I Worry About Many Things That Never Come True - All Of That Anxiety For Nothing

Sometimes I wonder about all of the years that I have wasted on feeling anxious about things that never came true. All of that precious time, energy, and spirit wasted away for nothing! Why are worrying all the time?

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Transcript

Hello everyone!

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My name is Boomshakha and I welcome you to my channel.

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In a few days all of this green and red and yellow behind me is gonna be all gone.

It's gonna be all gray and I'm gonna be sitting here thinking oh my god what am I doing here in wintertime?

Anyways that's another story.

What I wanted to speak to you about in this video is anxiety and what I'm noticing about anxiety is that I've been kind of analyzing my thoughts as you can imagine.

I do that a lot and I've been kind of analyzing my mental processes particularly related to anxiety because that's one of my things that I feel like is my arch nemesis.

I have social anxiety but I'm alright with that.

It's the day-to-day anxiety that just sits in the corner of my mind.

It just blabbers on all day long.

That's the anxiety that I really want to deal with and really as much as possible it removed completely from my life if possible as much as possible as I said.

But I noticed that you know the more I notice okay what am I anxious about right now?

So what I do with my processes is that you know I'll be sitting there and all of a sudden I'll start feeling anxious right and it's the funny thing about being an anxious person is that your life is going normally right?

You're on the right tracks and you're like keeping on going and everything's okay and you're just running around along and everything's okay everything seems fine and because everything seems too fine and because you're a kind of person who's used to being anxious all the time about things I mean I think it's like an environmental thing I was brought up like that my parents are both very anxious people they get anxious about the littlest of things and they always fight about it as well and so I think maybe it's an environmental thing but I've always been like this where if everything is going too perfectly alright then I start feeling anxious because I'm like well okay everything's great everything's perfect okay what am I missing right?

