And let's just take some deeper breaths.
Let's breathe into the belly.
Stretch and expand.
And exhale.
Breathe into the belly.
Exhale,
Slower than the inhale.
There we go,
Okay,
We're clicking in now.
Breathe into the belly.
Okay,
All you're gonna do is breathe and relax.
I call upon the highest fifth dimensional Reiki frequencies of the universe to channel through this entire container,
To channel through today in the background,
Offering us whatever we need when we need it.
If in your mind's eye you would like to receive this healing energy,
Just say yes.
Can also offer the intention I choose to receive.
That which is love and light for my highest good and leave the rest.
We intend that this group,
This container,
Is connected to divine light.
We only allow loving and light,
Wisdom and codes and.
.
.
Energy and goodies to come into this space.
By the grace of God,
The rest gone.
Bye bye bye.
And we ground into the earth.
We call our soul fully back to our body.
From all time and space and dimension and that we ask for,
We intend for,
We choose grace and mercy and miracles and healing.
Bring us!
The resolution,
Our heart came here to receive.
In this space we go beyond the known.
I intend for the group to receive the healing that they need.
To remember the truth that they need to hear through this container.
That it be quick,
That it be easy,
That this be a light,
Joyous experience.
We release that which isn't ours to carry.
And we call ourselves back home.
Just breathing into the belly,
Long,
Slow exhale.
And now from this place.
There's no right or wrong answer.
That's no impressive answer.
Why are you here?
What do you want?
What do you seek?
And maybe you let it bubble up in your consciousness.
Maybe it's a feeling,
A little joy in your heart.
Relief.
Clarity.
Maybe it's to manifest a house.
Maybe you're just like,
I don't know,
I just.
.
.
Was weirdly drawn in this direction and I'm curious.
If I gave you a magic wand and said,
What do you want from this experience?
What do you desire beyond what you think is possible?
Would you like to receive or what would you like to release from your life?
I'm just going to give you a quiet minute here to see what comes and I'm going to invite you to to jot it down because we're going to use that as our anchor.
And I would love if you would like to share in the chat,
You can always private message to me.
I can just read it out as anonymous or you can share in the chat.
Your intention because I do believe when we hold them with each other for each other and they're set out loud,
They're very potent.
Because what happens is when we set this new energy into our energetic GPS,
Life can meet us.
Oh,
You want peace?
Oh,
You want relief?
Oh,
You want security in your relationship?
Okay,
You want healing in your body?
I love that community.
Well,
Yours got manifested fast.
Just head on over to.
.
.
That's beautiful.
I intend community for you.
Intention is to feel more connected to herself and to honor her inner knowing more often.
That's beautiful.
Anybody that shares,
I'm going to write these down so I can bring them in.
Um,
Self-connection.
Yeah.
Oh man,
You are in the right container.
We're going to do a lot of that.
All right,
Honor inner knowing.
So I intend for you to feel more connected to yourself and honor your inner knowing.
And we got community.
Belonging,
Safety,
And self-worth.
Amazing.
Also in the right space.
I intend for you,
Belonging,
Safety,
And so forth.
I heard blessings,
Joy,
And healing.
Oh yeah!
Go for the lights,
Izzy!
I intend for you blessings,
Joy,
And healing.
Blessings.
Joy.
You win.
Releasing grief and anxiety.
Beautiful.
Actually been working on releasing grief myself.
So I'll have a lot of embodiment to share here.
I intend for you,
Releasing grief and anxiety.
Mmm,
Good.
And anyone else that wants to share their intention,
Feel free to pop it in at any point.
The next thing we're going to do,
There's no judgment here.
This is just kind of your own skill.
Because what I love to do in these groups is for us on day one just to take a snapshot.
How do you feel?
Where are you at?
It's like,
Here's my intention.
And then this is the lack of my intention,
Right?
Like the,
I'm dealing with a lot of physical stuff.
I don't,
I'm feeling tired.
I'm feeling grief.
I'm unmotivated,
Whatever it might be that you're experiencing.
And we're just going to jot it down because I'm a Virgo moon.
If anyone else has Virgo in their chart,
Seeing like how far you've come and that you are changing and that your healing is everything for the nervous systems.
