Embody Your True Nature

This satsang gives the backstory to my own life and the experiences that brought me to this teaching/knowledge.

Amma/the Creator is the source of whatever grace flows through, but this satsang offers real insight into how teachers emerge and the way all difficulties are solvable through learning to embody our true Natures.

I had early trauma and experienced physical violence growing up but luckily I opened up to the Creator's energy through the birth of my younger brother, who was like the Christ child to me.

Several came forward with questions that were solved in compassion and forgiveness for our own dear injured selves. Everyone felt lighter and happier as they experienced unconditional love through the satsang.

It was noted that it really helps to seek the highest good for ourselves and others, even if we are in conflict with them. That auspicious approach gives Amma/the Creator the most room to solve problems in the most beneficent way.

Speakers: Deva, Marion, Sivamayi, Laura

Transcript

In calling on grace, May the grace fill you up with our 21st century intellects. It makes it like a desert for grace sometimes, So sometimes we have to use a little effort. Back to the simplicity of grace, This whole world is made out of grace, May you feel it more and more. This is what I want to talk to you about today, It's about the rise of the divine feminine and I want to spell some things out to you guys, Got some rallies going on. I want to spell things out really clearly to you, Because there's several around me who are like fighting with me, Arguing, You know, Actually denigrating the work, And it's kind of like, I want to really spell out where this has come from, Okay? So it's really clear, So you can see the enormity of where it comes from. And I'm doing this because I'm thinking it might help your trust and it might be a little easier on Premasuddha. Okay, So, A dear one was speaking with me and he said, You know, Your whole life has been the rise of the divine feminine, And it's true. And I have told you guys about my early years with my mom having a nervous breakdown, She did not take good care of me. I would sit next to the wall and rock. And my older brother, Who is four years older, Part of why she was having a nervous breakdown, He had encephalitis and it left him with these periods of random violence, And he would go after me and just punch me out. I would come out. I have very good memories coming out on the porch, And he comes up to me and smashes my nose, And I'm looking at blood pouring down. There's another one where I was six and he was ten. He was chasing me for four blocks, I'm finally exhausted. I put my hands up, Go like, I squat down, Put my hands up to protect myself from the fists that would come, And my brother said, I'm not angry anymore, And we both walked home. Okay, I've told you this, But I really want you to listen because there's a really big story in all of this about why this work is so magical. So, You know, My mom had been beaten by her dad, So I think this is why she didn't stop it. She was, Her ego was used to the feminine being beaten. Okay, So as you know, With any psychologist, I'd say, With this kind of start, There wouldn't be much hope for this child that I was. What happened was when I was seven, My little brother was born, And probably out of my existential desperation, He was like the Christ child for me. I had a huge spiritual opening just at seven. I tapped into the divine, And I think it was to save me. And I would look after, I would get his bottles because my mother was so tired for taking care of four kids that she would sleep right through his crying. I would get his bottles. For years, Until I was 12, I would come home from school and I would just, I wouldn't play with any friends. I would just spend time with him because it was like I tapped into the Creator's energy through him. He was like baby Krishna. So when I was seven, When I was 12, I insisted my parents send me to boarding school, And I see now it was to break the bond with my brother because I was going to move into a teenage hood. And they did, And you know, I sent sad letters home the whole year, But anyway, It did give me, It enabled me to face teenage hood. All right. So I had five years of playing in the divine energy, And I also had this very upset patterning. So in my life, I have had a choice of where I want to play. And the periods of the nervous breakdown that I had was on one level, It was kind of inevitable because I've been patterned that way with my mom. So I got some stresses and it pushed me into that chaotic patterning. But in another point, It was a real choice point for me between the fear of the patterning and the joy of the Creator's energy that I experienced with my brother. It was a choice, And it was a real choice of good and evil. And I learned a lot about evil when I was in that and really did not want to go there. So very radically, As I emerged from this, You know, The two nervous breakdowns in my 30s, I moved into truth. Okay. Now I want to, You know, All the levels of miracles that prematurity experiences and lives with. So, You know, There was a miracle of my son being healed of leukemia. There was another miracle when in during this period of distraught, I took a massive overdose and got to the hospital far too late to have my stomach pumped. And the doctors told my friends I was going to die. I did not die. My body neutralized all the poison. And the reason it did this, I feel, Is because when I took this overdose, I just wanted to get to God. It was totally innocent. Okay, This is the power of innocence. I'm not recommending doing this at all. But I had no ill effects. No long-term damage. No