Thank you for your kind and supportive words. I appreciated them more than I can say, even if there were a few statements that I did not agree with from a factual and philosophical perspective - one cannot state with certainty that another (a total stranger) will stay safe and healthy if the person's current situation is completely unknown, for example, but I was able to overcome my skepticism in favor of the intent I believe was behind it.
I find myself in an odd position, as many others do, I'm sure. Our work is considered essential services, but as management, I go into work every day and little has changed for me. I am not as public-facing as so many others are, including our employees and the trainees in my program. I feel like a coach on the sidelines but still at the game, or a field officer ordering troops from the rear instead of on the front lines. (Prior military service also has instilled in me a chomping at the bit to be out there, doing more than being support for others, though I am keenly aware they rely on my support and others like me to go out there and do their jobs.)
I guess what this boils down to is a realization that while yes, I am essential personnel, and yes, I have not had to (or been able to) change my regular work schedule in any way, there is still an element in my mind that whispers I am somehow displaying stolen valor by accepting positive reinforcement and support such as that found in this track.
Even with that said, I know in my heart this is not the case, as there was a sheen of tears in my eyes after hearing the first few statements in this affirmation session. Even though I may not think I am nearly as deserving of such praise and thanks as the public-facing workers such as medical, food service, retail workers, and military are, I do recognize that my work in supporting and coordinating their efforts is critical as well during this time more than ever.
Thank you for thinking of all of us. Thank you for so eloquently expressing your support and appreciation. Thank you for sharing this here, and in a form that enables us to receive these words "on the go" without needing to pause for a more formal practice. I like to listen to affirmations as I commute to and from work, and this is a new, wonderful addition to that library - even if pragmatically I cannot buy into the perceived guarantee that I will be safe and protected.
Just to clarify that last, I am spiritual and observe a religious path that encourages self-sufficiency rather than any sort of reliance or dependence from the gods for assistance or protection. They have lives to live, too, though one can always send a prayer up and see what happens. We were made with intelligence and skill, and using those wisely is the ultimate prayer of gratitude, I feel. The whole "angel/Divine protection" thing is rather foreign to me, though I could connect with spirit guides easily enough. Thank you for the diversity of terminology you included. That was a key factor in being able to truly bring your words on board as pertaining to me personally, not just any person who happens to hit the play button on this track.
Be well, Bob. And thank you again for your support of all of us during this time. I see you and the light within you. 🤲🏻❤️🤲🏻
