Okay,
I want to remind you that grace has balls,
You guys.
Remember that we're not talking about wimpy grace,
We're talking about grace with mince,
With balls,
With invincible power,
Okay?
Sometimes we go,
Oh,
Please,
Grace,
Grace,
Grace,
Where is it?
Where is it?
It is the power of the universe.
The grace is the power of the universe.
It is love power.
And we're calling on it.
And are trouble with it,
And you are those who've spent time on the journey.
And with Prima Sutta particularly,
You'll know that I'll talk about your own cells of your own body.
And what you feel is,
Whether you're open.
To it or whether your alienation is up.
And if you're not feeling it,
It's because your separation is up.
This is not a fault.
It's not a sin.
Just put your arms around yourself.
Embrace yourself.
Imagine Alma embracing you.
Angels embracing you.
You guys,
It is this separation.
Basically,
All of you need to learn how to move through it.
If you can't,
If you don't know how to move through separation,
You're always going to be stuck.
With your face at the window.
Looking in.
Yeah.
I spent a lot of my life there.
Okay.
And the discomfiture of it made me pray.
Oh,
You're so adorable.
It's just so adorable.
You guys,
You don't realize,
Like.
.
.
Your.
Body.
And this whole universe.
Is being embraced in your soul energy.
You feel separate?
The stars look separate.
You are in a big love zone.
I know and this is what our linear minds have trouble with you guys and this is why I'm gonna I'm gonna start talking about the linear mind versus the heart,
And I shouldn't even make it versus.
I'll say the linear mind and the heart.
Okay,
Your heart.
Knows that you are a divine being.
And that everything you see is part of the Creator,
Part of Amma,
And that this whole universe is like,
As Amma says,
It's a bubble in our souls.
But you could look at it another way and just say,
Are Our souls are holding it all and are part of it.
Yeah,
You guys.
At this time,
There is something deep being dislodged.
OK.
So some of you might be feeling it.
Consciously.
And some of you might be feeling it unconsciously,
But don't worry,
It is getting done.
Yep,
Some of you are saying,
I can't feel that.
That's OK.
You will see it maybe in six months from now.
Something deep is being dislodged.
I really want you to get this.
And you can just like put your arms around yourself and come along for the ride.
You're very dear.
Oh my goodness.
There's another thing I want to say,
Which is we women can get stuck in kind of a swampy feeling.
Swampy.
Stack,
Muddy.
And part of this is because we're in a patriarchy.
So there's been a kind of a deep rejection of the feminine aspect.
So we go into this swampy feeling because it's a way of avoiding our power.
But if we embrace it.
We come into a very deep intrinsic feminine power.
We come into the divine face of the feminine.
That helped.
I'm always hearing,
You know,
What helps and what doesn't.
And what gets through to you and what doesn't.
Yeah,
We all know it.
And you know,
Maybe men do too.
But women,
You know.
But we can sit in it for a month.
Yes.
You know.
It can even feel like quicksand.
I had a friend back in school back it.
And she used to talk about how she was always reaching for her mom who was stuck in quicksand,
And they were an incredibly wealthy family.
And the mom was an alcoholic.
And so the daughter was always feeling that.
Okay,
Premasuddha knows what this muddy,
Swampy feeling feels like.
Believe me.
It's very healable,
You just gotta like put your arms around it.
We haven't made,
You know,
When with wires you get like,
You know.
Got wires and you're trying to connect the wires so the current can flow.
So often in satsangs,
I'm working with you on so many levels to help the wires click so that you.
That you're receiving this current of love.
You know,
This is harder for young men,
Maybe.
But,
You know,
Alma says males need female teachers.
It's better if they have a female teacher.
And this makes sense to me,
Because if we're in a patriarchy,
You know,
It can just get we forget about the feminine.
So a female teacher helps remind the guys.
Of parts of themselves they may have walled off or left behind.
Sometimes there's actually almost a little,
Not hostility quite,
I won't say that,
But There's kind of a feeling of,
Sometimes from the guys,
A feeling of impatience.
The younger guys,
A feeling of impatience and kind of frustration almost,
But they're frustrated in their lives because they need to bring in the feminine.
They won't just be frustrated with Prama Sutta,
They'll be frustrated in their lives.
Okay,
So put your arms around your frustration.
And we women know what frustration's like too.
Oh my goodness.
Ha,
Ha,
Ha.
So this is a lot for the first 10 minutes.
There's kind of a big energetic seeding going on.
I can feel it.
And part of it is to assist this removal of this.
This D.
It's like.
.
.
Past life experience on the earth plane where Um,
Living in truth.
Seemed not possible.
We can carry that in us.
But at this time and.
Amma's hugs and her love and through this kind of work.
We're moving.
Into a new humanity really,
A new way of living.
We have to.
And it's hard for all of us,
You guys.
It's hard for all of us.
Premasuddha's hard times are in the past,
Thank goodness.
Ha!
Ha!
Ha!
Glad that's over.
Glad there's peace.
I'm devoted to helping you find peace.
It's not so far away when we have good company.
We can drop our resistance.
The feminine,
The divine face of the feminine is really good at coming in,
In all the nooks and crannies of the heart to reassure.
That's why the feminine is so powerful,
Really.
She can get right in there.
And if she's got a beneficent intention,
It's solid gold for what can be achieved,
Even if you don't feel like a spiritual superstar.
And you feel a little like stunned.
Don't worry!
Don't worry.
Some of the best students are not the ones who present themselves as spiritual,
Truly.
It is hilarious.
There's nothing you have to do,
You guys.
Just great that you're here.
You're bringing this you're bringing your energy to the transcendent suit of the satsang.
It's like a soup of transcendence.
Where we can drop our.
You know,
Really,
I want to call them so we can drop our stupidities because we're so loved,
You know.
So so when you wake up,
The whole thing seems so ridiculous,
What we're doing.
Buh-bye!
Yep.
Again,
I'm going to say it,
There's something deep in this large.
And,
You know,
It's part of why you guys look a bit stunned to me.
It's like,
Sometimes we do really deep things.
And we're not aware of it and we kind of see it after.
Remember I was talking about the linear mind and the heart and a lot of what we do when starting off on the journey.
Is we grab it with our linear mind.