death. Okay. Because I was tapping into the Creator. Okay. So, You guys, For 30 years, People have told me that they've, You know, Gotten over illnesses through the work Pramasutha's done. Okay. Pramasutha is living and teaching this divine feminine. Okay. And I hit your intellects and your patterning coming from the patriarchy, And you go, What? And you know, You guys, You have to choose it. You have to choose to grow, Because if you try to compute what Pramasutha is teaching you with your regular thinking, You're not going to get anywhere. And this is what's happening. I mean, I'm getting a lot of people right now arguing with me. I'm getting people discounting, And it's kind of like, Man, What I have gone through to bring this knowledge for. So, For example, As a result of, You know, Going through that tumultuous period in my early 30s, I had access, Well, I had access to the divine from the time my younger brother was born. But especially after that period, I tapped into information. So this is where this information about the body, The transcendent body approach came from. Okay. This occurred through meditation, And also Pramasutha tested it. Yeah. So this is, I teach the body approach to help you out of your egos, So that you have a kind of something to hold you in the halfway place as you start bonding to the Creator. So if you can understand that if you've got pain in your ribs, It's because you're moving into more trust. Or if you've got pain in your shoulders, It's an issue around taking responsibility. Now, It sounds so simple. It's not for you guys. There is a level of intelligence in my family line. So my dad was a multi, Head of a multinational. My brother is a genius. He's a physicist, A genius. He has, His gift is building incredibly useful machines out of a few simple things, Like, You know, Like a paperclip, A nail, And a zipper or something. Anyway, I mean, I'm exaggerating, But that was his gift. He could build very complicated machines for, Like, Under $100 that would do incredible things. There's something in the stratosphere that measures pollution out in outer space that he built. OK, The Pramasutra has a lot of the teaching, The spiritual teaching that I teach has in lots of ways a similar simplicity to it. It's very, Very simple, And it's infinitely deep. Because it's simple, It's easy to discount it, And it gets discounted, And I've had it. It's like, Find another teacher. If you want to just argue with me and discount what I'm teaching, Just find another teacher, Because this work is absolutely priceless. And I've spent four decades around masters. And do you guys live so deeply? Are you guys so innocent? Please, Think about this. Yeah. There was a whole well-heeled, Rich life that Pramasutra could have had so easily. But you know why I didn't? It's because I couldn't stand these levels of pain coming down not only my family line, But other family lines. And I wanted to do something, Especially about female suffering, Because I saw my mother's suffering up close and personal. Now, She suffered now, And old enough and wise enough, I see that she suffered because she didn't have the guts to face her fear. So she suffered. But Pramasutra doesn't suffer because she doesn't have the guts. But on the other hand, I was kind of the end of the line. It's like, I just couldn't do anything else if I wanted to have any kind of life at all. And this work gets treated like not much. And people argue with me a lot. Or just ignore. It's like, You guys still read my books? I was talking to somebody who's on page five of my book for, Like, Because I asked you guys to read for weeks. OK. It's just another way to say, Oh, This isn't important. This isn't much. And yet you'll present, Go, I really want this knowledge. And to get this knowledge, You have to suspend your belief system. You have to be open to learn another way. Because if you're not open to it, How can you learn? The other thing, One of the big things I teach is, This above all to thine own self be true. And I'll tell you what I learned, It was especially after the first breakdown and I was trying to get it together. And I had no money, Had lost my kids. My husband left, Had nothing. My sister said, Come stay with me. I got, Don't do it. But I had no money, So I overruled it. This is something you guys do a lot. I see you. You get data and you overrule it for practical reasons. OK, So I walked into, Because of the way my life has gone, I didn't have the freedom to screw around with it. So I ignored it and I walked into a second, Heavier one, Nervous breakdown. And I learned, This is why, This is where I learned, I don't, I don't go against my data. It costs too much. If you say, If you are on the journey, If you're seriously on the journey, You'll find that you cannot go against your data, That it will just cost too much. And if you can do it, It's because you're not seriously on the journey. Because if you're really on the journey, Your soul won't let it, Let you. Yeah, So I really want to spell this out. And I understand, Like, You don't, It's not like you have to, Like, Kowtow to me in a negative way, But I want you to stay open to me because that, You guys, It's innocence. Amma talks about innocence is the most powerful energy in the world. It's the most powerful force in the world. Premasuddha's whole story is the triumph of innocence. That is why this work has progressed. I just really, Really wanted to help. It's like decode this enough. And especially to support the feminine consciousness. Feminine face of God consciousness, Which men need it supported, Too, Because men can't blossom without it. We all blossom through the feminine. If we don't have the feminine, We get a cruel fascist world. We