The Miracles In Your Life

Today, Premasudha suggests then when unhappy or stuck, to turn inside where all of our big answers can be found. We always have a choice - to listen to fears or follow our hearts and choose love. When we stop listening to our mind chatter, that bigger inner intelligence, inside us ALL, has room and freedom to emerge. Turning inside with no plan B will finally open the doors to who you really are and ignite miracles in your life. Remember that we are not scared little kittens, we are brave lion cubs!

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Good to see you. Blessings, Yeah. Beautiful. Thank you for coming. Yeah. Yeah. I'm caught my eye. During the program. And I knew she was, You know, Confirming what I said yesterday, And also giving her energy. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. I could feel this. So, Can you say either out loud or to yourselves what I was speaking about Archangel Gabriel when he came? The answers are inside me. Just reaffirm that. The answers are inside me. Please. Yeah. It's hard for us Westerners. We're having to do a big U-turn. We've been facing out, And we have to screech and reverse and turn inside. And it's traumatic for us, You know? Yeah. Yeah. I actually think it's harder for us, Like, You know, In the East, They've developed, So they've learned to go outside. And I think that's easier than when you're really focused on the outside learning to go inside. So, We need compassion for ourselves. There's something I want to read to you. I got, There's a wonderful comment on yesterday's satsang with the spiritual psychologist YouTube. You know, I've got three channels. I just want to read you what the person wrote. So, It's titled, Climbing the Mountain, A Conversation About Feelings. Adult. Have you ever felt really upset or angry about something like when you didn't get the toy you want or when someone takes your favorite book? Child. Yes, Sometimes I get really mad. Adult. Imagine those feelings are like being stuck at the bottom of a big mountain. You feel heavy and stuck, And it's hard to see clearly. What would it feel like to be at the top of that mountain? Child. It would be awesome. I could see everything. Adult. Exactly. When we are at the top of the mountain, We can see things better and feel calmer. We can choose how to react instead of just getting swept away by anger or sadness. But how do we climb the mountain? Child. I don't know. Maybe we need a ladder. Adult. We can use our minds. We can learn to understand our feelings and why we are having them. It's like taking a photograph of what's happening inside us. We step back and observe without judging ourselves. Child. So we just look at our feelings? Adult. Yes, We look and we also feel. Sometimes it might feel sad or scary to be with those big feelings, But it helps us clear them. It's like washing the floor and seeing all the dirt come up. Child. But what if I'm really scared to look at my feelings? Adult. That's okay. It's normal to be scared. You can ask for help, Just like you would ask for help climbing a really tall tree. You can talk to someone you trust, Like a parent or a teacher. And remember, There's always part of you that's strong and loving, Like a brave lion inside. Child. So climbing the mountain helps me feel better? Adult. Yes, It helps you understand yourself better and deal with difficult situations. You learn to respond from a place of love and kindness, Even when it's hard. And the more you climb, The more you realize you're not alone. There are many people who are also climbing their own mountains, And we can help each other along the way. Child. I think I want to start climbing my mountain. Adult. That's wonderful. It's an adventure, And you're braver than you think. This person nailed it. I'm like, I'm honored to have, Like, You know, People following the YouTube channel who have that kind of understanding. That just nails it, You guys. The reason I'm helping you up the mountain is it's true. You will understand yourself, And you won't be terrorized by your complexes. You'll be free of them. You'll see a long view. You'll start breathing clear air. You'll feel like, Oh, My goodness, I thought I was alive, But now I'm really alive. Yeah. So, You know, I also got, You know, The message, You know, To, You know, You guys are, We're all the same soul. Like, Ama's an avatar. You know, She's like a million of me. But, You know, The energy she's speaking from is in all of us. It's in you. Okay. So, And it's in me. So, The things that I know instinctively are also available for you to know. We're all the same soul. You know, We're all getting the data. It's just whether you pay attention or not. I learned to pay attention. Yeah. So, It's in you. Please. Yeah. It's not separate from you. You are this. You know, Our soul has created, Like, Billions of people, But we're all the same soul. And we're just like snowflakes. Like I said, We've all got, You know, Slightly different viewpoint, But most of it's the same. So, I wanted to just talk about again, You know, And again, I'm wanting increased communication with you guys. That's my goal. Increased understanding and increased communication. And for resistance to dissolve, Because you guys, You know, Your resistance is outgunned. Your soul is always going to win. But I just want to talk about Premasuda's life, Because maybe it will help you understand where this is coming from. So, When I talk about, You know, My mom was having that nervous breakdown and my older brother terrorized me as a kid. So, My patterning was really, Really disrupted and enormously scared and disconnected. In the pictures of me as a child, As a little baby, I look like a shell-shocked baby. Okay. Now, When somebody has a pattern like that, There is a choice to go with the fear or take a step into unconditional love. Take a step past all this separation into love and this bigger comprehension. So, This is the line that this one's walked. So, This is why all your excuses don't have any meaning for me. We have a choice. Now, The one thing that the universe wove into my life was, To help offset this, Was my younger brother was born when I was seven, And I had a full spiritual awakening