Releasing Self-Sabotage And Expanding Your Capacity
This guided meditation supports you in meeting the root cause of self-sabotaging and self-destructive patterns with awareness, compassion and safety. By gently bringing these patterns into consciousness, you’ll begin to release the frozen fear stored in the body and expand your energetic container — your capacity to hold more joy, love and fulfillment. As you reconnect with your Higher Consciousness and Source energy, you rise beyond survival programming and realign with your true frequency. This process is all about remembering who you are beyond fear and limitation. You embody this Divine energy that you really are, and from there all limitations dissolve. Allow yourself to sink into this, and let yourself be carried in pure unconditional Love. This meditation was originally shared during a live session titled “How We Self-Sabotage And How To Move Beyond It.” With thanks to Frits Evelein for the music.
Transcript
Take a deep breath in.
Deep,
Deep breath into your nose.
And exhale through your mouth.
And just relax.
Relax your face.
Soften your eyes.
Ask to let go of the tension in your shoulders,
Your arms,
Your hands.
Ask to be very relaxed,
Yet very clear.
And again,
Take a deep breath in.
Deep,
Deep breath.
And as you exhale,
Quiet your mind,
Quiet your thoughts.
Then go to your heart.
And from your heart say,
I ask an intent to create a sacred space.
And I ask an intent to keep away all distracting thoughts,
Energies and information.
I ask to quiet my mind,
To be very present,
Very alert.
And I now ask for the energy of my own higher consciousness and the energy of Source to be present with me now.
In this meditation I ask to discern the energies and frequencies of my own being with accuracy and precision.
And I ask to bring up in this session the root cause of my own self-sabotaging and self-destructive patterns that I may be aware of or maybe not.
I ask for them to be addressed and reversed once and for all.
And so it is.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale,
Focus on your navel.
Focus on a point behind your navel and imagine that there is a zero point.
A vortex-like point as a little ball of light.
Just create that small sphere of light right there behind your navel.
And then slowly,
Slowly expand this ball of light out towards your skin.
Just imagine that this sphere of light is filling your entire body.
From the inside out,
All the way to the skin.
And then as you focus on this ball of light,
Begin to feel,
See,
Sense what your physical body is experiencing right now.
Just feel.
No thoughts,
No analyzing,
No judgment.
Just observing and feeling.
Is it busy?
Is it tired,
Stressed?
Agitated?
Relaxed,
Maybe?
What comes up for you?
Just feel.
Just observe.
And without projecting,
Ask your higher consciousness to give you a sense of the frequency,
Of your consciousness frequency,
Within your body.
Ask for your higher consciousness to give you a number.
Is it a hundred?
Two hundred?
Three hundred,
Maybe?
There is no right or wrong.
Just allow and trust.
Trust yourself.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale,
Now ask your higher consciousness to let you feel,
See,
Sense or know where your upper limit vibrates.
Your energetic upper boundary from your human aspect.
Where does it vibrate?
How does it feel?
No right or wrong here as well.
It is what it is.
Is it at a fifty?
A hundred?
Two hundred?
Don't project.
Only feel and experience.
And the good news is,
There is more to expand to.
You are more than this.
But first,
Let's release.
Let's release the root cause of our self-sabotaging patterns.
We now ask for our higher consciousness to bring up all those self-destructive patterns within us.
The self-sabotaging.
And maybe you can feel it,
Sense it.
What comes up for you?
Say,
I now ask and intend to receive information about the root cause of why I do sabotage myself.
And whatever comes up,
Just feel.
Maybe you feel tension in your throat.
Or a knot in your stomach.
Maybe you feel sadness or anger coming up.
Then just say,
I ask and intend to bring up all the patterns within me that have to do with me being here in this human form on earth.
The deep sadness of the journey I have embarked on.
The deep sadness of all these sabotaging patterns all around me.
And my deep despair of me not knowing what ever to do about that.
It seems so big.
And I seem so small.
I ask and intend to bring up all that information and emotions about that there is no point in me being here in this human form,
In this messy world.
I ask and intend to bring up all the energies,
All the sadness,
All the despair,
All the anger and the frustration about how chaotic this planet has become.
