From Exile To Expansion: What We Leave Behind

In the early chapters of Exodus, we’re introduced to two powerful archetypal energies — Pharaoh and Moses. Not as distant figures, but as forces that exist within us.

Pharaoh represents the part of us that fears losing control — that tightens, micromanages, and resists change in an attempt to stay safe.
Moses represents the part of us that doubts — that questions its worthiness, fears rejection, and hesitates in the face of a greater calling.

This meditative talk explores how both of these energies show up in our lives, our relationships, and our leadership — especially for those who have bigger visions placed in their hearts.

Expansion isn’t just about vision. It’s about what we’re willing to release.

This is an invitation to notice where you may be holding too tightly…
where you may be doubting what’s already been placed on your heart…
and what it looks like to move from exile into expansion.

Transcript

Good morning, Wherever you are. I'm so excited to. Speak with you today because what the Lord has put on my heart this morning is wow it's so beautiful it's so deep it will definitely offer some food for thought hopefully something that will continue to nourish your mind body and soul even after you listen to this transmission, Download, Meditative talk. Create whatever label for it. You desire. Yeah, Let's just get right into it. I have been. Sitting in exodus it is this this process where we are being led out of or away from something. Into something greater, Into a bigger calling. Right, That God has put on our hearts, This could be the vision that you have for your life. Your dreams. The way that you want to create impact in the world. And so we all have our own. Exodus. Chances are we go through exodus several times in our life and as i'm sitting here right the lord is really like i want you to not just read this like don't read this as a book i want you to sit with it like even six or seven verses at a time. What I notice is that certain phrases, Words will like, Oof. Really kind of like, Oof, They'll either hit me kind of deep or they'll catch my attention. Like, Okay, I'm noticing that. And I say that the way that spirit speaks to me is very specific. And there are times where I have learned to pay attention. Spirit is training me. I would like to think, Well, You know, Positive spin is treating me is training me very well. And So there was moments a couple weeks ago where I saw the word Exodus. Two completely different TV shows that I was watching. One was Paradise. One was Mad Men. And I'm watching an episode from each the same day. Again, I'm not choosing this. This is just what's revealing itself to me. And so in Paradise, It's the last episode of season two. It's all about Exodus. And then in Mad Men, A random episode where they're talking about Exodus and this book of Exodus, Which is not biblical, It's a different book. And I'm thinking to myself, Like, Okay, Twice in the same day, Two different shows, Two different contexts, I'm listening. I will go to Exodus. I hear you, Right? I hear you. And so I go to Exodus, Not only that, But like a couple days after that, I'm watching church. End. Our pastor is bringing us into exodus. I'm like, Okay. I'm here. I'm here, I'm here with you. Like, Show me, Show me what you want me to see. Like, Let's, Let's go on this journey together. And. . . Wow, I'm uncovering so much. If you could see my notes just in the first five chapters, I feel like most people would be like, Where are you getting this material? It's so amazing. Even my partner is just like. . . Astonished at how much I'm receiving from so little. And that's the way the Lord works, Honestly. And What I'm recording about today, And I want to talk to you about today, Is how I'm beginning to see Pharaoh and Moses, Both from a Christian theological perspective, But I'm also going to weave in a little bit of Jungian psychology because this started to come through last night. It's very interesting to me. Very, Very interesting. And There's a couple things happening here. One, Exodus is a real event. So physically and literally, Exodus happened. Pharaoh was a real person. Moses was a real person. Aaron, A-Aaron, He was a real person. Within that, I'm also seeing this direct parallel. Like almost identical, Y'all it's crazy, Between this external physical event that happened and how these same themes happen within us internally. And that's what I'm going to get into a little bit today. So we have these characters, We have Pharaoh, We have Moses, Very opposing energies. And on the physical front, You know, Pharaoh represents external oppression and systemic control. Right away in chapter one, Pharaoh is noticing like, Wow, There's a lot of. Israelis here in Egypt. How did that happen? He doesn't have any historical context for Why there are so many Israelis in Egypt like he doesn't know that Joseph saved them from famine, Right? He has like no context and all he's doing is he's looking around and he's seeing that The Egyptians are outnumbered. And immediately that starts to create a fear inside of him. He starts to feel threatened. And he kind of goes in this journey around like, Well, What if? What if we have to go to war and they turn against us because their numbers are greater than us? What if they overpower us, Right? So he kind of starts to go down this psychological fear loop. And in response to that, Being the powerful tyrant and pharaoh that he is, He decides to take control of the situation. And the way that he does that is through oppression. So he forces them into labor. And hard labor at that, Thinking that that will cease. Their power, Right? But instead they continue to multiply and they