Welcome to this guided meditation.
Allow yourself to get nice and comfortable.
You can do this sitting up or lying down.
If you're feeling super sleepy,
You may wish to sit up for this one.
And as you begin to come into a comfortable position,
Allow yourself to enjoy some nice deep breaths in and out.
Belly nice and round as you inhale.
And as you exhale,
Just feel how your belly sinks in.
Continue to breathe this way a few more times.
On the exhale,
You can open your jaw ever so slightly and even release a sigh.
Feeling your body relax to begin.
As you breathe,
Becoming aware of your heart.
Your heart beat drawing you closer in.
Like a rhythm,
An ancient rhythm.
Your awareness is being pulled towards your heart area.
Until you can feel the sensations around your heart.
Maybe they're stronger at the back of your heart.
Maybe they're stronger on the left side or on the right side.
Just breathe into the heart,
Becoming aware of the sensations here.
There could be tiny little tremors or electrical impulses.
Maybe at this moment,
The sensations appear as feelings.
The heart holds the key to eternity and it also is the storehouse of all your memories.
Those that have touched your heart in joy and also those that have given you pain.
In order to enter this doorway to eternity,
All the way into deep stillness,
There are gates to pass.
And each gate brings you closer and closer home to yourself.
The gates cannot be pushed through or forced.
For the heart's way is mysterious.
It requires a sense of deep awareness and also such an incredible surrender.
So feel that surrender and feel how it manifests in the body.
Perhaps your shoulders relax.
Maybe your jaw hangs a little bit more open.
Maybe your face relaxes.
If your hands are clenched,
Open your palms.
Allow your hands and your palms to be open,
Facing upwards.
Breath relaxes with each inhale,
Each exhale.
There is nowhere to go now.
Once you embark on this journey,
Nothing else in the world matters.
So for a moment feel this giving up of all the effort of life.
Deep inhale.
And with an exhale,
A deeper sigh,
Giving up the effort of life.
And again bringing your awareness back to your heart for we are now approaching the very first gate.
This gate requires a sense of surrender and a commitment.
A commitment to this journey to come home to true love within.
So the question is,
Are you ready?
Are you ready to meet the deepest love within your heart?
And allow the you to dissolve until there is nobody and everything loving and loving back.
This journey dissolves you.
Are you ready to become a nobody and to be open to the totality of universal love?
This means giving up,
Giving up all the stories,
Those that give you incredible joy and also those that touch your heart in pain.
Allow your heart to whisper the answer.
Just spend some time breathing gently here at the first gate,
The first ring around your heart.
And becoming aware if there is any defense system around your heart that would even prevent your own entry.
If there is,
Just be there with loving presence.
You may realize what this defense is and where it comes from or not,
It doesn't matter.
And if you feel no defense at all,
That is also good.
Whatever your experience is right now,
It's perfect.
Becoming aware if there is any defense around your heart for even your own entry.
Soft,
Loving presence.
No pushing,
No forcing.
Your loving presence is stronger than any resistance and still accept if there is any resistance.
Deep acceptance of all that is right here right now in your experience.
As you continue to breathe with this quality and sensation of surrender.
If there is defense,
Breathe gently into perhaps surrender.
Vibrating,
Quivering at the first gate.
Perhaps feeling it gently open.
If it doesn't open,
It is also perfect to not force anything.
Surrendering deeper and deeper love to the yearning,
To the longing,
To the desire for deeper,
Truer love.
Vibrating,
Quivering at the first gate.
Feeling the sensations of the heart as you gently approach deeper.
As with your next breath,
Imagining your awareness as your deep inner child.
The innocent,
Very pure part of your being.
This is the part that is coming home.
Merging with the dark void.
Merging with its power.
Feeling this child's heart and holding whatever may be there with your loving awareness.
There may be sparkles of joy,
There may be sorrow,
There may be memories coming up for you now,
Whatever it is,
Loving,
Warm presence.
And all you can do right now is just breathe and stay present,
Stay present with the sensations in this very moment and in the next and in the next.
This child holds the key.
This child's dream,
This child's deep longing and desire holds the key to go deeper into the heart.
What is your child longing for?
What is its deepest yearning and desire?
Warm,
Loving presence.
Embrace.
And as you listen,
Continue to breathe,
Exhale,
Surrender.
Listening.
Surrender.
As the sensations begin to relax,
If there is any tension in the heart,
Soft and slow breathing,
You can even bring a hand or both of your hands to touch your heart.
Thanking this part of you,
Thanking this child to being here.
As this child manifests in this moment,
Feeling grateful for all that you're experiencing right now in whatever way,
Shape or form.
This is bringing you closer home.
Every experience is perfect.
So allow yourself to just breathe this way,
Putting your hands on your heart and just listening and breathing and surrendering deeper and deeper with every breath.
There's nothing you have to do,
Nothing at all.
Just relax.
And allow these sensations to be with you,
Taking more time to become aware of the sensations in your heart throughout the day or throughout the night.
If you go to sleep,
Becoming aware of your dreams,
Allowing the heart to open to you also in the dream space.
If you need to listen to this meditation a few more times over the next days or weeks,
Do so.
Otherwise,
I'll see you in the next meditation.
Be soft and be gentle with yourself,
Beloved.