And we go,
Okay,
I'm moving into my heart.
I'm really doing it.
But what we're doing,
You guys,
Is we are just going around in our linear mind.
We're not in our hearts really at all.
We're living in our linear mind's version of the heart,
Okay?
Even if you don't understand what I'm saying,
There's part of you that really gets it.
You'll get it non-verbally.
I want to say it again,
A lot of you are living in.
Your linear mind's version of your heart.
So we feel a little warmer to humanity,
We're a little kinder maybe.
But we're still in our prisons.
And this is where you guys and I will have battles.
Some of you have been feeling this.
Where I give you a shake.
Or I'm even rude to you.
And the reason I'm rude is because sometimes it takes rudeness to get through this linear mind.
And nobody likes it,
But you guys,
I'll tell you,
Real training.
Is It's real spiritual training is more primal and more like the law of the jungle.
Than the pretty sugary icing stuff that's.
.
.
You know,
Than doing chorus.
I heard about this.
Daughter of two doctors who decided to become a shaman so she went and did a shaman course like a three year.
Course,
Where you sit in desks and you turn up and I'm calling That is the linear mind version of shamanism.
And if this woman keeps going in that direction,
She'll do great harm.
Just through her ignorance.
This is what our culture is like.
This is what our linear minds are full of.
This woman who toddles off and does a three-year course in shamanism.
Maybe it was something that her doctor parents would fund,
Or that they'd approve of,
Rather than going and actually finding some shaman and living with them.
Or going to Ama's ashram.
Our linear mind does a lot of faith.
Characters are most.
It's just like how our,
You know,
Mother's Day and the cards.
You know?
Maybe we ignore our mothers all year and then we send them a card on Mother's Day,
You know?
Or maybe we're telling all our friends that she's a narcissist and she was doing all this stuff and we give a card to mom on her mother's day.
You see,
We're really,
You guys,
This is the linear mind.
Mix up.
This is what we're like.
This is what our culture teaches us to do.
And I said this before,
Parenting has become how to manipulate your kids into doing what you want.
Well,
First of all,
It's become a to-do list.
For mothers.
And then it's like all the things are,
How do you kind of manipulate your kid into becoming a good human being?
It's like you do that by being a good human being yourself.
Yeah,
I'm feeling them.
Yeah you guys You know,
I know this love is just coming through me and the love is just doing its work.
You know,
And we've all turned up.
And we're all in it together.
And there's no separation between you guys and me,
Or us and Amma.
Amacizo says,
Her.
And that's the great safety,
You guys.
You know,
If you can just.
Realize maybe that you've been circulating in your linear mind and just go Like what I said last week,
You know,
Sit and say to your heart,
Okay,
I'm here now.
What do you want me to know?
What do you want to say to me?
What do you want to communicate to me?
And,
You know,
Your linear mind will probably give you a little message like,
Well,
I want you to be nicer to people or I want you to love yourself.
The heart's message will be more non-verbal than that.
It will be more Um.
Kind of like a package of information.
Or a deep knowing.
Or a sudden insight.
A sudden perceptual shift that includes your body and your mind.
It changes everything.
Yeah.
So some of you,
Your linear minds are going like this.
It's okay.
It's okay.
You're beloved.
You know,
You're so beloved and you're so understood.
Truly,
You guys,
Individually,
I mean,
Amma understands us.
You know,
But also Pramasuta has.
Pretty clear understanding.
I know what you struggle with.
And I know what your linear mind wants me to say.
And I know what your hearts want me to say.
And the two things are often very different.
Kind of a feeling of a surrender building.
You see,
This is what happens.
A surrender builds within us.
We just that what we're doing isn't working very well.
And a surrender build.
And this surrender is exactly what will be dislodging this.
Deep thing.
And if you don't do it this week,
This month,
You will do it.
I can feel this in everybody.
It'll just take a while,
Don't worry.
Don't worry.
You remember Ama talks about we're on the train.
And the guy on the train,
And he puts a suitcase on his head.
Because the suitcase doesn't have a ticket,
But the suitcase is included.
We don't have to figure out our stuff.
We just have to like steer the right way.
And the emotional blockages.
Get lifted.
As we proceed.
You guys keep turning up.
It's a fact of the turning up.
You don't know how powerful that is to just keep turning up.
That's all you have to do.
Turning up for your journey,
Turning up seeing Amma,
You know,
Turning up for sad sayings as you wish.
There's an incredible power that happens when you turn up.
It's the power of the universe.
Is there.
Just turning up like you know think of it with like a suitor or a husband and his wife is kind of like bad tempered maybe she's menstrual or she's menopausal or maybe she's been up all night with the kids or maybe she's just got a stomachache and he's just he keeps turning up.
Because he knows it's not going to last forever.
She's going to get through this,
And he loves her,
And he's going to get through this,
She's going to get through this.
No,
He doesn't walk away.
It's the same.
With the journey,
Just don't walk away.
And then there's.
Husband will get the best from his wife,
Right?
Because he's so devoted unless she's just terrible.
Then would need to wake up to this and do something.
A certain degree of patience with each other and patience with ourselves.
So dear,
Your faces,
You just,
I'm just.
You know,
Yeah.
Peace.
You know.
Your heart,
You.
As you learn to witness,
You will be able to tell what's your linear mind and what's your real heart.
And actually,
If you check,
You probably already know this.
You're getting restless.
You know the difference between your linear mind and your heart.
You're so adorable.
You said so much shit.
There's so much love wanting to flow to you.
Think of it that way.
It's like,
I can feel it like this.
So much love wanting.
To reach you are.
Our souls are You guys,
Our souls are madly in love with us,
Okay?
They are absolutely.
Madly,
Passionately in love with us.
Truly.
And they are reaching for us.
Just as much as we are reaching for them.
Actually,
They're doing it a million times more.
And anybody who spent time with Alma.
Kids.
An experience of our soul in the physical doing this for us.
But Even if not,
Your soul gives to you.
You know,
It kind of hangs on every thought and word for us.
It's kind of waiting for an opening to get through to you.
It will give you tough circumstances so that you can awaken to your true nature,
So that you can evolved off the earth plane.
And all the time we're complaining and feeling sorry for ourselves about this.