with this. I just loved this child like the Christ child. You know, I would wake up and get his bottles. Like, My mom would sleep through his crying. I would come home after school just to be with him, Not see any friends or anything. So, I got the experience of kind of an ama energy. You know, I was playing in this unconditional love. So, After that, In my adulthood, I had a choice for which energy I was going to play in. It was a very clear choice. And truly, I could have been, I really, You know, It was like my choice was 51 towards truth, 51%. You know, It was kind of 1% that tipped the scales towards going this way, As opposed to living out. I would have been a really unhappy, Crazy woman. If I had gone the other way. Okay? So, Again, I'm talking, Like, For me, It is particularly clear that we all have a choice. And that's what I'm wishing to steer you to, The understanding that you have a responsibility to your soul, And excuses don't cut it, And you either do it or you don't. And hopefully, You know, You receive enough love that you get enough support to side with the truth of you and step forward. But I'm just concerned a little bit about the levels of excuses I hear. Okay? So, I'm just, It's very understandable, But I just want to really highlight, You know, Exactly what I'm talking about. Now, You know, Then in the course of my life, It became either I could have a really horrible, Horrible dark life, Or I could have a really expanded life. So, I, You know, I went with my son with the Miracle Healing. I chose to side with this tiny glimmer of heaven and earth meeting. I really chose it. And I'll tell you, There was tremendous pressure on me not to do this. I got really seriously ridiculed by my family. There was nobody, Hardly any. My dad stood with me with this, But, You know, He wasn't that available. I just lived this way for three years with people thinking that I was just in denial and that the child was going to die. And then when he lived, All across the board, People said, Well, Then he didn't have leukemia after all. It's like, Okay. Okay. Okay. So, Then during this distraught period, Premasudha took some poison, And I didn't get to the hospital on time to have my stomach pumped. I was going to die. The doctor said, It's going to die. Day five, I was going to die. Okay. Day five, I wake up, And I'm fine. Now, This is where this knowledge comes from. This is where this faith comes from. And, You know, This one has walked through extremes. So, There's a comprehension and a sturdiness and, Dare I say it, An authenticity that comes from having walked this. And still, When I speak, I can hear you discounting. Often, I'm just discounting. Or people will say to me, I'll say something to them, And they'll say, Oh, I'm doing that. And it's like, They're not doing it. They're not doing it at all. You know, If it's a case of prayer, If I'm saying pray, And they're saying I'll do it, But if the teacher says pray, It's because they're probably praying at our father level. You know, Our father, Who art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. That doesn't work. You have to pray with passion, With really wanting it. That works. Yeah, It's like, You know, Listen if the teacher is bugging you. You know, If the teacher's on your back a bit, Listen with humility. You know, I never, I mean, I never, Like Abraham, I didn't know what he was talking about a lot of the time. And as time went on, I got more glimmers. But years after, I remembered things he said, And I understood them. But I never would have said to Abraham, Well, Abraham, I don't, You know, I don't agree with you. You're like, I don't agree with you, Meaning you're wrong. I never would have said that in a million years. I listened, Because this guy, He was self-realized. I knew it. I knew he knew more than me. I know there's God in you guys, You see. There's Alma in you. Most of you don't feel good enough to access the knowledge, Or you second guess yourself, Or you doubt yourself, Or some of you, Your spiritual journey is so grabbed by your ego that you think you're doing it, And you're not. You're just, Your ego's grabbed it. And when that happens, The premise will put a little bit of pressure on you. And that they're the people who are most likely to say, But I'm already doing that. And I'm like, Okay. What I'm wanting is for you guys to be humble enough that the windows of your personalities open, And you get some fresh air. Yeah, The fresh air. And that feeling of fresh air comes when you're actually, When you get things, When you go, Oh, I'm getting it. It's like when you read, Like, A spiritual book, And you get it. You get it at a deeper level. There's this feeling of comprehension that comes in. And it's like, Oh, It's like I was talking in a recent video about honor thy father and thy mother. But when we do that, When we see the good and the greatness in our parents, It's easier for us to see our own. You know, The reason I think I feel that the little poison got neutralized when the doctors couldn't do anything was because when I took it, I was like, I'm going to God. It was just, You know, I was half crazy with the nervous breakdown, The psychotic break, But it was like, I'm just going to God. All I want is God. And I think that's why I was returned without any long-term consequences, Which really, I mean, The doctors all came in and stood around my bed. They couldn't believe it. But I was alive. It's that I want God. I want Alma. I want the knowledge. I want to know what love is. And the other thing, When I look back, Is I remember, You know, Learning from Abraham, But it was, You know, As I said, It was the Hawaiian structure, Which is wonderful. But, You know, I couldn't just take it. I mean, I didn't know how to translate it to the West, Particularly. I mean, Abraham did. It was his culture, And he translated it really well, But I knew that I wouldn't be able to. And I remember saying to him, You know, Can I somehow find a way to teach this knowledge in the West? And he said, Yeah, You could. So I just returned to Vancouver. And I remember, Like, I'm going to get this knowledge, And I'm just going to teach it to people. It was just what I was going to do. And I was very