Before we begin.
Please note that this esion is not a substitute for professional medical.
Or psychological care.
If you are driving or operating heavy machinery.
Please don't listen now.
Find a comfortable position.
Sitting or lying down.
Whatever allows the body to be still.
Let the hands rest where they are.
Let the eyes close.
Or soften.
This session is for anyone who has tried to meditate.
And felt that nothing happened.
If that's familiar.
You are in the right place I want to share something from my own past.
Because.
.
.
It speaks directly.
To what this practice is about.
I was 23.
No direction.
No purpose.
On emptiness that didn't have a name.
But sat in the chest like a stone.
I found a meditation center.
Like someone with nowhere else to go.
I entered.
I practiced every day for a month.
Nothing changed.
Others spoke about warmth,
Tingly.
I felt none of it.
Someone who came after me felt it immediately.
I didn't.
After a month,
I stop.
Months later.
I returned.
The loneliness had become too heavy.
Someone there told me simply,
Lie down.
Don't try to do anything.
Just follow the breath.
So I did.
And still,
Nothing changed one morning.
The instructor asked how I was.
I told him everything.
The emptiness.
The restlessness.
The way.
He listened.
Then he said something unexpected.
After practice.
Clean this floor.
Not with a mop.
Get down on your hands and knees.
Take a damp cloth.
And wipe the floor slowly.
With full care.
Resistance came immediately.
I am paying to be here.
Why am I cloning flowers?
But I had nowhere else to go.
So I knelt down.
And I wiped the flower.
Every morning.
Slowly.
Carefully.
For the first two weeks.
Something resisted.
Than one day.
Without warning.
Something shifted.
Not a thought.
Something deeper.
ISO clearly.
I had never truly known.
How to lower myself.
Not a meditation.
Not in life.
And in that moment,
Something that had always been moving outward began to turn inward.
Scrubbing that floor was my way in.
Your way may look entirely different.
But something in this may be worth sitting with now.
Right now.
Bring your attention to the body Is there any place where something feels held?
Not in the breath.
Not in the posture.
Just somewhere inside Don't try to release it.
Don't try to name it.
Just let it be there.
What are you holding onto right now?
Not as a question to answer Just let it rest there.
Because as long as something is holding.
Nothing fully opens.
We often assume we need a better method.
More effort.
Moral discipline.
But something else is usually happening.
Or subtle movement.
Wanting results.
Is this working?
When will something change?
If that movement is here right now.
It doesn't need to be removed.
Just leave it as it is.
That movement pulls attention away from what is already here.
Few days after my shift.
Something changed in the breath.
Not romantically.
Not suddenly.
But enough to feel.
Something had moved.
We'll go there in the next session.
For now.
Just to sit quietly.
Nothing to reach.
Nothing to change.
Fill the body here.
Feel the breath moving.
Let these questions rest.
Without needing answers.
What am I expecting from this moment?
Is there a part of me trying to get somewhere?
What remains if,
Just for now.
The stops.
Thank you for being here today.
If this resonated.
The next session continues from here.
