Hey y'all,
So good to be here with you.
I'm sitting my Sunday studies and this is coming through me with like wow such revelation and I was like I should be recording this as I'm like sitting here like really processing all the information that has been revealed to me today and first thing is I find it so interesting that you know in Christian theology we are in a time of Lent.
Easter is right around the corner and energetically there's so much that this period represents and while I won't get into the totality of it there are pieces that I'm going to be talking about because I'm seeing the exact parallel of Lent in the biblical sense of you know Jesus riding into Jerusalem,
He's being praised,
People have this belief for a moment until all of a sudden it's like the same people that are basically crucifying him and it's this interesting energy where leading to Easter,
Leading to Passover,
It really speaks to something that I feel we are going through in the collective right now and it's just very interesting how this whole thing has been revealed to me and so I'm gonna I'm gonna touch a little bit on like the Christian theology,
I'm gonna touch a little bit on mysticism,
Yin mysticism in particular and also just on a more basic level what so many people in my sphere are going through.
I've been having so many conversations over the past couple weeks and the common thread that I am hearing from literally everyone y'all every single conversation is that I am going through an identity shift if that's you right going through an identity shift who I was I recognize I am no longer yet I'm not fully developed in the newness of who I am becoming and if we want to look at this from a butterfly perspective because it's just such an easy metaphor to use that really depicts this process both beautifully and tragically so if you think about the caterpillar right a caterpillar is moving along its life at some point it's eating and it's eating to this point of gluttony right and then at some point it forms a cocoon around itself because it's going into a transfiguration of identity it is changing from one entity into another entity and there's a process I can't remember how long how many days that process is but there's a process that happens right where this caterpillar literally changes form multiple times the changes form a new structure is being built within that cocoon phase and if that caterpillar is lucky it becomes a butterfly right if it's not so lucky and I say this because when I was in Guatemala I lived in a beautiful place where we had butterflies all the time and I would see cocoons just everywhere and so many cocoons so many caterpillars never made it to the butterfly because and this is like you know nature is just so wild a stream of ants would come through and just eat that shit up they would just destroy this poor this poor soon-to-be butterfly and he would never come to term and I remember sitting there one day like damn if that doesn't feel like the truth sometimes right I'm in this I'm in this state of transformation and then just all this shit just continues to eat away at me and eat away at my identity and I'm just I kind of die on the inside right it's like nature is always talking to me oh it's just so crazy when nature reveals to me when I really pay attention so I hope that you're not being you know eaten to pieces by ants right now and if you are I feel you I feel you I'm sending you love I'm sending you care and maybe this message will be supportive for you also and best-case scenario you know the caterpillar transforms into a butterfly and it lives a completely different lifestyle where it used to be grounded and on earth it now can fly crazy distances and so there's this stage right where you're in the cocoon but you're kind of starting to emerge out of the cocoon and when we talk about yin mysticism and we talk about this energy of what is called the vesica pisces the vesica pisces represents this sort of portal or this threshold however you want to look at it that we emerge into but once we go through it there is no going back the threshold has been crossed right the cat the butterfly doesn't all of a sudden to be like oh man I really miss being a caterpillar I'm just gonna try to shapeshift back into my caterpillar form I really want to be on earth I really just want to go back to eating right like it can't do that and we are the same way I believe in essence that there's a threshold that so many people in humanity are passing through right now but we haven't fully emerged to the other side we're getting glimpses of it we're feeling it we're like oh man if I could just break through this a little faster Lord I could just be a half-born butterfly right but what good are we as a half-born butterfly so we try to rush the process and we're in this threshold of our foot is in this old timeline and maybe another foot is in this new timeline and there is this gravitational push-pull that is existing within us as well as externally right you can think about energies that try to pull you back they try to pull you back into this timeline to try to keep you where you were and there's also this energy of like no but I'm destined for more and I want that for myself and not just wanting it for ourselves I have to truly believe that at some point we really do stop being so self-absorbed and we just want it for not just ourselves but for humanity at large where we start to lose the self a little bit and we do it for the collective like we do it for our ancestors we do it for the future descendants right and and Lent represents that and so I think it's so interesting to just see again like how these different theologies these different ways of relating to the same energy the same collective field of awareness they are expressed differently with different figureheads different connotations different sized fonts if you will different typefaces but they're all representative of the same experience and it's it's no coincidence and I find it so fascinating that that is what it seems we are experiencing myself included I have not fully emerged that's for damn sure I have not fully emerged I taste glimpses of her I feel her and there's moments where I really feel that like gravitational pull back to comfort that gravitational pull back to what I used to know how things used to be the old ways because I knew who I was in that space in this new space I can get a felt sense but I'm never really sure right she's so underdeveloped and there's a lot of fear I think that can come from that space and a lot of uncertainty that I think can come from that space and when the fear and the uncertainty starts to take grip it's really easy to want to revert back to what we know even if we know on a deeper level that who we were and what we were doing was slowly killing