ignorant at the time. Nobody understood what I was doing. I didn't, You know, I made a lot of mistakes. I had great ignorance. But that was what I was going to do, Because I could not see the point of living any other way. I couldn't live any other way. And even if I failed miserably, Like if I never came out of that slightly, You know, That kind of craziness that I was stuck in for a while, It was still better than trying to continue the old way that had come down the generations that was the whole reason why I had the difficulty. It was like it hit me particularly hard because of the early trouble with the bonding. But I just turned, And I was just going to do it no matter what, No matter where it ended up. And that's where this knowledge came from. And, You know, All the information about the body just came to me as I walked this path. I just, I started making connections between the aches and pains of my body, What was going on in the body and what I was dealing with emotionally. And then a client brought this book from ancient India, And it had the same kind of structure, Although it was much more complex. Mine's like a child's version, But had the same material. It was saying the same thing. And this told me I was on the right path. So, You guys, All this knowledge came from me turning inside with no plan B. And, You know, It's not hard to live this way. It's actually kind of a relief. Everything gets very simple when you live this way. But just kind of serving the highest good. You don't want things the same way. You don't judge people the same way. You don't judge yourself the same way. You know? Your mind gets sweeter and sweeter. It doesn't matter if you go to some expensive restaurant, You know? You don't care whether you do or not. And you don't even care what people think of you. You just know that you're living the life you came to live. Some of you are at a place where the universe is really kind of forcing your hand a bit around learning to face yourselves. And some of you are still trying to run. And I want to talk to you about this particularly. It's not safe to keep running because the universe will turn up the heat. Especially if you're in a situation where you could get support to open up. You know, You've got an authentic teacher who's able to help you face your fear. Because I want to tell you again, This is, You know, The life and times. But again, It's where my knowledge came from. The first nervous breakdown, I was healed by a Kundalini experience. So the doctors were expecting me to be in the hospital for six weeks. But after two weeks, I had a Kundalini experience and was, You know, 75%, 80% healed just with this experience. And the doctors, To their credit, They saw this. And I was released in two days. But the problem was, I hadn't got the lesson, Which was to love Pramasutra. No matter what. You see, I had this Kundalini experience and I was brought back up. And then I was, Like, Trying so hard to fully kind of, You know, Get my life back so that I could raise the kids. So I was just focused on getting better so I could be a mother to the kids. You know, Finding a place to live, Getting settled, Everything. So I could be a mother to the kids. It was, I was still denying the whole point of the lesson, Which was for me to learn to love Janet, Who I did not want to love Janet at that point because I just felt I really messed up. It was just, You know, I was screwing up in every direction. My kids were small and I really wanted to, You see, Be a mother to them because, You see, I was directly experiencing the cost of trouble in early childhood. You see? So I had that trouble in early childhood cracked up and then I ended up, You know, Not being available to my kids for a year. And I knew that I was disrupting their early bonding and it was, I was just beside myself with this. So I was desperate to heal up so I didn't do any damage to them. Okay. So what happened was I cracked up again and this one was way worse because if you don't get it the first time, The universe will turn up the heat. Okay. So I wanted to say this to you guys, Like, Don't resist your lessons. It just gets harder if you do that. You get, Like, Double the homework. It's like a school kid who doesn't do their homework and the teacher doubles it. The universe does this. So, You know, I cracked up again but this time I had the wisdom. I knew that if I tried to do any kind of poison again that it would backfire and I would be just left to cripple. I knew the universe would do that to me because I knew better now. I had touched into the divine. I knew better. I couldn't do something so unconscious as try to off myself. So I had greater wisdom and this breakdown was way worse because the universe wanted me to learn to love myself and live the life that I came to live. And I had a choice to do that or to be a resistant nutcase my whole life. To resist it and just be kind of unstable. I want to tell you, The universe doesn't fool around you guys. And some of you are worrying me because you're resisting facing your fear, You're resisting, You know, You say you want the knowledge but you're actually refusing to get it. And I just go like, Okay, That's dangerous to do that. No, It's dangerous if you sincerely have gone on the journey. If you sincerely have said, I want to wake up, Which is what I had done, Really sincerely I'd gone, Okay, I want to wake up. At that point you lose your freedom to do anything other than wake up. But if you've done kind of an insincere thing like, Oh yeah, I want to wake up but it's not very deep, Then this will not apply to you. You'll be able to avoid truth and you'll just have an unsatisfying life but you won't walk into real trouble like I did. I want you to see the logic of it because it's how the universe works. And it is why we are going into increased violence and increased darkness because we're resisting. Though it's right across the board socially. We either move into truth or we have a more violent society. And that's the importance of this work with small groups and people really stepping forward and doing it because it's the chance we've got. You know, Alma's doing the whole thing and she's bringing light in but over the summer she