And I can't simply do anything about it.
I ask and intend to bring up my powerlessness,
My sense of powerlessness,
My sense of despair from every cell in my body,
From my shoulders,
My neck,
My throat,
From my spine,
From my entire nervous system.
Every cell in my body,
From my conscious,
Subconscious and cellular memory.
I ask to let go of all of these patterns that keep me stuck in a cycle of cells.
I ask to let go of all of these patterns that keep me stuck in a cycle of cells.
I ask to let go of all of these patterns that keep me stuck in a cycle of cells.
I ask to let go of all of these patterns that keep me stuck in a cycle of cells.
I ask to let go of all of these patterns that keep me stuck in a cycle of cells.
Your higher consciousness knows exactly what it's doing,
What you are doing.
And then feel what comes up now.
I feel the tension in the throat.
I feel sadness.
I feel fear.
So I say,
I now ask and intend to bring up all the patterns and information that have to do with fear of being here on earth.
Being here in this human form,
Being separated,
Being separated from my source,
Being all alone here.
Not knowing what to do and how this whole thing works here on earth and in this human body.
I ask to let go of all the belief systems that have to do with this confusion and this feeling about that it doesn't make any sense for me to be here.
I ask to let go of the anger,
The resentment of being put here in this confusing reality.
I ask to let go of every feeling of feeling lost and confused.
And I ask and intend to let go of my belief that I'm being left here all alone by my creator.
Without any means,
Without any resources.
Pretty blind actually.
So how am I ever going to find my way back home again?
So I now ask to let go of this sense of disconnection and all the belief systems that are attached to that.
I ask and intend to release everything that is attached to this subject once and for all from every cell of my body,
From my conscious,
Subconscious and cellular memory.
Take a deep breath in and exhale and visualize particles of energy leaving your body,
Leaving your energy field.
And as we have done this release,
You might feel already a little bit lighter.
So let's continue with the process and expand this bubble of light that was inside your body a little bit more outwards,
About 10 centimeters outside of your body.
Take a moment to feel.
What does this feel like?
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale,
Feel.
Feel the bubble of light about 10 centimeters around your body.
Is it any different here?
And as we continue the process,
We ask and intend to raise our vibration to 300 hertz,
400,
500.
Your higher consciousness knows exactly what to do and how to take you there.
And as you are being taken there,
Your energy field expands.
The higher your frequency,
The more expansion within your energy field.
So now ask your higher consciousness to take you all the way up to 733 hertz and feel what happens there.
Your higher consciousness knows you don't have to make anything happen.
Just ask.
I ask to expand my energy field all the way to 733 hertz around my body.
And notice how it feels.
Be in the moment and feel.
And again,
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale,
Continue to push your energy field outward and ask your higher consciousness to take you to 734 hertz and feel what happens there.
This 734 is the bridge.
This is the opening to the new grid,
To the new earth grid,
To the new reality out of this frequency prison.
Maybe you can feel it and sense it.
Ask your higher consciousness to let you feel and experience what it feels like at this level of frequency.
Just relax and feel.
Now ask your higher consciousness to take you all the way up to 800 hertz,
To a thousand hertz.
And notice what is the difference between here and where you began at the beginning of this meditation.
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale,
Expand even further and ask to merge with your own spirit energy,
Your spirit self,
Your original nature.
It's beyond the 1100 hertz.
How does it feel?
Take a moment to feel and again,
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale,
We go one step further.
Ask to expand even further and to be merged with your true original consciousness and just feel.
Feel how expansive you are.
Feel who you really are.
How does it feel?
How is it different?
And this part of you is fully connected to source.
To our divine creator,
Our divine father.
Creator of this universe from which you emerged as a divine being.
We now ask and intend to fully connect to the energy of source.
To the energy of home.
To the energy of your creator.
Which is unconditional love.
Truth,
Beauty and goodness.
So say from your heart,
I now ask and intend to connect powerfully to source and to feel,
See,
Sense very clearly the original frequency of my essence and the source of all of life.
So visualize at the center of this universe a massive ball of light.
A ball of light which is a consciousness.
A consciousness.
It's a field of information.