continue to grow. So he continues to feel threatened. Physical event. This is something that physically happened. Moses, You know, Little cliff notes of Moses. Moses was born in a time where all of the male Hebrew babies were meant to be killed, But the midwives, God bless them, You know, Aligned with God and we're like secretly like we're not doing that. And so, You know, Moses. Lived and Pharaoh's daughter found him in the river named Moses. And so he grew up as an Egyptian, But he always had this, Again, Like calling on his heart. He always had this feeling when he would witness the way that the Hebrews were treated, That something is not right. This doesn't feel correct. And when he witnessed an Egyptian beating one of his brethren, One of his Hebrew brothers, He ended up murdering the Egyptian. And he ended up having to flee Egypt because he got found out. And so that's the cliff note about Moses, Right? So we have Moses, This other character, Where Moses already has this like spiritual felt sense within him that something here in Egypt is not right. It is not correct. This is not just without necessarily having a tangible understanding of what that is until much, Much later in his life. And so he flees. And when he's in the wilderness. . . Moses is now like 80 years old when God comes to him. Not to give y'all a Bible lesson, This is just Cliff Notes. God comes to him like in his 80s and puts this mission in Moses's heart. He puts this mission in Moses's heart. And. . . Moses. Also internally like God bless him. You just got to feel for him a little bit because you can feel his fear. And you can feel his resistance. In Exodus. Moses is coming up with every excuse in the book y'all to be like please don't choose me. Please don't, I don't. I don't think I'm the person for the job, Right? And I'm, And as I'm saying this, I'm thinking like, How many times have we felt that same energy? In our own life, Especially when it comes to our bigger calling and our bigger visions. Like, Are you sure, Lord? Like the imposter syndrome that we experience is so real, Right? It's so real. It's like, Ooh. I mean, I could, But I don't know if I'm ready. I don't know if my speech is there. I don't know if people are even going to listen to me. What if they reject me right all of these ways that when. Our next level of expansion starts to emerge in the field. We can kind of see it or feel it off in the distance. That's the same moment all this resistance starts to emerge in our body. And this picture that I want to paint for us is now no longer seeing Pharaoh and Moses as literal people, But starting to see where the archetype of each exists within us. And this is the more Jungian perspective that I'm going to take us on to see where we land together. So as I'm sitting in Bible study last night with myself, I'm starting to see, Whoa, Okay, Pharaoh is not just a physical person, He's an energy that I feel exists within every single one of us. Within every single one of us, There are aspects of Pharaoh. There is a part, If we want to call it that and go down the internal family systems route, There is a part within us that doesn't enjoy feeling threatened. There is a part within us that loves to micromanage or try to control the situation and of course you know, For slightly more awakened souls, We start to see the cosmic joke in that. It's like, Oh, We can't control anything. Like, You know, That's such an illusion. Micromanagement is just like such a reaction to not knowing what to actually do. So there's that part of us loves to micromanage, Loves to try to control the situation, Love to control the outcome because that creates a pseudo sense of safety within us. Well, If I can control it, I can be prepared. If I'm prepared, Chances are I'll succeed. Logically, That makes so much sense. But when we're talking about spirituality. We're talking about God in particular, The energy of God, Universe, Spirit. Does not operate on a logical front. So there's this whole some way i guess we could look at it from a quantum lens also right there's all this mystery that is also happening simultaneously to our logical linear thoughts and kind of laughing a little bit at us, Like, Oh honey. You're cute, You know? You're so cute. So again, Like, Oh, She's so funny to me. I see myself in this moment, Which is also why I'm laughing a little bit. Like, Oh, She's so cute. She's so cute trying to figure it all out. There's this part of us that also aligns with Pharaoh, Where when we can't control for some reason, We then try to suppress, Repress, Oppress, I say any of the presses, Right? We start to self-induce that energy. So if we can't figure it out, We repress a part of ourselves. Or We suppress energy that's actually a part of our core identity, But for some reason we feel threatened now, Right? Whether that threat is actually real or not. Or not. Is this my truth or is this like my trauma? Is this a similar sensation that I've had in the past where I did feel threatened. That's now showing up in my present, It feels really similar even though when I actually look around, Nothing is happening to me. Conversation for a later day. That's definitely something to chew on. So that's how Pharaoh as an energy, As an archetypal energy, Exists within us. The part that doesn't enjoy feeling threatened and that when our safety does feel threatened, Starts to try to control what is going on. When you think about an identity shift, This can look like trying to reach or grasp for any part of our old identity in an effort to feel grounded, Safe, And anchored. And we also have Moses in each of us. Moses is this archetypal energy. Can feel there's a bigger calling. Not only can he feel that he can feel the injustice