said, I heard her saying, If you don't face your dharma, Dharma leaves you. Because if you don't say yes to the life you came to live, Then that opportunity goes. It's gone and you can't really get it back. The journey, It's true reality. It's not like having coffee in a crumpet. It's that interface with true reality. I'm not wanting to depress you but I want you to see the territory, That it's climbing a mountain and it needs care. You need to be careful. And you need to open up to learn as much as you can from any authentic teacher you've got access to. Suzanne had a beautiful, Beautiful dream of Alma. Even if you can't remember dreams about Alma, You will have had them if you study with Alma. She'll be working with you in your dreams. Somebody had a dream where I was standing, Or they woke up actually in bed, And I was standing right next to them and they saw me. It's like any soul who's asking for help is getting it on all levels. You guys are getting it 24-7. You're getting this from Alma but also me. Let your mind play that way. Think that way. There's great latitude for making mistakes. I don't want you to be scared of making mistakes. Because if you make a mistake, As soon as you go, Oh, I've goofed, Help me, Universe, Help me, Alma, You'll get lifted back up the mountain, You see. As long as you just keep speaking to Alma, Speaking to God with sincerity, You will be fine. What I'm talking about in the old days, This was back in the 80s, It wasn't a spiritual time. I was clueless. I hadn't had any religious upbringing. You know, It's not that there's danger of any of that for you guys, But there's a lot of dangers of that kind of extreme. I just wanted to highlight it so you could see the lines, So you could see me clearly and see where this knowledge comes from. As well as, You know, 20 years with Alma. I really, Really, Really want love to reach you. I'm really, Really, Really wanting the cells of your body to open to the eternal love that you are. And that Alma is transmitting to you all the time, And Prama Sutta is also transmitting to you all the time. And it's also just in the air you breathe. You know, And there are two ways to evolve. There's the feminine way, Which is way easier than the male way. You know, Guys, My heart goes out to you. Like, Your life, It's like you have to play in conditional love. You have to like, You know, Go out and find the food to feed your families. You know, The woman gets to just kind of hang around the fire and play with the kids. I mean, She's going to cook and she has to make the soap and all that stuff. It's not easy, But it's gentler. It's gentler and more unconditional, The woman's way. It has to be. We have to be able to love children with six fingers. Okay, So the female face of God approach is so easy. It's like getting a hug from Alma, Where you get a physical experience, You get an emotional experience, A spiritual experience, Body experience. You get the whole thing in one gentle thing. Whereas, You know, Abraham would have us, We have to dance for 18 hours a day. Do you know? And you'd be dying, Almost falling over with fatigue. And then what would happen is you would get a second wind that would come in and a third wind. And then you find out what you could do. And it's great. The meal weighs great. But this way, You guys, You could get it so easily from me. That's why I want you to listen and not fight me. Like, Be open. Because when you get how loving and embracing it is, And how unconditional and how much understanding there is, When you get it, You'll go like, You'll relax. You'll feel air, Fresh air. Stephanie, Can you talk about what happened with you and the German woman? And what you, You know, We were talking about this. This was, Where are you? Stephanie? I'm here. Okay, There you are. Yeah. And we were talking about, You know, In the ashram, Sometimes people come to the ashram and people are very serious. And sometimes people feel lost and alone and disconnected. But just talk about with the German woman and what, You know, Because I'm bringing up the feminine face of spirituality. And you, You get this, Stephanie. So, Okay. So let's talk about what happened. Blessings, Everyone. So I've been at the ashram just for a few months. And when you walk around the ashram, You see familiar faces. And sometimes people aren't always in the best mood. We're with Amma, But, You know, They can be stern in silence. They can be a difficult place sometimes. This one woman, She'd always come and give prasad to Amma. And I had a stage saver shift to help out with the door, To allow people to come up. And I had to go down and tell people gently, Nicely, Please come back after 10 o'clock, If you've already given prasad the previous day, Just to let other people have a chance. So this one German woman who I have known for a few years, We recognize each other, But no, We're not friends. We just, You know, We'll say hi sometimes. But she got really upset with me when I was like, Oh, You know, Om Namah Shivaya, Please, Can you come back after 10? And she's just so upset at me. And I'm just the messenger. And she wasn't really understanding. However, She ended up leaving the line and really understanding that, Okay, I might be mad, But I'll go and I'll come back after 10. So 10 o'clock rolls around and I'm alone. So I see her in the line and I'm not sure how she's going to respond. But she comes up and up the ramp to give prasadama. And she sees me and I see her. And she just, We just hug. She goes, Thank you. And I go, You're doing really good. It's good you're coming back at 10 o'clock and listening. And we just have this embrace. And she goes and gives prasad. And it's just a very, Like, Beautiful moment. Then the following week happens again. And I see her again in the line. And she comes back after 10 o'clock. And there's no problem at all. And she comes up the ramp and she sees me and I see her. And I almost don't recognize her because her energy is different. I just feel this love. I don't know. This is just a different feeling of her for me. And she comes up to give prasad and she smiles at me deeply. And then I remember from the previous week, Oh, It's the woman. Because I didn't recognize her because her energy