get a cruel, Fascist, Death loving world. That's why it's so important that we women, That we, Like, Follow, Stay true to our guidance and speak from our feminine and don't douse it. Don't second guess it. Just come forward. We need it more than anything. Amma said, She said recently that without the feminine, We don't have the world. Things will get more and more off balance if women, If women keep emphasizing the masculine in them. But you guys, It pays to. It often, Yeah, It really pays to, It seems to, It seems to work. But not if you're losing your soul, Sweeties. And the men get really lost if the women aren't true. Because the feminine comes to us, We're the feminine. You know, It's secondary in them. And, You know, I know how confusing and difficult the journey is. And the reason the people who are fighting with me, It's because they do not want to surrender. They do not know how to surrender. And, You know, You only find out about how to surrender when really your life gets so horrible that you realize that you really have to learn. Otherwise, You don't learn, Most times. But Ama has said, I heard her say that some people don't even surrender, Even when it's horrible, And they just hold on tight and just keep living horrifying lives without surrender. You don't want to do that. You want to learn how to surrender. Really pray, Learn how to surrender, Get really good at surrendering, Because your life will get so much worse. So much easier. It's blissful. Just surrender and the answers come. It's much better than holding on to a false life. And for women, It's much better to surrender to your true nature than to try to like be, You know, Second rate man is what most of us feel like. You know, Ama was talking about how, In the old days, Women, They weren't allowed to, In India, They weren't allowed to raise their voices or laugh. And if they were doing housework and the man came home, They had to hide their broom and everything, Hide the fact they're cleaning the house as if houses magically cleaned themselves. And she said that women end up with inferiority complexes, And that's what you guys have. You guys, Women, All of you, You've got inferiority complex, Really. Just about being yourself. Yeah, You're ashamed of your true nature. OK, You can overcome this, You can see it and and overcome it. And part of what this, You know, The transcendent body approach is to help you, To give you support as you overcome this stuff. And so you start to blossom. So you can blossom. There's scary moments, But, You know, If you, You know, Ama. You know, If, If knowing Prama Sutta brings you closer to Ama, That's what I want, If it really opens you up, Because some of you, You call Ama your teacher, But really you don't feel very close to her. And then some of you come to me and then don't feel close to me and fight with me and everything. And I'm kind of like, Ah. Really, What I'd like is that if, You know, From knowing Prama Sutta, You feel closer to Ama and receive Ama's grace more and get deeper darshan. And then if you do that, You'll also understand what Prama Sutta is talking about more. Yeah, You're so adorable. I just, I just get like, I just get flummoxed because I'm like, Oh my goodness. I go, Why is Prama Sutta surrounded by so much ambivalence and kind of disrespect? It's kind of like, What? And I know it's not personal. It's you guys, You're just having trouble with your egos. It's nothing to do with Prama Sutta, Really, You know. I really wanted to spell this out. About where this knowledge came from. And the hugeness of it. So, You know, When I started getting the information, The transcendent body approach, I had an apprentice back in those days. And she brought this copy from ancient India. And it was this copy of the book, And it was the same thing as what I was saying, But it was far more complex. So mine was like a little child's version of it. But the book was saying the same things, And it was by these sages. And I went, Oh, I knew I was on the right track. I knew it. But that's how deeply accurate it is. So just open to it and, You know, Use it. It's supposed to be like a support. So that when you're letting go of your ego, See, When you, You know, Say Prama Sutta. When I was letting go of Janet Hobbs being born in Richville, Vancouver, It gave me something to stand with. Like something to hold me, That gave me some kind of structure. So I could go, Okay, Like I got shoulder pain and pain in my joints. It's like, Okay, The issue is resistance to chi, And I'm taking up, I'm taking too much responsibility. So that's why I teach it. And sometimes you guys, Some of you, Some of the tendency over the years was people would pick it up with their head and play with it like a party trick. But it wasn't a very, It wasn't a deep thing at all. Like they weren't working deeply. They were just working in like 2%, The first two levels of clearing. So, Which is, You know, Where you start. But it was really helpful for me when I was going through really big steps and didn't know what was up or down. And I could say, Okay, I've got shoulder pain, Issues, I'm taking too much responsibility. And it enabled me to, On my ego, Rather than giving it over to God, It allowed me to stay functional. I could stay functional. Yeah. And the cool energy coming through, If you know that's feminine. Cold, It can be numbness or fear, But the cool is the feminine. Yeah. So, Yes, I've finished really kind of what I wanted to say. It took much shorter time. So, Has anybody got any questions or comments or, You know, Let it rip, Please. You've got. I'm interested. I'm interested and anything goes. You don't have to please me, You guys. You don't have to please me at all. I just want you