Okay,
Actually this sounds like a good thing for you.
This actually is what I feel the doctor ordered.
This is,
Yeah,
Time just with yourself.
Right.
Right.
Yeah,
The universe has its ways of bringing us to our knees,
Getting us to look inside.
Yep.
Right.
Right.
Yeah,
I'm feeling that there's some emotions that have been bottled up.
And you're,
You're going to have to unpack them.
Yeah,
You're going to see how much you've bottled up in your time.
Yeah.
And how much it doesn't work.
And you can find a new way of dealing with things.
But it's as if this bottling up is you're at the end of it,
It's not going to work anymore.
Yeah.
Does that make sense?
Oh,
Yeah.
Sure.
Yeah.
Yes.
Right.
Yeah.
Right.
And you kind of you don't know what else to do other than bottle it up,
Because you've just always done that.
But it's like,
You know,
The roads just stopped.
It's almost like,
You know,
The road,
The roads just,
There's a big cliff,
If you can't keep going along this road,
Just is ended.
You know,
Just knowing that,
Just knowing that,
You know,
Just knowing that this old way is ended,
You know,
Will free you to find a new way.
Yeah.
Yeah.
You're going to feel sad,
As you proceed.
Some of these,
What you bottled up,
You're going to feel kind of a sadness,
Just feel it.
Just feel whatever emotions come up.
Okay.
Yeah.
Journal.
Journal.
It's like,
You can't get out of this,
You're going to have to face this.
And it's like,
It'll be the making of you.
Yeah.
Yeah.
And I've seen you face things.
You know,
When I first met you,
The difference between how you are now and when I first met you,
It's like,
It's a huge change.
And it's like,
There's another big change coming.
And you will be much happier and much wiser.
Yeah,
I promise you.
Right.
And don't be scared.
It's like,
This is what's facing us all.
We all have to like deal with our emotions come into our hearts more in a deeper way.
Yeah.
Just be brave.
Okay,
I was unwilling to,
You know,
Like,
Go back to past situations and feel the anger or sadness or whatever about it.
And,
But yeah,
I felt that today I should do that.
Yeah.
And journal it up and go through some things again.
Yeah.
I'm big on writing a whole childhood from the very beginning.
You write out your whole life.
And then things come up that were meant to come up,
Like,
It comes up organically.
You'll get steered to write about things that the universe that Amma wants you to write about rather than,
You know,
Choosing something to try to fix.
It's better to let the universe have the leash,
Have the lead.
Yeah.
Maybe,
But maybe not.
You make your own decision.
Yeah.