was, It just felt so different. So she goes around and gives prasadama. And I'm standing there because I'm waiting for her. Because if I can have a moment just to say, You know, Thank you. You know, If there's an interaction that needs to occur, I want to be around. And so she comes by me. And I kind of just, Again, Embrace her and say, You're doing a really good job. And she just kind of smiles and goes to sit on the stage. And it was in that moment where I saw her differently. There's, Like, This light around her. And she went to sit looking at Amma. And it was almost like her eyes were glowing. And it was just a magical moment for me to see her shift from someone who was very upset and angry at the situation, To understand, To give other people a chance to be close to Amma. And she saw the beauty after to give space to allow others to be close to Amma. And as a result of giving that space, She became closer to Amma, I think, Because the embrace that we had was, It was just very magical. I felt healed almost like I had gotten a hug from Amma by hugging her. And I think it just kind of was this energy of, Like, Understanding and love. So that's, That was my experience with her coming from a place of where, And I was, I think, A little bit judgmental of her where I saw her very harsh and hard. And now I see her as this person that's very more light and, You know, Really trying her best. Yeah, Now this can happen through the female face of God energy. So just, It's what I want for all of you guys. For, Like, Enough trust to develop between us. And, You know, Stephanie always kept her mind on, Like, When the woman was difficult and everything, Stephanie was very careful to keep her focus on the highest good and not getting overly reactive. Not, I mean, Feeling all the feelings, But not rolling in an emotional reaction to this woman being kind of rude at first. And that's really important, You guys, In your exchanges with people. Keep your mind focused on, You know, The highest good outcome for you and them. Right. You know, I feel that, Really, This, That grace coming from Amma, And then my feeling, This connection, Again, That I felt in the hall, She's going to be really working with us, Okay? So I want you to be, Like, Really just optimistic, Okay? Yeah. Just expect miracles, You know? Yeah. Open up to that maybe, You know, This is going to get really enhanced by her energy. Yeah. Because, You see, This emotional work, Learning to emotionally evolve, You know, Understanding our emotions enough that we can learn to evolve, It has to happen, This is the piece that's slowing us all down, Of not understanding the actual process of evolution. Not understanding how to let it happen. You know, If you're one of the ones who said, You know, Where I've said, You know, I've said, Do this, Or whatever, And you said, I'm doing that, And you're going, Like, Oh, I'm one of those people, Just realize that you're in the process of getting it. You're in the process of opening up. You're not exiled, You're not an outsider, You're deeply, Deeply loved, And deeply, Deeply understood by Pramasutha. And, As I said, You know, Pramasutha started off being very resistant, And, You know, There were people who helped me, And it's like, I can help you. And Pramasutha doesn't give up on people. And sometimes the most resistant ones grow the fastest, As soon as they're through that initial resistance. There's some beautiful, Beautiful hungry hearts in this sad saying, And some of you, You know, You're not feeling worthy enough, And you're not feeling that you're ever going to get it, And you will. You just, You will. The light just dawns. You know, I've had many battles with Stephanie, Many battles with Anna. You guys don't know the story behind this theme, You know, Really. And they just, And Jenna too, And these people just keep coming back, And they get it. They're getting it. And you see, All you have to get, Really, Is that your deepest feelings are okay. They're okay, That everything is okay. And you can have all your feelings, And you can have all your thoughts, Just steer in the right direction. Negative thoughts sometimes come up, You know. Just be with them, But keep, You know, Talking to God. I would get up in the morning, I'd give the day to God. It's really hard for guys right now, Because guys are having to find their hearts. And, You know, You've got the conditioning of, Like, Superman, You know. And as I say, You know, Kryptonite's the color of the heart chakra, And what is it, Kryptonite, You know, The terrible enemy, And he loses his power, You know, Because he comes into his heart, Right. I mean, That's, We've got it all backwards. And when a man comes into his heart, He actually ends up with double the strength. And like I said, A man can, You know, Abraham could be tougher than any man I knew, And he could be gentler and softer than any man I knew. He had the full spectrum. And I won't give up on you guys if you don't give up on me. Yeah. And my feeling is that your ominature is going to get strengthened. It's going to be strengthened for you energetically, All of you. Which means you'll have the opportunity to feel it more. To feel how real it is. So, You know, Look for it, Be open. And when you get a little message, A hint, You know, Follow. But truly, Your true ominature is going to be strengthened, I know this. I remember Abraham saying things like, You know, With the Aboriginal perspective. So the religiosity is way smaller in the Aboriginal thing. Partly because it's less intellectual, So there's less room for it. It's just simpler. I remember Abraham saying that you could pass somebody a wrench, And they could become enlightened just with the way you pass them a wrench. That it can happen like that. You know, I assume for it to happen like that, Somebody must have, You know, Wanted it and done some spiritual practices and everything. But the way enlightenment comes could come through some very simple thing like that. You know, All your lives are in your bodies. Your cells of the bodies are made out of unconditional love, And they're carrying the imprints from every single life you've ever had. So all the lives where you experienced, You know, Big victories or faced