to get this is high level teaching and you could go a long way with it. If you take it seriously. Anybody. Anybody have any questions about, Like, Just issues with their own life? Something completely different. Hello. Hello. Hi. Hi. Yeah. So, It takes me some courage to open up. Yeah. My voice. Thank you. It's great to be here. Yeah. I mean, I feel I'm really in an interesting in between phase in my life. So, The old doesn't work anymore. Yeah. The new is still in the unknown somehow. There's not a real strong plan. There's some feelings. There's a lot of positive. There's a positive attitude towards the future, But it's still unknown. And first of all, It sounds very interesting to me what you said. I have big shoulder pain in my right shoulder since long time. Since long time. So, I'm a little bit confused about what you said. Is it too much responsibility I take or is it too less? Yeah. Too much on your male side. So, Action in the world and it's like you're trying to solve problems just with you. You're not calling on your creator enough. You're not giving it over enough. Okay. Because when I feel like I can't give it over, I, For example, Get a dinner invitation. What my life would make it easier. But then I don't follow it because I feel like, No, I have to care for myself. And then I get another invitation. Stop for a minute. Stop for a minute. So, I'm talking about surrendering to the creator. And what's the thing about the dinner invitation? My point is that I feel like there is some support from outside through people. And still I'm holding on to I have to do it on my own everything. Like I have to get my food and my dinner and have to prepare everything on my own. And I'm not sure. Sorry. No, No, No. I'm listening. Go ahead. Is it a good thing to rely on myself more and more and denying the support of some people here and there? Or is it a deep mistrust in other people? I think you should experiment. I think you should experiment. It's funny. There's a sweet one in the group. Your difficulty is you're not the only one. I know several women who have this trouble. Yeah. You could experiment. Do you know? Yeah. I mean, You know, When a woman needs help, Often their people surrounding, Surround her and offer help. So you could maybe like check the, You know, Step out on thin ice, Like check and see if the support's really there. If it's authentic. Whether you can trust it. Experiment. Okay. Yeah. If you don't experiment, You'll never know. I mean, I experiment with it, But it comes to a point where I feel like my inner child is maybe using this people like it's so easy to get the support sometimes. And like kind of that this inner child has been running around the town, Going there and going there, Getting things. But there's this more grown up part of my inner system, Which feels like, Oh girl. This is a nice game, But come home to yourself and take some responsibility for yourself and for your journey and for, For really this path. I'm really like, I'm really on, On this part was so paths for so long. And I feel just that sometimes, How to say that? Maybe it's like not really growing up still. Like, I don't know. Do you feel me? I think you got to take this to, To, To the creator. Do you know Amma? You know Amma? Yes. Yeah, You got to take it to Amma. Like, You know, I mean, There's a way that I think you're being a little hard on your child. You're being a little bloodless with her going, Well, You know, This isn't the best and you're a little bad for enjoying yourself, You know. And I want to see more of a heartfelt surrender about this, A surrender to the creator, Like to show you how to move forward in your journey. And what's, And, And to, To really show you like what's dissipating your energy and what's healthy, You know. Sometimes seeing people is healthy and to let you know, Then when it's not, Like, You know, Like, Insist on finding out the answer to this. This is what I did. I mean, I would just take this to the creator and ask for help. And then I would really listen and then follow. You're not stuck. You're not really stuck. I mean, It's just a surrender that you need to do to let the creator help you. Yeah, I feel like I'm in a constant communication. And I'm really like, I'm reading all day long stuff and I'm journaling and I try to sing and I'm really, I'm really like dedicated and I'm asking for guidance all the time. I think you're a little alienated from your child. I didn't hear like heartfeltness when you were talking about it. Like the inner child, She's not separate from you. She is you. She's not just the part that wants to socialize. She is everything about you is that your child. Yeah, I understand. But she also brought me in some difficulties. I just feel like if I just surrender to this inner child, I also end up in more difficulties in my life. Yeah, Because the inner child's injured. You guys, What you're wanting is to have the love that inner child so that she heals into the divine child. Thank you. Right. You love her with a full frontal, Huge love. And when you do that, Her divinity starts shining through. There's part of you, You're, You're, There's a little bit like you're, You're, Listen to this afterwards. Okay, Sweet one. Listen to this tape. Okay. There's a little bit you're, You're caught, You're, You're speaking in a way from your linear mind. And I'm wanting you to drop into your heart more. It's like this linear mind is the part that says, Well, If I let my child, She'll like, She'll distract me too much and she'll help me socialize. It's like, You're, You're, Your inner child is actually very sad. Do you know that? Yes. I see that she is sad of the experience as a child and neglect abandonment from the mother's side. And