embracing the joy and the experience or the experiential nature of this planet that we're on and all the beauty and amazing things that it holds.

You know,

Like I said,

Like like amazing experiences,

Like travel and doing all those types of experiences and stuff like that and adventure stuff,

You know,

Like.

And I like a lot of that stuff.

But not everybody does.

So it's whatever brings you joy.

You know,

Those aren't the only forms of joy.

There's also joy coming from our family and our friends and our siblings and our children and our spouses and our people.

You know,

What an amazing way to to to experience life and to make the most of it,

But to share it with those you love.

I mean,

I think that that's even more important than the experiences.

I mean,

I like the experiences.

So,

You know,

So I'm like,

Wow.

But I mean,

They pale in comparison to the love that we feel for those those people that we love.

You know,

And the ability for us to ease suffering and others.

Like it's what and help others.

What what a joy,

What a blessing that is.

So I think that's it.

So live it like you chose it,

Man.

Live it like you chose it because you did.

You know,

I think that's going to do it.

All right.

Peace,

Everybody.

Take care and.

Enjoy,

Enjoy this life you chose.