I teach this way of love because I could never turn my back on the experience of this oceanic connection to the divine that I felt when my little brother was born or also when my two children were born.
And you know how much love I had for people along the way,
I could never turn my back on that.
I always wanted to bring more of that into my experience.
What I didn't understand is that we have many lives and in past lives I turned against it,
Turned against this deep connection to truth and to love that I truly am,
That all of us truly are in our essence.
And so my mind and body were carrying all kinds of veils,
All kinds of resistances that as I moved into truth,
Then I experienced,
I mean this fear would come up or I'd have difficult experiences and I'd go,
Where's God in this?
Where's God?
Or I'd go,
Oh,
I'm so loving,
Why aren't people loving back to me?
And you know,
Really all along I was just being faced with my resistances and my self-karma because karma exists for how we treat others but there's also self-karma for how we treat the God within us,
How we treat our eternal nature.
So I hadn't been so nice to myself for some lives so this is what I had to face and allow to heal this life but now I'm living with a tremendous connection to truth and love.
So my life is so soft.
So I feel a little hesitant to say,
Oh,
I live with this connection to truth.
I just,
It's my goal,
It's what I've devoted my life to and whatever we devote our lives to we made progress in.
So it was really all that mattered to me.
So there's been some progress which is why I'm,
You know,
I'm making the videos.
There's something to share and I really want to,
You know,
Just assure you that the universe really is loving and when,
You know,
The spiritual journey can seem really irrational except when we really get that we're eternal beings in human form it becomes very logical what we go through.
So for example what I was talking about was my difficult times.
It was just my resistances coming up to be healed.
Anyway,
Bless your hearts.
May it get easier and easier.