I see the pain and I feel sometimes she's running around looking for the love outside from men or other people. You are like, There's no separation. That is what you do. You are her. This is the phony thing we Westerners do. If we separate the inter child, We're all in our inter child state until we become enlightened. And then it's the divine child. You live in the divine child. Okay. I want to take that deep inside. Yeah. It, It gets very simple and more raw. So, Pramasutra would be, My whole life was my inter child feeling I loved and me talking to God endlessly. And then, You see, You tap into your divinity through the child. Okay. Okay. There's, You're opening to more innocence. I can feel it. You're, I can feel this innocence in you that's, It's almost like this. Yeah, I don't want to get too wordy. Yeah, This innocence. I mean, If your child feels more love, You're going to become very innocent. Very pure of heart. Right. Yeah. You're going to have to love her. Like, Pramasutra, I would have all kinds of struggles with my child. My child would keep on, Like, It would be, My child self would be too, I'd push things. You know, I'd do it for fear that I wasn't going to get something or push something. And then it would backfire. And then I'd have to just forgive myself and love myself. And then that's how the fear dropped away. Yeah. There's part of you, It's, Yeah, Dropping down in more of the lived experience. Where do you live? Berlin, Germany. Okay. Yeah. Yeah, I don't know how else to say it. Like, You are in your injured child now. You're speaking from your injured child. Even as you're talking about your child self liking to do social things. You see, That's how complicated it gets. Yeah, It's so complicated because I feel there are these other parts of myself. They can be much more tough and strong and, Like, Hard and having strong borders and going for goals. All the masculine training. That's what you're talking about. Masculine training is probably why your shoulder hurts. So I should maybe bring that part to peace? You are not in charge. You're saying to me, Really, You're saying, So I'm talking to your ego and your ego is saying, So I should bring this part to peace. You don't have any control. You don't. You can't. You just need to get that. You need to deepen and become more deeply honest. More deeply honest with yourself and you guys, That's almost universal across the whole board of everybody here at the Zoom. Become more deeply honest. And reflect on your experience deeply. You guys, A lot of what we do is we turn spirituality into kind of a parlor game in a way. It's not. You know, Sweet One, If you focus, If you focus, You know, The tradition is, If you say your mantra, Or if you focus on a virtue, A Pramasutra focused on embodying love. If you do that, Then you start embodying all the virtues. Like the Eastern training, The Eastern traditions are the only thing that really works, You guys. This is what I found. It's thousands of years of experimentation. So if you just start saying your mantra a lot more, When you're upset, Say your mantra. Just think about God. Just think about God. Just say your mantra. Or do what Pramasutra did. I decided I wanted to embody love in every interaction, In everything I did. There are things that they used to say would work. And you see, In the West, We can get caught and just turn it into a big mind game, And we don't even know we've done it. We don't even know we've done it. We don't even know we're doing it. And I'm not saying you're doing that, But I'm saying that, Yeah, You could deepen into more. You could deepen. I want to tell you, You're very beautiful. Your energy, It's very, Very beautiful. The energy we're talking about, This little munchkin in you, She's just adorable. She's just adorable, And she knows so much. She knows so much. And as she learns to trust you more, As you become more trustworthy, She will give you so much information about yourself and other people. But you're going to have to really earn her trust for her to give you this information. Right. And, You know, Mantras, You know, Calms the mind. Minds drop down. That's it. That's it. You're open to learn, Sweet one. That's good. So, I mean, Like, So play around with it for a month and see how you do. Good. That's good. You know, Amma's pedal meditation, That's really good. No. I will look it up. Yeah, Look it up. Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you for speaking up because this helped everybody. Thank you. Yeah. Thank you. Okay. Ladies or gentlemen, Who's coming forward? Hello from a Sudets, Marion. Marion, How are you, Sweet one? Still my ups and downs, Of course. I was listening to the Satsang from last Sunday. Yeah. Two times where you spoke about getting along with our creaturehood. Yeah. Our human creature. Yeah. And not to take emotions too seriously or not to judge about them, To see them. Yeah. Not to judge about them. This is great. And yeah, That's what I'm trying to do because, Again, In my life, There's some issues which really make me very angry. And I'm trying to get what is. . . It feels like as if it was very thin ice between. . . Like trying to find out what is my intuition and what is like what I want to do. And. . . No, I lost track. Like and to be caught in the ego. Okay. The way we come out of our ego is we have a highest good goal. If we've got a goal to like get what we want, Our intuition will tend to get contaminated by our ego. But if you've got like a really like the highest good for everybody involved, You've got that kind of purity of heart, You should be able to tell, Especially by results, Because if you, You know, If you get an intuition and you go forward with it, If it's really