challenges, Or had some incredible miraculous experience, It's all in there. And where you problem solved some impossibly difficult situation, It's all in there. We're like oceans of information and love power. The more you can open your heart to yourself, Just generously, The more you will access this level of information, This level of strength. Or, You know, You can have some terrible trauma, And then this strength coming from other lives will emerge. It's part of what happened with me. I'd had Buddhist lives, And so my way out of all the difficulty was a focus this life on compassion. See, All those Buddhist lives, It paid off with this very familiar feeling of, Oh, The answer is to focus on compassion. You know, It was when my head got decimated enough, You know, That some big answers could come from within me. And this is what I'm wanting for you guys, Like, For you to step back from your heads and not believe all the chatter, So that there can be room for this greater intelligence in you to emerge. It has the freedom to emerge. That's why I don't want your minds to, Like, Obsess over, You know, Trying to be perfect, Perfect spiritual students. It's like I'm wanting just the doors to your, The fullness of who you are to open. All of you are so much better than you think. You know, Amma says, You know, You're not kittens, You're lion cubs. Yeah, At least. You know, The more you follow your heart and follow your intuition, Follow your guidance, The more self-respect you'll have. The taller you walk, You'll just stand taller. It's like there was a taxi driver who contacted me anyway, So I used him coming down to the ashram. And then he wasn't an ashram taxi driver, But, You know, Again, I called him, Booked a thing. He had lots of experience driving for the ashram. He said he'd driven for Amma's family. You know, He seemed nice enough. Anyway, He ended up overcharging me. And, You know, So he contacted me again. I said, You know, I can't, I won't be calling you because you overcharged me, And now I don't trust you. And, You know, I mean, In that case, I'm drawing a boundary out of disappointment. But it's just part of the self-respect, You know? No, I can't use him, Even though it might be more convenient than, You know, Using the ashram taxi thing where you have to book a day in advance and everything. But that's not a really good example. It's more like just when I followed my heart, I felt better about myself. When I started studying with Abraham, I felt better about myself. All these things. You know, When I stood for my son with leukemia, I felt good about it, Even though I felt good inside. I knew I was on the right track. Like, You'll get these things, And it might be inconvenient to follow through with them, Or you might feel like you're foolish. But if it's real guidance, You will feel more expanded and have more self-respect if you follow. But, You see, If you're going around in your head trying to be a perfect spiritual student, You won't even hear the guidance. This is what worries me. Your mind will be so busy with self-talk that you won't even hear the guidance. You know, When the soul gets on the move, The mind can feel it, And it starts flooding you with thoughts. It'll try to get you on a mouse wheel, You know, Get you running, Running on the wheel. Yeah, So that's the importance of, Like, Being able to step back and just observe your thoughts, Not buying into them 100%. It just takes practice. But I'm trying to explain sort of the reasons behind the way I'm, You know, Wishing to steer you guys so that you understand the chapter, And you can see the logic behind what I'm trying to do with you. Some of you feel frozen and numb underneath. And if you do that, Just ask that it becomes, You know, That you start warming up and melting at a high as good pace. It's not anything to fight. I used to feel, I remember in high school, I used to feel like I was walking on the surface of life. It was so strong. And it was true. That was a level my family lived at, A very superficial level. We were all walking on the surface of life. These feelings you have are accurate. We all know this thing underneath. We feel these things, We just don't talk about it, And we don't really want to admit that we feel this. These things. But we know the truth underneath, You know. I mean, I knew I was walking on the surface of life. You're very beautiful. Some of you, You know, When I'm pushing back with you, You're talking, And I'll say, You know, I'll kind of just ignore what you're saying, Or I'll say you're not doing that, Or. . . And what I'm feeling is that when you're talking, That you're not talking from the truth of you at all. That you're talking from a kind of phony, Ego place. And even if you're saying all the right things about doing the spiritual things and whatever, Where you're talking from is not your authentic. . . It's not your authentic voice, You're not talking from your heart. Although what you're saying, I mean, There's nothing wrong with it, Particularly if you were saying it from your heart, It would be wonderful, But it's not coming from an authentic place. It's the ego trying to protect itself. Several of you do that. And it's like you could just ask sincerely to move into truth more, And you could ask that it's done very easily. Do it the female way, The easy way. You say, I want to move into truth as easily as possible, As supported as possible, At the highest good pace. I'll tell you, That ensures a very smooth, Seamless movement into truth. But then you have to be willing to do it. You can't forget it and go, You know, I forgot that I asked to move into truth last week. I mean, Some of you were right. You got really interested in I will to will thy will. I mean, Is anybody keeping to doing that? Or is that just got like last week's trick? You know, This is what we're like, You know? Some of you are doing it, But it can easily become last week's trick and we're just on to the next. Often, You know, I remember I would make breakthroughs just at the point where I just couldn't stand it any longer. I was so frustrated, Stuck, Couldn't stand it any longer. You know, The darkest time is just before dawn. You know, It's just actually, If you notice