of what's happening in Egypt at a young age, But many, Many, Many years later, He literally has an encounter with God and God is saying, Hey, I want you to go do this thing and Moses is going. Could you please pick somebody else? Right? There's five major excuses that Moses makes here as a reason to pick somebody else, Right? And I'm gonna speak into these because I'm so curious if you're experiencing any of these currently. The first is that Moses questions his identity. God says, Hey, I want you to take the people out of Egypt. And Moses goes, Uh, Me? Why me? Like, Who am I to do that, Right? So he's questioning his identity. Who am I? If we think about this in business or in leadership, This is imposter syndrome. Who am I to charge those prices? Who am I to be speaking about trauma? Who am I, Right? Insert whatever. Your identity is there. And so this is like the first level of resistance that Moses has to the bigger calling that God is asking of him. Who am I? I don't. . . Because I think that I'm a nobody. But God sees me very differently. God is like, Oh honey, I created you, Babe. Trust me. I know who you are greater than you know who you are. And even as I say that out loud, It's like. Can I actually receive that? And if I do, How does that immediately change my posture? I just felt my shoulders sink a little. I just felt a bit more relaxed in my chair. Wow, Spirit knows me so much better than I know myself because I'm going on this journey in real time. Spirit is like, Babe, I created you. Trust me, I know your potential. I created you for this particular role. Moses is the same. So it's interesting to notice where in our own lives we start to feel resistance at rising to the occasion or at stepping into that new level that we have been asked into. So the second excuse that Moses has here is he asks God, Like, Well, Who are you? And this is because he doesn't currently have an intimate relationship with God. So even if he goes to the people in Egypt, He wouldn't know how to explain who God is. And so his other doubt is like, Well, Who are you? Who am I first but also like who are you and how am I going to communicate who you are to these people? Which takes us to his third excuse, What if they don't even listen to me? Which at the reality of that, Or at the core of that, Is really a fear of rejection. He fears being rejected. What if they don't listen to me? What if you send me and I go all this way and they just laugh at me? What if I get mocked in the comments? Right? Again, Very real fear that we all have. And that creates resistance to the calling. The fourth piece is this fear of inadequacy. I have a terrible tongue. I'm very slow to speak. I'm not very literate. I'm not very smart. How could you use me? So he has this inadequacy. Again, This is like the fourth time God is like, Hey. I'm going to do this thing. I'm literally going to list out, Not all the steps, But I'm going to list out a pretty clear structure of all the things that I'm going to do for you. And this is what I'm going to ask in return. And Moses is like, He resists many times, Many times. The final resistance is him pretty much being like, Please just send somebody else. I don't feel worthy. I don't feel worthy. I don't think I can do this. And it's this interesting space where When I zoom out, I can see so clearly all of the ways that Moses is just like, I can't. When I think about it, All my fears come up and I just can't do it. I'm blocked somatically, If we want to look at it that way. You're asking this of me, But I'm just feeling blocked. I feel like I can't do it. Whereas God and spirit are like, You don't have to do it. I'm going to do it. I just need you to take these steps to ensure that it happens. You don't have to do it. I'm going to do it. Just follow these steps and watch. That's kind of this energy that God is offering. Just watch and see. Just watch and see. Then you'll believe in me. And so again, Moses, He's such an archetype that exists within us in our own life. Whether this is in love, Whether this is in business, Whether this is also just in intimacy with God and with spirit, These are very internally real experiences, Emotionally driven experiences that happen within all of us. And so both of these parts, Along with many other parts, Are all coexisting. When we are at a new edge in our life, Whether our actual identity is changing through, You know, Quote unquote, A midlife crisis, Or our identity is changing in our business, There is this moment where exodus is occurring inside of us. Where we are being asked to leave one area to quite literally free ourselves from bondage. This could be scarcity, This could be fear around love, This could be leaving a physical location actually, Right? There's many different forms and identities that this experience can take. And so we're being asked to leave something behind for a greater promise. We can see the vision of the promise, But we have no idea how we're going to get there. And so that creates fear. There's so much uncertainty, Right? And when we look at that on a nervous system level. That's like such a key thing for triggering our nervous system. Well, At least in Egypt, I knew who I was. And was I living under the best circumstances? No, But I had food, I had water, I had shelter. My family's here. There's a comfortability even though when we really truly look at our lives, We can see just how bonded by material possessions we've become, By money we've become, By worldly possessions, Things that are of the world that are of materiality. And so we get attached. And in a weird, Messed up way, We get attached to our bondage also. So for the ones that go on the Exodus journey, The ones that decide to leave behind