Cause it's so easy for us in these journeys to be like,
Nothing's happening.
I'm not changing.
And then when we see,
Whoa.
Like,
Look where you were,
Look where you are.
It's everything.
So we're going to take a couple of minutes here.
Snapshot for yourself.
How are you currently feeling?
Maybe the distance between you and your intention.
Just current like icky-ness of challenges in your life.
We're just going to write it down and keep it in a safe place.
This is written with compassion.
Just a neutral snapshot.
And there's no rush,
But when you feel like you've written,
You know.
Few words or a few sentences of where you are as a snapshot,
Your current symptoms,
Life,
Challenges,
Just a few.
Just give me an emoji in the chat.
So I know when to move on.
I'll wait till I get three emojis to move on.
I don't know why they're making me laugh.
You never know what someone's gonna put.
Hmm.
Give me a third.
Oh my guys,
These are wowsa.
Hmm.
Awesome.
So you've got your intention.
I want you to keep these two things in a safe space,
The medicine you are folder.
You got your intention for the group,
No right or wrong,
Just what your heart's here for.
And if you haven't shared and you still want to share in the chat,
You can.
In a little snapshot,
This is where I am right now,
Maybe mentally,
Physically,
Whatever.
Because we're going to check back in and see how far you've come.
As we go further along.
So I'm not going to,
Unless you guys are interested,
You can tell me and I can tell you for another time.
Go deep into my story.
I just want to get right into the healing.
This just is near and dear to my heart.
I grew up with a ton of physical issues.
Mystery stuff.
No one could figure out what was wrong with me.
Good God.
But I was a sweet little intuitive.
Dealing with a lot of trauma.
And so this has been a very personal,
Like I am my own experiment.
I have tried and tested everything I'm sharing with you.
And it's a bummer and it's,
You know,
It is what it is,
But I believe we grow up in a world.
With a very strong broken fix-it paradigm.
Which brings me to the first medicine I want to share.
Which is the medicine.
Of wholeness and wisdom,
The medicine of wholeness and wisdom.
Your body is not broken.
Body in your life.
So if the body isn't you're not dealing with a body thing,
Fill in the blank relationship,
Financial situation,
Boredom,
Just fill in the blank.
Okay,
If body isn't the thing you're here for.
Your body isn't broken,
It's wise,
Listen.
And even if you're here for a different reason than the body,
I'm gonna share with you how it's a portal.
To assist you in changing the other areas of your life,
Because it's constantly whispering to us.
You know,
It was innocent.
Many of you have met my mama.
I had a mama that loved me dearly,
But also grew up in similar broken fix-it paradigm,
And so it was constant,
Just send her to the doctors,
Give her pills,
Which that's all we knew to do.
So I am an advocate of balance.
I believe in whatever medicine is best.
Appropriate for you is appropriate for you.
Um,
Of course we need it when it's acute,
Like we got,
We got to do all that stuff.
So I'm not saying don't do all that stuff,
But.
My purpose here is I needed someone to come in at the same time and teach all the stuff I'm teaching to you guys.
How are you feeling?
What do you need?
Are you afraid of something?
You know,
Teaching me about boundaries,
All of this stuff.
Intuitive,
How do I trust my inner wisdom?
Am I feeling my own energy?
Am I feeling someone else's energy?
And so my journey.
Went from,
What the is wrong with me?
Why can't I figure out what's going on?
And this is not an easy path.
So I have so much compassion and empathy for you.
2.
When there's a symptom,
When there's a sensation,
When there's a block anywhere in your life,
I get curious now.
Because I so deeply believe in wholeness.
And wisdom.
That everything is expanding us.
Everything is whispering to us.
So go to the doctor,
Deal with the thing,
Use your inner wisdom,
And.
.
.
Don't stop there.
What are you trying to tell me,
Buddy?
What's going on?
So some examples I wrote down recently,
I do these practices.
I'm going to take you through these practices where I put my hands on my body and I'll ask it questions.
What do you feel?
What do you need?
What are you trying to tell me?
I didn't grow up with that.
I grew up with.
Somebody very afraid of my symptoms,
Trying to shut them down.