us on the inside there's a reason that we chose to approach and enter this threshold and there's a reason why we will be taken out of it as well and and who we will become and why on the other side of that threshold of that door of that portal again however you want to look at it and so it's this interesting season where you know when we talk about Lent or we couple it with Lent we couple it with the cosmology of you know coming out of the year of the snake and moving into the year of the fire horse eclipse season right there's like all these things and I'm not an astrologer by any means so please don't take anything I'm saying you know like as gospel but it's big enough that people are talking about it so again on a collective level identities are shifting and on a collective level there's a lot of people who are not quite sure who they are in the in-between this is the wilderness this is this interesting space where we don't have access to the same type of resources we had because we're developing and so the resources are gonna change our attitudes best-case scenario are gonna change we are gonna be shifting literally from the inside out into something that is a completely different form than how we started there's something about that that I think is so beautiful and this is where I talk about like oh my gosh it's beautiful but it's also so tragic because if we don't take the opportunity to mourn who we were to really truly like allow ourselves to be sad about what it is that we are losing even though we know that it's creating space for something so much more expansive and best-case scenario so much more aligned there is a part of us that we have to be willing to let go of in order to welcome in the newness of who we're becoming and that is so much easier said than done right even if I just said this and you just feel so much relief in your body to actually put that into action like you could say girl what does that even mean like yeah I feel the relief but like now what and this is what I'm loving about the journey that I'm on and even just this like revelation as I'm speaking it out loud I'm just processing this with you this is literally like such a stream of consciousness that is coming through me and and I'm listening from this like third-party awareness that's going like holy shit wow that's so potent it's so powerful in a time where I think so many of us are feeling kind of like powerless a bit lost in the uncertainty a bit lost in the threshold in the cocoon who am I when I am just formless goop in this little tiny place that I created for myself to transform like who am I and I don't even think the question needs to be who am I anymore that question has supported me and it's also derailed me many times where I get so caught up in my identity this like thing that I've made to be so concrete that is meant to create parameters over how I think and feel and live my life and while sometimes those boundaries can be really supportive other times they're incredibly restrictive the butterflies boundaries are so different than the caterpillar's boundaries doesn't mean it doesn't have them but they're different now saying all of this right I don't have an answer for you I don't have an answer for you I spirits gonna have your answer your intimacy with with God or the universe or the Creator however you relate to spirit your answer will exist between you and that tether how open you are to receiving it that's an entirely different story right and so this is where our somatic practices our meditation our prayer moving our bodies dropping back into this like animism with life animism with God animism with spirit had a client the other day and we're exploring the magician archetype through him and the winds were just so powerful and I remember having this moment where I'm just witnessing him and the wind is like moving him and I can see that he's like dialed in like he's in such a surrendered state that the energy is just rinsing him rinsing him clean there's a small where his arms were just like so spread out wide and total surrender and it was just so beautiful to witness like this space of like oblivion of like I give myself to you rinse me spirit rinse me clean like take my burdens take my thoughts take my fears like have my heart have my body have my soul I love you like I just want to be in this space with you always and it's so beautiful those moments when we find it and it activates us and it inspires us to keep doing the work to keep dropping into prayer to keep tuning in to where we are limiting ourselves or where we're trying to rush the process ahead of time again do you want to bust out of that cocoon like a half-formed butterfly hell no absolutely not what good are you half-formed not quite a caterpillar not quite a butterfly but just like flopping around on the ground talk about helplessness honey no nobody wants you in that state so we have to remember in this interesting season of Easter of Lent of shifting into a new Chinese year it's not just all of a sudden the light flicks on and we are like new no it takes so much conscious action continuing to walk the path with as much faith and trust and honor and reverence as possible including for the moments where it just feels really ugly it feels really scary it feels really deep that's when these practices of meditation and prayer the somatic practices that we've talked about the somatic tools they come in such handy during seasons of wilderness where we just have no idea who the fuck we are we're not quite sure where we're going we're not quite sure how we're gonna get there decision fatigue is real in the wilderness and I think that's where I can hear God in my voice just kind of chuckle it's like girl just let go a little let me do my thing let me show you because it is so beyond what you're imagining for yourself and it's so much bigger than these fears that you're carrying so can you find a little bit of softness in your body can you open your mind enough to be curious can you relax for a little bit can you enjoy this in-between there's nothing really to strive for in this process is what I'm getting it's just the opportunity to be with what is and notice and love yourself as much as possible in the process that has to be a non-negotiable for this season amen gosh amen to that that has to be non-negotiable to blessings to anybody that listens to this I love you I have care for you spirit has care for you and I hope that this feeds you and nourishes you in the same way that it's feeding me and nourishing me like in real time this is so crazy I'm gonna have to like really sit and process this journal about this move it through my body and I hope that you do the same so I'm sending you so much love on this beautiful Sunday this beautiful season of transition may you feel blessed as well
