Many people want to grow spiritually.
To connect to the soul and spirit on a deeper level,
Instead of focusing only on the material and physical things in life.
The truth is,
Lately I have been trying to connect more to being human.
I wonder if anyone recognizes themselves.
I understand spirituality and being human can co-exist,
But in my case I feel I've never truly grounded myself on this earth.
I've been living up high,
Floating above my body,
Connected deeply to the feelings of others and the collective,
Mixing them up with my own,
And sensing a strong intuition telling me things I can't explain.
I used to struggle with the human life.
The regular day-to-day life didn't seem meant for me.
Getting up early,
Going to school,
Learning for exams,
It always felt completely misaligned.
Nighttime was my moment,
As I would have vivid dreams and it always felt like an adventure.
Then I would finally have my break from feeling so much during the day.
Thinking about money,
Work or my health wasn't my cup of tea.
I preferred living through spiritual books,
Learning about energies,
Astrology and healing.
Teachers would often complain to my parents that I was a dreamer.
Because I was.
Many people talk about spiritual awakening and I guess I had one of those too,
But my latest awakening I would call a human awakening.
A grounding experience,
Forcing me to take better care of my human life.
I was pushed to look seriously at my lifestyle.
To realize that daydreaming is beautiful,
But it is not what my soul is truly craving right now.
My soul is craving for routine,
Slow but steady progress,
Eating healthy,
Finding out what it is my body needs.
The more I meditate and open up my higher chakras,
The more I feel disconnected.
Because there is no foundation keeping me here.
So instead I focus now on my lower chakras,
Finding safety within.
My feet want to touch the grass.
My body wants to drink a cup of tea by the fireplace.
My nervous system wants a house and abundance.
And I want to become human.
The most interesting thing to me is that the more I focus on a slow and grounded life,
The more my creativity comes back.
The more I feel connected to other people and even to myself.
When we think of spirituality,
We think of our upper chakras.
And while they are so important to me,
Without my lower chakras feeling secure and safe,
I will keep drifting further away from the here and now.
I am feeling safer every day as I ask my body in the morning what it wants and what it needs.
It responds firm and clear.
I've learned to take it seriously by now and to take care of my human self.
The more I do so,
The more I start to blossom,
Spiritually too.
Some of us practice astral projection and connecting to their third eye,
Which I find truly fascinating.
But right now,
I am learning how to live on this earth.
What I did not expect was how connected that would make me feel to my spiritual side.
We all have our own path to walk.
And mine is currently here,
On the ground.
Learning to be human.