And I'm sure you guys probably had similar experiences too,
And then we treat ourself like that.
So my symptoms,
And I'm sharing this with you so that.
Hopefully you can begin to try this perspective on for size,
Because it's served me greatly.
Recently,
Any symptoms or sensations I experience are helping me see myself more.
Hear myself more and love myself more.
Anytime I feel unloved,
Unseen,
Or unheard,
She rose up in my body.
I'm gripping,
I'm squeezing,
I'm pissed.
My throat gets really tight.
My chest gets really tight.
I can't breathe.
And I get quiet.
I'm like,
What is going on?
I feel the sensations that might be arising.
I honor them as the work many of you guys know that I do.
And I listen.
And I get curious and I explore all this stuff we're going to do here with me.
So I ask me a million questions so we can unpack.
What's going on,
What's the pattern,
What's under the hood.
And what I came to see is,
And this is the other part of wholeness and wisdom,
I'm starting to see,
And while I have been seeing this for about 10 years,
That life is a mirror.
And you can use your partners and people closest to you if you don't.
I didn't feel loved.
I didn't feel seen.
I didn't feel heard.
That doesn't mean we can excuse bad behavior.
That doesn't mean we're settling.
So again,
Deal with life.
And I know enough from being an inner seeker and a spiritual teacher and doing this work for so long,
Man,
I'm expanding.
This rage in me is an opportunity for growth.
I am not broken.
I am wise.
What is going on?
And so I realized I wasn't hearing little me.
I wasn't hearing myself.
I sat with it,
And I journaled with it,
And I got curious with it,
And I listened to my intuition with it.
Again,
All things we're going to be doing here.
And I heard that I was hearing myself and loving myself the way I was loved,
Which was with convenience.
So I had lots of people in my life that loved me conveniently and didn't go the little extra mile,
That didn't offer.
Effort and so I was loving myself that way.
I was,
Oh,
There's some people coming in.
I was innocently hearing myself and loving myself going to the closest hike,
But not the hike I really wanted to.
Putting a keyboard bench because I want to play piano again on my Christmas list,
But not going to buy the keyboard bench now.
And so if I had high,
If I had.
Gone.
Let me suppress this.
Let me not listen to this tension in my chest.
I would have.
No idea that I deserved better from myself.
And again,
I understand which is why this is a container.
This.
Intimacy,
This what I call in the language of the soul.
Of depicting this,
We have to get curious,
We have to learn,
And we're learning all of those channels together in this four months,
Practicing together.
But it's amazing to me and it's hard.
It's because I want other people to just sit and hear me and love me and like,
You know,
Make it easy.
And they do.
But genuinely,
I believe and I've seen.
Like,
It really is a.
.
.
In year first.
And so my body isn't,
Okay,
What's the medicine today?
The medicine of wholeness and wisdom,
Your body is not broken,
It's wise,
Listen.
This is saying,
Honey,
You deserve effort.
Go to buy the thing.
Honey,
Listen,
Listen,
Listen to what she needs.
See yourself.
Bitches.
I realized,
Because I was like,
I'm telling myself,
I see you,
I see you,
And it's not doing anything.
And I just taught a class in meditation this last week.
Where seeing myself I'm learning is just self-witnessing.
And then I started to feel seen when I just was looking,
I was watching myself in my day.
Again,
The pain in my body,
I didn't know that there was an opportunity for more seeing,
That there was an opportunity for more.
Pissed my partner wasn't loving me the way I wanted to be loved.
So I did it myself and it all showed up in my body.
What does that look like?
I was like,
God,
I really wish you would come over and kiss my forehead right now.
Well,
You know what I did?
Might look dumb,
But I took my hand and I pressed it like this on my forehead.
Because that's what I wanted.
I wanted that sensation.
And I took my power back.
So my journey of healing the last 10,
15 years has been putting everything outside of me,
Which is why I'm all about empowerment,
To calling it all back.
That doesn't mean independent.
You know,
No interdependence.
Tough guy,
Tough girl,
We don't need nobody else.
Self-love is the way.
No.
It's the first thing,
Though.
Right,
And so.
Your bank account,
Your grief,
Your relationships,
Your physical health.