I must be missing something there has to be something that is gonna go wrong right I mean it can't just keep on going like this forever and ever and ever like come on right and of course it's nonsensical thinking because why not why can't your life keep on going on the right tracks for a few days a few weeks why is this such a big deal why do things always have to go wrong that's just an anxious person's way of thinking that's a calamity kind of thinking wherever something must go wrong because that's how life is well not all the time things are not always going wrong but in your head they are right and so what happens is as I said I'll be sitting there everything's fine I've done all my work and I'm just chilling out reading my manga and all of a sudden like this anxiety thing will creep up in my head and they'll be like all right have you thought about that or it won't even say have you thought about that it'll just start being anxious right I'll start feeling anxious and I'm like oh okay and so now what I do is I kind of observe my anxiety and I kind of talk to it and I kind of have a conversation with it and I try to figure out okay what are you trying to tell me what message are you trying to give me right because hopefully I'm hoping that there's some kind of message that is trying to give me is not just nonsensical thinking that comes out of just comes out of blue with no intention or no purpose to it right but that's what it usually ends up being because I'll be sitting there and thinking okay what am I anxious about why am I anxious everything's fine I'll check off all the things in my head work is okay I did all these things I did that I did my spiritual practice family's fine blah blah so okay what what am I anxious about why am I anxious what's going on and so I'll think about it for a few few seconds a few minutes and I'll realize there's nothing perceptible nothing tangible that I need to be anxious about so obviously this is just a random anxiety attack that comes out of nowhere it's not related to anything but it's just because I'm so used to being anxious all the time I'm so used to things breaking down or not breaking down but for me to feel like things always breaking down that if I'm not feeling anxious I feel like there's something wrong right if I'm feeling alright and everything is going perfectly fine there must be something wrong I must be missing something why why must you be missing something right and so then when I realize okay there's nothing really to be anxious about I have to really do a lot of practice meditation or some kind of spiritual practice to really bring myself to Center and to realize okay boom everything's fine there's nothing to be anxious about you're doing okay everything has been taken care of nothing to be anxious about and I have to tell myself this over and over and over again because if I don't then what happens is that my mind kind of creates something to be anxious about and so I'll start thinking oh yeah you know what that thing you did yeah you did it terribly you know what that person that come back to you and he's gonna say that you did a terrible job and you're gonna get fired or you're gonna get you're gonna be let go or you know that person not gonna talk to you anymore because you said this to him and this so what my mind starts doing is just creating all of these anxiety moments which are not really real but I've created them in my head as like this this catastrophe situation these worst-case scenarios where I'm sitting there thinking but it hasn't happened yet but it might and you just are getting anxious about it right now because if you don't get anxious about it you're not gonna be able to fix it and you're not gonna have all these plan a B C scenarios in your head and you're not gonna be prepared for it so start getting anxious right now and then I have to really stop myself and say okay it hasn't happened yet it has not happened yet it might not ever happen it probably will never happen so I'm not going to sit here and start preparing for a scenario even if it's worst-case that has not happened yet that might never happen that will never happen that'll probably never happen right and so really as I said I have to really sit down and I kind of pull myself back and say okay stop it stop being this person right now stop being this anxiety filled ball stop making up scenarios that you need to be worried about which actually haven't even happened yet stop going into all of these random worst-case scenarios that will never happen will never ever happen you're just making them up to be anxious because you're not used to being not anxious now of course I mean as I said I've come a long way from where I was in the past but I do remember moments when my teen years and my 20s where I would literally spend hours and days and weeks being anxious about something and it never comes true it never comes to fruition and I literally wasted hours and hours months and months of anxiety filled moments where my energy levels down I'm sad and depressed because of things anxiety I'm tired all the time I'm just mentally physically spiritually exhausted because of all this anxiety and the actual situation that I was anxious about never actually comes true because it was a made-up scenario in my head that was just completely bogus right it was completely bogus and so as I noticed myself doing this over and over again and me having wasted all this time looking at myself thinking all right you just wasted hours and hours thinking about this thing that never happened is not gonna happen what are you doing here right don't you have anything better to think about don't you have anything better to do with your life don't you have anything better to do with your mind right it's like we have these super computers in our heads right this brain this beautiful awesome brain that has been created by evolution it's amazing it has all this power within it but instead of using it to you know change the world to cure world hunger or to bring peace to the world or whatever you want to do with your brain and so doing that we're using it all day long to play out these anxiety filled stupid completely blade baseless scenarios they're never gonna come true and then we repeat them on autoplay over and over and over and over and over and over again until we're sick of it and that's all that's what we use these supercomputers for instead of using it for good and so using it to build something amazing you know and instead of using it to build our dream our dream life our ideal life we use it to create these senseless baseless scenarios that are never gonna come true and we use it to create anxiety within our bodies and our minds we use it to create these kinds of these lives where we're so afraid of scenarios that have never even happened and never gonna happen that we don't actually even take the step forward to do the things that we want to do with our lives we're so afraid of all the scenarios or the worst case scenarios we've created in our heads that we can't even be bothered to live our real life right we're in our heads so much that our real lives are going past us and we're like no I'm too busy thinking about all these worst case scenarios in my head I don't have time to deal with you I don't have time to deal with the real life I'm busy in my head and so as you can imagine just me speaking about it and you hearing about it you probably think oh my god this is really insane I can't believe that people actually do that well welcome to the club people most people do this right I don't know anyone actually every person that I've met I've been sitting with and have been chatting with they do this to themselves we do this to them ourselves as human beings yes we have these supercomputers but we use them for cat videos right oh not even cat videos at least cat videos are funny and adorable we use it for I don't know just nuclear disasters and and World War 3 scenarios where like all of these really really terrible scenarios that will never happen to us but we use our supercomputers for that instead of being like all right yeah that's not gonna happen I don't know what I'm doing to myself but I'm gonna stop now it's of course like the basic idea behind this is to stop as soon as you still as soon as you notice yourself going into these worst case scenarios as soon as you notice yourself creating anxiety that doesn't exist or shouldn't exist or has no basis to exist as soon as you start noticing yourself creating all of these imaginary scenarios in your head that making you anxious but will never actually come true you need to stop you need to take a deep breath or whatever you do whatever your spiritual spiritual or practice yoga practice or meditation practice might be you stop your mind you stop that scenario from taking place any further in your head you go for a walk you change the scenario you go for you talk to your friend you cuddle with your boyfriend or partner or you know you cuddle with your pet whatever it is but stop thinking about that scenario because it's useless it's not gonna happen and you're basically creating anxiety that's just a waste of time just a waste of time I know because I've been there if you have questions about this maybe you're the kind of person who doesn't actually do this to themselves that would be awesome if you are I'm really really happy that you are that person but if you do this to yourself then I do commiserate with you and if you have questions about what I've shared please comment below and I can I can do another video or I can perhaps reply to your comment again thank you for being on my channel I really appreciate it and I shall see you the next time around bye

Reviews

Very interesting! Thank you!