Hmm,
Dear year,
You spent holding everything together for everyone else.
Years where you didn't fall apart because no one else was going to hold the line.
Years where you were the one who kept the family steady,
Or the relationship functioning,
Or the job intact,
Or the friend group safe.
This practice is a way of speaking back to those years,
Using the ho'oponopono phrases,
The simplest version of forgiveness there is.
I'm sorry for all the times I asked you to be strong when you needed to be soft,
For the moments you were tired and I kept going anyway,
For the parts of your body that ached to stop while I told you we couldn't yet,
For the years you were the one holding,
And no one held you back.
Please forgive me for pretending those years didn't cost something,
For minimizing what you carried,
For acting like it was fine when it was not fine,
For the times I dismissed your tiredness because we still had things to do,
For the way I made you efficient when you needed to be human,
For staying intact when it would have been understandable to break,
For doing the unseen work,
For keeping it together so that other people could fall apart safely,
For carrying the weight that no one named,
For knowing things no one ever asked about,
For being the steady one even when there was no steady ground.
You did that even when no one named it,
For the parts of those years that broke something in you,
For the parts that made you who you are,
For the parts you don't talk about.
The years you spent holding it together were real.
The cost was real.
You are allowed to honor them without going back to live there.