I know it's bad.
I know it's painful.
Sometimes,
Or at least it was for me,
Debilitatingly so at times.
But maybe through this sacred medicine that I'm opening up and we're going to talk about here in a second,
You can at least say,
Oh,
Hand on the heart,
Here it comes.
We're going to repeat out loud after me.
We're going to do a lot of this.
You're going to say,
Could I open to the possibility?
That may be the way I've seen my body and my life.
Is not helpful.
And I was taught.
Wrong.
We're going to hold that word loosely.
And could I open to the possibility that maybe it contains wisdom?
And I just need to learn to listen.
To my life and my body.
Body is just a reflection of my life.
And could I open to the possibility this is gonna be messy and weird and imperfect?
But that even through pain,
It's on my side.
So just breathe in,
Breathe out.
Why?
You're like,
Why would pain?
Why are symptoms on my side?
Well,
When we touch a hot pot on the stove,
Our hand goes.
It tells us.
So I'm using myself as an example right now.
If I'm perpetually,
Right,
30 years old,
32 years old,
33,
40,
42,
If I'm perpetually living not my soul's truth,
Not seeing myself,
Not hearing myself,
Not loving myself,
And that's what my soul wants for my expansion.
It's gonna scream louder,
More symptoms,
Just to say,
Honey,
You're working against yourself.
You're not hearing me.
You're believing the lies,
You're believing the illusions,
You're believing you're not worthy of being seen,
So you're living in that self-fulfilling prophecy.
You're believing that love lives outside of yourself.
Ow,
Ow,
Ow,
Ow,
Ow.
Louder,
Louder,
Louder,
Louder,
Louder.
I said this for years.
I don't know where I got it.
Actually,
I don't really go to church,
But I went to church with a friend.
Years ago and I was listening to a sermon and he said,
God does not let you run with scissors.
And this is what I believe about the body.
And I'm saying this to you from somebody who's been in severe pain times in her life.
But if you run in with scissors,
If you are.
Living against the truth your soul's here for and it's all innocent angel friends it's all innocent what we're doing we can't see it's why we're having this container But if we're running with scissors,
Meaning we're innocently hurting ourselves,
It's gonna show up in the body or in our life as an opportunity for more love,
More expansion,
More truth.
What an amazing perspective.
How cool if they taught us this.
Deal with acute pain.
Deal with whatever's going on.
Tend to the wound.
Nurture yourself.
Take the Advil if you have period pain or a hurt ankle or whatever,
And then talk to the body.
Ask it what's going on.
I know you're just trying to tell me something.
Sometimes it's as simple as.
.
.
There's a suppressed emotion.
And the body's holding it because you're not giving it a place to go.
And so the skin issues that are going on is the anger saying,
Honey,
Don't be afraid of me.
Feel me.
Let me burn through your body.
You're not too much.
I'm going to pause there.
That.
Is the medicine of wholeness and wisdom.
Life is a mirror.
Our body is a mirror.
It's not here to hurt us.
Yes,
It can hurt like there's wisdom in it.
We must move beyond our brain.
We must open to at least knowing.
Okay,
I know that my emptier bank account,
My struggling relationship,
And my physical symptoms look like I'm a broken piece,
But.
.
.
This is.
.
.
This is God not letting me run with scissors,
And it must be holding a hot pot.
There's something I can't see,
So let me work with somebody who's got eyes for the unseen.
Translating.
The language of the body and the soul.
So it's not exact.
It's a.
.
.
It's an inner knowing that will arise.
It's a patterning that we'll see.
The messages come from within.
We'll talk about this because we have a whole medicine on your inner guidance.
So I'm going to teach you guys how the hell you even hear the body.
What does it sound like?
So all of this,
These pieces are going to go together.
But I hope that this perspective on your hard days or your physical sensations at least helped you go.
Okay,
This isn't broken,
This.
They taught me wrong.
This is something that just needs an ear.
And just because it's not brokenness might.
Doesn't mean it doesn't need tending to.
You might need to wrap it in a sling or put cream on it or whatever your wisdom's guiding you to do.
But I'm asking if you can hold both at once for an opportunity for your healing.