Our soul is reassuring us.
There's ascending guides and angels to help us.
Doing everything it can.
For us.
It's true,
You guys,
And some of you are opening deeply to this.
There's some of you.
And just say to yourself,
You know,
May I open to this at the highest good pace?
Yeah,
That's how you do it.
Our souls are madly,
Madly in love with us.
And what happens,
You guys.
As you let your soul in.
Your physical experience of life.
Altars.
So instead of feeling kind of I want you to really listen.
Your physical experience of life alters and instead of feeling sort of tense,
Defended and separate and wary,
You feel embraced.
Surrounded by softness.
Surrounded by I don't know,
Ewness,
I don't know how to say it,
Ewness,
Softness.
Beauty.
Feelings of peace and expansion.
So just keep.
You know.
Noticing.
If you're feeling separate or tense or.
You know,
And your thoughts are running,
Notice.
Embrace yourself.
Try to remind yourself to.
.
.
You know,
At least observe your thoughts,
But maybe see if you can alter them,
You know,
Make them.
.
.
Go like,
Okay,
These negative thoughts are just keeping me on the earth plane.
They are not helpful.
I'm just going to get it all back.
Any negativity I send out is going to come back.
So I might as well.
Just go,
I'm a,
I'm a.
Yeah.
You guys.
You have no idea how much things can change within six months,
A year,
Couple of years.
You are getting your curriculum for this life.
There has been no error.
It's all up to you.
Been the way it has to be.
But I wanna tell you a story,
A couple of stories.
One is.
.
.
There have been some emails about experiences.
One of the Satsang members had just a wonderful experience with a bird.
And being thanked by this bird.
For shooing off COVID.
A big difference.
Food from.
Her nest.
And another.
Woman wrote from inside timer.
This woman is had a lot of anxiety and.
You know.
Withhold around living in this world.
But she has this love affair going with a rhododendron,
You guys.
I was so moved.
This rhododendron had bud blasts.
Which obviously attacks the buds in some way,
I guess.
I don't know.
But she said,
For three years.
She lovingly would pick the infected petals off.
Just rhododendron.
Just devotedly,
And she'd say things like,
Oh,
Rhodey.
You're going to get past this.
Don't worry.
You're so beautiful.
Yeah,
And some of the gardeners with you guys,
You're all smiling.
And she just would go out every day.
Yeah,
Go out every day.
And just the way she wrote this email saying,
You know,
Rhodey,
You're going to get past this.
You're so beautiful anyway.
Rhodey,
Rhodey.
And I think her dad had planted the rhododendron bush.
So it had meaning for her.
But I could feel the love and devotion of these,
Like,
Three years.
That she had been daily speaking.
To this rhododendron.
Okay.
So you know what the rhododendron did?
It built a huge cave inside it.
With space for a chair and a table for her to sit because as I said she doesn't like you know,
Going out into this world.
She even doesn't like being seen in the garden taking care of her plant.
She can go in and sit inside the heart of this rhododendron.
Its chest and that the rhododendron made this.
You see,
This is the love affair going between us and nature,
The love affair going between us and our souls.
And we can just.
You know?
Just explore it,
Kind of just.
Know that it's there.
It's the most important thing,
You guys.
Just know that it's there.
You remember if you,
You know,
If plants don't respond to you,
Don't judge yourself,
Because this was this woman's one place that she She expressed it,
So never judge yourself about anything.
And the other thing is.
.
.
Guess what the roadie does.
Every December.
Around her birthday.
It blossoms.
And no roadies in the area are blossoming at all.
Yeah,
And the sincerity of this email just moved me so much I could feel this woman's heart and I told you that I was going to tell the story on the set thing.
Maybe she'll hear it.
I'm so touched.
So touched.
That's it.
This is how,
Remember I told you,
George Washington Carver.
With the peanut in the south and all the land was depleted and it was failing financially like the whole.
Southern states were failing with this.
And he loved Mother Nature,
So Mother Nature whispered that peanuts would grow in the depleted soil.
And this brought up the whole.
Economy.
It's like Mother Nature will tell us her secrets if we love her.
If we love the Creator.
We will feel this love in our lives.
And the creator,
You are an aspect of the creator.
So love your selves.
I do.
I love you.
You know this.
I love and understand you.
Because,
You know,
If you love and understand yourself,
You love and understand everybody.
This rhododendron made me think of this.
Or the bird.
Saying thank you to the Satsang member.
It's the innocence.
Of this woman's email.
Telling you the story of the rhododendron.
The innocent.
Which is you know,
The innocence of a small child,
Which is just really when When somebody is speaking more from their soul,
That's innocence.
Speaking and acting.
From their soul.
It's innocent.
That's it.
And Amma says it's the most powerful energy on earth.
Because it's salt.
That's it.
Okay,
This is good.
There's movement around dislodging this.
Deep thing.
Maybe it's like a rock that's been sitting on your innocence.
Yeah,
Where you felt you couldn't have it.
But you can't.
In fact,
It's the only way for happiness,
You guys.
If you don't have access to your own soul energy,
Your own innocence,
You're just never going to be happy.
Oh,
Dear.
You know.
Alma knows every tear.
We cry,
Our souls know every tear.
Creator knows every tear.
And,
You know,
Greater rewards for them in a,
You know,
We get it.
This is what melts.
The blocks to our innocence when we cry with the sorrow of living the way we do.
And the sorrow of being so ill-equipped for the spiritual journey,
You know.
I used to feel that,
You know,
Like,
I don't know.
Yeah.
Because the spiritual journey,
You guys,
It can't be understood by your linear minds,
Okay?
You can't.
Understand it.
All you can do is live it.
And at the end.
You know,
When you finally find peace,
You go,
Oh,
It's so simple.
Oh.
And then you try to explain it to people who are like,
Not there yet.
And they're going,
You what?
You what?
And you go,
Oh,
I remember how confusing it was.
And how scary sometimes.
Yeah,
You guys,
You know,
A teacher just sees her own past or his own past.
And students,
It's just,
You just see your own path.
It's like,
Bow down,
You guys.
Just bow down to Amma.
Bow down to love.
Bow down to the Creator.
Like,
Deep thrown this head.