what they know for something greater. Immediately, That uncertainty will start to trigger this Pharaoh-like and also Moses-like resistance. If I leave behind everything I know. How am I going to do that? Am I the right person? So we have Moses coming in. And then immediately, I think what our internal cycle becomes is then Pharaoh, Who in this particular story, I am choosing to represent our ego. From a Jungian perspective, Starts to comment. And starts to try to control everything. Starts to try to control the outcome, Starts to try to micromanage all the pieces. And so it's this back and forth energy. It's a spiritual battle, If you really want to look at it that way, Between our inner Pharaoh. Which is trying to have as much control as possible. First, Our inner Moses, Which has a bigger calling on his heart yet is feeling very real resistance to the uncertainty. And then meanwhile, We got God out here chillin', Like, Hey. Hey kids. Everybody calm down. Right? Let me do my thing. Please. All I need you to do is play the role that I have asked of you. That could change at any moment. But can you just do this one thing? Can you do this one thing and can you trust that once that one thing is done, I will give you the next thing? And not only can you trust, But can you actually truly allow yourself to rest? In that knowing. Can you just breathe? Take a breath and just soften into that knowing. That I am holding you. I am carrying you through this entire journey. There's really not a lot for you to do. Other than to receive my word. To process it, To integrate it, And to make moves on it. Like, Can we trust that God's vision for us is so much bigger and honestly so much better? Than anything we can conceptualize for ourselves. And again, I really truly feel like that's because we're living it, Right? It's so hard when we are moving through our days, In our minds, In our routines, In our relatively limited capacity compared to spirit's capacity. To have any really true knowing of what the rest of our life is going to look like, How we're going to fulfill our purpose. The beauty and the wealth and the abundance that's going to come from that. We get glimpses. Right, We get tastes. We have like this little bit of internal knowing. And yet without the steps right without the picture painted in its entirety that uncertainty creates a lot of space for. For the Moses and Pharaoh energies to kind of come in and try to fight for your attention. So notice. Notice in your life where you might be acting out a little bit of that pharaoh energy. Where you're trying to control in an effort to control yourself and your own life in your own circumstances, You start to shift your identity in order to fit into something that when you really truly feel into it doesn't fit anymore. We know it. We know it. But the risk to step out of that feels a bit intense. We don't know who we are in that new phase and in that space, In that personal exodus. In that moment of moving from our own exile into our expansion. God is like, Babe. Can you trust that I'm walking beside you? Bring everything. Bring your fears. Bring your resistance. Moses was not shy. Resisting and coming up with excuses for the Lord. He does it many, Many times. Many, Many times, He doubts. Many, Many times, He asks the Lord like this. Please. Not me. Choose somebody else. But God is very clear. Like, It is you. It's you babe. So can you stop resisting me and can we go on this journey together? And are you open and receptive enough to be able to receive the miracles along the way and the wealth, Abundance, And rich that is waiting for you on the other side of all this resistance? Will you go on that journey with me? And how Absolutely beautiful. That gets to feel. I feel so much warmth in my heart at the thought of that. I feel ease in my muscles, Right? The uncertainty hasn't changed. In any capacity. But I feel hell. And I can start to see my patterns. With a bit more clarity. Ah, Okay. There's my Pharaoh. There he is, Yep, Trying to control the situation. Okay, I see you, Buddy. I see you're trying to do good work, And I love you for that. Like, I love you. You're so powerful. You are so powerful. Thank you. And. . . We're going to relinquish a little bit of that. We're going to be open to the miracle of the journey. Right? Oh, Moses. Oh, Babe. Oh, Bless your heart. I see you. I see you. I see where you fear rejection. I see where you fear not being enough. I see where you fear being mocked or made fun of, Right? Oh gosh, I see you, I feel you. And there's a bigger calling on my heart. Have this vision of me holding both of their hands, Right? My little Pharaoh and my little Moses and I'm holding their hands and then God is just like carrying me through the whole thing and we're just in love. We're just in this resonance in this frequency of love, Like Farah, I've got you. Moses, I've got you. Tiffany with a capital T, Girl, I got you. And I can just like feel this energy where God is like, Yes. Okay. Yes. This is where I want you. This is where we must remain. For this particular season of the journey. So again, I pray as with all my meditations that this serves you in some way. Please come back and listen to it more than once. Sit with it. Allow it to permeate your mind. Your conscious, Allow it to permeate the cells of your body. And allow it to reprogram you. On a cellular level. To rewrite some of these stories and to also move forward with. Even an ounce of more clarity. I really pray into that for you. And if it touches you or moves you in some way, Let me know in the comments. We're all in this together. And so what serves me will definitely serve you. And I'm wishing you a very beautiful, Grace-filled, Blessed up.