Caterpillar,
Butterfly,
Dragonfly,
And the ancient rose.
Never judge the bug nor the bud before it unfolds.
Before a life is fully lived,
We never truly know how the story goes.
There are ups and downs,
Forks and turns.
Transformation,
Configuration,
Growth.
Sometimes on unknown paths.
Hills,
Forests,
Mountains,
Caves,
Valleys,
Sometimes steep winding roads.
Like a caterpillar feels.
It is meant to follow,
Follow its design.
I felt an inner calling to explore,
To discover mine.
And somewhere in the messy,
Confusing,
Misty dark.
I started to listen and I followed the curiosity spark.
One late night,
Spread out on my mat on the floor,
I made a choice.
To trust the quiet confidence of my soul.
I asked.
I waited.
Silence.
I stayed.
I held what needed a hug.
I looked at wordless memories from a young age.
I gave expression to the hurt.
The hidden sadness,
The suppressed anger,
The swallowed rage.
Letters that will never be sent.
Artwork unseen.
Conversations with birds and trees.
Rewriting the unhelpful beliefs.
Through intuitive movement,
Releasing what's been stored in my tissue.
Understanding that my sensitivity was never the issue.
Reciting the Hawaiian forgiveness prayer,
Layer by layer by layer,
I learned to embrace the parts that needed to be loved.
I devoted myself to become my own best friend.
I choose to explore this observer's perspective to soften,
Allow and become more receptive.
That does require a steady framework of clear boundaries,
I learned.
With patience,
Practice and discernment,
More inner trust in self is earned.
Whenever we forget who we are,
The next moment offers a new opportunity to begin.
I am learning to listen to the gentleness within.
To align with unconditional benevolent love and acceptance instead of judgment of myself and others.
Like the beautiful butterflies unfold their delicate wings.
Like the dragonflies bust buzzing and soars with the winds.
I feel the petals of the ancient rose slowly open.
Wisdom felt and deeply recognized.
A remembrance that started to reverberate within.
Realizing I was never broken.
Whenever life seems messy or the path unclear.
Whenever the mind goes foggy by regrets,
Worries or fear.
Remember the power of music and breath.
The sunrise is near.
Remember where your feet are.
Remember that your soul is always here.
Never judge a journey by its shaky start.
Light speaks to and through the heart.