when you have the flu, The day that you just are so fed up, With having the flu, You just don't think you can stand it anymore. The next day, You will feel much better. It's the way it works. Just when we're just so fed up, We think we can't stand it, It changes. See, When you're speaking from your heart, This is what I look for. I look for where a person is speaking from kind of great vulnerability, Like they're just speaking, You know, Really like a Pramasutha speaks, You know, I am totally transparent, I let it all hang out, I'm not trying to protect myself. That's what I want from you guys. I want you guys to speak to me like that. I feel like I'm going to become less pushy now, You'll be happy to know this. I feel like, No really, I feel like I'm going to be backing off, That this is the last one of the shaking, Shaking you up. And I feel I'm going to, I'm just, I'm not going to be, I'm not going to be quite so confrontational. It's almost like that period's finishing. So you'd be happy to know that. Some of you breathe a sigh of relief. But part of why I feel this is going to happen is because I can feel that the souls in you are going to be strengthened. It's going to be harder for you guys to avoid the truth of yourselves. And you won't want to. You won't want to. It's, I don't know, It's a change, It's almost maybe a change in the world. You're just not going to want to do any trick anymore. You just, It's, It's, The resistance will become less captivating and you'll get, You'll be less trapped in it. I can feel this. I don't know whether this is 2025 coming, The golden age, Where resistance magically melts and we all start like kipping the light fantastic. You know, Wild birds start coming and sitting on our shoulder. We make friends with lions. Who knows? Well, You never know. I mean, I could never, I could never have predicted knowing Alma. Yeah, The joy really of working with all of you guys, You know. Anybody got any questions or comments? Hi, Primasuta. Oh, Who's that? Yeah. Stephanie. Stephanie. Stephanie. Yeah. Go. Yeah. Just wanted to say to everybody to keep going and that Primasuta knows what she's talking about. I mean, I've had ups and downs and I've had to learn a lot of hard lessons, Very hard lessons, But the love is real and this woman knows what she's talking about. So she shares her story that's so vulnerable and could have been so heartbreaking in so many ways, But then all the miraculous things that happened and I think it's a testament to the miracles that can happen in our lives and the fact that. . . Yes. The miracles in your lives. That's what I'm saying. Yes. Right. Yes. Me too, Right? Sorry, Stephanie. Didn't mean to interrupt you, But I just. . . Yeah. Have you finished? You finished? It was perfect. It's perfect. Yeah. I think it's just the excitement of the miracles, You know, Like I'm the same way as. . . Believe in the miraculous might seem like it's impossible, But, I mean, It's not because Amma's here and we're with Primasuta and she's the authentic thing. Like, Really, Really. Like, I had endometriosis. This is how I know it's real and it was healed. It was incurable. And just being around Primasuta, It healed. So from a physical level, I am so indebted to her, But also then all the miracles that have happened because of she's sharing her energy, Her love. So then I can also help to pass that Amma energy on to others, Like with the German woman, And we all ascend together in this beautiful feminine energy. And it's like a dance of lifting each other up rather than what women have done in the past of pushing each other down. So the crabs help each other out of the bucket rather than pull each other down. That's it. Because we can all see what somebody is laboring under, Right? We don't see our own shadow, But we can see other people's. And we can, You know, A few kind words, Just when you're feeling just terrible can just make such a difference, Right? But being validated, Having the truth of you being validated, That is your get out of jail card free. When you're validated, When the truth of you is validated and you take it home, When you accept it, When somebody outside you speaks the truth about you and you accept it, You know, They speak the truth of you like they see who you could be and you accept it, Then you become that. This is what I'm talking about with the female face of God work. It's kind of like mothering. It's a mothering, Right? Yeah. So just allow the middle wife thing to happen, I think, Because we're so blessed. So I just wanted to, You know, Encourage everybody to keep going when it's hard. And if Prima Sudha is sitting on you as she sat on me so many times, It's out of love. It's out of love and the shifts that happen because she sits on you. And then afterwards you're like, Oh, I was so deluded. Oh, Man. Thank you for this woman. So thank you. It's either like I sit and wait 30 years for you guys to make the shift that I see that you could make if I just sit on you a bit, Right? It's like, Yeah. I know. It's a comedy. It's just such a comedy to me. But the great thing for me is that you guys let me sit on you. I'll tell you, Really. That you let me do this. Because if you, You know, If I wasn't allowed to do this, I wouldn't be able to help you. Yeah. And that is true that there are a lot of physical ailments that disappear as a result of this kind of work of rising in vibration. Yeah. There's, Yeah. It's sort of like, You know, You get the full, When you reach a level, You get the full deck of capacities. You get the full deck. Able to work with people emotionally, Spiritually, Physically, The whole thing. Yeah. And you see, You guys can do it too. I'm trying to like, You can do this too. Yeah. That's what I'm wanting. And, You know, And sometimes, You know, If you're a professor, You might, You know, Part of the waking up, You might become a great value to your students. In their development as human beings. Yeah. Like the way it will come, You can't control the way it will come. Like, Take it however it happens, You know, So if there's an enhanced thing going between with the students, Then play there, Enjoy it, And then more will come to you. Things get added to you as you just start playing in