a beneficent intuition, It will work well. Okay. If it's corrupted by the ego, It won't work well. Or if it's colored by fear, It won't work well. Okay. If it's colored by fear. Okay. Yeah. So is this more of a snarl with your ex-husband and your daughter? Is it more of the same? No, No, No, No. It has something to do with my work situation. Oh, Your work situation. Yeah. I have a colleague who just asked me for a favor and I did it. I did her work, Kind of like, And then she told me, Now you have to do this and now you have to do that. And do you want to tell me how I should do my work? And it seems like, Well, Don't ask me for a favor and treat me like that afterwards. Like, It's like, Don't do that. It's like she crossed my border and I, She crossed the line and I couldn't say it on the right moment. It feels like that, That I couldn't say it on the right moment. And then she stepped again and again and again. And now I'm, I'm really angry. And this is like, I have thoughts like in my brain, Like going to my boss and tell him to tell her that she has to do her work. And then I feel this is not the right way. Like, It's not, This is not what I want to do. I want to focus on my work and hope that she's doing hers and that's it. And actually it's more like, I'm tired, I'm exhausted and I have to ask him for help. That he is my, My, My boss, That he, That he just organizes, That he organizes what he has to organize, That everybody can do their own work. Like I have no, No capacity to do hers as well. No. And especially if she's, If she's treating me like that. So, So then, Then it's getting. So could you, Is there anything, Can you speak to her about this? Say, We seem to have gotten off on the wrong foot ever since. I don't think so. It doesn't feel like it. It doesn't feel like it. You don't feel you can say anything? No, Because, Because I know another colleague who, Who has tried it and she didn't go anywhere except frustration. And I don't want to be frustrated. I just want to do my work. And it really brings me into, Into tears because I'm, Again, Trying to get rid of something which is not mine. But. She asked for help and you helped her and then she started asking you for more help and then, And was disrespectful. Yeah, She was disrespectful and writes emails and so like she's not in contact personally. And this email is like, Yeah, Right. It's just like, What are we doing here? Actually, I just. Yeah. Off balance, You know, People are getting. The helpers are, The helpers are acting like in kindergarten and we have no capacity left for the clients. And this is so messed up. It's all so messed up. So, It's everybody's in the child, Right? So. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, I guess, You know. And again, And again, This thing of, I don't want to try to fix it. So, I don't want to. So, Because it's not my job. So, You mean your boss should fix it? Yeah. Yeah, And I have to be, I have to be honest to him, Like to tell him I'm tired of doing her job and I'm tired of being treated like that. Do something and then. You think that would work? Would it work? Do you think it would work? I don't know. I don't know. Maybe he would try. I don't know. Probably not. Yeah, We get these things, Guys. I mean, This is. Yeah, I mean, I would just like what I do is like I feel everything, Feel everything, Journal about it, Pray about it, And then do your best guess about what the highest good is. Say your mantra. Really, Guys. Mantra is priceless. Mantras, Prayers are priceless. These, I mean, Everything's getting more upset. You know, These days, People are losing their balance and people, You know, They don't always behave well. Yeah. Yeah, I mean, In the last satsang you said maybe it's the best thing you could do to yell at someone, Like, Instead of totally trying to suppress it. But I don't want to yell at her and I don't want to yell at him. I don't want to yell at all. I just love truth, You know. I mean, Put the truth as pleasantly as possible, You know, As unblamey as possible. Truth is a rock. It carried Pramasutra. Yeah. It's the I message, I feel, You know. You, You're skilled enough. I know that if you, If you want to, You can handle this very skillfully. I know you could. I know you could. I know you could. Yeah. Right. Okay, That's good. Okay, So sometimes we just need to complain to somebody and then we, It gives us a bit of space so we can then address the situation. I have a lot of faith in you. I think you could address this quite simply. Take her some flowers and, Um, I don't know. Make her some cookies. Put something in the cookies. I'm kidding. I'm kidding. Yeah. I just know that you'll just pray for grace for how to handle it. It could be solved very sweetly, I feel, You know, Doesn't have to be that difficult. Do your best with it. Okay, Thank you. You've got my blessings. Ask for Amma's help. Okay. Highest good. Pray for the highest good for her and you. Yeah. Yeah. If you're praying for the highest good for both, If you come and you do things of the highest good, It will get solved much better and more easily. Yeah. I was really big on the highest good. Yeah. That helps. Yeah, It helps. Yeah. Right. I feel more lightened right now. Like, My heart is lightened only by thinking of that it's going to be fine. Like, I don't want to fight. I don't want to struggle. I don't. Yeah. Do the highest good. Do the simple. It's like you got space. Okay, So you were like, You were embraced and you got the space to speak and you got the space for your feelings. You guys see? She got space for her feelings. She could, You know, She wasn't judged or everything. And then she was just gently guided to go for the higher. Go for the higher thing. Go for the