The head has to come off its throne,
You guys.
Found out,
You know.
We have to bow and go,
I don't know.
Please help me.
Yeah,
That's it.
That's it,
And it's very safe to do that.
And you know,
We let love in when we do that.
And,
And we,
We irritate others last because we're no longer so sure that we're less likely to go my ways the highway right like my ways the best way when we're a little.
Humbled,
Were easier to be around.
You know,
When my kids,
You know,
I was always sorry when they were having hard times,
But there was a level that actually,
They listened then.
They actually were easier to be with.
Even though I was sorry they were having a hard time.
That's it,
You know.
The more we get used to bowing our head and going,
Show me,
Amma.
Show me the creator.
The more skilled we get at it.
The more we know,
It's okay not to know.
Yeah.
Because you guys,
I mean,
You know,
In those near-death experiences,
They talk about Howie.
We take on all these heavy veils,
We chunk down,
We chunk down,
We chunk down.
To the Earth experience.
So we're operating on like maybe 0.
0001% of our full energy.
Of our full knowledge and we're trying to connect up with.
Our divinity,
But we're carrying all these veils.
So there's a way that,
You know,
The bar is low,
Like there isn't a lot of expectation for us to Get it like our soul gets it,
Like our soul knows we're in these bodies,
We're a little deaf,
We're a little dumb,
We're a little ah.
And just an approximate is good enough.
An approximate.
Just little steps.
Are wonderful.
From our soul's vantage point.
Because our soul knows.
How dense it is here.
Yeah,
It's like it's dense here,
You guys.
It's hard to do what I'm talking about.
But it's.
It would be a nightmare to strengthen the defenses this life.
Like,
You know,
You don't want to do that.
You don't want to make.
The ego stronger.
Wanna solve it?
We want to.
Surrender,
Learn to surrender while you can.
Because you guys,
When we get to heaven,
I have to tell you.
That if we've been asleep,
In our earthly lives.
We don't get a lot of maneuvering room in heaven at all.
If you await.
You know,
If you do spiritual work,
You're awake,
Awakening,
At least to some degree,
Then when you're in heaven,
That learning can continue.
So that,
You know.
Your next life,
You might do a lot of work while you're in heaven even.
And then the other thing that can happen in heaven is if,
Somebody who's passed over.
If you wake up,
And you've got relatives,
Your mom and dad or whatever,
They can actually tap in with you and help you and also evolve too.
Because all this is just my normal that I walk around in this knowledge and I know like it's not the normal,
It's not the ordinary,
But it's just so normal for me.
It's like,
I'm just telling you the weather.
It is like this,
Really.
And I'm just like talking about the weather.
What it's like in heaven.
But it is like this.
And,
You know,
As you learn how to embody love,
You just get these downloads of information,
You just get this illumination coming to you.
Because you dislodged the block.
To your innocence.
Which is the scariest thing a human being can do.
Cause it feels like you're gonna die.
And every time you do.
You die?
To who you've been.
The love power of your heart is strengthened.
The lotus grows a little bigger.
And this process takes years and years and years,
You guys.
But just hearing it.
Let alone the transmission you're getting while you're here.
And the reassurance,
I hope,
Because some of you read the The note I added for the Satsang invitation about fear.
Spelling.
Forgetting.
Everything is really all right.
So if you think of fear like that,
Yeah,
Forgetting everything is already there.
Really all okay.
And I heard that from somebody.
It's not mine,
But it's just brilliant.
That's it.
That's it.
And please ask that all the change happens at a pace you can handle,
You know,
With all the support you need.
Permasuda used to be wildly like,
Okay,
I'm going to do this.
And then I'd be in the Osterizer and I'd go,
Help,
Help.
You don't have to do that.
No,
Really.
You just say that you want to do it at a pace you can handle with all the support you need.
Yeah,
That's really important,
You guys.
That's self-love.
That's not the slow way,
That's the quick way.
Taking care of yourself is the quick way.
Some of you are so sad,
Do you know?
I feel it.
Yeah.
And you know,
It's good to feel sad,
Just feel it.
So give it over.
You're sad.
At least you know you're alive.
Some of you I've watched your faces change and become more innocent as.
The weeks have gone by.
And some of you would be surprised at who this is.
Like the people who've done this would think they probably wouldn't do it,
But actually they're the ones who are doing it.
As well as others.
You know,
This earth is in,
We're in this evolutionary leap.
We're going to make it,
You guys.
We're going to make it.
We're doing it.
It's already in progress,
It's already been done.
All is well.
I feel like I'm getting through to you and I feel like I'm or this love within me is getting through to you and it's crossing this barrier,
This permeable barrier,
This.
.
.
It's like a.
.
.
Let's put it.
It's like the outer membrane.
Of kind of like a pregnancy a little bit,
You know,
It's that kind of outer membrane.
But it's as if it's permeable.
And it's coming through to you.
You know,
Sometimes I wonder if our souls go through this jelly substance,
And that's what we're all made out of.
And that's what the earth plane is,
This kind of jelly.
That is the physical,
Because this membrane I'm seeing with this permeable,
That the love is coming through,
It reminds me of what this jelly substance would look like.
Love's coming right through it,
You guys.
Okay.
Yeah,
It's coming right through.
It's coming right through.
It's like you've allowed your innocence.
Satsang.
Truly.
All of you.
Some of you will be more aware of it than others,
But you have all done it.
So rest in this.
This rest in it.
Don't have to figure it out.
You can't.
It is your linear mind that wants to figure it out.
You can't.
Your heart knows.
That's it.
That's it,
Good.
Love.
Win.
Always.
Love is going to win no matter what you do.
You know what?
If you refuse to evolve at all,
You know what happens?
Your love,
The experience of life,
Just gradually burns out all your fears and your vasanas just through the grind of millions of lifetimes or however it would take.
Do you understand this?
So you might that life achieve.
So the last life where all the fears and misunderstandings have just been ground out of you because you've gone through all these lives where you some of them you chose fear some of them you chose love some of them you didn't grow at all whatever but there were so many lives that you just did all the homework.
It's like somebody who stays in school for like 20 years and they graduate,
You know?
Of veggies.
You see,
You guys,
You cannot bail.
You will complete with the earth plane.
