In this moment,
I decide.
In this moment,
I decide to be self-sovereign.
In this moment,
I decide to be my own authority.
In this moment,
I decide to be fully and radically self-responsible for my life,
For my experience.
The only moment is now.
And people say that a lot,
But what that really means is in right now,
Whatever I'm experiencing,
I have the power,
The will,
To meet each moment,
Whatever is happening,
With choice,
With agency,
With will,
By deciding and choosing.
Using my breath,
I bring my awareness and my energy concentrated to this moment,
Concentrated to this body,
Rooted in the moment now,
And now,
And now.
And so,
In this,
I'm sovereign,
And I'm free,
And I'm liberated,
And I'm powerful.
Not powerful over others,
Powerful in the sense that I get to choose and decide in this moment how I engage with each moment,
How much love and presence and acceptance I bring to each moment,
But not in a just accept and conceding way,
Not in a sacrificing way,
Not in a hopeless,
Helpless,
Surrendering way,
But in a choiceful,
Aligned,
Powerful,
Energetic clarity.
I'm going to be okay.
It's going to be okay.
Whatever it is,
It's the thoughts about how things are not going to be okay,
Or the fears that allow to take over the moment,
The beliefs and the patterns,
Believing the same patterns are playing out.
I really am the only sovereign of my life,
And when I give my power over to others to give permission or acceptance or validation,
Or give people authority over me,
Just through my beliefs,
Through my thoughts,
Through my behaviors,
Through my fears,
I notice the places in me which are beginning tight or tense,
Which are contracting,
And the thoughts that are arising around each of those,
And I stand tall,
Knowing that what has happened in the past has happened in the past.
I choose to grow in empathy and compassion for the parts of me that have experienced pain,
The parts of me that have experienced abuse,
The parts of me that have experienced violence,
The parts of me that have experienced challenge and struggle and suffering,
So the compassion that I need is for myself,
And as I grow in that compassion for myself,
I cannot not radiate that to others.
I cannot not radiate that in the world.
So I can choose to be myself,
Unafraid,
However I may believe that others might have power or authority or position over me,
No matter how others have chosen to use their power to attempt to control me,
I don't have to believe that anymore,
I don't have to believe that story anymore.
I can surrender it to the past,
I can compost that to the past,
And know that that time has passed.
I am now rooted and grounded in something so much deeper.
I can grow confidently,
I can shine,
I can stand tall,
I can radiate and be as I choose to be,
Regardless of whatever weather surrounds me.
I know who I am.
I decide who I am,
I choose who I am,
I choose how I radiate,
How I live,
How I move,
How I breathe.
Strong and humble and powerful all at once.