A field of pure and unconditional love.
There is no self-sabotaging whatsoever in this energy.
So just imagine that there is this point in the universe.
Feel this energy.
And now visualize,
Intend,
Imagine to bring this pure white light,
Unconditional love.
That original energy,
The original essence of you back with you to your human experience.
So imagine that you wrap yourself within this light and you travel back through space.
Wrapped in this light.
Pure,
Unconditional love.
Pure white light.
You bring it with you as you move through the galaxies.
To this planetary system.
To the earth.
This is the same source frequency that you brought with you from source and it's now here with you.
Bring it above your head to the location where you are right now.
The same source frequency.
Pure white light.
Untainted.
Untouched.
This is the original essence that you really are.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale,
Bring this light gradually through the top of your head.
Every cell in your head,
In your skull,
In your brain is absorbing this energy.
Every cell is finally relaxing in this energy.
Bathing in this energy.
Just imagine,
Intend,
Every cell being filled with this pure source energy.
Your original divine frequency and DNA.
Your divine blueprint.
And as every cell within your body and energy field comes in contact with this energy,
It resets itself to its original settings.
Pure health.
Pure joy.
Pure life.
Without any trace of what self-sabotage whatsoever.
It's simply not there.
This is the energy of who you really are.
And as you exhale,
Bring this energy through.
Through every cell in your throat,
In your neck.
Pure white light in your shoulders,
Arms and hands.
This light,
Pure source energy,
Pure white light is filling your chest and your upper back.
Your stomach and lower back.
Your hips and thighs,
Your knees.
It's filling your legs all the way to your ankles and your feet.
And this energy comes out of your feet,
Anchoring you down deep,
Deep into the earth.
Take a deep breath in.
And as you exhale,
Keep imagining every cell absorbing this pure white light.
You become this pure white light in this physical body.
Allow your body to be filled with pure,
Pure source energy.
Bring your focus to your heart and say,
I am source.
I am pure light.
I am pure energy and pure,
Unconditional love.
And from this place,
From this expanded awareness and a completely new energy and frequency,
Look at your human self.
Look at your human aspect,
Your ego,
Your trauma part,
Where all that energy is stuck It's your inner child.
This brave,
Brave,
Brave human being that you are.
And say to it,
Say from this new perspective and this new energy to this other part in you,
Which is within this human experience and within this human collective,
Say,
I see you.
I see how much you have been through,
How much you've suffered and how alone you have felt.
I see you and I will listen to you so the energy can start moving again.
Whatever you want to tell me,
I will listen when the time is right.
I trust this process to be guided,
To be guided by my own higher consciousness and I trust it to be safe and comfortable at all times.
And so it is.
Take a deep breath in and as you exhale,
Look at your survival mechanism,
That protector and say thank you for working so hard to keep me safe.
Thank you for me to be able to function as a human and to make it up until here.
I thank you.
You are also part of me and perfect as you are.
I thank you and I allow you now to rest.
Because now I know there is this bigger part in me.
It is activated.
And this part allows us to live our lives at an entirely different level.
And I now ask you to support me in that process of thriving instead of surviving.
Yeah,
Let's have some fun together.
Yeah,
And so it is.
Take a deep breath in and exhale.
And now while you're still fully merged with this energy of the divine father,
Creator of this universe,
Just say from your heart,
I remember.
I am this energy.
Always.
I am now beginning a new journey.
Fully equipped with this new frequency.
Totally merged and wrapped with this new energy and frequency of source.
Our divine creator,
Which is pure and unconditional love.
There is no self-destruction or self-sabotage in this energy.
And this is the energy I am bringing right now.
This energy allows me,
As it allows every human on the planet,
To feel and experience this new Earth's journey as brand new.
Filled with joy,
Filled with excitement and total freedom.
This is a new trajectory.
As of now,
As of today,
It is my new trajectory.
I choose it now.
And so it is.
Take a deep breath in and exhale.
And you can stay in this energy for as long as you want.
Drink some water,
Let it unfold.
Your higher consciousness knows exactly what to do.
Just trust.
And whenever you're ready,
You can open your eyes.
And from my heart to yours,
Thank you so much for being here.