It's just with I'm here.
She's come to.
You know,
Help.
Help those who are willing.
Who want to get through it sooner.
Who don't want to be here for a million years.
But I want you to really realize that nothing would stop you graduating no matter what.
You would just gradually burn through it all.
But could you imagine what a horrible way that would be to live?
Because that would mean going through all this trauma without ever knowing the help of surrender,
Without ever feeling the joy of surrendering and the great relief.
Of putting it on.
The creator's shoulders.
The great relief of it,
You guys.
It is such relief.
That is on the Creator's shoulders,
On Amma's shoulders,
That is not on yours.
You'll feel younger,
You'll have more energy.
You'll love more.
It's true.
It's all so sweet,
You guys,
You see?
I mean,
Part of what's useful about these satsangs is that,
In a way,
Your linear mind gets a kind of heart education.
It gets expanded enough.
That it can help you to surrender.
Really,
This is a lot of the power of it,
That you go,
Oh!
And so it's easier to surrender.
And they're becoming more and more voices.
You know,
Saying the kind of thing that is being said here.
You know,
As more and more people wake up.
And that will make it easier for us,
You guys,
Really,
As more and more people wake up.
Then energetically all of us will be carrying less resistance in our bodies.
Do you understand?
Because we've got everybody in our bodies.
Everybody's in you.
So if there's a mass awakening.
.
.
Then it's going to get easier for you personally inside your own body.
I don't know how you're feeling hearing all this stuff.
Oh,
Dear.
And I was going to talk about amore fatty,
Which is love of your fate and Nietzsche said it was the secret to human greatness,
And it is the secret to human greatness,
Because it is a secret to self-realization.
It's the secret to a deeper life,
And it is Love what happens to you.
Embrace it.
Take it as this is.
Helping you.
And Ama talks about how,
I mean,
Even if the whole world seems against you,
Okay,
This is good news,
It's tailor-made for you,
It's helping you.
Ama tells the story of the mule in the bottom of the well.
And I don't know if she says this,
But whether whether people were trying to bury it or something.
Anyway,
It was getting all this dirt coming down on its back.
So it's being,
As if it's gonna be buried,
You know?
Now what does the meal do,
But it shakes off all the dirt?
And.
Gradually.
The pile of dirt gets bigger and bigger until the mule is out of the well.
This is exactly,
You guys,
What it feels like.
To do this.
To let everything help you rise up and more fatty.
A M O R F A T I.
Right.
Nietzsche said it was the key to human greatness.
I think it is because it frees your soul,
You guys.
And the thing that's great about us is our souls.
The really great people that,
You know,
The artists and the scientists,
The philosophers with the breakthrough that we remember.
You know,
For centuries,
It's because they tapped into their soul energies.
So their work gets remembered.
I don't know if the billionaires are going to be remembered,
You know.
It'll be the.
.
.
No,
Really.
No,
That stuff's gone in a lifetime.
You read about the passage and it's just meh.
The stuff that's remembered is when people brought their souls to their lives somehow.
And express that innocence.
Often in a flawed way,
You know,
But still.
Yeah,
Charles Dickens,
I read a book about him and it said that he walked eight hours a day.
Okay,
So this guy,
Or for certain periods of his life,
So this guy,
He had like eight kids and he rode.
It's like this walking eight hours a day,
It's like was he just trying to get out of the house so he could think?
You know,
Really,
Who knows what this man suffered?
Or what his family suffered dealing with Charles Dickens,
But he wrote The Christmas Carol,
And that created our Christmas.
Before that,
Before The Christmas Carol came,
The celebration about Christmas was minimal in England.
OK,
So.
And his story about Marley's ghost and the chains and Marley coming to Scrooge and saying,
Don't keep living this way.
It's very accurate,
You guys.
The chains get bigger.
The more stuff we do that's not good,
The more we numb out,
The more defenses we carry,
The more we like shoot ourselves in the foot.
It is like exactly like the Christmas Carol.
It's like there's a soul,
There's our,
You know,
There's the truth of our soul hiding in plain sight.
In our literature.
Well,
Peace.
So much to talk about,
But I've talked a lot.
And you guys have done very good work.
Please understand this.
You have that.
That love came through this membrane.
It's like you're opening more to your innocence.
And if you don't feel it right now,
You'll feel it in some weeks and months because I see it in everybody.
We'll just.
.
.
And I'm not even sure I should tell you that,
You know,
This is how words can muddy the water,
But if you I.
Some of you,
It's like hearing this will help your linear mind actually,
It will help your linear mind relax.
And make room for your heart.
So I'm telling you this.
We all bumble into it.
Even the teaching is a bumbling.
Really,
I bumble with the teaching for how to get through to you guys.
Jill,
Has anybody got questions or comments?
Anything?
Or any,
You know,
If you have a breakthrough.
You can speak about it,
But remember I might.
I might poke your balloon too,
You never know.
You've got to take,
You know,
Your courage in hand and come forward.
You don't know,
You know,
Because I will just give you your next step,
The thing that you most need to hear.
And I don't know,
I can't guarantee it's always sweetness and light,
But you will move forward as a result.
Because some of you have been quite tough with,
But it's because of this deep thing being dislodged.
And without a certain toughness for me,
You would not dislodge it.
And I can't stand that.
It's like the universe gives me a bulletin about each one of you that I'm talking about.
And if I feel something has to change,
I will express it.
If that's the data I'm getting,
I will express it.
Right,
And I can feel it's like.
.
.
Yeah,
I can feel what it feels like to you.
It's sort of like the sad truth of things.
It's like it might bother you and make you sad a bit,
But it's like the truth of things.
But the more you love your innocence,
The more you'll just love truth.
That's the secret,
You guys,
To love truth.
Amor Fati,
Just love.
What happens to you,
Love the truth,
Even if it makes you see that you have to see words.
Yeah,
That you have to see your own flaws.
Is to help you.
Yeah,
You're very dear.
So tell me,
Please,
Anybody got the courage to say anything?
Yes.
I'd like to say something.
This was an amazing satsang for me.
I couldn't sleep last night,
So I knew it was going to be.
I had a really hard time falling asleep and I thought,
OK,
It's going to be about that saying.