highest good. You know, Alma says our minds go down. Okay. But. But when you when you bring the divine in, It turns mind up. It's like water flows down. But if you heat water, It turns into steam and it goes up. Okay, So this is what Alma says. So what we do is we keep referring to the creator. Keep referring to the highest good. You know, What's the most beneficent thing? And this steers our mind up. And that's the answer, You guys. Always to go up. And then you learn how to blossom. You learn. Wow. Life gets so much sweeter when we do this. Truly. I mean, This is what Prima Sudha found. Yeah. Okay. Good. Okay. You are better. Yeah. Okay. Thank you. Good question. Thank you for bringing us. Okay. You guys. Yeah. Yeah. Good. So what? What's. Who else wants to go? This is great. You guys. You know, Many of us, We try to fix things with this patriarchy. So we'll try to fix situations. And lots of times we just need somebody to listen to us so that we've got the space to hear ourselves talk. And we hear what we have to say. And sometimes we don't even like what's coming out of our mouths. And that helps us to hear it. And then we don't like what's coming out of our mouths. So we go, Okay. Like, I'm open to, Like, Do something different with the situation. Because I can hear myself sounding like a herping. Yeah. But, You know, Emotions need space. We all need space to be able to talk about how we're feeling. And if you don't have someone to speak with, You know, You write in your journal. Just give yourself space to feel your feeling. That's the way of the feminine, You guys. The emotions are a form of intelligence. So if we ignore them or repress them, We're repressing aspects of our own intelligence. If you get really good at feeling, You know, Your emotions when they come up and noticing them, It's almost like sometimes we're in our private symphony. You've got a symphony of material going on inside and you're just feeling it all. And when we do that, Just feel it without judging it, What will happen often is something new will come up. A new insight or a memory will come up. It helps solve the problem. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I feel there's a lot of wishing in the group. Wishing. Wishing things were better. Wishing. Wishing for more enlightenment. You know, Wishes come true. There's expression, Hook your wagon to the stars. What's your wagon? Yeah. That's what Pramasiddha did. In a dream of who I wanted to become, You know. Hook your wagon to your star. What you're wanting. And then, You know, Have courage and live it. Anybody else have any questions? This is Shiva Mai. Can you hear me? Yeah. My video won't. Yeah. My video doesn't come up. So, I don't know why that is. But I just wanted to. I recognize your voice. Yeah. Yeah. I just wanted to. I'm not really sure what I really want to say. So, You know, It's like you said, Once you say it, I'll know what it is. But, You know, When you get on us like that, It makes me always feel like, You know, I'm doing things wrong and I want to do things better. And I feel that way with Amma, Too. And she'll say we all are, You know, She'll talk about the things we all need to do, Too, You know. And sometimes it just feels so, Oh, I guess it's not true. I was going to say I feel so helpless. But I guess in reality, I know what I do, You know, The ways I avoid growing. So, I just wanted to say that, That I. So, It hooks you with the injured child, I guess. I guess. Yeah. When I was, I think, Honestly, It might even be previous life things. I can remember in church when, You know, There was the guy that in the gospel that Jesus said, Well, Sell everything and, You know, Go follow me. Come follow me, You know. And he couldn't do it. And he couldn't do it. And even as a kid, I felt this heartache for him that he wasn't able to do. That gospel really hooked me, You know, Back even as a kid. So. Oh. That's so sweet that you felt for him. It's so sweet. It's so sweet, Bubby. Yeah. Yeah. What a good heart you've got. What a deep heart you've got. That you would feel compassion for him as a kid. I'm really, I'm really touched. Yeah. How are you doing? I feel sad. Well, I just feel that pain of not being able to sell everything and follow. But I do. I can do that, You know. And I just need to admit it, That there's, You know, That I'm in my own way. If that makes sense. Yeah, Sweetie. But, You know, We need a lot of compassion and forgiveness for these patterns. So it's like you even knew as a little kid that you came in with this pattern. I mean, That's why it moved you with the man. Because you were carrying it, You see. So it's not just from this life. Yeah. So we need a lot of compassion. Like really, Really compassion. I mean, I know this is hard for you. But, Yeah, Just compassion. I mean, First of all, Seeing it and admitting it. And then having compassion for yourself. Because, I mean, You came in with this pattern. And there was a heavy conditioning with your dad. And so, You know, Who wouldn't be a little hopeless? Right? Right. Yeah. Anybody would have a level of hopelessness. Yeah. So, You know, You can just, Like, Just, Yeah, Be with it. And it's good raising it. Raising it in the satsang, You know. Because talking about it, Shining a light on it. Like, Yeah. I mean, Here it is again. And, Yeah, It feels hard to really commit. But you have grown so much since I met you. Off the charts. Like you, I've been gobsmacked by your progress, Really. I'm not flattering you. You know that. You were one of the ones that was really disrespectful at the start. And you've stopped that. And it's not just that you've dropped the disrespect. You've really changed. Yeah. And you may not notice how much you've changed. But