Alright Welcome.
Thank you for being here before the brush is the place we come for creative meditations to ground ourselves in the energy of creativity that space where we are divine co-creators and My efforts here are to up level the thinking the energy vibration around creativity and You know hopefully Blanket the world in it rather than everything else All right,
We're on day five of divine incubation and usually it'd be saying day five.
We're all done.
Nope.
We're halfway through Instead of loving what you think is peace love other humans If you love peace Then hate injustice hate tyranny hate greed But hate these things in yourself not in another Thomas Merton said that way back when This quote is a hard one to swallow in My first draft for today.
I went after some non-bullet piece of the guru checked into the high cave and the Himalayas utter absolute uninterrupted peace But it wasn't right for me I grew angry as I tried to pull pieces together and make it work.
It's quite contrary to finding peace The frustrations from yesterday have abated I can see a bit more clearly where they rose from as Always it was an inside job.
I See there is a deep underlying anxiety that's feeding my daily breathing and doing I Have been denying it like so Deeply denying it that I didn't even really knew it know it existed It's when you really got to sit still for a while and explore where the heck is this emotion coming from?
I?
Didn't see it till this morning Telling myself and what I thought was honesty that this is easy I've done this before I can do it again all is well Everyone will be well and yet Terrible fear that I'm kidding myself It's like that other shoe dropping can't live in that energy The reality is under all this play acting of all is well I'm getting very anxious about in Costa camp coming And that anxiety Has been short fusing everything.
I'm doing right now in my here today presence I Don't know anymore if I have the strength and courage to be responsible for 50 plus others for a week But then there's the nugget.
I'm not responsible for them My ego inflates around such a notion and anymore ego only makes me sick so what am I responsible for and How do I find the real place in it so I can be at peace?
What I am responsible for is doing my best work showing up and Trusting each person's personal authority to be responsible for themself I'm gonna have to remind myself of that every day many times every day over the next month This is the way I will know peace right now I can do that The story I am living in is part of a much bigger novel than just my one chapter I Can remind myself of this too,
And I bring it to all of you It helps to feel this to realize this We don't know it all we can't know it all I Can find peace in this kind of knowing Then simply do the next thing that comes into need rather than flitting around looking for a fire to extinguish Today that next thing was putting numbers into columns and sorting through and counts in Costa camp data Facing what is feared so often releases the very fear and the very fear and Peace is found That was the case for me today So peace Today's emotion is peace I began to learn some language there Are we ready to paint That's my peace place And I want to go there 20 minutes everybody You you You You You You You You You You You You You You You