And then this morning I just asked that I have a breakthrough and that I have a greater awareness.
And the story of the rhododendron really touched my heart.
I know.
I saw that.
It really touched my heart and because that's how I feel but what I had the connection with over what you said was I could feel in my body the innocence that has been lost that wants to come back.
Right.
And I really,
You know,
I could.
As you say,
Get that linearly,
But I felt it in my heart.
I felt it in my body,
And I don't normally,
And I know the difference,
Right?
I know the difference when I'm feeling something.
You know,
Intellectually versus.
And I could feel how.
Much innocence I had.
You know,
Like,
You know.
Like it was a lot.
It was a hit.
Yeah,
It's like,
It was like a symphony to watch your face,
Actually.
Yeah.
Talking about the rhododendron.
But I knew,
Yeah,
I knew.
Yeah.
Well,
I had an also,
But what was also really interesting about it was that I had the same experience with a rhododendron in my front yard that the owner wanted to take out,
Like he was going to cut it down.
And he said,
It's diseased and it's terrible.
And I said,
No,
Please,
This is the most beautiful tree.
Don't cut this tree down.
And so I nursed it.
And it was the most amazing,
Like when I left,
I was so sad to leave it because it was in beautiful shape when I left.
Right.
Oh,
Yeah.
Oh,
I can actually,
I can feel.
How that rhododendron helped you,
Right?
Yeah.
It helped you.
Yeah.
Yeah,
It really did.
And the other thing that's happening now for me is that I believe it's from all the satsangs and from,
You know,
From this group and just from turning my life this way,
I feel so much closer to nature now,
So much closer to nature.
And you guys that is what happens you feel closer to nature it's like right you start you know you we're meant to be in a love affair with mother nature really yeah Amma says nature was her.
Big teacher.
I can see why.
Oh,
It's great.
Wow.
You know,
A sleepless night,
The good thing about it,
You see,
Is it weakens us so we can't defend ourselves so well.
That's so true.
That's so great.
Yeah.
Thank you so much.
I feel so grateful to this group and to you today.
I really do.
Yeah.
It's getting clear on what's the linear mind and what is actually the heart.
And heart knowledge,
I think,
Is a big area of confusion in the West.
And I think this work is very valuable just for that.
You know,
Just for that.
Yeah.
Just as you say.
To be able to know the difference,
Like the feeling of the heart,
What it feels like when you get it in your body.
And then it's non-negotiable.
You've got it.
Right.
You've changed and that's the wonder of it.
It's like that's permanent.
It's kind of like getting a hug from mama in a way.
When we make these shifts,
She's hugging us energetically,
But it becomes permanent.
When you make these shifts,
Nobody can take them away from you.
And you see,
We have to come out of our linear mind to even begin this.
So don't take your mind so seriously,
You guys.
Please,
Just.
.
.
What did I call it?
The default mode network.
You know,
The non,
The non,
The non,
The non that runs.
Step back from it.
Step back.
Watch.
Yeah,
Right.
Oh,
This is really good work,
You guys.
I can feel everybody clicking.
It's really good.
It's so simple,
We trip over it,
You know?
Okay.
Yeah,
Good.
Thank you,
Pratibha.
That's lovely.
It's just lovely.
You know,
Pratibha was offered a house that was a cheap rent,
But the owner was going to cut down all these trees in the back garden,
And she said,
If you cut down the trees,
I will not rent the house.
And he didn't cut down the trees.
You guys,
This is the power of innocence.
This is how to develop your heart muscle.
Pratibha was unable to rent the house because of it.
So she stood with it.
This is it.
Just stand with the data you're getting.
Don't Don't force yourself to do something that feels wrong.
Good work.
Yeah.
Yay trees.
Yay rhododendron.
Jay Ma.
This is it,
You guys.
You see,
Sometimes.
.
.
Sorry,
I wondered if I could,
I want to let you finish,
But I wondered if I could add to that.
Yeah,
Go for it.
Where are you?
I'm not sure on your screen,
But this is Judy.
Okay,
There you are.
Yeah,
Sweetie.
Hi.
Hi.
For it totally dovetails with what we're talking about with nature,
Because I admit to being the one with the bird in the tree.
But when I told my husband about it,
He said,
No,
Judy,
That wasn't that wasn't the case that that nest has been empty for a while.
So you didn't save any.
And the bird wasn't there to thank you.
And that didn't happen.
And so that kind of set me back a bit.
And I thought,
Well,
He's probably I know he knows nature really well.
So I thought,
OK,
That didn't happen.
And yet I thought,
OK,
Our imagination is Our ticket.
To understanding.
So I thought,
But I got that download from the bird on the post looking right at me and then flying right into that tree.
So I thought,
I'm going to choose to believe I still got a download of a message that nature's on my side or whatever.
And here we are talking about nature here and my view beyond the screen here is all in my woods.
And as we're talking today,
This doesn't usually happen.
First,
A hummingbird fluttered across and was going across my line of view stopping at a flower and then I looked into the ferns in the back and here's there was the head of a deer just hiding in my ferns just just flicking its ears now and then and then right after that another piece of flock of turkeys went up in the hill behind there and I thought nature's talking to me today and all this conversation about rhododendrons and I thought now I have to throw it up to you to ask if I'm interpreting this correctly.
OK,
Judy,
One of the things,
And I'll tell you,
I wondered about the bird too.
Because,
Okay,
You guys listen to this.
When your heart gets activated.
Your linear mind will give you a story about this.
And the story is,
You know how when they're using AI and videos and they'll have like A lion.
Taking care of a sheep.
Have you seen any of these videos?
It's like,
It's just,
It's AI.
It's wishful thinking.
But it's like a story being created by the linear mind that is trying to kind of make sense of the data,
But the story will not be true.
Okay,
So this really is important you guys when you're.
Heart starts going,
Your linear mind will give you a story which is not true.
And it's right where people can lose their faith.
They'll go,
Oh,
God isn't really there,
Because the story computer like you could have a story you could you could have a heart opening you could meet somebody you could think it's true love you're going to get married and everything and then it turns out that that wasn't true at all so you go oh i've lost my faith But it's just because.
See,
Think of your linear mind as taking up 90% of the space and your heart's got 10%.