I see it. And you're a lot humbler. You're a lot more open to learn. And that beautiful heart of yours shines through. It just shines through. I was hopeless, Too. The only thing that was, I couldn't stop, You know. I mean, I had to keep going. I had nowhere. I had no safety. So I had to move through the hopelessness over and over again. You know, Shiva, My lot that solves hopelessness is acceptance. We just accept what is. And that's not from the hopeless place, Though. It's from more of the divine place. The other thing is I noticed that if I just stayed with the hopelessness, It gradually changed. If you don't try to fix it, It will gradually change, Sweetie. I promise you, Because this is, I mean, I would be stuck in hopelessness, And I couldn't fix it. But it would gradually change. And I wouldn't fight it. Yeah. Thank you. You really went to the heart of it. It's true. That's what it is, Is hopelessness. And I have really been working on self-acceptance. I have. And compassion. So thank you. It's just what I needed to hear. Good. Good. And what happens, We work on the compassion, And what happens is it snowballs. So it takes a lot of work at first. It adds up. And it gets, It changes faster and faster. And you get, Yeah, It just, It all adds up. Every time, Every compassionate thought for yourself at all adds up. Anything that's, You know, A bigger thought, A bigger embrace of yourself, Coming out of the trying to fix, It all adds up. And over time, It will make big changes. Yeah. It's good work. Good. I mean, This is a lovely exchange we've had, Shivamai. It's very different from how it used to be. So, I mean, Like, I'm, Like, So good. Happy, Happy. We're in the process of evolving, And it's messy, And it's slow. It always seems slow, You guys. But it's not. But it seems it. And there is a big astrological Michael nose. Are you still here, Michael? Maybe you've left already. You have to go. Yeah. Of Neptune and Saturn. And it finished on February the 20th, But it was very big. And it happened, Last time it happened was B. C. , Before Christ. So, You guys, It's, We've all been through the ringer a bit. Some would say we're still in it. But it should be finishing, You know, So. Neptune and Saturn. A funny combo. Yeah. Laura, Are you wanting to say something, Sweet one? No, You're just so funny. You're so funny. It has been intense. Very intense. And somebody said last week, She just started saying, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not. And I was, It was one of those nights I wasn't sleeping. And my phone went off. And it was a text from Amrita Puri with Jiribama, With all her little children. And talking about the sweet, Quiet, Loving exchange. And it just calmed everything down. It was so wonderful. There you go. That's it. Yeah. You said that all nighters are the university of the soul, Being up all night. And I was up, I had this sweat. And I woke up with no voice. And I was like, What is this? And it's okay. Yeah, It's okay. No, It's just uncomfortable. But it's okay. I know. It has to be okay. It has to. Because that's just the way it is. That's it. And that's how the child feels. You know, It's just the way it is. And the children are just accepting. And we can get like that. Yeah. Yeah, Laura, You're a lot like that. Yeah. There's somebody smoking cigars. And I'm having a reaction to it. I'm so sick of saying this out loud and in my head about someone smoking. And I don't know what to do except say my mantra. Yep. Because I'm so sick of it. Yep. Yep. Yep. Yep. Basically, Guys, If you just say your mantra all day long, Every day, That would be the best thing you could possibly do. Really. If you say it every second for three years, You'll be in line. But really, I think we should just all be saying our mantra now. Because things are cooking and getting so wild, You know. Oh, Dear. Thank you. Thank you. Even funny things happening at the ashram. It's great that we're lighthearted. You know, We'll fall faster. Like, When we don't take things so seriously, Yeah. Like, We actually evolve faster. It's way better. So I'm glad to see the humor, You guys, And the kind of being light with yourselves. But it's okay to be happy, Too. Like, Sometimes we're just happy. Yeah. Yeah. Well, Last call for questions or comments or, You know, Somebody need to be heard. Please, Even if you're scared of being ridiculous, Please, Please come forward. I'm just going to write a book. I'm going to write a book about this rise of the feminine. Yep. Yep. I came in to write this book, Really. It's why I came into this life. It is. And I'm finally kind of getting old enough to do it, You know. It was always something I said, Well, I will do this eventually. But now I'm like, Well, I better do it before I actually leave this planet. Like, I'm getting old enough that it's like, It's time. I'm a student. It's time. So, Yeah. That's part of where this satsang came from was that the intensity of wanting to spell it all out. Because, You know, If we can get the big picture, If you get the big picture, I'll tell you, It will save you 20 years on the journey. If you can get the, If your mind can just broaden, You get the big picture, Then it will save you 500 smaller ego battles. Do you understand? You don't have to fight tiny battles each time to broaden your mind. You just read a book and go, Or come to satsang and go, That's what I want to save you. To save you. You know. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Well, You guys, It's a joy. Thank you for coming. Yeah. Yeah. Bless your dear hearts, Your innocent hearts. You're all adorable. Yeah. Even if I'm giving you a hard time. It's just love. Okay, You guys. Well, See you next week, I hope. Yeah. Blessings.