this expansion. Yeah. Don't tell the universe what to do, Okay? Please don't. Take every gift that comes and just value it and play in it. Share it. But all of you guys are God, So all of you could do healing work, Truly. All of you could, You know, The saints will, You know, The stories of they make trees bloom around them even. Trees blossom in midwinter and everything. You know, That's just God working with the illusion. We're just an illusion. It looks concrete, But it's just. It's just a movie. Yeah. It's just a hologram. Yeah. Yeah. But, You know, Being good to other people, You know, This one, This was this one's strength is there's a devotion to people. It's just a love of people. So even when I'm at my worst, I'm still very kind of devoted, And that's why great progress was made because of that quality. That's why I emphasize it. Making other people's life better in any way you can. And it's worth more than meditation. Alma says this, It's more valuable than meditation. And even, You know, She said, Even if you get exploited, She said, Don't worry about it. Which is, I'll tell you, For us Westerners, You know, I didn't like being exploited. But finally I got big enough that I even stopped seeing it like being exploited. I just, It was sort of like, Well, I get to cycle off, You know, So I don't mind. I don't mind. This is all helping me cycle off. So what the hell? Yeah. Okay. There's some warmth coming to you, To the cells of your bodies. It's interesting. There's a feeling as if there's some warmth coming, Love. And it's, It's wanting to clear sort of some, You know, A bit of dust on your cells. Like Alma talks about the dust on the mirror, Sort of like that on the cells of your body. And it's just this warmth is wanting to help clear that. So you could come into more clarity. Yeah. You know, The other thing before we go, I want to tell you about the, Is this developed? What happened is when I was working with people, I'd get information and it would seem really kind of weedy. And I'd be like, Am I making this up? But I would, You know, I'd tell the person anyway, And then it would come true, Or I would find out it was true. And that strengthened my trust in the inner data I was getting. So you see, There has to be some way to, To bring forward this inner data and test it, You know, Dare to listen and follow and see whether it's true or not. You can't stay on the edge of the river. You know, It's like Alma says, You have to walk out on thin ice in order to find out what's truth. You can't just stand on the bank on the safe place. You have to test. Yeah. So this is how I would test. I would get data and sometimes it just sounded off the wall. And I'd say it and then it turned out to be true. It would be accurate. And that's why now, I mean, When I get these subtle things about like yesterday, That feeling of Alma knowing we were working and sending grace, I just got it just at that level. I know it's true. I just know this stuff's true now. I mean, I've tested it so much. Yeah. It's just like being a kid again and letting yourself play with this. And, You know, It's not safer not to. I mean, We have this nature. Oh, If I do this, Maybe I won't be able to earn my living. And it's like, Actually, Everything will get enhanced. You'll become a good problem solver. You'll become actually more intelligent because you're letting your soul intelligence come in. Because our souls are geniuses. Yeah. This is a labor of love, You guys. I mean, I'm just getting that labor of love working with you. It's not even a labor. It's so light often. So I don't know how I'm going to be working with you. I mean, Maybe I'm still going to be confronted, But it just feels like I'm not going to be. It feels like that your souls are going to be strengthened somehow, And I'm not going to have to, Like, Push and yell so much. It's like as if you'll be getting the data more. It's as if you're graduating a bit. There's a graduation going on. You're going up. Look, Even if you doubt this and you say, No, Not me. I'm such a klutz. Don't. You all are. I'm getting this for everybody. Everybody's graduating. And actually, Suzanne's dream about Amma and this incredible healing that took place in the dream is kind of like kind of a picture of what's going to be happening. It's, You know, Suzanne's been on the journey for a long time, Very sincerely, And it's time that she's earned this. And she's open to it. But it's as if all of you guys are graduating, All of you. And remember what Stephanie said. This woman knows what she's talking about. I do. Yeah. That's why I get a little frantic because it's like it's incredibly priceless work and it's a waste if it isn't allowed in. If you don't, If you're resisting when it's so priceless and hard-earned, You know, It's the authentic journey. And the thing I do think it's because it's so simple and warm that the West goes, Oh, This couldn't be. There must be something wrong with this. No, It is like this. This is what the universe is based on, This kind of love. And Amma is the best example of all of it. It's just more palatable to India. In the West, We're more alienated, You know, Although the way India is going, You know, Who knows? Maybe, You know, Maybe it's going to change and North America is going to become the inline place. I don't know. Who knows? Who knows? Who knows? Long ago, I was doing this work with Messages Sir Michael and it said a whole bunch of younger souls were going to be born in India, The old souls. Instead, It was an old soul country, But it was, They were going to get much younger, Much more materialistic souls being born in India. And if you look at what's happening with all the focus on the technology, Yeah, So these things can change. So maybe North America or Europe is going to be the old soul capital of the world. I don't know. Anyway, Blessings. This is just, This is my dharma and my joy. And thank you so much for coming. All of you, Your dear, Dear faces. Yeah. And your dear, Dear hearts and so much love to you. Just, Yeah. And remember, It's coming all the time. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you. Thank you. Oh, Yeah. It's just adorable. You guys, Your sweet faces. Yeah. I love you. Okay. Bye.