So when your heart gets activated,
The linear mind will give you a story,
But it does not want to get smaller.
It will give you a made up story.
This is kind of.
Some of you will get this,
Some of you will take some time.
So as you grow,
You see where the story was distorted by your witchful thinking,
And you surrender.
You go,
Okay,
Just show me the truth.
Show me the truth.
Show me the truth.
And gradually your heart gets bigger and bigger and your linear mind gets smaller and smaller and you trust your heart more and more.
But the first few stories after you wake up,
You guys will be wishful thinking.
Does this make sense to anybody?
Does anybody get this?
Okay,
When I had my first awakening,
I fell madly in love,
Got a big crush on somebody I was sure that we were meant to be.
We were not.
And that was very crushing for me.
And I thought,
Well,
I was so sure.
I was so sure.
Oh,
I've lost my faith.
I've lost my faith.
What happened?
Oh God,
It's a big joke.
Blah,
Blah,
Blah.
And this guy and I were never meant to be together.
It was just my linear mind giving me a story.
You see,
And then as I surrendered more and more,
Then I went and studied with Abraham and I got proper training.
Grounded heart training.
Okay.
There's something here.
We're just going to take a pause.
Grounded heart training.
This is what I wish to give you even though We're not living together on a Hawaiian island doing dance for 18 hours a day.
But I'm wishing to give it to you in a way that will be help you become grounded.
In this hard understanding.
Our minds are full of nonsense,
You guys.
The more you develop,
The more you just go,
Oh my goodness.
Really,
Any thought?
Just don't follow them.
This is higher level training than many of you are,
But I'll tell you what you do is you just stop following your thoughts.
You don't let them proceed.
You have a thought about the weather and then you start to go,
Oh,
I remember when it was so rainy this day when I was 10 and my dad was mean to me.
You just stop it.
But that's.
Takes a while.
Be patient.
Just knowing that your linear mind is in the business of making up stories.
To keep you in your ego.
And it's exactly where we can get so disillusioned with life.
But if you understand,
The game isn't for everything on earth to be perfect,
For everything in our lives to be perfect,
It's for us to wake up.
To our true nature.
And everything that's going on is just this ridiculous.
Transient,
Not important thing.
What's important is us.
Waking up to our true nature.
And having the guts to live it.
The stories of our linear mind,
They come from our attachments.
We're attached to people,
We're attached to things.
We're attached to our homes.
We're attached to.
.
.
These are where the stories come from.
It's okay,
You guys,
You're,
You know,
Lots of you are just going to start getting much simpler,
Much more down to earth.
And your minds are going to become quiet.
More quiet.
We're just in this leap,
This evolutionary leap.
It's just going to happen.
OK,
Is anybody?
Thank you.
Thank you,
Judy,
For speaking so humbly.
Yeah,
Right.
It's very,
Very beautiful.
And your gentle heart inside you.
That you've been so afraid of in a way is getting stronger and stronger.
It's very beautiful to watch.
Right.
I want to give you a It's like a pat on the back.
It's more than that.
Badge of honour.
Yeah.
Yeah,
Just keep going.
OK.
Some of you,
Did anybody feel stronger?
Remember last week I said you're gonna feel stronger this week,
I did.
It was just me.
Oops.
I'm teasing you,
You're all going to feel stronger if you didn't feel it last week.
You're still going to feel stronger with this.
What happens is You come into your heart,
You feel stronger.
You see how deluded we've been.
You get stronger.
Some of you want to please me like a parent,
And I empathize,
But that won't work.
It doesn't work,
But it's okay.
It's just what we're like.
You know,
Right.
Truth the truth is god you guys Stay really close to truth.
You cannot go wrong.
Truth is God.
Speak it with compassion,
Be compassionate with yourself,
But hold on to truth.
Some of you are kind of,
Yeah,
Show me how to be spiritual without making me have to hold on to truth,
You know,
And it's like,
Okay,
Good luck with that.
That's basically you're saying to me,
Give me the journey that's acceptable to my linear mind.
Some of you are really scared of truth,
But I'll tell you,
Truth is God.
Truth is such a relief.
It's good for our bodies.
It's good for our blood pressure.
It's good for all that.
Truth can keep the body alive long past what it should be doing.
It's like I told you,
Abraham smoked like a chimney,
You know,
And he had no symptoms and he died from something else.
He said,
I'm going to die tonight,
You know,
He was in perfect health.
There's a guy,
I was just reading about a guy,
I can't remember his name,
Of course.
But he's 250 years old,
And he's a very well-documented,
He's dead now,
But he was a very well-documented sage in India.
Countless documents.
250 years old.
If our soul wants us on the planet,
We will be in the planet,
No matter what our cholesterol is.
It's how it is.
That we're forgetting that.
We're getting absolutely paranoid about our health.
And we're getting told a million different things,
And it is the unhealthiest thing we could possibly do.
We've got to trust in our bodies.
A trust in the Creator.
Is anybody else?
Last room for one more commenter.
Okay,
Who's that?
I'm Nancy.
Nancy.
How are you?
What's going on?
So well,
Thank you.
This is the first time that I've.
.
.
I have my camera on.
I'm glad you're happy.
And I want to know if.
If the heart will never tell you that you need more structure.
I've been sort of like tossed by the waves for my whole spiritual journey.
And what you said about attachments almost answered the question because it's hard for me to find a rhythm just for myself because there's so many relationships and people that I work with.
Is it possible that,
Is it my linear mind that would tell me you need to have more of a discipline around spirituality,
Around your practice?
Or could it be my heart?
Yeah,
Kind of.
So what kind of practices do you do or how often?
Do you do them casually or do you put them off?
I put off things like journaling.
I do a lot of grounding,
I do a lot of physical things,
And I think.
I think that's so I.
I think it's things like.
.
.
If it's words,
Journaling causes me to think more,
So I don't do it.
Meditation,
I'm not,
Long periods of meditation I'm not great at.
Because it puts me into my body and I started thinking about my body.
I work with the body.
I'm a body worker.
I work with people in movement.
So it's like finding my soul because I'm so didactic and word based and left brain based,
But I've been trying to get into my body for so long to get out of that and to find my innocence.
That was very impactful for me,
What you said about a rock.
Being on my innocence.
That would not allow me to feel grounded on this planet.
Okay,
And remember the,
Just the.
This is being removed.
Okay,
So you don't have to like get in there and All you have to do is observe,
You guys.
For this.
Obstacle to innocence being removed,
Don't try to fix it.
So,
Nancy,
What kind of body work do you do?
I teach movement and I do myofascial release.
Unwinding,
Helping people to release trauma from their body.
Okay,
Okay,
Okay.
Okay,
I just want to feel into.
Okay,
Good.
Good.
You know,
When you put your hands in the body,
It's like the soul's in the body.
Body.
The body is made out of the soul.
It's like As you find your own innocence,
You will be able to access the innocence in everybody's body when you touch them.
Do you understand this?
I'm going to keep speaking.
It's like.
.
.
It's like,
It's like you.
It's like you're stuck in your linear mind and your linear mind has convinced you that there's kind of a problem when there isn't.
Much of a problem.
So,
Your truck just understand that your trouble with journey journaling is that you don't want to.
Here.
You're deeper.
Information.
You don't want to know too much about your heart.
Okay,
So she just.
See it like this.
Accept it.
Like,
Okay,
I don't want to journal.
And I also know that I want to be spiritual,
But I also know not journaling.
Is I'm avoiding exactly what I want.
And then don't try to fix it,
Nancy,
But just The truth,
You guys.
Just be with the truth and let time help you.
If you admit the truth,
What's going to happen is your psyche is going to see the dissonance and it will correct you.
It will change you.
Do you understand?
It's so insane to go,
I want to grow,
But I don't want to journal.
It's like you will be brought to journaling just to stay congruent.
Yeah,
You think your linear mind is you've relied on it a lot,
I can feel it.
It feels very strong to you.
And yet,
In a way,
It's just a balloon.
That you can let go of.
It's just actually nonsense that you can stop listening to anytime.
There is nothing stopping you from when you touch the person.
To keep in mind that they're part of the creator,
Even as you're doing your work.
And if you can't do that,
Just notice that you can't do it.
Don't try to fix.
But just want to be able to do that.
You see,
Part of you is like deeply scared of actually weaving the truth into your lived life.
That is what the problem is.
That is what the block is.
It's like,
Not allowed,
Not allowed,
Verboten,
Verboten,
Red lights,
Alarms,
No.
You know,
It's way safer to let it in.
And refusing to let it in like you do makes you very tense.
And a little staccato.
Right and that's.
Right,
You don't have to.
Be that way.
Everything can get done in a more relaxed way.
It just takes time to learn how to live this way.
And Nancy,
We have to learn to be.
Gentler with ourselves.
And to understand we're really like abused children in the West,
Like we're so disconnected,
We're so.
.
.
Far from our truth that we we just have to Be very patient,
Like if you're taking in a child who's had a really hard time.
Right.
How do you feel right now?
Honest,
Be very honest.
Yeah,
I feel torn because I have been pursuing.
Understanding the physical body and how it relates to our expressions and our emotions.
And it makes me wonder if I've been wasting my time.
And on the wrong path.
But I have just an extraordinary,
Like what I see is downloads about energy and the way it moves the organs and the softness that it brings when we have not an understanding,
But a sense.
Mm hmm.
And this is all good.
Just No,
No,
You haven't been on the wrong thing.
Just let what I'm sort of encouraging,
Let it enhance your existing knowledge.
You guys,
When our soul comes in more,
It enhances.
What we've already done.
And Nancy,
What I've been feeling myself do energetically is put my hand on the back of your neck.
Which is for the transcendent body approach means self-esteem.
So it's like.
To strengthen your self-esteem so that you'll have space to allow the truth of you in more.
Just let it.
Enhance.
Remember,
When I'm speaking,
I see How do I put it?
I'm seeing you from.
.
.
It's like,
I don't know how to say this without sounding pompous,
You guys,
But it's sort of like I see you from a higher altitude.
So just so you have your experience and premise to seeing you from a higher altitude.
So just let it all be okay,
Your experience.
And also what premise is saying that premise Suda was saying enhance you Right.
Okay.
You're getting that.
Okay.
In fact,
There's been a direct.
There's been a direct,
It's almost as if I've touched you now.
In the back of your neck and your spine.
Right.
There's a kind of,
It's like.
It's.
You could even have.
Oh,
I don't know how to put this.
Hold on.
Oh my God.
I don't want to say this.
I'm getting told not to say it.
But it's very good news.
OK,
Let's put it like that.
It's really good.
I'm not to tell you though,
I'm not to tell your linear mind.
Because your linear mind will want to argue,
And I'm just not too.
You see how well we're loved and known.
I mean,
This is,
You know,
That's it.
Good.
And you've accepted this.
This is good work.
Yeah.
How are you feeling?
I feel joy inside.
Yeah,
It's good.
It's good.
It feels like an opening.
Yeah.
Okay,
This is good.
Good.
This is you see the permeable.
Thing.
You guys have all done this.
You will feel the shifts at different times.
I'm like,
I am so ecstatically happy.
With you guys like,
You know,
We're all bumping up,
All of us.
It's like there's more love power coming through.
You're getting it more.
And even if you feel more confused,
Just let that be,
Okay?
Don't make it wrong.
We get confused on the way.
If we're confused,
We'll end up coming out of confusion.
Yeah.
This is good.
And there's this growth in humility in you guys.
I can feel it.
And remember,
Some of you are a little slow on this.
Remember,
Humility.
It's like it's just being open to learn.
That's all I'm talking about,
Just being open to learn.
Nobody's better than anybody else.
We're all the same.
Were all the same.
Be open to learn,
And even if your sacred cows are threatened,
Just stay open to learn.
Premasuddha had to give over so many sacred cows.
Like,
Believe me.
Don't hold on to them.
Just don't.
Yes.
They're kind of the biggest place where our ego gets us.
You guys,
This has been absolutely a delight.
And next weekend we'll have the,
You know,
The Dreams and Memories Satsang and the,
You know,
This kind of Satsang.
It's fantastic work you've done,
You guys.
You're just,
You're all my good books.
I'm kidding you.
You're always in my good books.
But it's just wonderful.
See you guys.
Bye.
